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| 08:57pm 11/12/2004 | ||||
x. What's your favorite part of Christmas? family time, presents(sadly) x. What are you hoping to get for Christmas? something that i will really really like...cds and such x. Who are you spending time with on Christmas? Christmas Eve: my mom's side. Christmas day: my stepdad's side. x. Is Christmas your favorite holiday? it's around there. x. Name 5 things you want for Christmas: 1. cds / new cd player(5 disk with remote...cuz my 3 disk doesn't read cds anymore for some odd reason) 2. dvds/movies 3. some nice clothes from hot topic 4. a boyfriend..... 5. a job..... x. Who else do you still need to shop for? um...Everyone...cuz i am poor and have no money to get anyone anything. So if you don't get anything, don't feel bad, you'll get something on your bday. x. Do you know anything you're getting for Christmas? a picture from Alicia that she painted for me. it's of this one fairy she drew with The Sexyness in it, only she made another one and colored it. x. Did you get your Christmas tree yet? It's in the backyard, just needs to get cut down so I can put everything up on it x. If yes, did you help decorate it? I already said once it's down, I'm putting EVERYTHING on it x. Do you get your friends gifts for Christmas? Sadly no, not yet. I was thinking of just drawing people pictures, but I need an idea on what to draw them, and more paper to draw them on... x. How many days till Christmas? 14 days... AND !!! 18 days till MY BIRTHDAY!!! *big grin* |
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sick| 04:27pm 28/04/2004 | ||||
ahmed_sharm85: hiiiii loserfetus13: hello ahmed_sharm85: who are u? loserfetus13: i am me loserfetus13: who are you? ahmed_sharm85: ahmed u? ahmed_sharm85: from whrer? loserfetus13: usa loserfetus13: you ahmed_sharm85: egypt ahmed_sharm85: u old? loserfetus13: not really loserfetus13: i dont want to do chat ahmed_sharm85: ok ahmed_sharm85: why loserfetus13: i have no speakers loserfetus13: and i do not know tou loserfetus13: you* loserfetus13: how old are you? ahmed_sharm85: 19 ahmed_sharm85: u ahmed_sharm85: ? loserfetus13: 17 ahmed_sharm85: ' ahmed_sharm85: u r stuodent loserfetus13: yeah ahmed_sharm85: r u come to eygypt ahmed_sharm85: egypt loserfetus13: no ahmed_sharm85: i in university ahmed_sharm85: facuity of law ahmed_sharm85: u? loserfetus13: my friend says hi ahmed_sharm85: to me? loserfetus13: yes ahmed_sharm85: hi loserfetus13: do you speak elvish? ahmed_sharm85: no loserfetus13: do you know Lord of the Rings? ahmed_sharm85: what i dont speak english verygood loserfetus13: Lord of the Rings is an american movie ahmed_sharm85: oh no loserfetus13: taken place in New Zealand ahmed_sharm85: ok loserfetus13: do you wear eyeliner? ahmed_sharm85: what ahmed_sharm85: ????/////// loserfetus13: black stuff that goes around your eyes ahmed_sharm85: thank u loserfetus13: do you wear that stuff? loserfetus13: are you gay? ahmed_sharm85: no ahmed_sharm85: bay loserfetus13: "bay" ? ahmed_sharm85: u r betsh loserfetus13: what is that? ahmed_sharm85: bech ahmed_sharm85: take many to make sex loserfetus13: actually only really takes 2. more than 2 is an orgy loserfetus13: bech ? ahmed_sharm85: ah loserfetus13: ah what? ahmed_sharm85: ah in arbeic yaeh loserfetus13: uh-huh loserfetus13: and bech in english would be ? ahmed_sharm85: ??????/ ahmed_sharm85: u have boy fri loserfetus13: why would it matter? ahmed_sharm85: eh ahmed_sharm85: in arb what loserfetus13: why would it matter if i did have a boyfriend? ahmed_sharm85: no onle aske loserfetus13: no, i have 4 girlfriends though ahmed_sharm85: yaeh ahmed_sharm85: woad u like to make sex loserfetus13: i am disinclined to acquiesce to your request he didnt say anything after that, its so disgusting of people from egypt to do that to me. why??? |
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good| 09:06pm 17/01/2004 | ||||
www.livejournal.com/users/loserfetus13 lol. Sarah just said something funny: Halloweed. hehe.cuz she said that "all the weed was getting to me" and im like "i havent done that since halloween" and she goes "hehe halloweed" lol. well okay. thats all. till next time. |
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| 12:13am 17/01/2004 | ||||
1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? i can?t really think of anything 2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i dont think i did, and i havent made one yet. any ideas? 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Amber, Adam, Ashley & Scott, my Tanta Mary, and cousin Beth 4. Did anyone close to you die? Nana 5. What countries did you visit? none 6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? a guy in my life 7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Ozzfest! that was a fun weekend, cool bands, fun people, need i say more? 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? got my license!lol. 9. What was your biggest failure? dealt with the cops 3 times. stealing, drinking in school, then underage drinking at a party 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? i get colds like every other month, dry skin, itchy legs. yucky 11. What was the best thing you bought? uh...cds, movies, concert tickets 12. Who?s behavior merited celebration? what? 13. Who?s behavior made you appalled and depressed? ruchelle's, mom, step dad 14. Where did most of your money go? clothes, gas, jewlery, miscellaneous stuff 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Ozzfest, Rob Zombie's dvd release of House of 1000 Corpses signing. 16. What song will always remind you of 2003? 17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. happier or sadder? sadder ii. thinner or fatter? a little thinner, i hope iii. richer or poorer? same 18. What do you wish you'd done more of? spending time with some people 19. What do you wish you'd done less of? eat 20. How did you spend Christmas? Family time 22. Did you fall in love in 2003? no 23. How many one-night stands? none 24. What was your favorite TV program? simpson's 25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? yes 26. What was the best book you read? uh...i dont remember. we bought so many books and im still not even done with them. 27. What was your greatest musical discovery? i don?t know 28. What did you want and get? a cell phone. thank you Sarah! its very handy 30. What was your favorite film of this year? House of 1000 Corpses, Freddy vs Jason, Texas Chainsaw Massavre, Jeepers Creepers 2, Anger Management. (those were fun times. hehe) 31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 17, had a bday party. played Naughty dice. Erica, Grace, Emily, Sarah slept over 32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? i don?t know 33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? freak! well darkness 34. What kept you sane? my friends 35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Angilina Jolie (i think thats how you spell it) 36. What political issue stirred you the most? i don?t know 37. Who did you miss? david .. if i think about it. 38. Who was the best new person you met? all my peeps at u.g.! too many to name. 39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003: when theres a chance of getting caught by the police, leave the party early so you dont get in trouble. 