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Behind Blue Eyes' Blurty:
| Saturday, July 31st, 2004 | |
| 1:45 am | 4 elements of Pepper... As french artist/director said "The Red Hot Chili Peppers as a band contain 4 elements which makes their videos a beautiful thing to watch." I wish to show you these four elements of the Red Hot Chili Peppers 1. John Frusciante - Guitarist/Back up vox. He is a beautiful person, His face has such an innocence about it  2. Mike 'Flea' Balzary - Bassist/Back up vox. His stage performances are full of energy, he is always jumping around, Hence his nick name "Flea"  3. Anthony Keidis - Vox. His stage presence is felt through his sensuality, his movements are very sexual and his movements to the music come naturally and are not choreographed  4. Chad Smith - Drummer. his presence is felt in his power, his physical being is so strong. You cant overlook him as a band member, where most people couldnt give a shit about a drummer, Chad is difficult to not watch  Pasfield reckons that the Red Hot Chili Peppers are good at their respective instruments but most of their music sucks... A Paradox... Let me use some Red Hot Chili Peppers words to pay you out pasfield... "Paradoxially speaking I, Win in the long run" Believe me that makes as much sense as what you said... But then again, you dont make much sense 90% of the time anyway... |
| 12:59 am | Just to heighten the mood... Just to heighten the mood of insanity  If you dont stop bleeding all over my Gucci loafers, Im going to get angry and you dont want me to get ANGRY  You better believe it  Crawl into a corner and sit in a fetal position  Mmm        |
| Friday, July 30th, 2004 | |
| 11:55 pm | Just to heighten the mood... Just to heighten the mood of insanity If you dont stop bleeding all over my Gucci loafers, Im going to get angry and you dont want me to get ANGRY You better believe it Crawl into a corner and sit in a fetal position Mmm |
| 11:41 pm | "You have an aura about you" In the words of pasfield (slightly fancied up of course!) "Spong, you have an aura about you, you seem to be able to piss so many people off so easily" Funny thing is... I try... I like ot make people angry, its an emotion people seldom show in public... I hapen to enjoy watching angry people... I guess that I like being alone, no one giving a flying fuck about me... the only way I can truly do this is to piss people I have bad - neutral feelings for, off so there you go... A certain bubbles happens to give me so much fodder to do this.. hence why she hates me... her friends also dislike me... so what, its collateral... I dont care... I wonder what would happen if I were to delve into my Hotmail account and find a certain email a certain ferrit sent me, telling me about Bubbles... OH well whatever... Maybe I'm subliminally psyching out Bubbles, Maybe I am serious... Thats for you to decide Bubbles, Its for you and YOU alone |
| Thursday, July 29th, 2004 | |
| 11:57 pm | WOAH... i never thought I would see one of these...  Maybe a certain bubbles should wear one!!! |
| 11:13 pm | Hello freedom... I have been liberated Well my friends... I have liberated myself from the torture that is: Mount Gambier High School... I have gotten a job at WIN Television doing stuff... school just isnt doing it for me anymore... my only sadness is that I will missout on haging with the Japanese Exchange Students coming later in the year... Also some of the German dudes are ok too... David, I think his name was is a bit of a metaller and I was interested in finding out on what kinda shit he was into... so yes, Its time for me to open another chapter in my story... This was aimed at me: "if you dont like what I say here...get the fuck over it! amazingly enough, this is MY journal therefore it is about ME and how I feel. surprise surprise...isn't that funny. and whoever reads it if you dont like something I have said go and fuck yourself..mk? my journal is about ME, MY FRIENDS AND WHAT I AM FEELING...wow but then again isnt that what journals/diarys are for....think about it...mk?" I cant actually comment om thsi persons journal because they turned off anonymous comments... so Ill have to comment somewhere else... FUCKYOU!!! Self-absorbed little shit... or big shit... |
| Monday, July 26th, 2004 | |
| 9:13 pm | Turdburgling No, my friends... Jailhouse loving just aint my thing as much as that think may lead you to believe |
| 1:12 am | WHAT THE FUCK? WHO KNOWS MY FUCKING NUMBER!?!?!? ARRGH FUCK ME SIDEWAYS!?!?!? THIS IS JUST PLAIN FUCKED!!! |
| 1:09 am | WHAT THE FUCK? What fucking joker fucking wrote that? I wanna kick that clowns ass!!! |
| 1:09 am | WHAT THE FUCK? What fucking!!! joker fucking wrote that? I wanna kick that clowns ass |
