| i hate... |
[20 Dec 2002|08:56pm] |
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[ my ruin - cosmetic ] |
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i HATE soda.
i feel like im going to throw up.
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| ERUGGHHH |
[20 Dec 2002|03:45pm] |
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[ jack off jill - horrible ] |
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the mood speaks all for itself......
that's it. im going out.... and finding a guy...
and bringing him back here. ;]
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| more quizzes |
[20 Dec 2002|11:45am] |
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[ redman - i'll be that ] |
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( blah... )
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[20 Dec 2002|11:24am] |
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[ smashing pumpkins - zero ] |
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some one needs to come online, before i die of boredom.
or mabye i'll take a nap now, since im gonna be up really late tonight.
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| oh..god. |
[20 Dec 2002|08:39am] |
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im getting kind of nervous.
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| angels fuck |
[20 Dec 2002|07:10am] |
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[ jack off jill - angels fuck ] |
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I woke up mourning
I woke up dead today
I aged a thousand years..
Or more
I flinch when you are nice
You kill me with a single word
When angels fuck and devils kiss, I'm sure
I'll bask in your forever
You just waste my time
I want to drag you down
Down with me
I wanted to help
To help destroy the world
I wanted to be that
To be that special girl
Everybody's got a little something to hide... but me
Everybody's got a little someone to crush... but me
I'm living in human teenage mediocrity
Everybody's got a little someone to trust... but me
I dreamed that I was you
I dreamed your ego died
Sad who loves you more than I do
I know you lied
I'll bask in your forever
Fucking waste of time
Angels fuck and devils screw
I wanted to heal me
And then destroy the world
Piss in your heart and be that
And be that special girl
Everybody's got a little something to hide... but me
Everybody's got a little someone to crush... but me
I'm living in teenage negative mediocrity
Everybody's got a little someone to trust... but me
But me, but you
Not me
Hate you
Love me, love me, hate you
Want me, fuck you, hate me
Kill you
Fuck me, like you, want me
Like you want you fuck you
Fuck me, fuck you, fuck you fuck you fuck me
Fuck you, fuck me, fuck you fuck you fuck me
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you fuck you fuck me
I will never make it better
I will never make it better
It will always hurt you fucking asshole
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| nathan conversation |
[20 Dec 2002|06:55am] |
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[ nin - sin ] |
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okay. this is what happened after said that whole paragraph to him. hard to explain.... at first he thought i was kristen though.
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SocknRock33: ...
SocknRock33: u fukin bitch
SocknRock33: no1 likes u ape hed
paintmeprettyx: ape head?!
paintmeprettyx: LMFAO
paintmeprettyx: THAT. HAD. TO. BE. THE. LAMEST. COMEBACK.
SocknRock33: u wanna do so much stuff with every1 guy but no1 wants 2 do anything with ui
SocknRock33: no1 likes u
paintmeprettyx: i wanna do stuff?! ahaha, no. actually i don't.
SocknRock33: u think ur so cool u ugly mother fuker
paintmeprettyx: oh, and how would you know?
paintmeprettyx: im ugly!? LOOK AT YOU!
SocknRock33: shut up u wanted so much shyt from guys and every1 dint wanna be mean to u but every1 wanted to tell u are fuking ugly
SocknRock33: ya ino that people that r ugly shouldnt make fun of others kristen
SocknRock33: u r ugly
SocknRock33: and u kn o it
SocknRock33: and so does every1 else
paintmeprettyx: im not kristen
SocknRock33: then who the fuk r u
paintmeprettyx: Danielle, you mother fucking dumbass.
SocknRock33: wow danielle u better get the fuk out of this fight
paintmeprettyx: Fuck no, you fucking dissed all my mother fucking friends.
SocknRock33: because u r worse than every1
SocknRock33: in ur "group"
paintmeprettyx: what!?
paintmeprettyx: 'group?!'
SocknRock33: and im noit startin any shyt with u cuz i have no problem with u
paintmeprettyx: you just said i was worse than everyone?! and now you say your not starting shit?!
SocknRock33: no im not
SocknRock33: and u started shyt by imin with that fukin shyt
paintmeprettyx: because, i stand up for my fucking friends.
paintmeprettyx: unlike some people,
SocknRock33: i do stand up for my friendss so don say shyt u don kno
paintmeprettyx: you don't have any friends to stand up for
paintmeprettyx: they all hate you now
SocknRock33: u sure bout that?
paintmeprettyx: you don't know how many people that said shit behind your back
SocknRock33: every1 talks shyt
paintmeprettyx: about you? yeah.
