| where did you ever learn to fight without saying a word ... |
[08 Jul 2004|01:19am] |
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morning everyone.
wow i just woke up and already im bored. lol
talked to bryan - o geeze i love him. He's so cute. ((giggle)) im a loser.
talked to dorothy for like hours last night. Oh i miss her. i cant wait for cheering to start again so then i will be with hoop*rah every night again. hehe ((meggo * dotty * jax * lish))
speaking of cheering ... mmm i hate male cheerleaders. they are worse then the females on pms. it's ok we dont need them. i just hope they all know that they are really fucked up and this is gonna show the type of person you really are. you left YOUR team, we were like a family and you sold us out to do dumb shit that wont get you anywhere, like music for an example. i dislike them all right now with all my heart. they are assholes and i just hope they knw karma will get their asses in the end so fuck 'em.
ya know i've come to notice that i am very weird. i start off in my journal all nice and sweet and outta no where i get all mean and bitchy. lol it's funny though.
but anywho ...
looking at tattoos. i get mine in 1 week and 3 days. ahh i cant wait.
so - i am getting 3 tattoos total i think. not all at once but yeah.
1. my right shoulder - my fairy
2. like mid back to lower back - star pattern
3. lower tummy - woodstock or stitch
i hope they all come out really nice.
i cant wait for the week just to go by.
july 16 - ozzfest
july 17 - party @ dads house
july 18 - i turn 18 and get my tattoo
FUN FUN FUN !!!!
i just cant wait for all this to happen. giggle.
((yay))
okay sorry im happy ... just babbles now.
gonna go dl some more music i think .. i need more music to listen to. lol
** kiss kiss **
jaxs
p.s.
to all the ppl i h8
stop reading my journal and leaving nasty e-mails and im's
i am so over you .. i think its your turn to grow up now.
later bitchzzzz
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| Remember when we never needed eachother - the best of friends like sister and brother - |
[07 Jul 2004|08:41am] |
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a lot on my mind right now ...
if u are reading this .. and this is about you ... now you know how i feel ... if you get mad about this and you dislike me .. STOP READING MY JOURNAL ASSHOLE!
im at my dads house and i miss bryan so much. i hate being away from him. he's just so wonderful and i wish i was in his arms right now being held and kissed and just wow, that would be amazing. i feel like everything i do is for him. i just wish he was here to tell me everythings gonna be ok. i feel weird cause ive never felt this way before about someone. i need him, no i really NEED him. i couldn't go on without him. he's my entire world and i'd be nothing without him. he is the love of my life.
another thing ... people can suck my ass. i was just reading something right .. and i hate a lot of people. wow im just a mean person. i love it! Like really .. i have my few best friends and im good with that.
* dotty - lish - meggo - heather - sam - laur - candice - marie - jesse - crystal - lala - kristin - lori - ali - sam *
thanks so much guys for always putting up with my shit. You all rock. ha as if ya dont know that already. It's just sweet that you all made a huge dent in my life. thanks for making my a better person. you all did your part.
o and i hate PEOPLE who left the cheering team for other things like MUSIC and GIRLS and BEING FUCKING ASSHOLES WITH NO LIFE exp trying to get with your best friends girl. Hummm ... I HATE YOU! Thanks for making my last year of CO-ED cheering fuckin suck total cock. I hope you fucking never forget this you 2 FACED MOTHER FUCKERS! ahhhummm ...
sorry had to get that out ..ive been waiting for a while to do that... while im getting things out .. lets not stop there.
CHRISTINA ... YOU ARE A DRAMA QUEEN AND A TOTAL BITCH. I HOPE YOU FUCKING FEEL SORRY FOR YOUR BOYFRIEND BEING AS YOU ARE TRYING TO GET WITH HIS BEST FRIEND. ((cough)) Fucking nicknames for your and skee ... yeah thats real fucking cute .. NOT!