40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: In your mind Nothing but fear You can't face life Or believe death's near A vision of life On television screens An existence created From empty dreams Hide behind T.V. Hide behind life You should be living But you only survive Life holds nothing But pain and death Don't look for love There is none left *Dying Fetus*-Skum (Fuck the Weak) okay just had to do that. maybe half a month late but oh well. things still freash in my mind. |
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| 05:57pm 15/01/2004 | ||||
I've never seen anything that's quite like you I've never been to a place that felt this cold Now I feed on the world you shoved me in All these days I waited here so patiently What they say now means nothing more to me And it seems so much easier this way Now I start to think that nothing here is true as I fall away if I was to wait for you would it mean a thing At times it all feels endless I don't have anymore fear Now that I'm so gone I don't mind what's become I have given every peice of myself It's alright Almost numb Now there's nothing that can ever stop me Now i start to think that nothing here is true as I fall away If I was to wait for you would it mean a thing At times it all feels endless I don't have anymore fear Now that I'm so gone i like that song. you have to hear the way it sounds with the music and Roman's sexy voice. hehe. |
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| 05:26pm 15/01/2004 | ||||
saturday: hung out with pam and john. went and played pool sunday: confimation last class monday: confirmation interveiw. got in a car accident. poor baby :'( tuesday: grace called me! havent talked to her in a while wednesday: did commercial for Multimeadia. edited my website more(did that all this week too) thursday: nothing so far. doing my jounals and going to work on my website more cuz i found some errors and want to add another page or 2 well i have a livejournal now. the link is: www.livejournal.com/users/loserfetus13 so i'll be on there more now i think. i'll still do stuff here. not as much as i have been. maybe i leave this one as quizes or maybe not, i was supposed to do that with my other one but that didnt happen so i dont know. yeah we'll see what happens. |
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blah| more quizes yay! .... | ||||
| 10:57pm 09/01/2004 | ||||
 'Deeply Disturbed' PLEASE VOTE!!! What Type of Lunatic are You? (With Cool Pics!!) brought to you by Quizilla icky. that guys icky. blah  'Fudged in the Head' PLEASE VOTE!!! What Type of Lunatic are You? (With Cool Pics!!) brought to you by Quizilla *drools* he's so sexy, i think this one is better than that other one. hehe.  You, my friend are a true individual. You most likely hate trends and are creative. By seeing things differently, people either admire you or think you are a bit strange. I'm guessing you are a lot like me. Perhaps a Good Charlotte hater? I hope so. An inspiration to us all, continue being you! (If you like GC, I'm sorry, I am just expressing an opinion) A Deeper Look Inside Yourself (with pics) brought to you by Quizilla  you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You adorable, but a little out there. It's alright, you might not have it all, but there are worse which happy bunny are you? brought to you by Quizilla i think last time i got "you suck and thats sad" last time...  Nihilist Bear Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You? brought to you by Quizilla i got that one last time too. i know i did these 2 before but i wanted to do them again. plus those ones are SOO far behind in all those entries. so yeah...  You have a fiery soul. You aren't the quickest to get angered, but when you do get angry things can go really wrong really fast. You are generally very passionate in the things you do. (Rate my test) What force is your soul? brought to you by Quizilla onto the interesting ones...  You are Alcohol!A little sloppy, a little hungry, and a whole lot horny. So what if you've had a drunken fling or two with puke still in your hair? You're the life of the party - well, if you can get invited... What Drug Are You? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva but now my parents are home and i dont think they'd like this site. they're drunk too cuz they just got back from the corner bar. they're starting to fight now. again. like they always to. since she wants to go to florida and my step dad dont like that he wants to get a divorce. i dont see why, thats just gonna cost more money to do that. and he's bitching about her costing money thats getting nothing back. fuck. they fight every fucking time they come back from the corner bar. both say they're not leaving this house. i want to know whos gonna win that. they spend money all the time going to the corner bar. and he wastes money all the time buying cigarettes and alcohol. shit. this is why i dont like being home. i dont want to deal with this shit. then again if they do get it, who's gonna get what? the computer: I use it all the time, im on it most of the time. he only goes on to check the weather and thats what the news is for. the dogs: mom picked them out. she bought Daisy, and her friend gave us Oskar. PS2: he has no clue much on how to use it. I play video games on there and know how to use it for dvds and that. Movies: that ones tough, seeing as some of the good comedy ones are his, i bought him those too for xmas. Rush Hour and Rush Hour 2. good movies. yeah. this will be hard. dont know who will win the house and all that stuff though. really dont want to take everything down off my walls and that. just got everything put up the way i want it. except fot the stars on my celing. need to be rearranged. the FUCK on there isnt the right way anymore. well now this time i am going. maybe i'll talk more tomorrow. |
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crappy| more quizes! yay! ... so bored....i have no life. hence the many quizes nowadays | ||||
| 10:06pm 09/01/2004 | ||||
