Below are the 23 most recent journal entries.

	2009.07.17  15.10 Mary was born in Warsaw The last result may be only a stain In 1867, Mary was born in Warsaw, capital of Poland. Her father is mathematics of the middle school and physical teacher, mother has acted as the primary school Headmaster. Mary has liked science since childhood, physical instrument, mineral sample put in father's room,etc., have drawn her interest. 1890 year, Mary money that area save, come France alone, enter college of science of Paris University study. In 4 years studying in Paris, Mary is by not living a kind of poor but noble life with the willpower sounding, have overcome ordinary person's difficulty difficult to imagine. In long winter, Mary living in the attic of top floor is unable to fall asleep because of being cold, it is needled through body that she takes out all clothes from the case or cover on the quilt, she even draws the chair to press to get warm on the quilt sometimes. The pursuit with no limits to scientific knowledge, it is materialist in a difficult position to make her forget, she seems to be driven by a kind of magical strength, roams in the scientific ocean, untiring, will never rest. In order to realize one's own aspiration, she gives up the general young woman's happy enjoyment, live the uninteresting life of shutting off oneself from society, only study hovering in her head and working. She, to expecting very all the time much one's own, she is unsatisfied with a physics master's degree, she will try to obtain the mathematics master's degree, she will be urging on oneself on the road of scientific research courageously forward constantly. Just making her show one's promises in the scientific field gradually according to this kind of firm and indomitable, forever aggressive dogged spirit, and become a dazzling star finally. In 1895, Mary married Curie. Later, people begin to call Mary Mrs. Curie. Later, they had found and drawn radioactive element radium for the first time in the world. Mrs. Curie is that a condition of work is more arduous, the apparatus is quite simple and crude. During the process of drawing and looking for the radium, Mrs. Curie is often in her " laboratory " In moving bag bitumen slay,it have they poured on mouthfuls of iron pans old, stir with the thick rod. Because Curie Mrs. it infers to be but unable to prove new element radium in theory just, so the board of directors of Paris University refuses to offer the laboratory, experimental facilities and staff that she needs to her, she can only carry on the experiment in a ventilative large shabby shed that leak of four sides that nobody uses in the school. She has worked for 4 years, it was the job of the clumsy chemical plant that did in initial two years, the constant one is dissolved and is separated, the end left is radium. Through more than 1,000 jobs hard on day and night, 8 tons of slay like hill only have a little liquid in small wares left finally, crossing for a moment becomes one and small pieces of crystal of crystallization, that is new element radium! When it is pleasant to the eye towards that small glass ware that she restrains the fierce heart that beats hopefully, she sees the sweat and the bitumen slay last results of 8 tons of 4 years are only a stain! Change others, can very angry perhaps, heavy to go off, break into pieces the small ware together with those group stain of inside! But Mrs. Curie does not have, fortunately not have. Mrs. Curie came back home tiredly, she lay in bed in the evening, missing the stain of that group, want to find out the reason to fail: "If I know why fail, I would not take notice of very much failing. Why be only one stain, one small yuans of pale or colourless crystal? That is radium that we want. " As if Mrs. Curie as if saying to Curie to oneself again. Suddenly, he got an idea: Perhaps radium is like that, it is not a ball of crystal like that as what was predicted. They stand up and go to the laboratory, has not waited for opening yet, Mrs. Curie saw her great " finds " from the crack : That unattractive group's stain, emit the dazzling brilliant rays at night at this moment in the ware. This is radium - -One kind has extremely strong and radioactive new element found! --------------------------------------------------------------------------------

	2009.07.02  15.19 The ground lights the hope First, the mouse loves the rice (2) " you are Ou and Bei Bei who talks about Noah's Ark primary school " ,Unexpectedly the teacher who is responsible for enrolling new students has impressions. "Yes, it is Ou and Bei Bei of Noah's Ark primary school, has he been enrolled? " Mother is in the heart " Ceng " The ground lights the hope. Hear words this, enrollment office all teacher " Ha Ha Ha " unexpectedly Place begin to laugh. They look through the examination paper which find out Bei Bei at once, spread it out in front of mother. The whole examination paper is just like a treasure picture of Tibet because should be countless " * "China finds one " "So difficult. Breed the admission examination examination question of middle part of the beginning of middle school of Great Britain Name: Ou and Bei Bei Take an exam of number: 0582 Mathematics question: Tortoise and rabbit race, the pace of the tortoise is 50 meters per hour, the pace of the rabbit is 100 meters per hour, the tortoise set out 6 hours more early than the rabbit, how much could you tell me rabbits can catch up with the tortoise after hour? A: Can not catch up with forever, because the rabbit has fallen asleep. Chinese question: Please use " not hesitating to do what is right " Make sentences in a word. A: At yesterday, father quarrelled with mother, I did not hesitate to do what is right, let them not quarrel. The question of English: Please translate this sentence into Chinese: Nice to meet you, Marry! A: Mary, after to meet you, I become beautiful. Current events question: The manned spaceflight airship of first that our country succeeds in launching is the number. A: Titanic.

	2009.04.29  03.38 This reason My Bai Juyi's collection, printed in 1992, compact, blue and green, only " Bai Juyi collected " on the front cover Four words, are printing " the classical literature popularizes the library " on the spine . People of collected books belong to edition to stress book, I does not. These words, are destined this book not to appeal to refined taste. It belongs to a series of of bookstores of hillfoot of high mountain " Popularize the library " In,it buy successively a little when it study in high school. A fair one say high mountain hillfoot this set, though white text all, collate typesetting and printing but bad, I seldom find the mistake at least. Not like a lot of ancient books published newly now, let people at a disturbance of the heart once seeing. I have very disrespectful attitude toward it. Before eating the snacks and falling asleep, used to catching this book in the hand, it is one of this kinds. See where is more interesting, fold up conveniently. So thick one, pay special attention to, come, pay special attention to, go me, roll over, come, roll over, take many years to remain, can be regarded as the miracle too. Compare that copy support, stand up high, have, wash hand burn incense browse hard-cover " whether Du poem mirror annotate " almost, its treatment is really poor. The same, I have no poem giving Bai Juyi a piggyback sedulously, bet with people that recite the Pipaxing,name of a poem of song of everlasting sorrow out of showing off in childhood, with the persons who deal with having an examination and carry while studying. Can translate, come out, think page several that roll over, finish thinking, translate, pass by also happy very also. Early morning of a back snow, Wang Xianzhi wake up, warm hands, careless to write down " duck head pill so good to act as, must collect, act as with you meeting each other tomorrow " at 0.33 square silk silk 15 words, ask people to send to the friend. Over thousands of years later, this square model of epistolary art is honoured as " the first card of duck " ,Countless collectors' specimen seal impression and autograph of the government official of the famous or not famous scholar in successive dynasties, close and numerous gathering it behind, become long paper of several Zhangs. The practitioner of a contemporary calligraphy faces such an awkward situation unavoidably: Each of works handed down from ancient times, each person's book family, all form a kind of absolute oppressing to him - -No matter study or break through. In an era of two kings, calligraphy beautiful to temper beginning achievable realm sedulously too, but life all the time, a kind of thing unwittingly of daily expenses. Tang people enjoy this kind too freely on the creation in the poem. The people's achievements are generally admired, but far from oppress among Wei Jin. The poem lacks a kind of absolutely authoritative model, everybody's very calm difference states oneself. The language of the poem, and not disconnection; The rules and forms of the poem only can be with the natural beat that experience. Inside seeing the legend the rich Tang when supported of those literary grace, celestial goblin ghosts and monsters can't help taking off the mouth " show " One, lift son thick " do one " Can be brought by the old woman of cooking stove and ignited, you will understand, " poem " In this era, it can be with the thing that is wasted to get more. Like Bai Juyi? Give a reason first. This reason is, Bai Juyi is the poet not writing the poem sedulously most.