CHECKING GREEN CARDS !!! MAKE SURE YOU GOT YOURS!!!
i am so evil tonight .... mmmm
well had to get that out .... thanks for listening ... :0)
you're not even worth the breath it would take to say goodbye.
saying that you are now a waste of time would be giving you way more credit than you deserve.
the simple words i hate you could not possibly do my feelings justice.
friends?
what could i ever have been thinking.
get a life.
leave me out of it.
(( this is not u chad ))
if u think thats for you ... it is ...
* kiss kiss *
jaxs
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| fill this out ..... N OW ..... bitch |
[07 Jul 2004|06:43am] |
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1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
okay just a little thought that i cant forget.
time of your life by green day - our senior song
okay sorry
later bitchezzzzzzz
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| drinking - smoking - party - sounds like my weekend .. mmm |
[29 Jun 2004|01:01pm] |
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leaving for the beach on friday and coming home monday
i think. who cares. im gonna be too trashed to know.
haha good times. all i know is we are taking my car and sams car to fit all the shit.
i think its me, sam, marianne, nan, kaitlyn, and shannon
or so i think - more or less who cares i again will b too wasted to notice.
i dont think heathers gonna go though or she might or idk yet
hell yeah like 19 days till i turn 18 and get my tattoo i cant wait :)
okay just had to update fun fun fun times :)
ya know bitch ...
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| people can suck my left one .... |
[29 Jun 2004|12:50pm] |
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mood: bored
music: with you
just got outta the shower ... all wet now. lol
thought you all needed to know that.
there is nothing to do today.
bryan is coming over in a little bit. i think we're gonna watch a movie or something. i kinda just wanna do nothing. but i plan to go to the gym and work out before he gets here so i can shower .. again and look nice. or try to anyway.
ppl have called my cell all morning ... im sleeping leave me alone .. dont you know you cant call before like 12 haha. no really i wasnt joking.
so now i am talking to lauren and writing in my journal. i am so bored.
okay gonna go dry off and blow dry the hair
* me *
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| thank God for blessing us with you .... |
[28 Jun 2004|07:36pm] |
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today was ashlee's wake and stuff. It was so so sad. A lot of the cheerleaders went. Dorothy, Donna, and Megan went with me and my car and guess what! we got lost, as we always do. But we got there and cried then drove to the cem. and cried some more then drove home. it was so sad like she was 15 and she died on cancer, thats so sad. wow i cant understand it though, im in shock still. oh this isnt fun. i feel so bad for her family. they all were so upset and they all looked like hell, i would too if i were them, i just felt really bad. It was really nice.
((r.I.p - Ashlee *march 14, 1989 - june 22, 2004))
she will be missed.
wow so im gonna go .. this just got too sad for me.
dorothy - it'll be okay ... she's looking down at us smiling and helping us find our way home. :0)
i promise things will be okay ... soon .... i love you
Hoop * Rah
* meggo * dotty * jax * lish
- a sad me -
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| its been to long and im lost without you ... |
[26 Jun 2004|01:30pm] |
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wow so i havent updated in a while ...
it's sat morning and i should be getting ready to go to bryans party but im not. haha i kinda dont wanna go since his sister and mother both hate me and they will def be there. wow a fun afternoon i am in for. i just hope they dont like start shit cause i swear im gonna tell them both what i think of them at this point. 2 years is a long time ... you'd think they'd get use to the idea that im bryans girlfriend by now. um... wow they must be slow or drunks or something.
haha so this morning my car was parked out side the house and the lady who lives next to me hit it. haha wow i wasnt meant to drive. lol but its all good cause nothing happened to my car.
after the party i think i am going to hang out with bryan at my house then do whatever ((hehe)) tomorrow i am going to fair with sam and chris and some other ppl. i cant wait :0) fun fun fun - or so i hope.