can..................................... I suggest planning your funeral beforehand Could you piss off an Orc? brought to you by Quizilla Yes, you can, you bad person. Naking poor ickle Pippin pissed off. Could you piss of Pippin? brought to you by Quizilla Nope. I can't see why not, because it does seem so simple to get into Sam's head and just annoy the piss outta him. Could you piss off Samwise Gamgee? brought to you by Quizilla well see, i like Frodo, so why would i make gay jokes about thems two.. well i change something and see what i's gets... Yes, you can, you vile, evil, not very nice person. LOL, nevermind, I can too. It seems to be quite easy to piss Sam off :) Could you piss off Samwise Gamgee? brought to you by Quizilla okay,then i can.change 2 things and i get that. Yes, you can kick his ass. He might coe after you, though, maybe weilding a large sword so---ARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *runs away from Elrond, who is chasing her with a large sword* Are you worthy enough to kick Lord Elrond's ass? brought to you by Quizilla  Yes. Most liking while your asleep. I reckon he finds you annoying. He would probably smother you, lol, j/k. If you went on an adventure with Legolas, would he kill you? brought to you by Quizilla he's so mean! but so sexy *drools*  Elrond. Dude, you're a dude....and a Lord. Cool! Ooh, shiny headband *steals* Are you Legolas, Haldir, or Elrond? brought to you by Quizilla hmm several things that i picked described Legolas. oh well. whatever this is still good You're a Legolas lover! Isn't he cute? Do ya love Haldir or Legolas? (has pics) brought to you by Quizilla okay im starting to get sick of that picture...over and over and over again. grr get something new dammit! Yep, which will result in him chasing you for the rest of your life. Hey! Isn't that him behind you? Could you piss off Gollum? brought to you by Quizilla You'd completely shatter his balls, poor little Elf Lord. You mean, vile person! *twitch* You broke his trust! Would you break Elrond's heart, or just his balls? XD (with other outcomes as well) brought to you by Quizilla hmm. says i am lord elrond. when it was asking WHAT would you do and that... weird person this is... YES, you can indeedy piss Gandalf off. Hehe, got any ideas who to do next, send them to me. Could you piss off Gandalf the Grey (or white, whatever) brought to you by Quizilla hehe. i can piss of like everybody in LOTR...geeze if was in that i probably wouldnt survive the way i am. OKAY! im done with these quizes... im gonna go do some more on quizdiva.com next. maybe find some more interesting ones on here too... well thats all for now. till next time! |
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bored| another day, another night of boring hanna's life | ||||
| 10:21pm 08/01/2004 | ||||
yeah there was some weird moves that the singer wanted us to do. and she wanted us to sing along with her. blah. we didnt like that too much. she was also selling her cds there too, and im like, not gonna buy that. she's not that good in my taste. then when she went ''alright'' after a song or something, Erica would do the "All Right!" thing. it was funny. then on like one of the last songs they had us do part of the drum beat with our mouths and stomp and clap too. they made us say "mhmm cha" something like that. and Erica started the 'all right' at that part. it was cool. i was thinking, "hey that could be some good background to a Rob Zombie song". since he has girls moaning in the background and that, i was just thinking that would be something. i gave her a ride home. her mom came to pick her up, but she wanted come with me cuz she loves my car. Kim loves my car too. i think Grace and Emily do also. though Emily hasnt ridden in it yet. oh well. there were a lot of cops out last night too. Erica's dad is a cop too, so i dont know if its good or bad. she says its more little bad cuz her dad can be an asshole cop. we passed a couple of them and she looked at them and was like "hey i think thats so-in-so, he's mean to me!" and stuff like that. so that was interesting. i need to think of someone that can bring Erica to Winter Formal. cuz im gonna bring Grace. and yeah only one guest per person. grr. that sucks. well i should be going. night everyone. |
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full| i cant think of one!!! ahhhh!!!!!!! oh well. this is it now. | ||||
| 10:44pm 06/01/2004 | ||||
Pam is gonna talk to Dan for me. cuz after i told her about Ben she said something about Dan, and i was like "oh i forgot about him" so she said she'd tell him something for me. heh. the first time i talked to Ben and was writting about Lifest. and he asked if he was gonna be written down in good regards. ha! well now he's not really gonna be. i dont care anymore. when i found out i cried the whole night and while i was talking to him about it. well heres some of the stuff that we said: the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i have 1 the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: her name is Brittany the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i'm certain i told you about her the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: and the half was a joke ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: okay ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: yea you did tell me about her the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: yeah the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: heh the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i felt bad ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: why? ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: about what the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: because you've been talking about sex and stuff with me, and i KNEW i told you, but Seth said you didnt know, so i felt like i lead you on or something ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: you said something once. that you thought that she was gonna break up with you. and i didnt know what happend since then ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: one thing i dont get is that you are going out with her, then when we talk online you tell me you love me the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i do love you the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: not necessarily like that the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i just love you the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i'll stop if you want me to... the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i didnt think you'de mind ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: it confused me after i found out... ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: so you dont want to do anything with me. like several months ago you said something about wanting me, but didnt want to deal with the distance and stuff like that the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i..do.... but i wont cheat.... i wasnt planning on having sex with you while i was down there... i didnt want to hurt your feelings or anything... i dunno the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i figured i would cross that bridge when i came to it ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: so that kiss you owe me from the first time we talked, whats going on with that the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: well... i guess it would work... since it's owed...er... yeah the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: up to you the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: but yeah, my dad wants the computer ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: i should get going too the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: i love you though... dont forget that the rest of my time, will soon rott away, but screw with whats left, and a price will be paid says: sleep sweet.. ¤£º§ê® ƒè†ü§13¤ asshole banana monkey chips on pumpernickle cheese bread with sex on the side...Savvy? says: i could try. good night ---------------------------------------- yeah i dont get it. i was sending him pictures of me before that. and he's all like pretty, and send me more and that. then i hear this? and his friend Mark wants to meet me before he goes to BASIC (i think thats how its spelled) and im like okay... what does he say about me up there, i wonder. and when he does talk about me, he calls me by Fetus to everyone. i was thinking they come down for Winter Formal. but im like i dont care anymore. i think im gonna take Grace with me now. if they come, they come. dont know if im gonna send the slip things up there. dont know if i want to waste stamps, paper, and evelopes on them anymore. im not gonna take that trip up there that i was planning on doing for Spring Break. think i'll do something more worth while with my friends and that. since i didnt get to do that last year, went down to flordia instead. people say im crazy for cutting my hair then dying it black. other people like it and say its cute. wore my hair up in pigtails today. i think me and Kayla kinda look the same with our hair up. her hair might be just a little bit longer than mine, but its weird. i have the things down in the front though wheni do my hair, cuz i dont like all my hair back all the time, i think its looks weird and not me. and she pulls it all back. i miss my long hair though. i think it looked better with the pigtails. i could do the half in bun half now in better, now it would just look weird and messed up... well i should be going. oh! one last thing! the cell phone my sis got me. i got it reactivated! yay. costed $15 dollar. then paid like $47.20 for the whole thing. 15 for the reactive and 30 for minutes. so yay. i can work my phone now. muahahaha. didnt know you could pick the number either. Fetus wouldnt work for any of them. they looked something with my bday and couldnt find nothing. i was thinking, then it hit me...13!!! so now the last 2 digits are 13. yay. its cool. well now i go, need the sleep that i probably wont get until like midnight. i'll lay awake and try to sleep, have my eyes closed and all that. but i wont fall asleep till later. i hate that. well night everyone! |
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disappointed| more quizes!!! *jumps up and down* *smacks self in face* | ||||
| 10:17pm 05/01/2004 | ||||
www.geocities.com/justifreak05 be free to visit anytime you want to. okay onto the quizes!... Yes indeed, you certainly could. Sounds more like annoying, though, right? Aw, well, they mean the same thing. Could you piss off Legolas Greenleaf? (um, mostly for girls) brought to you by Quizilla "I have nothing more to say to you, Potter. You have irked me for too often, for too long. AVADE KEDAVRA!" Voldie kicks ass.:) DIE SCUM DIE! Mwhahaha! Oh, um, you're crazy....like me:) Which quote are you? brought to you by Quizilla okay....or this:"I'm Kennedy, your gameshow Lord of the Rings, and I just made out with some Elves." So did I. *smirks* Anyway, you and I should get along just fine Which quote are you? brought to you by Quizilla You are ASSLOWN! Whee!! I love saying assclown. It means.....I haven't figured out, but it IS a good insult to throw at People. They won't know what it means either. ASSCLOWN ASSCLOWN ASSCLOWN! What insult are YOU? brought to you by Quizilla Kim made up that word before school even started... Congrats! You really know how to piss people off! Tee-hee, waiting to try some of this on unsuspecting relatives? I know I am. Could you piss Lord Elrond (From Lord of the Rings) off? (with errors fixed same as other) brought to you by Quizilla Yes! You could catch him! He's yours......until he escapes. Could you catch Legolas? brought to you by Quizilla You will survive! Because you're a little wuss baby and depend on Legolas, Aragorn and anyone else who'll save you. I can't talk much, I'm a wuss too! *sucks her thumb* If you were in Lord of the Rings, would you survive? brought to you by Quizilla Yes! You can, and maybe once again, piss him off! Don't forget, it is wise to have funeral arrangements:) Could you piss Lord Elrond off? #2! brought to you by Quizilla Congrats! You are the master of pissing people off! It's so fun, isn't it? Could you piss Gimli son of Gloin off? brought to you by Quizilla Yes you are. Very. Lock us up in a room alone and only one would live. You enjoy making life hell for people who piss you off. Hey, they deserve it. Are you tempermental? brought to you by Quizilla thats somewhat true... He's gonna hang you upside-down from a tree and beat you with a baseball bat. Hey, sounds like fun, no? How would Lord Elrond kill you? brought to you by Quizilla OKAY! i think thats enough for now... theres more LotR ones that i want to do too. :( oh well. theres always the rest of this week. maybe i'll actually put some entries in tomorrow. update you on this boring life i have. guys are assholes. especially Ben now. tell you about it tomorrow. night everyone. |
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dirty| im really bored and i havent done quizes in a while. so to start off the new year, i'll uses quizes! | ||||
| 12:54am 02/01/2004 | ||||
