| i have no fear of death and no fear of life |
[26 Apr 2003|12:06pm] |
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you know, evne though i really do detest work, i find myself enjoying all the time when im not working, just that much more. i especially enjoy that period of time after you get off work and are just like "allright i wanna fucking do something!" feels good.
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| poetry time! |
[23 Apr 2003|04:45pm] |
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so heres some poems ive written lately, i think theyre pretty good, or at least allright. feel free to judge for yourself.
poem 141= Discovery (written 3-25-03)
waiting my life away
waiting for something to say
hoping that the moment will come
when thought and action become as one
need;something i cannot live without
need.I need to find peace of mind
need to find the spark inside
to start the fire and stay alive
mabye it's all just confusion
doubt laying the grounds of illusion
it's all probably just in my head
doubt leading my mind into dread
why do I act this way?
or say the things I say?
is it fear that decieves me?
fear that everyone will leave me?
i know that I am who I am
that change makes me who I am
I am the same person, always
always caught in a state of change
discovering myself is a hard thing to do
when every discovery teaches me something new
i find that I am my own worst enemy
I never let myself get the best if me
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poem 143=Awakening (written 4-18-03)
everday I wonder what to do
I always try to think of something new
But as usual,I always draw a blank
A blank picture of what to do
so I'll just lay in bed
memories & dreams drifting through my head
until sleep creepes up and says
"you are mine no matter what anyone says"
drifting through dreamscapes,
slipping through reality,
sleep shows me another world
a world where life isn't dead
on the horizon,the sun sets
declaring to the world that night has come
one by one the stars come alight
waiting till the sun rises to say goodnight
awakening the mind, sleep departs
releasing the body from its siren song
in short time, dreams begin to fade
soon all traces of sleep are gone
looking out upon the night sky so bright
I speak my greetings to their light
closing my eyes, I savor the air upon my skin
All our lives are dreams,until we wake again
spirits trapped within flesh
our freedom will come with death
we shall leave behind this dream
greeting the world true after our last breath
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poem 145=Shadows & Smoke (written 4-18-03)
love where could you be hiding?
all my life I've been searching for you
finding only shadows and smoke
clouding my sight and mind
lonliness is slowly taking over my heart
piercing it and slowly ripping it apart
the closer I get to you, the farther you retreat
making it seem that you are just a dream
I know that one day you shall be mine
but that day is taking to much time
patience is a virtue I am found without
I want you bad and I want you now
with every glimpse I am allowed
I fall further under your spell
You must be made of magic
for every glimps turns into illusion
I've tasted you upon my lips once before
but that taste was false and long ago
you only stayed long enough to decieve
before you decided it was time to leave
cold and alone my feelings screamed then
A thousand knives stabbing my heart dead
bereft of love,I was destitute
it took some time,before love I again looked
love,for you I will keep searching...
above in the heavens & upon this earth,
beneath the sea if need be & always in my dreams,
for love. I shall continue to look
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| never trust anything that bleeds 3-5 days and dosent die! |
[28 Mar 2003|07:53am] |
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so...
me llamo es El FIRE GOD!
numbers...ring ring ring...*presses talk*<---If Only.
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[28 Feb 2003|01:09am] |
The sun seems to move, across the sky so slow
It's us who's turning, with no way to go
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[26 Feb 2003|01:12am] |
knowledge with no understanding
understanding with no knowledge
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[25 Feb 2003|02:23am] |
every god has their weaknesses.
mine is chocolate milk.
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| this is the heat to flush your face. |
[23 Feb 2003|04:04pm] |
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visit.
i wanna visit the world.
so now i visit the world.
with my time on this world.
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