	2009.03.26  17.58 I and three are bright I and three are bright (2) Take the car for two hours and get to Hefei, when standing in front of me in three tomorrows, it seems that time flows backwards. Think three is too bright to change at all, just as we have never separated! Three before one's eyes is bright, do not construct the rouge and powder, business suit; The style of conversation is temperate, graceful. Sight still as childhood limpid, voice as cordial like childhood even. Time leaves the very heavy trace on our face, but has not scratched a silk crackle in our minds. Embrace it gently, so warm in the heart. Three speaks frankly: "I adjust, have a holiday 5 day, add to weekend, accompany you everyday! " "Sure, just let me have a look here more. " The friend is a friend, how long no matter part! Have a talk, work, chat the daily life, woman and between the woman, always have topic that can not be finished speaking. Take out those will take a group photo those years, see the look in old times, give me an unexpected pleasant surprise three tomorrow. Three of today bright and steady and capable, responsible for the project management of agricultural science and technology in the municipal scientific and technological office, the work is fruitful. We are from talking in photo to reality, now from talking about in the past, will not want to start either, investigate that has not participated in either, we will have one's own time. The meeting was concluded, the representatives have gone straight on Mount Huang. I, and three bright and ready to set out, go, take the train not watching Nanjing Yangtze River Bridge, we first first that year, transfer to the car. Reach Bangbu, another city where I have lived in Anhui first. Anhui business school that the maternal grandfather has worked, has already renamed as the finance and economics university of Anhui now, it is said that enrolls new students to prevail in the locality very much. The school has built the new school area, the old site turns into an adult education institute and dormitory area. Light building that live in that year dismantle into ruins already, ask about an old man, remember to take the post as the president's maternal grandfather that year, say that is a very good old man. Less than 1 kilometer from the school, circle Huaihe River of the north and south of our country, the place where I liked being played most as a child. The embankment of Huaihe River built up in 2006 is extended widely, is the bank river parks of bright red flowers and green willows in the dyke, outside the dyke is the river shoal which has planted the wheat. The small cities of two main roads were nowadays lively and flourishing that year. In order to let me look at several more places, arrange the self-service trip like the ring of 80 days to visit bright the earth compactly three times. View and admire the scene of Chaohu, have a taste of the silver beautiful scenery of Ping Shan, strolls in Longchuan, visits Wuyuan, to the south of the Changjiang River between the Huaihe River in Cong Jiang; Between the south and the north of Jiangxi that grows green and freshes in Anhui with green hills and clear waters, the spring scenery has a panoramic view of in the South. On the way, three bright ticket, ticket wrap up all, more a special considerationly to add to me. What made me glad most is, three is bright to still relate to seven, eight primary school classmates and a form master's teacher. There are ones that come back from Shenzhen " Deskmate " ,That year small to assume the air of, turn successful entrepreneur into while being naughty. Though has not seen for more than 40 years, classmates are all Ann big sons and younger brothers, parents are mostly colleagues, a great deal of persons, things have countless connections. You is hot soon to have a chat, by the time make an appointment in the teacher has a get-together on the 70th birthday! Hurriedly, when the departure, three bright to take a group photo give me that piece one week. She says: "I have already kept it for 45 years, have given to you now, has been continued keeping by you. " The friendship is a need of the human civilization. Witness of experience of a representative of friends. Can make three bright such a friend in all one's life, I am really so lucky.

	2009.02.13  17.23 Turn over one to get rid of beautifully and greatly Turn Electronic Manufacturing Electronic Manufacturing Services over one to get rid of beautifully and greatly " The skin of misfortune " Happy to sit in one sun umbrella under the heavy light, letting doctor observe she 30 year old of skins merciless with all sorts of instrument so while being graceful. Conclusion of him whether one pronounce, judgement you Shao Hua has died. Then, a happy to receive while being graceful one one laundry list so long paper, write the age bracket typical skin issue of woman above: Including the capillary around the wing of nose is expanded, the day sunburn that appeared on the cheekbone suddenly, the cheeks collapsing silently, the decree line that is strengthening constantly. Have also reflected fish's tail line is more and more obvious, " Sichuan " of the place between the eyebrows on the list The word has been strengthened gradually, and has appeared the leather organization of tangerine even: Like contracting the chin Jue's mouth when being happy and graceful and curious, the skin can appear the obvious leather state of tangerine at this moment, all these make her unexpected. Really get, have no medicine, rescue, want until purpose excessive to review once beauty always? The doctor has perceived the happy and graceful despair, show that needn't also be too tense now, many measures should be to the present state. He has tabulated a long suggestion, it is happy and graceful to exhort: "Use more, let your collagen a little more durable. Certainly you must face one's own age with the optimistic psychology. " The beauty looks through the unmatched creed of one 1,Moisten skin need really but water but composition of moistening skin to lock ink. 2,Would rather promote the blood circulation carefully than pursue and whiten simply. 3,Vainly hope to dwindle the pore, might as well promote the collagen content. The Electronics Manufacturer best prescription transshipped Get back to home is happy to lose while being upset while being graceful, open suggestion that doctor give, the following worth several points that arouse attention relatively propose: The skin care products are upgraded Certainly some skin care products making people be unable to forget in the past ten years, but a right one is the familiar age skin apt to desiccate under the eyes, the cosmetics selected for use at this moment should be based on high nutrition, include the composition of many kinds of functions such as silks albumens, amino acid titanium, kind of vitamin A should begin to appear in your skin care products too, this is a miraculous cure of patch of resisting aging and going. Perhaps you pay attention to most when selecting skin care products in the past several years " The feeling that the skin is dry and comfortable " ,Then from now on, you want your habit of revision, feel and stick but the glossy skin care products are your first-selection a little. Eliminate adult's small pox Because hormone is secreted and lacked proper care, women of this age bracket are apter to encounter adult's small pox, pore stopping up or wicked first class problem. In fact the oil 30 years old is secreted and not so vigorous like that as in the past, make the words with clean deep layer, will injure skin cuticle, make skin to be easy to dehydrate, so skin clean focal point should place pore of dredging on familiar age, the resisting is had to strengthen the skin. In addition, the cutin is essential that the ones that separate for two weeks once go, such as particle form, includes fruits to go to the cutin frost impractically, including ethanol sour products will let the skin seem getting young too, but irritated skin with want, remember, make skin try on before this people of quality. It is essential to prevent suntan Almost 100% person, will get 30 longer big and small patch, reason lie in skin have memory functions to ultraviolet ray: Wait until one day, when the memory storehouse of the skin is full of ultraviolet rays, the patch appeared having no sign at all. So, even if indoors, overcast and rainy days should all prevent suntan, propose adopting the sun-proof articles above SPF30 while being out in fine day, it is indoors or overcast and rainy days Electronics Manufacturing China Electronics Contract Manufacturing at,it want it for SPF15,sun-proof articles of PA ++.

	2008.12.31  16.21 I believe I have no fault. I believe I have no fault. Love a person for having no fault forever. Though I have already had boyfriend cohabitting, a cover has a wife in the field. This share is loved, if has never begun, that will never be concluded. , want me this life, carry deep regret and unwillingness? Missed eight years ago, should be that I owed one's own feeling debt, the person who could repay to me, there is only a cover in fields. I do not have more excessive demands, so long as this night, the redemption that is got is both profit and capital. I did not think of the result, I do not need to think. The love is originally a flamboyantly reckless devotion, and the flamboyantly reckless one is asked for. Tonight, a skin is mine in the field. The whole world is mine. The paradise is guilty ' 11) Higher primary school secondary rainbow when the heavy two, say good-bye with the field rolls of skin finally. I am the first person who hears their news, even not later than a skin of field. Schoolmate as three years of the secondary rainbow of higher primary school, I keep in touch with her all the time, she does not know, it is for a skin of field that I do it in this way. It is big in term, she says to me, she will probably say good-bye to a cover in the field, because they are separated by too far. Do not say before producing beauty? It seems not every love accords with this universal law. Can only cherish the memory of if as the distance has exceeded certain limit, the so-called one is beautiful, but no longer let people yearn for. The secondary rainbow has not broken one's promise in the higher primary school. Beauty of her too pursuing like a myriad of stars surrounding the moon in university, can not resist it from the enticement around finally as expected. Higher primary school secondary rainbow say to me field rolls of skin go loud for the last time Even look for her, happen to hold hands and go out of the lift after running into she and new boyfriend's hand, it is hers on purpose. I believe. A cover is not believed in the field. Do not believe yet by today. The train that a cover reached of field, it is at four o'clock before dawn on Saturday. The time of opening of the dormitory of secondary rainbow school of higher primary school is six o'clock. A skin knows she likes collecting various rubbers, so go to Dalian to see her each time in the field, two time for hour, reach they that large supermarket near the school choose first will utilize, easy to give her the present as. That time, higher primary school secondary rainbow and her new sweetheart return all night will it be evening Friday, go to the supermarket in the one morning. Then, they see that stunned but pretend a skin of calm field. There is a silk excitement in the sound when the secondary rainbow tells me these in the higher primary school. Having done in the test from the small agricultural county town into the big city, she has already become more and more realistic. Compared with her giving up, I seem inmature to a leather one of field persistently. She make love to like can help her stay Dalian regarding as choose spouse important terms already, I, still to enjoying spirit to maltreat in the miss that the field one is leather. A cover has proposed saying good-bye at first in the field. This single excuse that has already given higher primary school secondary rainbow to betray. Does she say, he says that has said good-bye, why am I still pestering him? Wish each other, I do not hate him. Look, the secondary rainbow of many noble higher primary schools.