| 1:04 am | Well, isnt this quite an anecdote to tell... Tonight I just found a reply to a fuckin retarded Survey thing I sent out AGES AGO!!! Apparently the person "macca", who I recieved it from, didnt write it... and I would hope not too, since Macca is a boy... Anyway, Who ever wrote this, could you please tell me... Coz whatever, that is FUCKING WEIRD!!! ---------------------------------------- jspong00@mghs.sa.edu.au on Mon, 21 Jun 2004 13:04:06 +0930 wrote: > What do you think about me? Fill this out about me **BUT FIRST** Send a blank > copy to all of your friends (including me) so they can fill it out about you! > Got it? BE HONEST! > My turnnnn..... > > YES or NO > Ugly? : No > Quiet? : No > Loud? : Yes > Shy? : No > Weird? : Yes > Selfish? : No > Crazy?: Yes > Hot?: Yes > Cute?: Yes > Pretty?: Yes > Sexy? : Yes > Nice? :Yes > Mean? Yes > Immature? : Yes > Rude? :No > Cool? : Yes > Brat? : Yes, you're my brat > Stupid? : Yes > Caring? :No...you never consider my feelings! > Mature? : No > A friend? : No > More than a friend? : Yes...or at least, I wish....*sigh* > Talkative? : I don't know. > Boring? : No > Beautiful? : Yes > Smart? : No > A flirt? : Yes, you're always flirting with me...I mean others....hm > Fun to hang out with? : I don't hang out with you. > A psycho? : Yes. > Athletic? : Must I answer? > Confusing? : I don't know. > Sweet? : Yes. > Mood swings? : Yes, you're never sure what you want... > Attractive? :Yes. > Annoying? : Only when I'm not with you. > Funny? : Yes > Hyper? : I don't know. > Laid back? : I don't know. > Perfect? : Yes. > > **JUST SOME QUESTIONS** > > 1. What is my phone #?: 87230017 > 2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?: I hope so > (b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry? Not saying... > 3. When is my birthday?: 7th November > 4. Who is my best friend?: Me?!!!! > 5. Where did we meet?: AT school > 6. Have you ever had a dream about me?: All the time. > 7. If you could change one thing about me what would it be?: Your sexuality. > 8. Describe me in 3-5 words: Horny, lovable and gorrrgeous! > 9. If u could tell me one last thing what would it be?: I love you. I mean LIke you, I mean....Umm.... > 10. If u could ask me anything..what would it be? Will you be with me? > > **PERSONAL (OPPOSITE SEX ONLY)** no not opposite sex only! > > 1. I am the___hottest person u know. > 2. Would u like to kiss me?: Not saying > 3. Do you want to be my bf/gf ?: Not saying > 4.(a) Do u ever think about me off-line?: Of course. > (b) On a scale of 1-10 (10 being high), how much do you think of me each > day?: Too much. > 5. a) Would you ever ask me out?: Not saying ! > b) Right now, what is the chance of that happening (in %): > 6. a) Have you ever had a crush on me?: Alwyas > b) Do you still?:Always > 7. On a scale of 1-10, what would you rate my body?: 100...I mean 10 > 8. On a scale of 1-10, what would you rate my personality?: 100 > 9. Physically, what's my best feature?: Your big blue eyes > 10. Mentally what is my best feature? Your brain! > > **EVERYBODY** > > 1. What is my favourite song at the moment?: Not saying...could reveal too much. > 2. Have I ever had a crush on someone at work?: But you don't work there! > 3. If it was my last day to hang out with you, what would we do?: Make passionate love. > 4. What is my favourite class at school?: Jap? > 5. What is my worst class at school?: I don't know. > 6. Who is my worst enemy?: Not me I hope > 7. What was the last thing to make me cry?: A kick in the crotch. > 8. Do u wish we were closer?: Oh yes. > > > add some more questions, down the bottom. Make them interesting... > > F*CKABILITY > 1. AM I? Yes. |
| Thursday, July 22nd, 2004 | |
| 10:23 pm | The hotness II  |
| 10:19 pm | The hotness Is this metal chick hot? or is she hot? |
| Wednesday, July 21st, 2004 | |
| 11:07 pm | A-Grade Cock jockeys taking it in the ass like bitches A conv between me and said A-Grade cock jockey... What a douche Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: HAR HAR HAR we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: who r u Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: A bigger Metallifuk than you we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: uh huh Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Cliff burton did not record ...And Justice For All you fuckknuckle we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i take it this is spong Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i didnt say he did retard Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Let me look back Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Spong - Yeah Jason joined after the Master of puppets tour which CLIFF BURTON died on we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i know Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Jim - NUH UH, Cliff recorded ...AJFA we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: yes, and at the time i thought adfa was made before master of puppets, which i admit i was wrong we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: about we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: such a small matter, and it doesnt matter at all, Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: who cares... we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: exactly my point we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: ne who we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i saw them at big day out we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: it was good we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: bloody good Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: so... Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Ill download the clips and be happy we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: yes but i saw them live we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: in person Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: So did Crackson we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: whos that Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Anyway... Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: whats ya bands name? we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: dont have a band yet Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: what? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: !?!?!? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Thats not very good we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i know we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: but i still gotta get it all together Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Cant be a rockstar without a band y'know we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: and i need a new electric guitar Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Boo frickity hoo we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: lol i know that we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: what guitar have u got Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I have the same model as in the pic there we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: urs or mine? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Mine Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I have an Aria pro 2 Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: same model as cliff uses in Cliff 'em all to play Anesthesia Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Same model as I play anesthesia on we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: so ur a bassist? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: apparently so we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: lol, duh we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i just got a new amp, Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: how big? we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: 120 watt Laney quad box we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: about 4 foot we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: tall we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: and about 2 feet wide Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: ok Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: so without a band... Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: what use do you have for it? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: OMG OMG! Theres A Lion On The Loose! Theres A Lion On The Loose! And Hes Handing Out Paddlepop Icecreams! says: tell him that ur a better bassist than he is, even if hes not one Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: That to you, straight from the horses mouth we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: im a guitarist we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: not a bassist Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: yes, i figured that Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: apart from my Aria pro 2 Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I have an Ibanez Roadstar series 2 1971 vintage we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: im getting a band together, hence the need for the quad box we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i have a sammick flying v style electric Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Hmm lets see, my band... We have a 200 watt Peavy amp, a 100 watt marshall and a GRETSCH drumkit... Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Samick eh? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Samicks are VERY VERY GAY!!! we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: a imitation ibanez thing (my first guitar) and a maton steel string acoustic we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: yes i know they are Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: about 3 Behringer mics we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: im selling it soon, and my other one and hopefully saving a bit and getting a gibson Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: yeah, those gbsons Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: theyre for the conformist fashionable rockstar we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: whatever, at least it will be good, we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: hate to break it to you as well, ur no rockstar, plus no one gives a shit about what ur equipment is, as long as u sound good Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: funny... since I do we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: yes ur not exactly a famous rockstar though are you? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Yes, but have you recorded Demos? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Is your band even ready to play gigs? Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: sorry I mean "Band", invisible friends dont count Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: OMG OMG! Theres A Lion On The Loose! Theres A Lion On The Loose! And Hes Handing Out Paddlepop Icecreams! says: tell him the reason he broke up with jess is coz he realised he was gay and now he is in pursuit of middle-aged men OMG OMG! Theres A Lion On The Loose! Theres A Lion On The Loose! And Hes Handing Out Paddlepop Icecreams! says: lmao! OMG OMG! Theres A Lion On The Loose! Theres A Lion Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: OMG OMG! Theres A Lion On The Loose! Theres A Lion On The Loose! And Hes Handing Out Paddlepop Icecreams! says: adams not invisible... but hes a sheep, so he doesnt count anyway OMG OMG! Theres A Lion On The Loose! Theres A Lion On The Loose! And Hes Handing Out Paddlepop Icecreams! says: hmm... i wonder if jim is a new zealander... we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: hmmmm, ok