*I went to training for that promotion I was supposed to get, but I haven't gone into training for it yet, so it doesn't look like that is going anywhere. I did apply for another job through Golden 1, though as a trainer for the Sales and Service Dept. I go for my third interview on Thursday. It is between me and another girl, but it started with 12 people, so I guess it's good to be in the top 2 of 12.
*My grandma did end up passing away...I was hoping she would make it through Christmas, but she died the week before and oh boy, did Christmas suck this year...I miss her a lot.
*Still not with anybody...I've dated a few people, but they were all dumb...I guess I should try to be content being on my own, but I'm tired of being alone.
*I've started doing Pilates every day...so hopefully, by summer, I will look good in a swimsuit...maybe.
I think that's about it for now...
A lot has happened since I posted in September...
*I'm still single, but I'm glad about it now.
*I live alone now. My roommate and I decided to part ways. I moved into a studio...which is really small, but it is enough room for me. And I still get to live downtown which makes me happy.
*I still work at Golden 1, but next week I go into training for a promotion that I'm getting...yay me!
*I won't be going back to school as I had planned, which means I have to figure out a way to pay my school loans...this will be hard because I just moved out on my own.
*I found out that my grandma is dying of lung cancer, and she doesn't have long to live.
*My sister had her baby, so I now have a nephew.
Other than my grandma being sick, I am pretty happy right now. I hope things continue to go well.
I had to babysit my little 8 year old sister last night. She has way too much energy for me! I was so exausted by the time she left. My boyfriend was there last night too...I think she wore him out more. I think Julia was acting like that because Paul was there...she's a big flirt.
calmPaul got out of school last Wednesday...finally. We spent Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday night together, which was really nice. I didn't realize how much I missed being with him. I hope we get to spend a lot more time together before he has to go back to school. He seems to have a lot on his mind, though, and he tends to push me away when he does. I don't think that he means to, but I still get sad all the same. I'll have to talk to him about it.
frustratedI started my new job at Golden 1 on Monday. This week has been the longest week ever. All I'm doing right now is learning procedures and stuff like that. I'm going to be starting at my branch next week, but I think that I have to shadow someone all week so I can see stuff done. I do, however, get next Friday off for the holiday...yay!
Other than working, all I've been doing is reading the new Harry Potter book. I just finished it yesterday. It was really, really good and I hope that J.K. Rowling doesn't take too long to write the next one cause I want to find out what happens.
Anyway, this afternoon, my roommate and I are supposed to be cleaning our apartment, because yesterday I found a cockroach...yuck. But, she is not home yet and I have a feeling she is going to skip out on it. Which sucks, cause technically it is her turn to clean the apartment anyway. She better come home!
Good news...my boyfriend and I are trying to work things out. He has been really stressed out because the end of the quarter for school is next week and he's had a lot of homework and tests. I'm trying to be understanding, it's just really hard to go so long without seeing him or talking to him at all. He'll be done next week, though, so we can hang out a lot for about a month until he starts school again.
groggyDue to the recent crappy events in my life, I decided to make a list of all the things that make me happy right now:
1. My new job!
2. My family
3. My friends
4. Dave L.'s laugh
5. Chris H.'s laugh
7. Meeting new people
8. Reading a good book
9. Cooking
10. Writing
11. Drawing
12. Music
13. "Save Tonight" by Eagle Eye Cherry
14. "With or Without You" by U2
15. Paying all my bills on time
16. 80 degree weather
17. No school!
18. Bellydancing
19. "Monty Python and the Holy Grail"
20. Harry Potter Book 5 is coming out on Saturday
21. Going to Visalia next weekend
22. Justin's coming back from Europe soon
23. Hanging out with new friends
24. Losing weight
25. A lot of good movies coming out this year
26. Laughing
I'm sure there is more stuff but I can't think of anything right now.
accomplishedI finally got a call from Golden 1 yesterday. I start my new job on Monday. It will be 30 hours per week, plus benefits and paid vacation and sick time. I will have Wednesdays and Sundays off...and all holidays, of course! It seems like this will be a good company to work for.
I was in a bad mood last night, though, so I decided to call my old friend, Chris (with whom I went to high school). He's one of those people who can put you in a good mood just by laughing. It was nice to talk to him. I decided to go down to my old town, Visalia, to visit him and some other old friends whom I haven't seen in a couple of years. It will be a nice little vacation.