	2008.11.06  12.40 Chapter 35 Who injures whom (1) Chapter 35 Who injures whom (1) My heart begins to drop, fall to the hell beyond redemption, on this hot afternoon, feel very cold suddenly, so cold that think shortening into and rolling. Before several years, a woman walks up to mine so calmly to retrieve one's own marriage, and I, have the same courage and calm? I do not know when Xiao Cheng comes back, he, without notifying me, stand in the family. Open the door, become speechless because of astonishment, the family is much more neat, I smell the perfume of coke chicken's wing, I see Xiao Cheng's smile, I attack violently, embrace him tightly, embrace my love lost and found again. Xiao Cheng sees me saying, blue, you are much thinner. I see and Xiao Cheng, but you are fat, it is obvious how moist you are. I say impractically. We have a meal together, tidy up the bowls and chopsticks together, take a walk together, sleep together. Cheng Xiao still very fine to me, but heart of him seem, stand up from me far gradually, I always think some things can not go back, can't be counted as anything. Evening became desolately needn't take me by hand and could fall asleep again, he no longer looks at me with the expression in one's eyes of a kind of purpose haphazard feeling fan when I woke up too. Originally, I disliked that kind of innocent expression in one's eyes of his so, then let me think oneself was full of crime senses, but now, how I hope to see so moving and sincere eyes again. The night comes, take the last bus and shuttle back and forth in this flourishing city, everything bizarre and motley seems so untrue, drive very fast, there are many people too. Crowd among the crowds, it is so negligible to feel oneself is. This city is carrying these negligible lives of ours just like an enormous ship, I wonder when to hit a submerged reef. Suddenly, felt that was sticking to my back, sticking to closely when being different from the crowdedness closely alone, he loiters to rub behind me, the steam making people sick breathed out slides along my neck. Suddenly felt the hard and hard thing was carrying my buttock, in my slight sound of wheezing in one's ear with him. I am a piece of nausea, have almost vomited, turn round violently, a hand fan goes over to take advantage of a situation. The people on the car all become speechless because of astonishment. That man of wretched appearance casts a look at me fiercely, crowd to the other places. The mood has reached the limit badly. Get off, continue, move, the station will cross a side street to the district, at night, the light of the street is very gloomy, there is no pedestrian. Suddenly, felt who was following me, one is being surged and is being insulted, I had a look later, there is nothing, take several steps, turn round and have a look again, or nothing does not have. I begin to trot, a bit tense in the heart. Suddenly fled out from shade alone, nipped my neck. Too dark, but I feel indistinctly it is that man on a car, I begin to cry for help greatly, that man has hit over hand, my brain buzzs. He drags me to a dark corner, I struggle ceaselessly, call for help ceaselessly, the clothes have already been torn, the face gets angry to ache hotly and hotly, he presses me tightly, can not move, a kind of desperate mood is swarmed in mind. When downhearted, that man is knocked down on the ground very heavily. I seem to see the desolate figure that become. Two people you come I begin to fight, Cheng Xiao grow up than the man block head in dark night, it is very heavy too to produce the fist, I have never known he will have such a bold side too, his fist has dropped on that person's body very heavily, on the head. That person suddenly drew out the dagger, to becoming desolately shouting, rolled, the thing not imprisoning you, then, I hear Xiao Cheng give a loud shout, she is my woman! You dare to touch her, I risk one's life with you! I have seen that person washing over to Xiao Cheng holding daggers, black at the moment immediately, faint. While waking up, I am lying on the big warm bed at home. Xiao Cheng is looking at me by the bed, stroke my swollen face that stood up gently, his canthus is still bleeding. I am struggling, medicine on the wound given to him, one drop of tears and one fall down. Xiao Cheng says gently, It's nothing, It's nothing, obedient, don't be afraid. It is in I because of afraiding,but because sentence,she for woman of me! What a a word of manhood, let me think oneself is placed on in the heart by a man immediately, he will risk one's life with others for me. I touch his injured forehead, ache? Do not ache. And you? Faces are all swollen, whether ache? Do not ache. Let me see whether you have other things to injure. No. Deceiving people, you let me have a look. I insist on, let desolate to become, take off clothes, see he have other things to be wounded to rest assured really. At night, Xiao Cheng has already slept. I place hands on his palm, he has not reacted, has really slept. In my heart is a burst of pain, I think, I really love this man, really. My finger swims and walks on his body gently, on the face, the neck, chest. Xiao Cheng's nose is very high, like the Greek statue. In such dim light of night, the pureness that seems so. The finger continues to swim and go, swim over to his underbelly, his stalwart man's body stands upright slowly. I have stood up, press on his body gently, is kissing his ears gently, his nose, his chin, I chant in a low voice on his ear, Xiao Cheng, I love you, whether you know, I love you. He stand up gently, pigeonhole in body me, enter gentle so, broad-leaved epiphyllum tenderness like being open, with rippling surface in my heart, have got drunk in such tenderness, just like the whirling pasture and water in the bluish waves, dizziness in burst. He is kissing me gently, my face is still aching, but so painful as to make people happy. I open eyes and look at him, use all of my tender feeling, but his sight has been avoided sometimes. It is only one in the twinkling of an eye, having let me hit one immediately coldly and quiverly, all over thin and thin goose pimples have arisen, all tenderness thereupon leave too. I think, I am a person of too allergic sense.

	2008.11.06  12.40 Chapter 35 Who injures whom (2) new Chapter 35 Who injures whom (2) new But an undeniable one is, I really love so desolately as to succeed. I happy to make one little woman with all one's heart, woman to make him, it is desolate to succeed and like the food for me to make, wish him to come back every day, but Xiao Cheng comes back later and later, and is always very tired out. He is always on the grounds that the hospital is very busy with, I do not go to investigate, I hope one's own tenderness can call his heart back either, I believe, Xiao Cheng's emotion to me will not change easily, just, I injure him like that, this kind of injury needs time to remedy. I do not know how to get back to the past, but I was waiting patiently, how to cherish the memory of the day in the past, become desolately forever loving dearly me, a smile of mine can make him glad for several days. Xiao Cheng is still very kind to me, but he is escaping my sight consciously or unconsciously, escape my question, escape my tenderness, so, he would rather escape this family. Blue, whether have the other persons? No, Xiao Cheng is not such a person, can never, if he has a extramarital relation, the earth will not rotate. Don't be so self-confident, what thing it is now not to have, the mouse can also give birth to a cat, wash you like that, do not force others outside? Then for many years, have not progress at all. I tell you, like this on you, it is as before to become so many years desolately, I complain of being wronged for him, if he has any third party, I do not feel strange at all, deserve! Bei Bei, why speak, you? I pretend to get angry. Really, the ice is blue, as you know, it is all limited that people stand. I have not spoken. Cheng Xiao obvious to all in kind we in you, you don't think we can not find out to indifference of Cheng Xiao. You say, these do not say, another very private problem, I do not ask you either, however, if you will pocket Xiao Cheng in the respect of the sex, I would really think he should get rid of you early. I have stared at him. The ice is blue, you do not still stare at me, on you, I do not know. I tell you, you do not despise either, the good sexual life is absolutely the essential factor of maintaining the emotion. When have you become the expert? The expert has words to say, don't interrupt. The ice is blue, what do you know men are most afraid? I am curling one's lip and looking at her. Two things that the men are most afraid, first, the wife is unable to master. Oh, I smile, then how about two? Second, the lover begins conscientiously. I have seen her, the brain begins to rotate quickly, it seems that what she said is not unreasonable. According to your present situation, Xiao Cheng is unable to hold you at all, to him, will have a kind of mood swayed by considerations of gain or loss forever, he can control oneself, because he really minds you, in every case he has not minded you one day, your unlucky day will begin soon. Your cold one minute and hot next and suddenly salty, suddenly light appearance, perhaps make him fascinated very much now, but boring, oh Such a man of Xiao Cheng, what he wants is wholehearted. I am looking at Bei Bei, it is known that what she said is right, I understand all these reason too, but still so wantonly. I have already known, but what if now? Talk with him, have a talk carefully, nothing makes it clear frankly and sincerely, say your idea, tell your emotion to him. Oh yes, blue, have you fallen in love with him? I suddenly felt that there is pastry that is jumped and accelerated. Oh yes Bei Bei, I seemed the good friend spent more than two weeks without coming yet. Have? No? Suddenly feel very happy. Look at you, little kind, go to the hospital to look into. Go after deciding to go, I pick up and charter and run to the hospital. Make a diagnosis and write on the form: Positive. The doctor says, congratulations. All of a sudden the world is getting bright, I have children, the child of Xiao Cheng and I, our own child, I will work as mother. Run to the desolate hospital that becomes happily, a little too impatient to wait, I know how Xiao Cheng loves children, he is sure to be very happy, sure to lift me with hands in several circles of flicker, maybe, he also can flow tears come on happily. In from hospital two place of crossing, see one familiar figure hurriedly move opposite to the road. Then I see one young girl to desolate to succeed, run to, collude at his neck, fragrant in the street. Xiao Cheng has looked from side to side narrowly, seems to be blaming, but the one that shed in the eyes is happy and happy. They speak anything, speak anything, filling tenderness so, yes, I have suffered the retribution, even it is desolate to hear that girl in pairs and say, we do not have common language, can't come into mutual heart. My heart begins to drop, fall to the hell beyond redemption, on this hot afternoon, feel very cold suddenly, so cold that think shortening into and rolling. Before several years, a woman walks up to mine so calmly to retrieve one's own marriage, and I, have the same courage and calm? I should see, what I should understand, no? Xiao Cheng no longer stares at me so calmly and comfortably, however, I pretend nothing to see, I do not dare to face up to. Walk purposeless along city, tears fan cover with whole world so slowly right away, nothing see clearly, do not see clearly. The wine has entered the door angrily all over, Xiao Cheng has not come back yet, very dark in the room. My world collapses with a loud crash, but who can I blame? Ask the devotion that is reciprocated, yes, why we always understand too late. I have already slept on the sofa when Xiao Cheng came back, have spat the filth of a place.