to christina martin and i are no long speaking .. and i think i might dislike her a lot right now. So we were hanging out and dorothy called and she was really upset because ashley passed away, so i gave the phone to saichi thinking he could help better then i could, so i was talking to christina in the car and she made a comment that dorothy was upset by. So dotty didnt take it lightly she was mad as all hell. So a little bit goes by and christina and fucking talking shit about me in my car to saichi i was like you fucking have nerve you bitch. So i drove her home and we had a few words. Then saichi and i met up and talked and the whole thing was blamed on guess who ... me! So now that everything is my fault .. i mean world wars .. my fault .. like no it wasnt my fault she couldnt keep her fucking mouth shut and got in trouble for it so fuck her. i am done with her. She was making me feel like shit all day. ok heres that story .. her comments will and do get her in shit. she showed me her car and i was like whoo bad grand ams being as wilson and i both totalled ours and she was like well i can drive YET she failed her driving test. Hum good job asshole.All fucking day comments like that she was making to me so fuck her. She's so stupid. I didnt know somone could really be that dumb. I am so mad right now ... arh! I really hope she reads this .. cause she needs to know she's a fucking bitch and no one really likes her they just put up with her drama shit cause they feel bad .. awwww im sorry i didnt wanna be the one t0 be mean and say that .. but i was. Sorry .. haha yea ok ...
onto things that i care about ...
monday at 10:30 i gotta meet the cheerleaders at the school we are presenting ashley with her cheering stuff. wow thats gonna be sad :0(
im gonna go now ... i gotta get ready for this party.
* kiss kiss *
* jaxs *
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[26 Jun 2004|01:30pm] |
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wow so i havent updated in a while ...
it's sat morning and i should be getting ready to go to bryans party but im not. haha i kinda dont wanna go since his sister and mother both hate me and they will def be there. wow a fun afternoon i am in for. i just hope they dont like start shit cause i swear im gonna tell them both what i think of them at this point. 2 years is a long time ... you'd think they'd get use to the idea that im bryans girlfriend by now. um... wow they must be slow or drunks or something.
haha so this morning my car was parked out side the house and the lady who lives next to me hit it. haha wow i wasnt meant to drive. lol but its all good cause nothing happened to my car.
after the party i think i am going to hang out with bryan at my house then do whatever ((hehe)) tomorrow i am going to fair with sam and chris and some other ppl. i cant wait :0) fun fun fun - or so i hope.
to christina martin and i are no long speaking .. and i think i might dislike her a lot right now. So we were hanging out and dorothy called and she was really upset because ashley passed away, so i gave the phone to saichi thinking he could help better then i could, so i was talking to christina in the car and she made a comment that dorothy was upset by. So dotty didnt take it lightly she was mad as all hell. So a little bit goes by and christina and fucking talking shit about me in my car to saichi i was like you fucking have nerve you bitch. So i drove her home and we had a few words. Then saichi and i met up and talked and the whole thing was blamed on guess who ... me! So now that everything is my fault .. i mean world wars .. my fault .. like no it wasnt my fault she couldnt keep her fucking mouth shut and got in trouble for it so fuck her. i am done with her. She was making me feel like shit all day. ok heres that story .. her comments will and do get her in shit. she showed me her car and i was like whoo bad grand ams being as wilson and i both totalled ours and she was like well i can drive YET she failed her driving test. Hum good job asshole.All fucking day comments like that she was making to me so fuck her. She's so stupid. I didnt know somone could really be that dumb. I am so mad right now ... arh! I really hope she reads this .. cause she needs to know she's a fucking bitch and no one really likes her they just put up with her drama shit cause they feel bad .. awwww im sorry i didnt wanna be the one t0 be mean and say that .. but i was. Sorry .. haha yea ok ...
onto things that i care about ...
monday at 10:30 i gotta meet the cheerleaders at the school we are presenting ashley with her cheering stuff. wow thats gonna be sad :0(
im gonna go now ... i gotta get ready for this party.