the thing is, i dont have a band at the moment, but so what its not like theres ne rush to do so, plus at least i can manage to pick up we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: and no im not a new zealander Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: looks like someone has their priorities wrong we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: wat r ur priorities? wanking in the mornig then trying to pick up jess all day until she eventually screams at you that ur a wanker and she would never be with u in ur whole life Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: umm Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: no Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I leave her alone we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: yea coz she wont talk to you Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Messy hairdos just dont do it for me Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: See, I practise guitar Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I listen to music we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: they seemed to before Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I heighten the senses... rather than "Pick-up" we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: riiiight... we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: thats the stupidest thing ive ever heard Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Touche we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: how was what i said the stupidest thing u had ever heard Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: OMG OMG! Theres A Lion On The Loose! Theres A Lion On The Loose! And Hes Handing Out Paddlepop Icecreams! says: tell him this from me OMG OMG! Theres A Lion On The Loose! Theres A Lion On The Loose! And Hes Handing Out Paddlepop Icecreams! says: u Fool of a Took!!! Go cook a chook Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I dunno Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: maybe the fact that in an attempt to hurt my feelings, you contradicted basically everything you've said we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: no. i havent we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: seeing as i never said i had a band in the first place Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: So you are assuring me that you are good, then tell me about how you value "picking-up" more than playing your guitar... Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Som one has miscontrued ideas on what it takes to become Steve Vai, Kirk Hammett, Jimi Hendrix, Joe Satriani, Angus Young, Tommy Iommi, Randy Rhoads etc we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i dont "value it" more than that. at all, i was saying that ur trying to make me feel bad, in an attempt to make urself feel better about ur own shortfalls, becasue of ur own insecurity of life. Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: right we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: waht it takes to become a great guitarist has got nothing to do with ur equipment, at all, ur good because u work hard, put effort in, and with those guys, were in the right place at the right time. and have talent Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I feel insecure that I am "trying to pick up jess all day until she eventually screams at you", so I tell you how how good I am... Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: see Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I dont think I did Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: I saying that youre moving a little fast to be having a quad box when you dont even have a band... Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Your drummer doesnt even have drums we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: thats not contradicting myself tahts a pay out we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: plus, if i have a quad box, i can use if for a lot longer than a smaller amp. its beneficial in the long run we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: it doesnt matter that i dont have a band, i jsut want to have some decent stuff for when i start my band Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: "waht it takes to become a great guitarist has got nothing to do with ur equipment, at all, ur good because u work hard, put effort in, and with those guys, were in the right place at the right time. and have talent" Excuse me? right place, right time? we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: yes right place right time Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: how so? we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: u can become a good guitarist on shitty equipment, its just that i wanted good enquipment so i could enjoy what i do all the more Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: right a Big amp... Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: My amp is 200 watts, and It rumbles my house on half... we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: right place right time, just small things that happen, like small coincidences we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: who cares, with most concerts, the amp will be hooked into a PA ne way Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Im sure a quad box would a) be inconvenient to relocate should the need arise b)no good for a christmas guitarist anyways we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: so u can get a good mix of sound without havnig to do it all from the amp controls, rather a mxing desk Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: "who cares, with most concerts, the amp will be hooked into a PA ne way" exaclty einstein... no need for something massive Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: Mixing desk eh? Yeah... need a good sound for your bedroom we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: im not talking about my fucking bedroom dickhead, im talking in the event taht u have a band going and are playing agig Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: yep Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: been there, done that we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: oh well fucken done we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: i bet u feel real special, Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: all with a 200w Peavy and a 100w marshall and Crybaby we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: just becasue i havent done as much as you, achieved as much as you doesnt mean i cant prepare and plan to d in the future we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: oh how great we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: it doesnt really matter Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: planning? What happened to "Being there at the right time? we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: ur such a fuckin idiot we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: ur not getting what im saying we put the FUN back into Fundamentalist dogma says: im not even going to attempt to explain it to you coz u just dont get it Its nature's way of saying "Don't touch" says: And your not making any sense, so I agree |
| Thursday, July 15th, 2004 | |
| 1:57 am | WOAH Well I feel that I have rekindled a friendship from long ago this morn... Tonight I had this heaps big conversation with Jemimah about music, the world and all other things. I feel like we are reasonably good friends again... YAY!!! I feel fulfilled tonight... and I cant be stuffed getting the extra opthins up |
| 1:31 am | Music is my aeroplane. Just one not could make me float, make me float away When you listen to music and you are uplifted, the place you go is not physical........ -Serj I couldnt agree more. Thank you Serj, Tom Drahos and anyone else who turns to music as a form of expression and way of realease from the horrors that we experience in everyday life. Some people say that the term "getting high" stems from people feeling closer to god by getting high. Who needs getting high when you can be uplifted by some sounds produced by a physical being commandeering a physical instrument. One of my natural highs |
| Wednesday, July 14th, 2004 | |
| 1:35 am | Aerials I am downloading the clip for Aerials... Its almost done... not bad for 2 nights of downloading Its such a cool fucking song... As easy as SOAD music is to play... well bass wise anyway they still sound fucking wicked... |
| 1:28 am | DUDE RISS HAS A JOB!!! DUDE, RISS HAS A JOB!!! Anyway... I reckon I wanna quit school and get a job at Philtronics... Its a music shop... Im a muso theres a start... Basically I had this fucking wicked sounding idea... Work at Philtronics for a while, then I will leave that and set up my own PROFESSIONAL music store. In the store, I will have stuff like Resources on how to play getting started and all that jazz, I will have Sections for each brand of instrument and I will have a recording studio and a place for people to be taught to play. After that I will win Entrepreneur of the year. Now hows that for a credible dream... But believe me, I will still learn to be a wrestler... |
| Sunday, July 11th, 2004 | |
| 10:00 pm | Crying... I was deep in thought today... thinking about my current argument and I realise that I am fighting a losing battle or so it seems. Who cares... I wont go down without a fight... Anyway, these thoughts led to a commonly asked question that can be found in many email surveys "When was the last time you cried?" I cant remember the *last* time I cried... but one occasion comes to mind... about the middle of last year this occurred, I was living in the caravan and it was cold as hell... I dont know why but I got very emotional... I think I cried for about 2 hours non stop over nothing... I was just fed up or something I dont know... after that I had a big sleep and everything was all under control in my inner world... |
| Saturday, July 10th, 2004 | |
| 1:52 am | Ignorance is bliss, then again, so is decadence Someone managed to piss me off today, and they didnt even know it... No doubt theyve been intrigued to come along and check out what I have to say so let me greet them now... "Hi there, welcome to my personal hell, where teeny bopping isnt allowed and people your age should be allowed to teeny bop anyway... wake up and smell the roses because Ive just done a banging shit in the bog" *Grins Evilly like Cheshire Cat* Here is what I intended to post as a comment on my special guests blurty... apoparently it was too big, so Ill post it here rather than shorten it because It wouldnt have the full effect... --------------------------------------*m Fuck it... no more stuff assing about... Ill reveal my identity... IM spong... but surely people dieing in your life has made it worth being suicidal about? We all die... sooner or later... Painful or not its not pleasant... surely theres something worse to get REALLY REALLY upset about? let me run you through my life for a moment... Lets start with deaths eh? 1. Mother's Best Friend 1: Leukaemia: She died not long after her daughter gave birth, a few days later after her daughter was out of hospital, they all gathered around her comatose body and topld her it was ok to leave this world, a few moments later she took her last breath 2. Grandmother: Stroke... I was only young and all I can remember of her really was when she was in hospital tied to machines in a comatose state... 