	2008.11.06  12.40 Chapter 35 Who injures whom (3) new Chapter 35 Who injures whom (3) new He helps me to change into the clean clothes, embraces me and goes to bed. I hold him tightly, do you also want me? Love me? Care about me? I am shedding the tears ceaselessly. He say nothing, help me tuck in, horn, sigh one breath gently well. Chapter 36 I lost you (1) at last new Xiao Cheng leaves the house to me, has not refused, can be regarded as him for the child's, the child in the stomach needs money to support. I decide to give birth to this child, I like girls, but I hope this is a small boy, clear expression in one's eyes like have desolate to become, he will grow up slowly, long formation of image man like being desolate to succeed, will very painful very painful one carelessness offer as a gift, fall kindhearted evil spirit in human world. He is granted by Xiao Tian. White gull asks I moor the fatherless boat. Is it the body that stay? Is it the heart that stay? When if the heart stays, what locks the brow? I become reticent all of a sudden, Cheng Xiao question either, day live gingerly, like a few years, a kind of sense of loss and agony sunk in the heart, still envy, have envied that and stolen the woman with desolate heart that becomes. One sound tell I am whom you force such as the he, shouldn't blame him, but another sound tells me, can't forgive such betrayal, no,I can't. Pester in the heart, is struggling, can not wake up in the deep nightmare. Consider should how open one's mouth with Cheng Xiao, want, regard as, see thing that take place still, I do not know whether can accomplish by oneself, but I have already decided to forget all these are passing, perhaps it is for the child in the belly, perhaps it is for during the last ten years becoming love to me desolately, perhaps it is for oneself. Yes, when everybody makes a mistake, each man will join in the fun on occasion, who really bears and casts aside one's own knot to send to the wife? Perhaps picture tall and erect, Cheng Xiao look for to give vent to the mouth other emotion too, he will come back, sure to come back, he is the love, I. So long as he comes back, I happen in nothing, nothing happens. When considering all day even, Xiao Cheng talks to me first in me. The ice is blue, I want to tell you something. Eh, I am looking at his eyes. He does not dare to face up to, I. I know what he has wanted to say. He has spoken haltingly for quite a while, wishes to speak but not to do so on a second thought. Is it about her? Do you know? I have not spoken. Think oneself very cumbersome, why meet his thread of conversation, perhaps, perhaps he will swallow back the words if I do not meet, have no way, like this, doing things will all do clearly, will die a absolutely clear death too in the personality. Once said tall and erectly, the ice was blue, you were a clever child, the stage of pretending not to know but has not arrived cleverly, life must be a bit more confused sometimes. Your personality is too fierce, always tear the thing, present bloody reality to everybody, cruel definitely. No, I pieces of stupid woman very really, know how treasure emotion, know how save marriage, keeping oneself that little dignity and pride stupidly. The ice is blue, let's divorce. Why expect Cheng Xiao want until whom I talk about to divorce, I can bear to overstep the limit he, but he wants to divorce me. Xiao Cheng, I can understand the thing of you and her, but divorce, can you be a bit more prudent? The ice is blue, I have thought for a long time, I am sorry. Do you love her? He is reticent. Yes. She lets me think that is needed, let me think living oneself is in one's heart, the ice is blue, you know, what an important thing the heart looks for a family. I have collected you ten solid years in the heart, but does not have my position in your heart forever, I am really tired. My tears have flowed. Read in the heart silently, no, Xiao Cheng, you are in my heart, you are true in my heart. Feel oneself is very of no use, why not learn to express one's own heart forever, I am a person that will not explain. In fact, even it is useless to explain, I see, what kind of person I know and become desolately, once he decides, it is not so possible as the one that turned round. Yes, having used separation for one year, I found at last that can't leave so desolately as to succeed by oneself. And exactly the time in this year, Xiao Cheng finds, it perhaps can be more splendid to leave the my world. Blue, don't cry. You are just unable to accept this reality for the moment, in fact, have not needed me in your life at all, right? I but fond dream paid, perhaps, really finished this unfortunate marriage at time, it is free to give to you, give to me too freely. Moreover, the most important thing is, she has cherished my child, I can't abandon her to leave alone. I know how the desolate city hopes that there is a child's, he is sure to love that woman giving birth to the child for him very much, he speak what I hear at all, dull to sit in there, heart read quietly, no, Xiao Cheng, I love you, I want to give birth to a child for you too, but, how could let you believe? How could let you believe? My chest is very bored, the angry feeling that can't breathe heavily. Xiao Cheng has moved out, I live in this set of empty and hollow houses alone, it is unable to breathe that it is cold, I miss and succeed desolately, miss his warmth, miss that cup of warm milk in every night. And I know, this time, he will not come back again. It invite I by Xiao come out to the Chengs,at, on the coffee, Xiao Cheng of silence unusuallies island. I have lost all dash. I say trembling, Xiao Cheng, your heart has gone, yes? Everything is unable to let you come back to my side again, yes? Xiao Cheng remains silent. All lines that has decide forget, I whether piece does not can earnestly hope people of love. If the heart has left, let nothing draw and go back. Tremble at divorce agreement signing, heavy to drip tears drip, get on, the same as copper cash faints and opens, has said that does not cry, why cry again? Xiao Cheng takes over the agreement reticently. Time phone me definitely, I turn round to walk out, the tears flow up.