SocknRock33: even about u
SocknRock33: so dont strat shyt
paintmeprettyx: i don't care if people talk shit about me. we're not talking about me, now are we?!
SocknRock33: and whats funny is u try to act like nothing bothers u but u kno everything gets to u
SocknRock33: actually we r
paintmeprettyx: no. actually, nothing gets to me. i learned how to fucking get over little things.
SocknRock33: no u didnt
SocknRock33: then y did u try to kill urself?
paintmeprettyx: that was how long ago!?...
SocknRock33: and y is it that when u needed sum1 to talk about i was there for u and now u have to be a bitch
paintmeprettyx: you were never fucking there for me. all you did was talk shit behind my back after that. you think i have no reason to be a bitch now?!
SocknRock33: i never sed shyt
SocknRock33: i wouldnt bout u cuz i had respect for u then now i think ur a worthless opiece of fukin shyt
paintmeprettyx: yea, you did. you know how many people came up to me after saying 'nathan said this.. blah blah blah'
paintmeprettyx: im a worthless piece of fucking shit!? please, learn to spell.
SocknRock33: its called typeo
SocknRock33: no1s perfect....r u perfect danielle?
SocknRock33: no ur deff not so shut up
paintmeprettyx: no.
paintmeprettyx: so? i know that.
SocknRock33: there u ggo so shut ur god damn mouth
paintmeprettyx: jesus fucking christ
SocknRock33: dddddaaaaannniiieeellllll
paintmeprettyx: OHH NATHAN USED THE GOD'S NAME IN VAIN, isn't like agianst your religion!? a few days ago you had a heart attack when i said god damnit.
SocknRock33: shut up bitch u don even kno wut god is
paintmeprettyx: daniel? um. was that supposed to insult me.
paintmeprettyx: i am god. you mother fucker.
SocknRock33: ur nothing
paintmeprettyx: no.
SocknRock33: god.....pfffff.......ur not even cole.....ur imperfection
SocknRock33: close
paintmeprettyx: hah, you see. i am.
SocknRock33: s get to u and every1 else
SocknRock33: ur nothing like i sed
paintmeprettyx: im nothing? right... i just happen to be nothing, nathan. you know me way too well.
SocknRock33: wut i kno is u have potential but u hide it behind baggy clothes and a fake fukin smile
SocknRock33: ya u COULD MABYE be something but u will be nothing till u realize that friends only go so far
paintmeprettyx: potential!? potential for what? to screw up. to be seen as nothing.
paintmeprettyx: are you saying i should just loose my friends?!
SocknRock33: if thats how u see it\
SocknRock33: nope
paintmeprettyx: then what did you mean
SocknRock33: were not talkin bout u member?!
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after that i just left him alone because he told kristen if i left him alone tonight, he'd talk to her... so...yeah.
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| last night |
[20 Dec 2002|06:22am] |
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[ nin - and all that could of been ] |
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last night was quite....weird.
around nine, ilya unblocked me AND imed me asking me for help to find this russian heavy metal artist's name. but then we started talking about music and concerts..... it was like... different. he didn't act all like 'i am god, pray to ME' like he did when we use to talk. we actually got along pretty well. at first i thought it was a joke, he was just testing my music knowledge... but he was actually pretty nice.
then on msn, some one kept... messaging me. they repeated some nin stuff in everything they said. but, no one likes nin in my school besides me, hell, they don't even know my msn name. so i came to conclusion that it's someone i met online and i already have someone.... that i think it is..
anyways. i wrapped my gifts for aylin, jenn, and jaime last night...and when i was wrapping them... hilary imed me and told me she bought me a gift. so... i was so nervous, up until now.. because i didn't get her one. but i'll just buy her something after christmas and give it when i give all my other gifts out.
last night, i couldn't sleep. i had so many things on my mind from joey to how the hell i was gonna get hilary a gift. it was so annoying, and i couldn't just.... stop thinking. i was rolling back in forth in my bed, trying to get some sleep... when my dad turns survivor on full blast in the living room. then, i swear to god, my foot started having a ceaser. well, probably not. but it wouldn't stop shaking.
oh, and i'm staying home agian. im too sick.
