~Questioning Reality~'s Blurty

so long and thanks for all the fish....
so its after 2:00 in the morning. Yet again I am awake. I thought this project would have to be completed by now...but alas it isn’t. So today was one of the crappiest ive had in a long time. I had an interview at a company that I really wanted to work for. But given its me, and I tend to fuck everything up, I got lost. Making what should have been a 15 minute drive into about an hour and a half. Oh well, they were a military contractor anyway...and I don’t know how well I would have been able to deal with the fact that I was somehow helping kill people. Heh...life goes on, im just not sure how much longer my bank account will, I really hate mooching off my dad. He always give me such a hard time when I borrow money, and is really quick to hold it over me. I swear he doesn’t let me pay him back because it allows him to have some leverage over my life. The credit card bills are starting to roll in and are quickly adding up to much more then happens to exist in my checking account, and I really don’t want to liquidate any of my investments yet. So if I don’t get this job I may be living on Huntington ave picking up cans and asking people for change. The sad thing is that when you think about it, bums actually have more money then I do. They at least have money, given its only a few dollars. But I, and most of middle America live in perpetual debt...negative money. So I think they should be giving me money out of charity. (I am really joking of course...have you ever tried to by crack in this state, let me tell you it isn’t cheap (once again a joke...)) So yeah I need a job...and an answer to my problem. Damn structural recursion, and accumulators. On top of it all for some odd reason ive been feeling wicked lonely the past few days, I don't really know why, I figure I would be used to it by now. But that is another story, for another time.

so long and thanks for all the fish... ~~ A

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Current Music: The Misfits ~ Skulls