 You're GOTHIC sexy! You have a dark sexy style, which is a classic seductive kind of sexy. Your style is more unique than the average person! What kind of sexy are you? [For girls only! With Pics! Finally Finished!] brought to you by Quizilla  You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and creativity, and usually are highly intelligent. Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs. What Type of Soul Do You Have ? brought to you by Quizilla  <<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics ) brought to you by Quizilla Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if? With a clever mind, you want to explore the world on a different level. Without the answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are most likely very creative and find yourself thinking things through on a different level. (please rate my quiz) **Where will you go when you die?** brought to you by Quizilla Like me you are totally in love.You try to hide it but you cant.You are nice and pritty in your own way and you are a bit of a daydreamer.Have fun and please rate my quiz....If you want to talk to me on AOL or AIM my SN is:Fire moon190 Are you in love? brought to you by Quizilla interesting...  Fire Fairy Please rate my quiz I worked very hard for this Which Fairy are you?(for anyone many out comes) brought to you by Quizilla  Aragorn Please rate my quiz I worked hard for it thanks Which Lord of the Rings person do you want? (many out comes for anyone plus pics to) brought to you by Quizilla  You're goin' down! FOR STALKING! Please rate if you liked! If you're a goth please visit groups.msn.com/gothicteensoftheworld and join up cause it rules! What Would You Go to Jail For? (Many outcomes) brought to you by Quizilla  The delete key! You are so depressed, you want to delete from existence Thank's for taking my quiz! Which key on the keyboard are you? brought to you by Quizilla okay! i think i've done enough for today. its getting late too. 12:43am. wow. started doing these around 11pm. the time is fucked up. dont know why. well is should be going. night all. |
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horny| Happy Fucking New Year Everyone... | ||||
| 10:06pm 01/01/2004 | ||||
 You are Blue. Overall you're a pretty content person. At peace with yourself, you don't tend to over react. Although at times you can be quite harsh and cold towards others. What Color Best Represents Your Personality? brought to you by Quizilla A survey for all you people. the first one of the year.(this would be survey #14 yay! j/k) a p p e a r a n c e height: 5'5'' ish hair color: black/blue skin color: white eye color: blueish-green. sometimes gray piercings: 3 in one ear, 2 in the other... need to redo my other cartilege and get the rest of my ears done r i g h t n o w what color pants are you wearing?: urban camo what song are you listening to?: a commercial on Lazer 103 what taste is in your mouth?: spit how are you? cold. lonely. the usual d o y o u get motion sickness?: depends on the situation have a bad habit?: dont we all? get along with your parents?: sometimes like to drive?: of course. the only way i get places is that way f a v o r i t e s book: mystery/romance/novel non alcoholic drink: dr. pepper, cherry coke, seirra mist. alcoholic drink: dont know. need to try all the other kinds then i'll tell ya thing to do on the weekend: hang out with friends. concerts. movies.... h a v e y o u broken the law: yes ran away from home: think about it snuck out of the house: not technically ever gone skinny dipping: in the tub made a prank phone call: not yet skipped school before: when i was sick... been in a school play: nah l o v e Boyfriend: none at the moment sexuality: bi...but want to do EVERYTHING with a guy before i do anything with a girl first children: none current crush: duh been in love: no been hurt: no? your greatest regret: none yet r a n d o m your cd player has in it right now: House of 1000 Corpses, Queen of the Damned, Metal for the Masses w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t time you cried: dont remember but it had to of been maybe sometime in dec i think you got e-mail: the other day... i dont remember exactly i wasnt paying attention y o u r t h o u g h t s o n abortion: wrong teenage smoking: not a big fan of it... but have been thinking about starting it up... spice girls: meh dreams: that some of them would come true |
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lonely| finally 17! yay! Savvy? | ||||
| 09:04pm 30/12/2003 | ||||
monday i rearranged my room. tuesday i cleaned it up more. also went to Blockbuster to fill out an application. wendesday i was fixing my posters on the wall. jumped off my bed and landed on it, then the bed crashed to the floor. so i broke my frame and the bed was on an angle. then later went to church and felt weird. then went to my grandmas house. got some food from her, nail grooming stuff from my aunt, uncle, and cousins. then some jingle bells. also from my grandma i got gas. $25 worth. yay! i can take that road trip up to Ben's house. lol. thursday cleaned up my room more. sarah and david came back up and we opended the family gifts. sarah gave me her old cell phone and a cell phone cover for xmas and bday. its got a sexy silver and black flame cover now.lol. david got me a $10 gift certificte for Hot Topic. then mom and dad got me new tires and a front end aliegnment for me car and a ring. its really pretty. its got 3 tanzanite stones and 2 little diamonds on the top and bottom, and its 10K white gold. so its a silver color. really nice. then aunt barb, uncle tom, rachel and meghan came over. from them i got a BIG makeup kit and $40 for xmas and bday money. granny came over again and i got some german chocolate. later that night we took the frame of my bed apart. so now its on the floor and my room is clean finally! yay! friday i cleaned up my room more so that it was clean on the book shelves and all that. saturday cleaned the bathrooms up. sunday vaccuumed. and also swept up the basement. and organized some of the furniture and that. we did some last minute checks on who was comming to the party. we called Ben and he wasnt there and i talked to Tom, who sounds like him which is weird. so then we called back again and got an answering machine. then called back again later and he was there. some weird stuff was going on over there, cuz Tom was there and so was Seth. found out Seth is his cousin, sounded like. its weird cuz they all sound alike. it was getting confuzing. cuz they were all talking about something then you'd hear 3 people laughing in a similar way. it was crazy. we did that All-right! stuff on the phone. it was fun. grace now knows what i mean by when Ben does that growl thing.lol. i hit the cymbol on my drum set and he was like 'whos set it that?' and i was like 'mine' and he said 'you never told me that' and was like 'i didnt?' and he wanted to hear me play. so i did one beat that i knew and stopped, and then he said 'do more. i want to hear you play' and i messed up. its kinda hard to play with the phone between your face and