	2008.11.06  12.39 Chapter 34 Struggle (3) of the emotion Chapter 34 Struggle (3) of the emotion I seldom become the telephone desolately, does not know that it's time to speak anything, he seldom comes back from telephone too. I know what he is thinking, he is really desperate, he is forcing oneself to leave me, I know. He wants me to adapt to not having his day, just as he is making great efforts to adapt to not having my day. Bei Bei is said, why are you so stupid? How could let him leave? He has already decided, have not discussed with me. Your pig's head? Why not keep him? You know, your tears can keep him here certainly, Xiao Cheng's love to you is what nobody can be replaced. I have already injured him, perhaps we will be really calm. Blue, do you really love him? I do not know, I do not really know. However, I miss him very much, I am not used to not having his day. Then you ask him to come back, you tell him that you miss him, you need him. I do not know, I do not know, I am afraid, Bei Bei, I do not know whether this is love, I'm afraid to continue injuring him oneself. It is incurable that you are really. You know, I will not pray for the love. Is this earnestly hoping? It is really feeling that this only lets him know you. I do not know one's own feeling either, do not know better than him. Perhaps this's the real reason why we separate, we need time to see oneself clearly. If he loves me, time will not change easily. If I love him, time will be proved to me. Perhaps, the ice is blue, the happiness is actually grasped in one's own hands, you must not loose one's grip easily. It was burnt that I knew Bei Bei and to my having no way out. I am waiting for him to come back. In this more than half a year, Xiao Cheng has not come back, I have not gone to see him either, just my miss is denser and denser, do not desalinize because of time at all. My life has changed quickly, has got back to the five years ago confused state again, never have breakfast, the supper is taken not so badly bubbles, there is nothing except the apple inside the refrigerator. I do not bother to move, do not bother to tidy up, in the sofa, or write ceaselessly on the nest every day. Actually I was a confused person, only Xiao Cheng could save me in the confusion. I begin to look forward to his telephone, begin to expect him to come back early, begin to miss his warm hand in the dream, his smile, milk which he brought in for me and hot grass meal. Perhaps there is no person not leaving in the world, there is habit not leaving. I do not know the hands whether Xiao Cheng will also try to find out me at each night could fall asleep. On the first, a modest boy knocks open my door, the circumstances about eighteen nine years old. He stands at the gate timidly and timidly, wears a suit of very old sweat shirt and a pair of broken liberation shoes, could you tell me this is eldest brother Xiao's family? I am looking at him wondering. Yes, are you? I am a little tiger, the child is looking at me. I am looking at him wondering, is it busy to look for him? Have not let him enter the meaning on the door. Unless say child, unless it comes I to be the who thanks eldest brother Xiao, then the getting more timid to ask timid again,he then in? He is out, you sit down first, OK? I think which relative of patient it is Cheng Xiao, have relative of patient bring in pile present beat door of us often. However, curiously, this child has caused my strong curiosity. The child bends over to take off the shoes at the gate, put neatly, has come in in bare feet. Needn't take off the shoes to needn't take off the shoes. He take off shoes, getting mere foot, marble board for early spring heart ice-cold completely, I take out a pair of thick slippers to him quickly, the little tiger, put on quickly, catch a cold carefully. The little tiger puts the slippers, does not wear, the black foot is rubed with the hands back and forth, very narrow appearance. I am not cold, I can not be used to wearing the shoes, in our village, everybody does not go to school in the shoes, it has snowed and does not wear, we are all used to it. I see him smiling, but heart is very shocked, he laughs too shily, rubing the trick with the hands back and forth. Has poured a cup of hot water for him, do I say, little tiger, how did you know eldest brother Xiao? Why express gratitude to him? Does he say, is Nen eldest brother Xiao's lover? I say, yes, I am his wife. One sound kneels down in little tiger Tong. Elder sister, thank Nen, thanks, if without Nen, I will not have today. I am frightened terribly, support him to stand up at once, he is then kneeling on the ground, say ceaselessly that thanks. I say, little tiger, you stand up, sit down and tell me the story of you and eldest brother Xiao, OK? The little tiger lifts the head, several drops of tears circle round in the eye socket. He say eldest brother Xiao pieces of good person really, I I father die right away in the childhood very, my mother involved me and grew up alone, I got a kind of disease when 11 years old, needed to have an operation, our village is very poor, there is a ox only in the family, that was raised for a lot of years by my mother, having counted on it, I nearly grow up with that ox, but my mother sells the ox, I have seen my mother crying, I have cried too, I hate making my mother sad by oneself, later on, my mother also asks people have taken advantage of money to take me to the county to diagnose the illness on the village, she says so long as can cure my disease, even if beggar she admit money spend, county hospital does not dare, operate on too. Little tiger wash, slip away nose, bring dense mountain accent continue, say I on give a piggyback I come the town make surgery mother. The operation has been done, our money has been used up too, the doctor says I can't leave hospital yet, but we have no money to pay the cost of hospitalization, my mother is very urgent in the heart, the desolate doctor often comes to my ward to check my situation at that time, he tells me pain that many stories dispersed me, the desolate doctor is very warm while smiling, let me think that can live really well. We can't buy or sell on credit the accounts of the hospital, my mother really goes to beg in the street, I do not know, later, the desolate doctor had seen my mother at the gate of hospital, he took my mother back, the next day, someone handed in the expenses that I was in hospital for me, I knew that one that was handed in by a desolate doctor, he has rescued my mother and me. The desolate doctor knew the situation of my family, he lets me study carefully, actually I wanted to give up studying in the middle school, I can not afford to pay the tuition, more and more non- healthy my mother is, the ox has sold for too, my mother can not move the work in the field. The desolate doctor will supply me with the tuition every year, write to me, he lets me insist on, must study, must be admitted to a university and served more persons. I am from deciding at that time I would study medicine, I would cure the sickness to save the patient like desolate doctor, I will learn well to get back to our county, cure the disease for more poor persons.

	2008.11.06  12.39 Chapter 34 Struggle (4) of the emotion Chapter 34 Struggle (4) of the emotion The child has talked about this and cried again, he says, elder sister, Nen are the good person, I thanks Nen, I was admitted to the medical college last year, I was our first university student of the village, having gathered some tuition in the village for me, I have also taken stipends, eldest brother Xiao has also sent the money to me. Elder sister, I come, thank Nen today, I mother say we owe feeling of Nen pay off even lifetime, Nen are my big benefactor! Having finished talking about, he kneels to the ground again, has knocked the head very heavily. I am hurry supporting the child, one's own tears have fallen down gurgling too. I say, the child, your achievement was obtained by your own efforts, you must continue studying hard, it seems that the desolate eldest brother cures the sickness to save the patient equally later. The little tiger constantly nods holding the tears. Does he say, sister, when will eldest brother Xiao come back? He has gone to go on business, could come back several months later, I will tell him, OK? You should study hard, have any you in need of help to come to look for us, eldest brother Xiao can coach the homework for you too. The little tiger lights the head. Elder sister, then I do not bother you. Nen gives this to eldest brother Xiao. One newspaper wrap up scrappy more than 200 yuan. Do I say, little tiger, what do you do like this? Little tiger say sister, Nen must give eldest brother Xiao to, feeling I of him can be regarded as not to be over, it is his money, I am sure to return. I take stipends now, also took scholarships last term, in addition, can also go to work as a temporary labourer at ordinary times, getting enough, don't let eldest brother Xiao spend money again, Nen lend money I of me will return slowly later. Little tiger, you want, study hard, other things don't think we want you return money. No, sister, I must return, I have this ability, right? I am looking at this child's firm sight, there is one kind of hot feelings in the eyes, eh, little tiger, you have this ability, you must be competent, the sister has accepted for eldest brother Xiao. The little tiger is bowing ceaselessly, thank the sister, thank the sister, my mother has said, the good person must have good newspaper. The little tiger has left, but my heart can't be calm all the time. Xiao Cheng, is it what our institute does not know that how much have? All of a sudden want to miss him very much very much, miss my man of this warmheartedness. Hesitating to dial the desolate telephone that becomes, Xiao one sound of Cheng is good, my heart jumped up rapidly. I say, Xiao Cheng, me. He says, blue, you, OK? I'm fine, and you? I am very fine too. Thin? No, and you? I do not have. Then a large blank of section, this period of time that separate, I thought a lot, it seems that there are a lot of sentences to be told Xiao Cheng, but finally, a word can not even be spoken out. Oh yes, the little tiger has come, he has brought scholarships, specially thank you. Yes? This child, I know he is sure to be high-minded. Why do not you tell me his thing? I can hear him laughing slightly. Have nothing to speak. You are always that nothing is told me, I have a little angry resentment, click the meaning acting like a child in the non- conscientious area. How long, I have not crossed like this, have not been given oneself a start. Cheng Xiao there seem, meet very much even silence stands up. I have transferred to the topic at once. He has also brought more than 200 yuan, say it is the money returned to you. What? Have you accepted? Desolate to suddenly become the voice was improved by eight degrees. He says he has this ability, he must return. Why do not you have a brain in this way? Xiao Cheng has shouted towards me, do you know how high the tuition is now? How expensive is the price? Are not you the money from studying meticulously in his slit between the teeth? Have washed and carried hurt and wrongedly above immediately. What do you call? It is not I that ask he wants, he must return, what methods do I have? If I do not accept seeming to suspect his ability. You will return for me tomorrow! I do not go! Pa, desolate telephone that became over there has been hung. I hold microphones, the blind sound pouted comes inside, just as chest has stopped up anything, can't come up not to go down, ache bluntly and bluntly.