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| nathan + insults at my friends = dead nathan |
[19 Dec 2002|07:20pm] |
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[ kittie - charlotte ] |
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nathan, was making fun of everyone at lunch today.. and i wasn't there to kick his ass... so i said it perfectly online :D
paintmeprettyx: nathan, you mother fucker. i thought you fucking got this through your fucking head. you know everyone hates you. i mean, seriously... if i was you.. i'd shut my mother fucking fat ass mouth up. before i shove a GOD DAMN twinkie up your ass. but, you'd probably like that, huh? bitch. i mean, jesus christ. go back to where ever the fuck you came from in texas... mother fucking pussy.
hm, lets see. he called jenn a fatty...made fun of aylin, kristen, jaime... all of my friends. he hasn't answered yet because he's idle.
but when that bitch comes back i'm gonna fucking kill him. he's even got all these upperclass men wanting to beat him up.
besides that, i talked to kristen about joey and... i still don't know what to say...
if i say yes...
i'd feel weird because i have feelings for another person [ although i don't even have a chance ]
and if i say no...
i'd just be screwing over myself.. because i like him... ;[
everytime i'm going out with him.. or about to.... there's always another guy.
it happened every single time we went out.... which was about *counts* 8 times.
what should i do?
;[
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| nervous |
[19 Dec 2002|06:47pm] |
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[ smashing pumpkins - zero ] |
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Jenn: Kristen talked to him and he's thinking about asking you out!!!!!!!
i. don't. know. what. to. say. if. he. does.
*cries* i need serious help.
what if it's like all the previous times we went out....
*pulls hair out* i'm going to call kristen.
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| uerm. |
[19 Dec 2002|02:14pm] |
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[the vandals - people that are going to hell ] |
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What's Your Personality Type?
brought to you by Quizilla
*looks around* hah, you must be kidding!
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| oh boy ;x |
[19 Dec 2002|01:29pm] |
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amused |
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[ tori amos - past the mission ] |
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What Sign of Affection Are You?
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be close to your special someone and feel warm, comfortable, and needed
brought to you by Quizilla
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| <3 <3 |
[19 Dec 2002|09:26am] |
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[ vandals - fourteen ] |
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today.. will be a good day :D
i hope..
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| i knew it.... |
[19 Dec 2002|08:13am] |
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[ nothing ] |
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why the fuck didn't i consider this before.
i hate when i fucking do this to myself.
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| im gonna. |
[18 Dec 2002|08:35pm] |
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[ gc - lifestyles ] |
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im going to cut ilya up.... and serve him as desert at my upcoming birthday party.
we'll call it... 'ilya a la frosting'
like anyone would eat it?! hah.
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| .....fuck it. |
[18 Dec 2002|07:46pm] |
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[ slipknot - people = shit ] |
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im so use to getting attention.
and i'm not fucking getting it, all of a sudden.
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO.
i hate everyone.
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| sick... |
[18 Dec 2002|07:33am] |
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[ foo fighters ] |
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i'm staying home today...my mom's making me.
it was the only day i actually wanted to go....
and now i'm fucking sick.
thanks.
oh well, i could use my free time.... thinking.
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| make up will cover the imperfections |
[17 Dec 2002|08:01pm] |
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[ madonna - die another day... (ion tv ) ] |
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my throat hurts...
my ears hurt...
my nose is running....
and i have a headache...
and i'm so fucking confused
TODAY, i feel like shit
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| christmas shopping.. |
[17 Dec 2002|03:32pm] |
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yesterday.. was fun. i guess.
well, not during school, i wanted an early dismissal so fucking bad, but of course.. we didn't have one. but then, i ended up staying after school for a math quiz and extra help on some stupid stuff i still don't get. after extra help.. my mom and me went to the mall to get some stuff. i got aylin's gift [ a purse she really wanted ], my sister two gifts [ a cd store gift card and the christina auugdbaksjhdf cd ] then the rest of the stuff we bought was for me for christmas. hahaha.
i got one pair of pants from hot topic. there big and black with big red X's on the pockets, a headbanger's ball t-shirt from hot topic, black hair dye, a pair of kick ass shoes from pac-sun, a black label shirt that says 'label saves' with a cross on it from pac-sun, and a big black sweatshirt with the maltese cross on it from pac-sun. woopity doo. oh yeah, and 3 tori cds, 2 nin cds [ i finally decided to get the real cd's instead of my copies from downloading them ] a trent poster... and the manson book....
besides that, i'm getting a cell phone and some other nin stuff...
ANYWAYS, while i was in pac-sun.... this REALLY fucking hott [ words can't start to explain how mother fucking hot this guy was ] gave me the pair of shoes i wanted to try on..... and i didn't pay any attention when i was tying the shoe laces [ hello, i was too busy looking at him ]... that i tied them totally wrong... then i looked down to fix them... and i fell off my seat.
today, i fell asleep in science as usual... i sucked in gym because i was too tired, i didn't do anything in french, i finished my project in art, cursed off the teacher in english... and spent to much time thinking about someone in math....
oh, and i also found out me and aylin and steph are the ONLY ONES LEFT..... *cough cough*
you'd laugh endlessly at me if you found out.