your shoulder and it was really loud and sounded kinda weird at the time. plus also i havent had that much practice in a while cuz i dont play them much. grace kept saying that i have a pointy ass and i asked Ben if he could test it out to see if it was or not, and said that i'll even wear a thong too. and he did the growl thing again. and grace told him to shut up about that.lol. we were on the phone for over an hour, i want to know how big that bill is gonna be. then i talked to him online for another couple hours. sent him this one pic of me from freshman year, i asked him what he thought about it and he was like hooottt. then he said that Seth said "she looks hott" and his mom goes ''who's that scary girl?" lol. then sent him a pic of Grace, and then one of my gehto car. monday cleaned up the house some more. there was so many people calling. i had like just gotten out of the shower. and was in a towel and people kept calling and werent getting off the phone. so it took me about like an hour after i got out of the shower to get dressed. called ben again to see what was going on, and he couldnt come cuz his mom said that he did too much already when he only pretty much went to a concert on saturday. he gave the phone to other people and then it got hung up by some girl who was on the phone at the time. then emily came over late early to help setup since she was supposed to come on sunday but she couldnt. Erica was one of the first people to come around 4. we got bored and so we went ouside to see people when they pulled up. then Andy was next, and then crystal. Erica wanted a sunflower so she went accross the street to go get one but there was mudd so she came back. then later Grace, Emily, and Erica went back over there and got 2 of them. they dragged it accross the road and there was a big mudd trail from the side of the road to our driveway. like THAT wasnt obvious! lol. then Emily took the bigger one and took it down the road and took the roots off. Grace and Erica were trying to get the mudd off their shoes. they left em outside the whole night. luckily it didnt snow or rain or anything like that. it was getting cold so i went in. Sarah had already come back in a long time before and was making taco dip. Erica came in after me. then Grace and Andy came in later. crystal and Emily were still outside. it was weird when we were outside. cuz crystal was standing right by me, and if i moved even a little bit, she moved also. and im thinking 'um..move over a little bit, go away'lol. Amber and Jay both got lost on their way over. then ruchelle came over for a while with kim and her friend erica. she gave me a present and card. told me her new years resolution was to me, to make our friendship work out. when she already told me to choose between Grace and Emily or her. and now she wants to still be friends. then that she wants to hang out with me when possible. im not sure about it, since im trying to get a job and am trying to hang out with people from the grove more often and with Grace and peoples. they wanted to take me away for a while, and wanted me to smoke a bowl. but i couldnt cuz my mom was gonna call the cops if she knew anything like that was going on no matter who it was. so i didnt do it and they had to leave anyway so i got out of the car and they went away. then Amber came with baby David. after her came Jay. we went to the living room to watch a movie and couldnt figure out what movie to watch. we had Erica, Me, then crystal, then Emily and then Grace on top of Emily on the couch at one point. Venus, Tyler, Leah, and Leah's cousin Erin came in. Daisy was actually nice to Venus for once, out of the 3 or 4 times he's been at my house. Erica moved off of the couch. i told Venus to get off the floor and come onto the couch too. so then it was Venus, me, crystal, Emily, then Grace on top of Emily and then Erica on top of Grace. then Jay moved onto the floor in front of the couch. Oskar was in front of Jay so he had to step over the dog to get where he was at on the floor. it was pretty interesting how it was on the couch at the point of the party. then Kayla came. she walked in and i looked at her, she looked familar but i couldnt remember who she was. and then i remembered after a little while. the last ones to come were Pam and John. the party moved downstairs and we played Twister. well at least Erica, Pam, and me did. and Jay played a couple times. interesting postions we were in. lol. blah blah blah. they had me open presents. Grace got me an air horn, and the Naughty dice. Emily got a Never Ending Honeymoon kit, with handcuffs, blindfold, whip, lube and money too. Jay got me an Emily hat with kittys on it and a Gir patch that Grace kept stealing from me. Erica got me a squishy necklace. its this black choker with a ring in the middle connecting the 2 with the little squishy ball hanging down. Amber, Andy, and Kayla gave cards with $$ in it. Venus gave me $$ also. crystal gave a card and then a makeupkit, squishy earings (black, red, and pink stud ones) and a pen that lights up. Pam got me a skull candle. its this black/red/purple color. it changes color depending the type of lighting there is. its trippy. i dont know if im going to light it at all. i doubt it. maybe a couple times to have the wax run down it and stuff but that may be about it. ruchelle also got me 2 white candles and $$ also. i counted all the $$ this morning and it came to a total of $90. i was like damn thats a lot. [SQUEE!!!(grace)] we played naughty dice after cake. we all gathered in the kitchen, where there was no chairs for some odd reason. now that i think about it we could of played in the front room with more carpeting and chairs. then again the floor was kinda comfortable where we were at. we changed Blow to Bite, Ear to Ass, ? to Stomach, and Tease to Smack. i had to bite Andy's lip, it was hard to get a hold of it, i got some hair in it too. that was weird. then we got pics of me and Leah kissing, and me and Pam kissing, then Grace bitting my lip. Jay, Grace, and Erica all fell down the stairs. but not all at one time. Grace and Jay started going down, Erica followed by going down with her butt, then we heard this sound like stair sleding. *bump bump bump* really fast you know.lol. then someone picked Jay to do something to, so we had to call them upstairs. and he came up and we threw the dice at him. the one went behind him and he almost fell and he started going down it and kinda lost his balance on them and started rolling down the stairs. it sounded funny.lol. Jay had to leave at 10:30 so he was the first to go. then Andy was the next to go. after that Tyler, Leah, and Erin all left. Pam left. then John and Venus and Kayla left. Amber was the last to leave cuz