	2008.11.06  12.38 Chapter 34 Struggle (2) of the emotion Chapter 34 Struggle (2) of the emotion One suits of wine is angry in Xiao Cheng stocks the door, his Peng turns off the door for a while, oneself sit in profound to turn off, I wake sound that close, barefoot run to desolate to succeed. He pushes me open, the aslant body walks to the bedroom. Alcohol lets me stagger two steps, fall on the sofa, it is bright and orange red to look at the sofa, suddenly feel dizzy and disgusting. Unless vomit I ceaselessly at toilet it stand up, eat,spit light red water all. One drop of tears and one drip on back of the hand. Become and shut the clothing desolately and lie in bed, I lie at Xiao Cheng's side gently, he is turning one's body with closed eyes, heavy breath, I wonder whether he has already fallen asleep, has just held him gently behind their back, shed tears silently. Alcohol lets people feel sleepy and bad, and I can not fall asleep really, sleepy so soberly. Dream of Cheng Xiao either very smooth, hand of him try to find out while waking up in half half dream, seeming very agitated, I stretch hands to his palm, he was suddenly getting quiet, shaking hands with me tightly, sleep sinking again. In so many years, the hands that Xiao Cheng must be caught me could sleep smoothly. My heart begins to ache again, the tears have grown Radix Rehmanniae and flowed out. Having become desolately and already left while waking up, breakfast has already been finished too as usual, everything seems not to change, but I know, nothing different, I am an evil spirit, evil spirit all have sharp sense of smell, this kind of premonition makes me dispirited for a long time, is facing toward the mirror, looking at one's own red and swollen eyes, even does not want to go to the company. Cheng Xiao begin, afford to come back. Perhaps only in this way, he thinks that can face me safely. Xiao Cheng, you mustn't go to drink, don't go to drink. I beg. He is looking at me with blood red eyes, it is unnecessary you manage! What if you really want? How about wanting? How about I do not want, I want you to love me, can you? Can you? He is shaking me, since you can't, why in charge of me? How could you forget? How could make you satisfied? In so many years, am not I OK to you? Oh. He smiles, I know, this cruel fellow of yours, the heart that I will never get you, you, and Dong Xiao soldier than with me and happy forever together, but you would rather unwilling to give you people for all one's life to condemn me with that piece on the net! It is not just such! I do not want to listen to you explaining, please don't be in charge of me either! He pushes away me, throws oneself on the sofa staggering. Heart of me begin, ache really, expect, may lose desolate to succeed, have guts sharp aching unbearable. You heard from me, I had not loved the small soldier, I will not love him! ! ! You will deceive me, deceive yourself? I have not deceived you, Xiao Cheng, I have not deceived you! Have shut the door of the bathroom of Xiao ChengPeng's. Xiao Cheng becomes cold and detached and tough to me while waking up, he has few words, no longer inquire after one's well-being to me too, seem to ignore my existence, his attitude makes me sad, make me angry, but of no avail, he noisy with me, with cold and detached everything to resist me. Heart seems to be tearing violently again when being can be in he is drunk, sometimes he will push away me, makes me a bit farther from him, sometimes will hold me tightly, look like pieces of child general nest in chest of me, shed tears, say the ice is blue, I can have no you, I can't have no you. Sometimes, we will make love in the darkness ceaselessly, are drawing the other side's warmth again and again, it seems that only at this time, two talents are close, however, once sober, all these can go far, he suddenly became ice-cold just like statue of ancient Rome, make the emotion without any. I know Xiao Cheng's agony, the agony too in my heart. Xiao Cheng does not believe I will change, just the same as I do not believe oneself that will change, stubborn if the ice is blue, but change, the unmanned Kenya's letter. Enter the door on the first, Xiao Cheng is punishing his clothes. I stand there staring blankly, do not know what to do. He is looking at me, say, the ice is blue, I am sorry, this has made the decision without discussing with you. The hospital has a chance to go for nonlocal study, I decide, I think, we should give for one's own time calmly well too. Xiao Cheng will leave me, I feel empty after listening to him, it seems that there is nothing in the twinkling of an eye. When to set out? Plane of tomorrow. How long does it take to go? To one year, precise even uncertainly I half a year. I have not spoken, help Xiao Cheng to tidy up the clothes quietly. Ice blue, remember, want, eat on time, give one's own hot cup milk sleep, evening, your sleep is not good, facilitate the sleep, must have breakfast in the morning, should learn to look after oneself. There are red blood silks in Xiao Cheng's eyes. I lift the head, look at the sunflower in all over wall, does not allow the tears to flow. That night, no one slept well. Desolate to become, come hand to stress me again evening, I release, turn on quietly, turn one's body, the tears flow. I am such proud person, never wish to pray for the emotion, on even tears being unwilling to be seen by Xiao Cheng. The next day, I did not send Xiao Cheng off, I was unable to see him leave and pretending unmovedly. Perhaps I should do some and so on, but I just sit here silently, wait for the pronouncing of destiny. It is empty to have life at all while being hollow for room to become, every night, sunflower of wall that accompany me, feel some warmth.

	2008.11.06  12.36 Chapter 33 Transition (2) of heart Chapter 33 Transition (2) of heart Tall and erect, I begin, think, leave Cheng Xiao, he let me think, make warm, only warmth at the the world. I do not know whether this is love. Will know slowly. I want a child, a beautiful girl. Having taken place a smiling face tall and erectly, you have been liking the child all the time.

	2008.11.06  12.32 Evil spirit (1) that chapter 31 is worried Evil spirit (1) that chapter 31 is worried The one that saw while sleeping became the expression of child kind desolately, often ask oneself, such a pretty face, such kindhearted soul, why am I unable to love? Getting sad and dreary in the heart. The previous existence must have a certain cause between people and people, if not like this, everybody needn't all stand such torment with all one's heart. The day great waves are passed by out of fashionly, whether I no longer lose the temper with Xiao Cheng at will, or force one's own mood on his body. Sometimes I think, perhaps crossed the passionate age, was not have by even passion of quarrelling with Xiao Cheng unexpectedly. Want to change anything hard, everything is futile. In others' eyes, it is all a kind of happiness to treat each other with respect, but, am I happy? I do not know. But I know, such a state is abnormal to me, it is an interpersonal exchange way to quarrel, even mouth is unwilling to stumble, all of us become tired and lazy, do not become overcritical any more. Xiao Cheng's work is busier and busier, even on weekend, there is fewer and fewer time that we face, I am happy too, think even more one's freedom needn't be perfunctory. People often say, life only just joins as partner and lives, let oneself not be lonely any more, can't make excessive demands too much. But not be lonely if two people are together? Yes, it is not lonely perhaps, still lonely in satisfying. I know Xiao Cheng has taken every care, but still the heart not entering into me, I have taken every care, so choose silence, choose to accept such life. But there is nothing that is lying dormant in the bottom of heart, no the interest is unbending, there is no love, I know the exhaustion. The one that saw while sleeping became the expression of child kind desolately, often ask oneself, such a pretty face, such kindhearted soul, why am I unable to love? Getting sad and dreary in the heart. The previous existence must have a certain cause between people and people, if not like this, everybody needn't all stand such torment with all one's heart. I am very lonely, yes, I am very lonely. I begin to be crazy about the network again. My characters become lonely and dull. Say tall and erectly, the ice is blue, are you unhappy? I do not know, how to define happy? Tall and erect, you happily? Life is so, it will be happy a bit to see a lot simply. Can't let thought become simple, would not come on easy while being happy, the thought has already made, how can become simple? With usual mind. How is it the usual mind? Sleep and sleep promptly, will sit and sit promptly. It is hot and is fetched coolly, it is to the fire to be cold. How many people can make sure? We must work too hard vivid. People once the individual regarded as the society can't be too free. You are unhappy but see too clearly, clever people may be dupes of their own cleverness. Happy most persons are confused. I have broken, begin to conceive a novel, yes, I begin to come to like this kind of types of the novel. True and false is really really false, the personages among them express one's own mood to borrow, it is right or wrong and good or bad to in charge of him, the people there are free. Want, be oneself often but thing that can do transfer to people in the works make wantonly, think love but person that can love transfer to person of story go, love heartily. Xiao Cheng is looking at my story, frown gently, does he say the ice is blue, what are held on earth in your brain? He does not know, he will never know. Have not chatted with Bei Bei carefully for a long time, like in the school, talk about everything under the sun. Cherish the memory of such a day, think of a person who can keep no secrets from each other like that. Life has given us too much load, even friend is far. We will hide, will not allow others to see the helplessness in the eyes by oneself. The larger age is, the more understands, life is one's own, it is useless to say more, can not solve the problem. But we need to give vent to. The expression of Bei Bei is lonely, several years, see such a complexion of hers for the first time. Two people are not a person after all, too many things need break-in, sometimes feel very tired. Bei Bei is wan and sallow. I have not spoken, order a cigarette, is looking at Bei Bei through the smog. Each one has each one's troubles, the happiness has sides. His work is really too busy, sometimes I will feel lonely, think oneself is the less paid attention to, think the family has seemed into my own, very tired. He is making great efforts to give us a better living condition, but I am more and more unhappy. Perhaps you should talk to him, tell him your idea. The men and women are originally different thinking, you do not say he will not know. Have said, it is of no use. Perhaps it is he that stays in U.S.A. for a long time, the thought has already been assimilated. He needs more self- space. Not so OK? No, the ice is blue, you do not understand. And they independence too hope you the same independence too. Willing compromise on a lot of things. The ice is blue, sometimes I envy you very much, really. Xiao Cheng, to your forgiving, not all people can make it, you are really that growing up in happiness, one often fails to appreciate what happiness really means. Xiao Cheng can realize my forgiving me, even connive at, but this kind connives at and lets me feel boundless pressure unexpectedly, feel ashamed and regretful and shoulder the crime and often twine me. All feel very guilty after not selecting speeches that it becomes and goes off the mouth that gratuitous each time and desolate, I know heart of Cheng Xiao injure me riddled with gaping wounds already too. It is really every passing originally difficult to have to read. Lie in bed tossing and turning, which thinks of Bei Bei is really unable to fall asleep. Am I that really growing up in happiness, one often fails to appreciate what happiness really means? Is this kind of life really happy? Cheng Xiao half half dream tuck in quilt by the pillow for me wake up. A warm current has been attacked gently in the heart. Tall and erect, what is happy? The happiness is a kind of feeling, a kind of warm feeling. Evil spirit (2) that chapter 31 is worried I feel and make warm, but does not feel happy. Perhaps your consciousness is more obtuse. My sense of pain is more obtuse. In a word obtuse. It is then one second since perhaps, will lose the happy warm current by mistake. I feel frightened. To life, to the present state. I understand. You take the love too seriously. In fact actually the love was not all of the life, you should shift center, work happily, live happily, treat the person around happily. Perhaps. I just think what is lacked, I always think oneself raw for love, only the happiness that the beautiful emotion could make me real, the real one goes to do a good job of other things dynamically. Perhaps the love only gives an added grace to what is already beautiful to some people's life, I am not. You are too affectionate. Hate affectionately and vacantly from ancient times. I too merciless, tall and erect, I piece can people that move, why is so cold-blooded? He is very kind to me, well extraordinary, I should be happy, I should fall in love with him, no? However, tall and erect, you do not know, sometimes I even think it unable to face him, in the face of he being kind to mine, then let me feel guilty. Being diligent, I can not do. Sometimes that kind is guilty will let me feel vexed, in the face of he being gratuitous and angry. Even I am more difficult to speak with him calmly in a very long time. Don't give one's own heavy pressure too, life such. A lot of people live like this, has chosen to bear. He bears his choice, you bear your choice. It is a kind of happiness that it is kind that perhaps he thinks you willing to accept him to you. Yes, seem to understand some now, sentimental that there is a kind of destiny, but I am unreconciled. You see one's own heart clearly at all perhaps, what come on unwilling? I think life should such, think of half a lifetime later on, let me feel cold just. You are always pursuing a kind of illusory thing, then come to move oneself. And then go to read 'Gone with the Wind', perhaps can understand something. All of a sudden I feel afraid, fear that even walks in so dense fog one day, nothing see clearly, there is nothing. I have broken, is drinking water ceaselessly, see the wedding on the wall shining, the people there, it seems to be unexpectedly happy too.

