| Date: | 2003-12-18 18:04 |
| Subject: | Boring ass day |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  uncomfortable | | Music: | Odd Project - Je Tadore |
Well today was a pretty boring day i went ahead and went to wal-mart to pick up 20 bucks from my friend cause well for no reason my friends are just cool like that i guess...now im here and everyone has split to my lil nephews x-mas show....so here i am eating some hot dogs mmmmmm...no not really...lately my depression has been kicking back in again not to bad but it still has...like this afternoon it just hit me i almost had tears in my eyes and just wanted to be alone the thing is i dont have any reason to be depressed i just get depressed and feel so helpless my brother thinks i should go and get some help cause he thinks it gets bad...i just hate doctors and all that shit plus i believe every person has their own ability to cure themselves of whatever (illness) that doctors say they have later on well in about a bit im going to just rant about stuff thats been on my mind well talk to you all later bye for now...
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| Date: | 2003-12-18 15:38 |
| Subject: | A New Start |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  awake | | Music: | We All Die SOmeday |
Well i woke up today about 12pm I tried calling gwen last night but her phone was shutoff all damn night then she says...oh she just forgot to turn it on at the party...frankly im not stupid and i dont give a fuck im gonna move on to and just not even worry about her anymore...so today i got a DATE!!! YAY this girl i been wanting to see for a while named Holly we plan on going out tonight so see how that goes and ill let you all know what the hell happened...im just waiting for her to call in about and hour..i hope i get the call..cause my fuckin brother gets on the phone and never answers the other line and i miss calls from all these chicks that tell me "where were you i called but your brother said you were gone" i told his ass already but he still keeps doing it so ill just keep my fingers crossed later people
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| Date: | 2003-12-17 17:20 |
| Subject: | My Fav Bands |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | cold | | Music: | Unsung Zeros - Always It Will Be The Same |
Ok here is a list a long list of all my favorite bands you should go and check some of them out they kick ass anyways here it goes
Cky, NightWish, Sonata Artica, Iced Earth, Count The Stars, Acceptance, Best Intrest, Bright Eyes, Brodie, Cursive, Days Away, Dont Look Down, Feeling Left Out, From Autumn to Ashes, HomeGrown, North Star, Odd Project, PennyWise, Plain White T's, Rufio, Saves the Day, Say Anything, Taking Back Sunday, The Beautiful Mistake, The Early November, The Unseen, Thursday, Unsung Zeros
well thats just about it for now i got more but my fingers hurt so ill talk to you all later bye for now
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| Date: | 2003-12-17 16:11 |
| Subject: | Whats Going On |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  cranky | | Music: | NightWish - Feel For You |
Well last night was pretty fucking boring all i did was just stay here and get drunk with a couple of friends...they left about 3 am and i just couldnt sleep i was thinking of to much shit about how things in my life are kinda shitty right now but fuck it...i didnt wake up this moring till about 2 pm....HAD A GOOD REST...today i been wanting to call Gwen but my fucking brother has been on the damn phone all fucking day since i got up thats for like 2 hours who knows what the fuck he is talking about...well i dont know right now im not talking to any girls right now even though there is a couple i can simply call up and go out with them and whatever but i really dont want to...there is rachel, crystal, megan, erica, jinnifer, and like 4 others but i dont really want nothing to do with them when i went out with them at first it was just as friends then they all started wanting a relationship and thats the last thing i need right now...and calling them up to go out they would think oh shit he wants to hook up which is far from that...today my dorky ass cousin is running to go see Lord Of The Rings ill just wait till it gets on DVD lol which would be like 2 years from now...well right now all my friends that are girls are wanting me to stop talkin to the two girls i am talking to right now and now my friend jessica is all mad at me
MissDazed: haha, did you see what your chick said about me?
MissDazed: I left her a nice lil message that dumb bitch you need to stop with her and get with someone else
MissDazed: she said on my post my bf may think your cute but i think your fuckin ugly and a whore.
MissDazed: she is fucked up in the head
MissDazed: I wish she leaved by me, id go fuck her ass up you are cute so many girls want you just go for it
OneMoreSadSonnet: i dont know ..she is good in her own way she told me about it but i love her alot
MissDazed: she isnt good
MissDazed: she is fucking stupid im telling you this
OneMoreSadSonnet: no she isnt stupid i just got off the phone with her we had a good talk
MissDazed: she is childish
MissDazed: and looks like a nasty skank
MissDazed: I dont see why you waste time with that nasty hoe when you got girls all after you
MissDazed: You can do so much better
OneMoreSadSonnet: i i love her she has been there for me even though that other girl is pregnant but she still sticks around puttin up with my shit not most girls would do that
MissDazed: Because she is a nasty desporite bitch...