her mom got lost, cuz my dad turned off the tree which was retarted of him to do. Sarah slept in her room. Erica, me and Grace on the big coutch. and Emily and crystal on the little couch. we watched Ho1kC b/c Emily hasnt seen it before. and she was the first one to fall asleep. we watched the rest anyway. sometime during the night Grace left us and went on the other couch. i woke up sometime and she was gone, i was too lazy to move over to give Erica room. i think cuz there was heat there and didnt want to move. she was my little heater. hehe. today! finally i got this far. its 12:57am right now. wow i type slow or i just forget what i want to type. ugh! i hate this. we had omlettes for breakfast. Sarah took Erica with her to the ATM machine and went to McD's. Erica's mom came to pick her up and they were still gone at the time, we felt so bad for them cuz they had to wait in the car. then crystal wouldnt leave, so my mom had to give her a ride home. Emily's dad picked her up and took her to some wood thingymabober. Grace and me went to Southridge earlier. went to Fredricks and got Grace a garder. then went to Hot Topic and Grace got a Johnny the Homicidal Maniac comic book and fishnet thigh highs for me. then i got some 8 guage plugs for my ears. my ears are sexy now. lol. my right ear has one in right now cuz i got that one gauged first and then the 2nd hold has one of the black squishy earings in it. and my right ear has 1 nail in it so i can make it bigger, it really hurt putting it through cuz i've never gauged this one before. and then the 1nd hole on this one has the othe black squishy on it also. i need to get my right cartiledge repeirced. so its evened out and that.lol. called Ben back, cuz i didnt have time to last night from all the people over and it was getting late and that. he was playing the guitar, he messed up a couple times but after that he got it down and it sounded really cool. then he handed the phone to Seth and he was like "hey baby whats up?" then his gf yelled at him. he gave the phone to Mark and i was talking to him for a while. he told me that Ben was making out with his gf, i didnt know they were still going out. Mark said i sounded surprised to hear that he had one. and its cuz i am, cuz he said something about it earlier. i heard Ben in the background say give it a day or two, like they wont be going out anymore, i guess. Mark said that its interesting how Ben can makeout for a long time with out moving from where he's sitting and i said 'i wouldnt know what thats like' and he was like 'seriously' and im like 'yeah' and he goes 'that sucks.' Mark asked if i was stupid and i said yes, and he was like "youre not supposed to admit it" lol and he wants to meet me before he goes to basic. and he was saying that they should come down here for new years since i dont have any plans right now. and im thinking that my parents wouldnt really like that right now cuz they kinda be drunk from the corner bar (they were there at the time we called them too.) then he said that i should go up to Nina (i think thats how its spelled) to spend new years with them. but i cant really do that. cuz i dont know the way and that. then said that you must be stupid not to see it, unless you dont know where youre going, and im like "thats what im like!" lol. then i was like "winter formal i think you could come down' and he asked when it was. i was like Jan 31st. and he's like "i think we can do that. here talk to Ben about it' so i did and he was like yeah that works. then he had to go cuz there was people over and all that. now im here typing this all up cuz im in bad need of an update. well i should be going to bed soon. 1:35am right now. ben just came on a while ago. grace is talking to him while im trying to update this. dont know if he thinks im there or not. well i go now. night everybody. |
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cold| 5 more days till my birthday! | ||||
| 12:50am 24/12/2003 | ||||
then tomorrow, thursday, we're having christmas at our house, since Nana died in April. and last year we had it at Aunt Barb's and Uncle Tom's. cuz she was staying there from the medication and stuff. being needed to be taken care of, help from other people stuff. my party's gonna be on monday. So far people that i know that are comming(or more on the yes side): Sarah, Andy, Erica, Emily, Grace, Danny & his gf, Jon & Ken, Venus, Kayla, Jay, Pam, Katie, Sharla, Jakie, Crystal, Matt, Cassie, Amber then maybes: Ben, Mark, John P., Dustin, Jamie, Tyler, Leah, Andy No's are: Kim, Adam, Brett, Cody, Rick, Jake, Jarrod, John A., Scott & Ashley i think thats all. well it should still be fun. hopefully Ben can come. i really want him too. i should find some days where i can go up there and spend time with him. the closest days i can think of are spring break. maybe i can find a weekend to go up there. that'd be nice. mom and dad went to the corner bar again today. and whent they got back my mom started talking to me about Ben. she was like "you know you can get hurt by him" and i was like "yeah i know" and she asked me how, and i was like "its a long distance relationship, there can be problems" and she asked me again kinda and i was like "every relationship has they're problems, look at yours. you bitch about it all the time. even thinking about divorce." then she said "do you think you're being used?"(at least i think its something like that, cant remeber) and i was like "what? for sex?" and she said "is that what you want?" and im like "i dont care." i dont think that he would do that to me. long distance come on, not gonna have it that often, then when you do see eachother thats one thing you might be doing. same thing with regular relationships. thats pretty much the way things go. see me i dont plan to wait till marriage, cuz i dont know when im gonna get married, if i ever do. i dont want to die a virgin, cuz i want to experience life. im sick of being one, then again im not sure if i want to. its like that love-hate thing. grrr. it sucks. like my mind is more onto one side, then i think about it some and it changes. im thinking that i might just do it and get it over with and see where it goes from there. i might just go with that one. but not to just anybody who comes along, with someone that i really want to be with and like. im thinking about with Ben. i did this last time with Jarrod. now look at me. im practally over him and onto a different guy. geeze i still liked Jarrod when i met Ben. wow. see how much things change over time? especially when they say no, and you dont really want to wait a forever long time for them. wow its been about 9 1/2 months since i been single. then again i went longer. didnt have a bf till i was 15 and 11 months