	2008.11.06  12.30 Chapter 29 Sunshine (3) of justice Chapter 29 Sunshine (3) of justice Not taking Xiao Cheng's feeling into account for a lot of days, in the face of succeeding desolately, I have regret that can not say, he or nothing says, looks at me silently, put on a piece of clothing for me during the night. I see the cigarette butt in the ashtray, when does Xiao Cheng begin to smoke? Chapter 30 Wedding (1) of the little soldier Hands tremble a bit. Xiao Cheng sits nearby looking at me silently. Yes, seem I never for being desolate to become, dress up sedulously, thwart oneself grandly at little wedding of soldier. I suddenly began to understand the auntie, understood black full dress, long bright and clean nape, earrings of the tassel when the auntie participated in uncle's wedding and shied the expression in one's eyes of swan's quick glance. It is small for soldier and when love of rain lasting family the the blessings one,drive Yu Shi out of the family, but she is so warm and persistent a woman, stay on the small soldier's side firmly, she says to me, the small soldier is a person who is worth entrusting for all one's life. Yes, perhaps she can accompany the person in all one's life of the young soldier, she is the young soldier's timely rain. It it is it light to learns to be that soldier going to marry in news from when at mouth of rain,sit in rocking chair of coffee shop she, one suits of relaxation and happiness. To tell the truth, are looking at this woman full of vigor, I am feeling sad, envy her courage and her without hesitation attitude to love. Pass I at the finger of invitation card, brilliant one ring, expect that piece belong to fretwork silver of me give up, strong that while bearing wipes acid. Hope you can come. Envelope of pink warmth. Why? Because you to care little people of soldier really. Nod with a smile. I know the young soldier will be happy, meeting such a woman, he is sure to be happy. The little soldier is at the time of wedding, I am copying the eyebrow meticulously. It is in the past soldiers small like always it put on airs to I babbler,remember he most clear one piece have if avoiding, to Zhao Min of the parts of the babblerses when being tell me " slaughtering in accordance with it dragon writing " of. Hands tremble a bit. Xiao Cheng sits nearby looking at me silently. Yes, seem I never for being desolate to become, dress up sedulously, thwart oneself grandly at little wedding of soldier. I suddenly began to understand the auntie, understood black full dress, long bright and clean nape, earrings of the tassel when the auntie participated in uncle's wedding and shied the expression in one's eyes of swan's quick glance. I have put on the black long skirt too, is coiling up the very high hair worn in a bun or coil, just like the auntie of that year, go to hurry to the wedding of the once loved person. It is desolate to succeed for me to hold, hold out body very frank, different from auntie, I come blessing to send to me really, though is very painful in the heart, very painful. It is small soldier at being see by I in the past the insolent and at swords' points,it have a few area from gentleness, he look at I, lock in those happy girl at one's side on one's body the familiar sight of warmth warm no longer. I am not a little used to it. He will also smile at me, is that kind of wholehearted smiling at to the friend, yes, his eyes are no longer sentimentally attached to and love, he has really loved that clever and persistent woman beautiful. Suddenly a bit unstable under my foot, it was in one's arms that Xiao Cheng had me in time. The little soldier's mother has come over, is lifting the chin high. Why did you come? Taking obvious interrogation and not considering in the tone worth doing. Mother, it was I that asked her to come, if not because of her, I might not have courage to stand out and defend small soldier, in fact what you should be expressed gratitude to is that ice is blue. Shi Yu says. The little soldier's mother has not answered. Small eyes of soldier fluctuate, happen some tenderness, just one instant, can not catch again. When attend family of rain,but it is little soldier mother have wedding run getting grander very, she wants to marry and go home this wife who rescues the son vigorously, has never seen which girl the little army's mother has been right respectful and gentle like rain like correcting time. I really begin to envy this magical woman full of glamour. I begin silence, one drinks slowly, is looking at small soldier and lover around him, make nihility stand up before one's eyes, eyes have some moisture. Become me desolately and erect, has gone out of the wedding of the little soldier. On the car, I cry ceaselessly, cry bitterly sadly, for a long time, have not so cried delightedly. Xiao Cheng will drive very fast, will dart all the way. Lead our agony off with the pace. The seashore, my tears are still dropping down silently. The breeze blows through the hair slightly, brings the salty and salty breath. Smoking desolately becoming one for one, the brow is locked closely, there are no languages. For a long time, he wrap, at body of me, gather up clothes I say move, we come back home. You can't know hear touching in mind go home two word, as me, seem to suddenly see the direction of the dense fog, yes, I have families. I look up and see Xiao Cheng, he laughs unaturally, has kissed my forehead. Such a man, how I am injuring his emotion so selfishly, ignore his motive in this way? I begin to hate oneself. Said tall and erectly: People, always ignore the things around and leave and pursue the illusory realm. The love is just an excuse frequently. I begin to learn to care about Xiao Cheng slowly, go to care about this home. A long time, I nearly forgot the existence of the family, did not know when Xiao Cheng every day comes back, what he is doing, he is thinking something, he is busy, nothing is known, even he likes eating anything and does not seem to know. It is over how long we are not intimate, can't clearly write by oneself. Only know he will add the clothing for me when it is cool at night, give me warm a cup of milk before sleeping, how about me? It seems that nothing has been done for him. Think oneself very excessive at the beginning, very excessive, my father's words sound in one's ear, the child, remember, ask the devotion that is reciprocated. I begin to learn to cook and iron the clothing, wait for Xiao Cheng to come back home to give him hot soup each night. He usually comes back very late, and later, I know their work is when being indefinite, will not ask more. Just he will look at me with the expression in one's eyes which wonder very much and to be very complicated, then hold me in the arms, sigh deeply. I am not very used to following him intimately, perhaps has got along and spoilt like the relative, perhaps is just out of condition, except the small soldier, I have seemed to never find one's feet, I think, it is incurable that I am. My enthusiasm, has walked far gradually in the moon in then with that year the enthusiasm like the little wildcat. Now, I am only an ordinary wife, do the commonplace, does not have too much passion, there is no too much complaint, rely on this strong man at one's side, live ordinary day, I am very satisfied. Most family such.

