| 10:02a |
starting over
As some of you already know, I've recently begun a new chapter in my life.This includes the end of a 4-year relationship and a move to Eastwood in one of those share-a-condo places.
I'm 30 years old and starting over at this "old" age scares me but I know it has to be done. Sometimes I wonder where the years have gone and sometimes I freak out because I have little to show for the years of back-breaking work. But it's better to start now than never and I know there are people in my life who are willing to help me find my way.
In the past, I've somewhat resigned myself to not being completely happy. I was actually content living in the "ok lang" state of being. I want things to be different now. I want to burn through life with my hair on fire. I want to take risks again, to hell with the consequences. I want to rebuild my dreams...the ones I dismissed as fantasies of the young. I don't want to be jaded anymore. I want to live.
Is it to late? I don't know. But I'm going to try anyway. I need to do this.
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