pretty much. only had 2 bfs in my life, not that experienced in anything, excpet hugging. what good does that do? right now at least. getting closer to guys, keeping warm. yeah thats a plus for that. but thats pretty much all i know. if Ben can come down he can do more to me. i remember the first time we talked online he wanted me to ask him a question and i really couldnt think of one, he decided to give me motivation by saiying that he will give me a kiss. so i thought of one, and he said next time he sees me he'll give me one. then time goes by and i find out that he likes to bite while kissing, and i think that i would like that. (cuz when i do kisses with Daisy she sometimes gets my lip and it feels cool.lol) then he said he likes to tease too. so yeah he's pretty interesting. i think i should really shut up about Ben now. i dont have anything else to talk about really. i need or want to talk to him too, and he's not online. grrr. maybe tomorrow night :) lol. well i should be going to bed, getting tired and my stomach isnt feeling too good. i think its empty. haha. i didnt eat that much today. yay! i wish i could do that everyday. eat as much as i did today. only had 2 doughnuts, a popcicle, poptart, some chips, and coke, orange jucie, and water to drink. all over a period of time. and now my stomach is making itself noticed. bad stomach, you have bad timing! haha. too bad i dont think tomorrow is gonna be like this. never know till it happens. oh! i rearranged my room last night. haha. bed and dresser traded spaces, night stand between closet and door moved between big bookshelf and bed. drawer container moved to where the night stand was, and the smaller book shelf stayed only moved closer to the dresser. haha. its different. i need to work on my ceiling stuff again. move some of the posters around and fix the glow-in-the-dark stars. lol. also need to fix my stereo. the one speaker cant be where it was on the wall cuz the cord dont reach that far anymore, since its farther down now. gonna need to move posters on that wall too. cleaned up my bookshelf and top dresser drawer of junk stuff. then put more stuff in it in a more organized manner, at least tried to. then i cleaned out my night stand and did the same thing, also the top drawer of the drawer container. and am filling up this box under my bed with papers and that. its pretty interesting. need to clean up my big bookshelf. think im gonna move all the beanie babies to the curio cabnet in the living room, like it was at the old house. then im gonna use the shelves for clothes or something. we'll find out when the time comes! haha. okay! i am going now! need...to...sleep... gonna...fall...over...soon... okay. good night all! |
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sleepy| http://www.fun-with-words.com/phobias_a-b.h |
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| 11:36pm 19/12/2003 | ||||
Ablutophobia Fear of bathing. Acarophobia Fear of mites or itching . Acerophobia Fear of sourness. Achluophobia Fear of darkness. AcousticophobiaFear of noise. Agraphobia Fear of sexual abuse. Aichmophobia Fear of knives and other sharp objects. Aichurophobia Fear of being touched by pointed objects. Algophobia Fear of pain. Allodoxaphobia Fear of other people's opinions. Androphobia Fear of men. Anophelophobia Fear of painful sexual intercourse. Anuptaphobia Fear of staying single. Arachibutyrophobia Fear of getting peanut butter stuck to the roof of the mouth. Astrophobia Fear of stars. *yawn* there are so many. go check out that site and see all the phobias that there are possible. at least what they know about. well i should be getting going. for some reason im really tired right now. could be that i got up at 5:20 and had to take a really big crap that didnt feel too well. my stomach was going 2 kinds of growling. one for food, and the other for 'that time of the month." "when my friend comes to visit for a week. or other wise known as Aunt Flow. grr. i think it knew what i was thinking too. cuz if it would of came on the 22nd, i probably still would of had it on my birthday at the party. well good thing it wont be here on my biirthday. maybe me and Ben can do a little something something. but i dont think that might happen. we might do something close to it, but probably not it yet. well i should be going now. im falling asleep doing this right now. night everyone -dies- |
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| 10:18pm 17/12/2003 | ||||
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okay| 14 more days till my birthday... | ||||
| 09:03pm 14/12/2003 | ||||
we had to leave at 7:30 to be home by 8. plus it was snowing and was icy and that. so i had to drive extra slow. good thing is we made it back in one peice. haha. well okay nothing else to talk about so i go now. |
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| *gasp* its red...again..ah! Savvy? | ||||
| 09:47pm 08/12/2003 | ||||
saturday slept over at Ruchelle's house with Grace. finding out Grace dont really like Ruchelle much anymore again. fuck. oh well can still be friends with both of them. including Emily, who doesnt really like Ruchelle anymore but hangs out with Grace. so im friends with all 3 of them, only we're not all best friends anymore. why are people so weird? i dont get it... sunday went to confirmation. blah. then we came back home. i watched all the special fetures on the dvd. started to commentary with the director and Johnny Depp, but didnt watch it all, cuz i wanted to dye me hair. so i went downstairs and was watching this one movie with David Spade. wow i have a lot of hair. its really long. longest its ever been im my entire life, so far at least. its right below my boobs. so like if im not wearing any clothes, and my hair is placed just right, i can cover my nipples with em. lol. it smells too right now. smells like hair dye. took a shower a while ago, that could be why. so i dyed my hair red again. only to me it looks kinda more brownish. and then i look in the mirror with the light and it looks more red. Chad says it looks like a more burgandy color. so yeah. my hair is weird. im weird... today Jay said that he likes my hair and that he wants to steal it. im wondering about that. people are weird. haha. Kim says that we both should wear skirts and have out hair in pigtails again tomorrow. i think we tried to do that eariler this year and we never did. but tomorrow i think we're actually gonna pull it off.lol. im gonna looks like a buisness woman whore. with the langerie shirt, plain black skirt, a suit coat that has a DORK patch on it, heels, nylons. lol. its gonna be interesting. well not much more to say now. so night all. |
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