* kiss kiss *
* jaxs *
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[26 Jun 2004|01:29pm] |
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wow so i havent updated in a while ...
it's sat morning and i should be getting ready to go to bryans party but im not. haha i kinda dont wanna go since his sister and mother both hate me and they will def be there. wow a fun afternoon i am in for. i just hope they dont like start shit cause i swear im gonna tell them both what i think of them at this point. 2 years is a long time ... you'd think they'd get use to the idea that im bryans girlfriend by now. um... wow they must be slow or drunks or something.
haha so this morning my car was parked out side the house and the lady who lives next to me hit it. haha wow i wasnt meant to drive. lol but its all good cause nothing happened to my car.
after the party i think i am going to hang out with bryan at my house then do whatever ((hehe)) tomorrow i am going to fair with sam and chris and some other ppl. i cant wait :0) fun fun fun - or so i hope.
to christina martin and i are no long speaking .. and i think i might dislike her a lot right now. So we were hanging out and dorothy called and she was really upset because ashley passed away, so i gave the phone to saichi thinking he could help better then i could, so i was talking to christina in the car and she made a comment that dorothy was upset by. So dotty didnt take it lightly she was mad as all hell. So a little bit goes by and christina and fucking talking shit about me in my car to saichi i was like you fucking have nerve you bitch. So i drove her home and we had a few words. Then saichi and i met up and talked and the whole thing was blamed on guess who ... me! So now that everything is my fault .. i mean world wars .. my fault .. like no it wasnt my fault she couldnt keep her fucking mouth shut and got in trouble for it so fuck her. i am done with her. She was making me feel like shit all day. ok heres that story .. her comments will and do get her in shit. she showed me her car and i was like whoo bad grand ams being as wilson and i both totalled ours and she was like well i can drive YET she failed her driving test. Hum good job asshole.All fucking day comments like that she was making to me so fuck her. She's so stupid. I didnt know somone could really be that dumb. I am so mad right now ... arh! I really hope she reads this .. cause she needs to know she's a fucking bitch and no one really likes her they just put up with her drama shit cause they feel bad .. awwww im sorry i didnt wanna be the one t0 be mean and say that .. but i was. Sorry .. haha yea ok ...
onto things that i care about ...
monday at 10:30 i gotta meet the cheerleaders at the school we are presenting ashley with her cheering stuff. wow thats gonna be sad :0(
im gonna go now ... i gotta get ready for this party.
* kiss kiss *
* jaxs *
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| where did u learn to fight without saying a word |
[19 Jun 2004|11:52pm] |
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there is nothing to say or do anymore. This is the summer of my senior year and all i am doing is sitting around. So yes ... @ dads house now. Its boring - kinda. lol Listening to music ... good times. Wow i was just thinking these are the best years of life .... like when im gone and go to college are you gonna rememeber all the
sleep overs
sad songs
fun times
movies
eating out
pillow fights
dancing
singing
laughing
crying
are you gonna remember all the times that we had together ..... all there gonna be is memories ....
thinking way to into this ....
me
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| what if i said that i love you ... how would you feel - what would you think - what would we do |
[18 Jun 2004|04:27am] |
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are you sitting down for this ..... make sure otherwise your gonna fall over .... okay ....
i am getting married - to bryan. Last night after they throw their hates up everyone goes on the field and kisses and hugs and cries. Well i ran to lauren and cried for a good 5 mins. Then i went to heather and told her i was ready. She went and found bryan ((who was looking for me anyways)). So he came over took a few pics and then it happened. Mikey ((cupo)) came over and i cried some more then i asked him to stay with me while i did this cause i needed him ... so i opened a small little box that held a ring in it, not just any ring, a ring that means a lot to me - it was my daddy's ring. So i looked at him - in the eyes and asked him to marry me. He said yes. It was just amazing. Everyone was like whoooo, yay, go king. haha it was crazy. Last night was just awesome.
wow im a loser .... i will never forget this ... how it happened ... the time ... the place ... the weather ... everything will stay with us ... wow
* jackie *
soon to be mrs.king
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This was written by a girl with cancer. i got this peom in my email and i almost started crying.