3. Cousin: Accident, my cousin wanted to be a truck driver all of his life... he fulfilled his dream and died doing what he loved. His trck was in the middle of a convoy when it left the road and was totalled. I will always remember His great smile and personallity, hell he had a pretty wicked moustache too. 4. Uncle: Cancer of the liver: When they discovered te cancer in his body, it was the size of 2 tennis balls, his liver was in a word: fucked. The cancer was too big to remove without fucking his liver anyway... so he ended up visiting hospitals every few weeks to get chemo in order to "Improve" his quality of life... It didnt... he would have to stay at the hospital because chemo fucks your immune system... if he were in the outside world, a simple cold would have killed him. 5. Back Neighbours Son: Leukaemia: I didnt know him well but i reckon if we got to know each other better, we would have been alright mates... He was into Metallica, Van halen all the music I am Into... He was a bit of a rock'n'roller to say the last. 6. Good mate's Mother: Cancer of the Liver: Basically same circumstances as my uncle... she was given a ball park estimate on when she would die and had to plan what fiscal "good" moments she had with her family while she was well. I think her funeral was the only funeral to date where I've actually cried. 7. Mothers Best Friend 2: Cancer also: She only had about 6 weeks from the discovery of her cancer to the day she died, my mother quickly flew upto Darwin to see her on her deathbed but to no avail, she died while my mother was flying there. I always liked this lady, she always greeted me with a "Whaddya know?" 8. Fiancee of Mothers Best Friend 2's Daughter's Fiancee: Accident: About 6 moths after the passing of my mothers Best friend, her daughers fiancee was killed In an Industrial accident, my mother screamed when she heard the bad news, after the passing of her friend, she vowed to look after her daughter and that happened, She flew out to Perth for that funeral... NB: On the plane back KISS was sitting about 4 rows infront of her. OK so theres deaths somewhat out of the road... Other not particularly nice things... My Auntie, You may know of her... Your indulgent self is probably aware of a few establishments within this small city such as Giannis, Alenis, Sorrentos, The Funk Lounge. She owns all of these establishments... She gave birth to a child with Downs syndrome. Most people find this to be a bad/depressing situation but she finds her children to be a blessing regardless. Id say shes the most capable person to look after a downs syndrome child... Let me tell you about my family. my sister who would be about 26ish now, had learning difficulties. she basically fell in with the wrong crowd, that and she was sexually abused by the father of the children she was baby sitting. He messed her up downstairs so much that he would have to go out and get doctors appointments to get her prescription vaginal creams. Police would often visit our house. My brother and I were none the wiser. My mother eventually had a nervous breakdown because of my sister. She ended up becoming a prostitute. But that aint where it ends... While being a pro, she met her first "serious" boyfriend, he was a drug dealer/user and was also the father of her first child. she left him for a dude she met while visiting in Jail. Once he got out, she married him and had her second child. he was a rather abusive person and she ended up giving him the flick as well. she got back into prostitution after this. She ended up having a third child to one of my fathers friends. The children were taken from her and are now living with my family, two of the three have some major psychological problems, and the other has less obvious problems but problems stemming from when she was living with her mother anyway. At the moment My sister is living in queensland with a Jockey (she is one in her own respect too eh? Knob Jockey... GET IT???) And travelling with a circus. See, a dog is a minor thing and will be when you look back on your life Funny thing is, you've met my family and no doubt didnt imagine any of this eh? dont even make me mention your bestie Things cant be that bad... You rag on about your mother ebing a lazy bitch/slut/whore/scrag/trollop and whatever else when she "tells" you to cut the wood... tell me, does your father do the washing, dishes, clean the house and whatever else while working on his farm? What about you? Maybe you should take a step into your mothers shoes and stop being a clown of decadence... Be a dear and do the world a favour... stick a shot gun in your vagina and pull the trigger... we need less ignorant people, im sure your fertility would be a great place to start... ----------------------------------*End mean stuff post, only after thoughts ahead*---------------------------------- Well now that thats off my chest... Current Mood:  aggravatedCurrent Music: So Cold - Breaking Banjamin |