Well, that is my good news for the day...bad news is, I still haven't heard from my boyfriend...looks like it's over. Oh well.
hopefulLast night, I was supposed to hang out with my boyfriend. So, I called him when I got off of work and he told me that he was working on a paper and that he would call me back in about two hours. I waited for about three hours...no phone call. I got impatient and called him again. He said he was almost done, and that he would call me in a little while. Okay fine.
Well, I had a feeling earlier that day that he would be too busy for me so I told some guys from work that if my plans for the night fell through, that I would hang out with them. Well, 8:45 pm rolls around (about 4 1/2 hours after I got off of work) and I got a call from one of my coworkers. I told him that I would let him know by 9:30 if I was going to go out with them. I was giving Paul a chance to finish his homework. No phone call by 9:30, so I called my coworkers and told them that I would go out with them.
We ended up going to a club in Citrus Heights. I think it was called Club 7440 or something like that. One of our friends was spinning for the night, so we went to check it out. It was really fun. We stayed up until 6:00 this morning. I'm glad that I went out with them. I wasn't about to sit at home all night waiting for my boyfriend to call me (who, by the way, did not call at all).
I was thinking that maybe he would call today and explain. Maybe he fell asleep or something. But no, no phone call...no apology for standing me up. Right now I feel like he really doesn't want to be with me. And right now I'm not really sure I want to be with him.
Anyway, I've decided not to call him at all this week. I seriously doubt that he will notice anyway.
mischievousSo, I tried to go to bed about three hours ago, and I still could not sleep. I went to bed at 4:00 am last night and woke up at 10:30am, so I should be tired...but no. I tried eating something, and drinking chamomile but I am still pretty awake. I have to work tomorrow morning, too, so I need to go to bed at a pretty decent hour. Doesn't look like that's going to happen...
Anyway, since I'm awake, I might as well write about my day. My sister and I took a walk to Old Sacramento today. We had lunch and went to a couple of stores...including a hemp store and Evangeline's. She had to go to work, though, so we did not stay that long.
I really don't remember what I did for the rest of the day. I think I was in front of the computer all afternoon...and then after an attempt to go to sleep, I decided to get back on. I tried to call my boyfriend today, but he did not answer his phone...and he did not call me back. He told me that he was going to be doing some group project for school, so I guess that's where he was. I just wanted to say hi to him. I am supposed to see him tomorrow...or today I should say.
So, I'm on the computer...and my roommate comes home from work with a dozen roses from her boyfriend. It's really cool and everything...but, it seems like she comes home with one or more flowers at least once a week. I don't even remember the last time that I got flowers...except maybe for my graduation. But from a guy? I don't even know.
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AAARRGGGHH!! I can't sleep!! I am so tired, but my mind is racing right now...so, I'm going to type all of my thoughts right now in hopes that I can actually get some decent sleep tonight.
So, I just got hired at Golden 1 about two weeks ago...however, the company is still processing my paperwork and I need to work now!! I need to start soon or I'm screwed as far as money goes. I have another job, but it is not really enough to get by right now. I had really hoped to have a teaching job right now...but, it seems nobody wants a brand new teacher right now...grrrr. Hopefully, I'll have a job within the next two years. *eyes roll*
As for my personal life, my best friend is never around...and when she is, all she wants to do is watch dvds...boring. I want to get outside...do something productive...but not by myself. My boyfriend doesn't have time for me either. He is going to school and spends all of his time with that. He doesn't even have any time to call me...which really sucks. I don't really feel like I have a boyfriend right now. I don't understand why he even wants to be with someone he never talks to or has time for.
Well, I suppose I feel a little better now, but I still don't think I can sleep...I guess I'll waste more time on the internet.
stressedYou're smart, shy, and often nonsensical. You have dreams of being famous, and you're quirky enough that you just might pull them off. Some would call you a genius, others would call you insane, but in reality you're pretty well-adjusted. Take a vacation once in a while- it'll help take your mind off of your troubles. |
Well, this is my first online journal. I haven't kept a journal for years...since high school, I think. Maybe even before that. I've been wanting to start one for some time, though...so, I am glad I found this website.
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