> > SLOW DANCE
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> > Have you ever watched kids
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> > On a merry-go-round?
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> > Or listened to the rain
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> > Slapping on the ground?
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> > Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
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> > Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
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> > You better slow down.
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> > Don't dance so fast.
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> > Time is short.
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> > The music won't last.
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> > Do you run through each day
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> > On the fly?
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> > When you ask How are you?
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> > Do you hear the reply?
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> > When the day is done
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> > Do you lie in your bed
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> > With the next hundred chores
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> > Running through your head?
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> > You'd better slow down
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> > Don't dance so fast.
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> > Time is short.
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> > The music won't last.
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> > Ever told your child,
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> > We'll do it tomorrow?
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> > And in your haste,
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> > Not see his sorrow?
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> > Ever lost touch,
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> > Let a good friendship die
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> > Cause you never had time
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> > To call and say,"hi"
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> > You'd better slow down.
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> > Don't dance so fast.
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> > Time is short.
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> > The music won't last.
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> > When you run so fast to get somewhere
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> > You miss half the fun of getting there.
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> > When you worry and hurry through your day,
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> > It is like an unopened gift....
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> > Thrown away.
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> > Life is not a race.
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> > Do take it slower
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> > Hear the music
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> > Before the song is over.
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[10 Jun 2004|07:45pm] |
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hell yeah i got a new car! It's so cute ... it's a 2000 cavaler. It's pretty. Its nothing like my grand am but i plan to make this me! haha well just had to tell ya that ...
7 days til he's gone ....
jackie
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| broken heart doesnt fit what i am right now ... |
[02 Jun 2004|09:30pm] |
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he loves me ... he loves me NOT! So today bryan and i got into a stupid nothing fight over nothing. I went to drug fair with dotty and we were looking at the make up and shit since we need it, lol . So he's talking to some girl who will be nameless in this - he's talking to her, flirting, helping her, doing everything but fuck her. My feelings are just so hurt ...
jackie
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| we were meant to be, suppose to be, but we lost it - thanks for acting like you cared |
[30 May 2004|09:29am] |
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wow so today i found a dress for prom which is friday, nothing like waiting til the last moment. It's baby blue with pretty sparkles ... i like it a lot. It's getting sized right now and tomorrow i shall pick it up and be pretty. Prom is gonna be a good time. So someone outta no where IM'd me today saying that bryan is cheating on me, wow that was funny though. I dont think so ... i just thought it was funny and id share it with all of you. Listening to the avril cd (yes again). Can you tell i really like it? haha! So last night was a bad night, ppl suck. Bryan gets to wear is baby blue tux now, fun times .. lol. So the jacket is only blue the rest of it is black like the pants and stuff... not so dumb and dumber. i dont know though, i could give a shit. As long as we have a good time together i dont care. I really am running outta things to say, can you tell? lol well im gonna go watch a movie now ... peace
jackie
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[29 May 2004|10:36am] |
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hehe how cute ... tickle tickle ... hahaha
im sucha crackhead ...
Jackie
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[29 May 2004|09:15am] |
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i am so happy ... i love bryan ... he's the bestest .... awww ... im done ...
jackie
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[29 May 2004|09:08am] |
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I am so fucking bored .... ahhhhh
jackie
just thought id let you know ... hahha
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one word - bored. There is nothing to do but drink and eat. Oh and listen to Avril. I love the new cd. Happy Ending might be my new fav song by her. lol i think that song is just perfect for me. I am making food now but thats not big news. Im always making food ... im getting fat. Sorry just thoughts cause i have nothing to say. I'll be updating a lot more now though so thats a plus to all you losers who read this. Im just thinking about nothing, well about something but just shit. Ya know boys ... they suck. No really they are just dumb, and jerks. Im gonna go ...
jackie
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