*sigh*
<33 danielle
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[15 Dec 2002|08:20pm] |
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nothingstudios.com = nothing records logo
tapeworm.net = little gray circle
nin.com = nin logo with a link to their message board
this has to be good.
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| quizzes |
[15 Dec 2002|06:53pm] |
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[ ferris b. day off ] |
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( i'm still a child.... )
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[15 Dec 2002|06:00pm] |
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[ orgy - blue monday ] |
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blah.
yesteray was my mom's suprise party. boy, was she suprised. i was even suprised.. so many fucking people were here.. and everytime i said something, they would laugh. even when i said 'okay, let me get some for you' they would be like "OOOOOOOOOOOOOMGA AHAHAHAHA SHE'S ADORABLE!! bladdy blady blah"
i hate that. i feel like i always have to be smiling when im around them...
my mom's friend's kids and me left early and went to the mall. i bought jenn and jaime their christmas presents... but i didn't get aylin anything because i didn't know what she wanted.
today, i got up around 11:30... and did english homework till 4:30.. i mean, jesus christ. you'd think i was taking a college honors class with the work that the woman gives us.
but on the bright side, i've got enough leftovers to eat for the next year.
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| time.... |
[14 Dec 2002|01:15am] |
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[ tony hawk pro skater music ] |
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time goes by so fucking slow.... well, at least when you're waiting for someone to come online ;\
jaime just left too... she was my only person to talk to.. while i wait... but guess where she is?... at some drunk senior's house. i'm kinda scared for her. i don't want her to get hurt.. or even worse *shudder*..
well, anyways... if your reading this... and you're bored. IM me on paintmeprettyx
ok. well... erm.
bye.
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| FUCK YEA! |
[12 Dec 2002|08:48pm] |
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[ the dial tone ] |
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i found the mother fucker's phone number who made fun of my sister.
damn this fool is going down.
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| haunted places |
[12 Dec 2002|08:13pm] |
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-Bethel High School-
There have been sightings of apparitions on the second floor and in the basement. Cold Spots have been experienced in the basement also. There have been numerous suicides associated with the school. At one point the school was called Suicide High.
yep, that's my school. i wonder if it was haunted when meg ryan was a student there.
Easton - Union Cemetery -Haunted by the ghost of a young woman known by locals as the "White Lady" no one knows of her past yet. She has been seen by Firemen and Police Officers on different occasions. It's one of the most haunted places in the country. The Warrens have done extensive research of the area.
i definatly want to go check this place out. anyone care to join?
SCORE! fuck yeah.
i have art tommarow [ it's in the basement where most of the suicides took place ] and since tommarow's friday the 13th.
mabye i'll check if the bathroom [ one place where a girl killed herself ] is still locked... if it is... then... i'll find a way to get in it. ;]
why the fuck am i all of a sudden brave!?
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| in arms of undertow |
[12 Dec 2002|07:28pm] |
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[ nin - and all that could of been ] |
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ah. today was boring... my sister came home crying because two assholes were making fun of her. so i called one of their sisters [ my friend ] and told her to tell her brother off. and then i tried to find the other one's number, but i couldn't but when i do.. i swear to god, he's gonna wish that he hadn't fucked with my sister.
im such a bully when it comes to people making fun of my sister. i mean, i make fun of her, but... she know's im kidding.. but those fucking 10 YEAR OLDS PISS ME OFF BEYOND BELIEF.
i almost beat up some boy in 3rd grade... [ my sister was in kindergarten ] because he called my sister stupid. then a teacher pulled me out and put me against the wall [ we had to stand on the school wall and not talk to anyone during recess ]. then a few more times during these years...
then on halloween my sister's "FRIEND" called my sister and told her she didn't want to go trick or treating with her anymore.... so i called the girl up and told her she was a bitch and if she talked to my sister one more time... i would gut her alive.
on the other hand, a bunch of upperclass men where walking past me and aylin and kept saying 'EWWW'... they passed us about 4 times... each time they said 'ew' and laughed.
and i know for a fact they weren't talking about aylin. because i turned around and they were pointing at me and laughing
*shrugs* who cares.
im use to it.
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[12 Dec 2002|06:37am] |
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i need MORE sleep. jesus christ.
i can't fall asleep because i woke up... only to find out that we have an early dismissal.... and after that, i couldn't fall asleep...
eurgh. i want to stay home today, damnit!
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| blah. |
[11 Dec 2002|09:51pm] |
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[ nothing ] |
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im going to go to bed tonight..
a very unhappy girl ;[
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