MissDazed: she cant get anyone else
OneMoreSadSonnet: i dont know we have fights and all but in the end we always seem to work things out someway and she is beautiful and im lucky to have her
MissDazed: lol whatever doug
MissDazed: She is just going to fuck your ass all up in the end
MissDazed: but do what you do
OneMoreSadSonnet: i believe me and her can work things out and mayeb we can be together
MissDazed: well no wonder you think you love her
MissDazed: because you let stupid whores fuck with your head dumbass well i gtg dont call me bye
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| Date: | 2003-12-16 20:45 |
| Subject: | Religion |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  accomplished | | Music: | NightWish - Ocean Soul |
Ok i am not against religion in any way this is just one of my thoughts on religion which i always think let me know what you think feel free
ok well to start off i believe many christians not all but (MANY) are hypocrites in lots of ways one way in which i see it is in relationships...it is noticed a true follower of jesus can neither divorce someone or marry someone who is divorced...this rule is canceled out though if one spouse commits adultery the divorce is ok. But Yet the bible says one who obtains a divorce and marrtied another is an adulterer. Bring to mind now that 80% of this US country is Christian yet we have a 50% divorce rate. But alot of christians end up in divorce due to irreconcilable differences not adultery doesnt this mean they are just practicing selective morality then..i believe there are many christiand workin on their 3rd and 4th marriages... whosoever shall marry her that is divorced committeth adultery” (Matthew 5:32, 19:9 & Luke 16:18). Whosoever shall put away his wife, saving for the cause of fornication, causeth her to commit adultery”
Also another thing is prayers in schools and in public places runs against biblical teaching. Jesus said prayers should be a private moment away from public display....“And when you pray, you must not be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and at the street corners, that they may be seen by men. Truly, I say to you they have received their reward. But when you pray, go into your room (or closet.) and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret...“ (Matthew 6:5-6 RSV). mant christians violate this rule everyday by preaching their words on the streets ...in churches...in schools but never realize they are breakin a rule of jesus..and also the The “I see demons” complex is more rampant in Christians then it is in acid dropping space cadets. i am not trying to make anyone mad just statin what i kinda think about in my stupid head
Also to i see more and more women preaches now a days in church not that im sayin that it is bad HELL GO FOR IT LADIES but how about this (“Let your women keep silence in the churches: for it is not permitted unto them to speak”-- I Corinthians I 4:34
And its amazing this passage that women all over the world wear men pants and pants and men shirts yet the saying says.....(“The woman shall not wear that which pertaineth unto a man, neither shall a man put on a
woman’s garment: for all that do so are abomination unto the Lord thy God”--Deuteronomy 22:5
Another thing that gets me is the whole say 5 hail marys and 10 our fathers it is said in Matthew 6:7. “But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do: for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking.”
i guess i could go on and on but anyways this is just a bit im not makin anyone mad just a though i have in my head im sure you all think of fucked up shit to
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| Date: | 2003-12-16 18:19 |
| Subject: | Hey there! |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  confused | | Music: | HomeGrown - Why Wont You Leave Me |
Well lets see whats going on not much im pretty uch new to this so hopefully i can stick to this journal thing for a while...well so far lets see to make a long story short...i broke up with my girlfriend and i started seeing this other girl while we broke up well me and my ex got back together but the girl i messed around with is now pregnant and its caused alot of shit between all of us...in a way im kinda scared but i dont know...my gf wants me to move to san antonio with her and forget about the baby and this other girl but i cant do that and the girl thats pregnant wants me to forget my gf and be with her its like im being pulled in two directions and i dont know really what to do but i guess ill figure it out soon..i got all of this shit and plus im trying to put together this cd me and my band are tryin to finish its like everything is consuming me but fuck it right..i try to go at life with a really oh well fuck it just see what happens...well onto other things last night didnt really do anything interesting besides get drunk and argue with my friend about shit we always argue and debate over stupid shit like money and doctors and shit it sounds stupid lol and a bunch of other shit ill let some of my views be heard sometimes lol and if you disagree thats cool i just think weird about some shit..but oh well i dont know ill post later on when i get a chance right now a 40 ounce of mickey is callin me see you all later
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