	2008.11.06  12.29 Chapter 29 Sunshine (1) of justice Chapter 29 Sunshine (1) of justice Look the girl at the moment up and down again, very much beautiful to but have very good manners, clever to publicize, get, permeated with self-confident outside inside. In an instant, I have a kind of strong premonition, the little soldier will love this woman. This premonition lets the earth's core without rhyme or reason of mine be impractical. I am still rushing about and persuading ceaselessly, look for a lawyer, look for that girl unwilling to appear in court, I will never give up, never. At the parking area, someone withstands me from the back, I know, can never be a small soldier this time, it is alarmed not to have, I have already had nothing to fear. The shining knife has been rowed among the neck, ice-cold, there are viscous feelings. Am not I afraid, is nothing afraid, in these days, often linger over me desperately, what does desperate person have to afraid? Give you some lessons this time, more officious later, be careful. Threw me to the roadside after finishing saying. Under the dim light, several high strong man old loudspeaker loudspeaker go away. Stand up, the clothes are scratched, the neck is still bleeding, it is open but has the flowers liked in the heart, prove them afraid, prove everything that I make was not done in vain. A justice of soldier that I must be still small, sure. A few days later, a woman stands to in front of me. She say to me my name is Yu Shi, work in Beijing, lawyer, I determine, connect the Case. I look at she, young handsome good face, swift and fierce outline slightly, keen-witted and capable short hair, the tall figure is made and produced image of a lawyer not very ripe but very keen-witted and capable in the fit business wear. To tell the truth, I do not believe in this young woman very much, but I revitalize very much, someone would like to stand out at last. Do you know that take over the pressure that this case will face? I see. It perhaps will be dangerous, I have already been threatened. Untie the silk scarf on the neck, the blade not healed yet emerges. She is looking at me, did not obviously think, the expression was unusual, hesitated, say, I know. Since know, why connect? A lot of famous lawyers did not connect. Because I have no name, she smiles. I smile too, I like this woman. I know, she is willing to meet this single counter of reasons with her from afar. Is he your lover? No. But you love him, otherwise why is in this way risk one's life? I am reticent a little, say, he is a good person. She has already known everything clearly, so bright a woman, has cast a look at me definitely, I know. It is really lucky that Dong XiaoBing can have your emotions. I am looking at her wondering. She smiles, shows the lovely expression, I am a lawyer, the lawyer has dog's noses. Look the girl at the moment up and down again, very much beautiful to but have very good manners, clever to publicize, get, permeated with self-confident outside inside. In an instant, I have a kind of strong premonition, the little soldier will love this woman. This premonition lets the earth's core without rhyme or reason of mine be impractical. When sit during going island coffee waiting for rain each easy dress by Iing. The youth is permeated with, let people's whole heart feel and make warm. I am stiring coffee in the cup. Why did you say good-bye? I am looking at her in surprise. She means one's own nose. I smile, then you should scent and get. You are too clever, the clever woman often makes the man afraid. So you should learn acting dumb in right time. I say. She smiles, I have seen your seeking help on the net, curious at the beginning, the result Can not the result be controlled once began? She has smiled, the slight one blushes. You go to here, what if the work over there? The case is not a thing of one day and two days. Having asked for leave, the really not all right words resign. I am looking at her, a little shocked, always think everything will be so simple. Say I,when rain,it it knows you to be little soldier? She smiles without answering, I no longer question, so long as she is willing help, how good, it is desperate that I have already been close to. I say, please don't mention with the little soldier I come in the course of whole case, please, I do not want to let him think what owe me. Rain nod hour, it is in her eyes to appreciate for me to read. Mood suddenly see the light immediately, I rain believe, believe intuition of me too, she because money fight these lawsuit. The case not much difficult, the personages just involving it are too complicated, the pressure is too large. It want at first it persuade by girl come out it testify,I and when last shops little that girl work as a temporary labourer rain, shopkeeper say she walk already, go where who know whether, come to nothing, the boss asserts emphatically nothing is known. Suddenly remembered reporting a case and noting down in the public security bureau of the same day, asked the east of A of the faithful pal of the public security bureau to be checked, see whether there is any clue of that girl's, everything comes to him who waits, really have, age of names and ID card number. ID card number find girl the addresses of the household registers,I and when set out on a journey rain. A small town of Hunan, has a few ancient musical sound of custom left by a preceding generation very much, a deep peaceful river is accompanying the households of two sides, it seemed that time got back to some time passing, but we have no time to appreciate. Find girl's family, total how to open one's mouth, the girl's mother just comes out from the central room. Aunt, could you tell me Zhang XiaoQiao is here? Are you? Unless oh, read each other we two,when say whether secretary Wang let suddenly come of we rain, a bit the thing should be given smallly and exquisitely. Secretary Wang is that high-ranking official's trusted follower. Secretary Wang?

	2008.09.22  17.28 Master the rule of the mood Master the rule of the mood If one High pressure pumps| Mud pumps| Slush Pumps| Piston Pumps| Reciprocating Pumps| Water Injection Pumps| Metering Pumps|wants to master the rule of the mood, that is to say that should understand one's own mood and achieve the goal of controlling the mood, this it is one that say simple and too simple, say difficult difficult thing too. Key it depends on this person how much 's attention does it spend on earth, make how heavy resolution come, do the thing. The society control mood, the procedure that survive alone can't be few, certainly this is a game rule of nature too. If you do not observe, the nature will kick out of you this game. By the time, it is very difficult for you to have a foothold in this world. So it is a very important thing to learn to control mood, it is the skill that everybody must learn too. But very regrettable, find, few people can peep this broken nature's mystery according to statistics, that is to say, few people can really control one's own mood. Every day, when we woke up in the light of the early morning sun, mood sound have change quietly already: The happiness of yesterday has already been turned into today's sadness, or the sorrow of yesterday has already been turned into the happiness of today, certainly today's bad mood may be turned into tomorrow's good mood too, or is transformed into tomorrow's bad mood by today's good mood. In our minds, this kind of mood is just like pieces of rotary table, the rotation that ones that were not stopped are here, by happy sad, like worried. Just like that changeable weather, overcast and fine and indefinite. But we must know, the mood can not be controlled, even if they will change, so long as we understand how to control it, we can have kind feelings every day all the same. All of us know, mood has natural natural instincts, if you want to control one's own mood, unless control it with the strength that is made by oneself. Otherwise, the result will fail. The flowers plants and trees, it is the natural natural instinct too. If you want to change these, need natural strength to change. The flowers plants and trees grow with change of the climate, wither with change of the climate too. So the deficiency that we should learn to remedy mood with one's own soul. Mood be can changed, but people it is impossible for soul to change. That is to say people's natural instinct will not change. The gentleman is a gentleman, and the vilain is the vilain. When the gentleman is bringing the happiness to others, others will bring the happiness to gentleman too, certainly the vilain brings anything to person around, the person around will take the same result to vilains too. Then how could I control one's own mood and make us full of happiness every day? It is in fact very simple, but confront with mood with the mood. For example can confront with it with excited mood when you are depressed, you can sing loudly or that fierce sports drive away one's own depressed mood; When you felt sad, you can wear down such sad mood with happy mood, you can laugh heartily, can be in order to read more relaxed and humorous caricatures or movies and television plays. Proceeding from one point to another, in your fear, you should advance bravely; When you feel self-humiliation, you should find self-confidently, for example you change into the new clothes, change a self-confident hairdo; When you are uneasy, you should behave bravely, for example improves the voice, slow down step,etc.. In a word, we can't let such bad mood push way by shoving or bumping in our heart, destroy our mood wantonly. You know, this kind of mood is while destroying our mood, in fact consuming our energy too, let us spend more strength, but has done less things, or do the thing with poorer quality. Moreover, this but also a vicious circle, will cause our mood to become worse. Natural mood is a double-edged sword, good mood can help us. For example when a person is in high spirits, it is all quite temperate to treat the people around, improvement that speed will be obvious. And but when a person is depressed, more mistakes will happen. So if the double-edged sword spend bad, can go wrong, will bring heavy trouble very to our life and work. So the best method is keeping the stability of our mood, try not to enable its big rise and big fall. In this way, can keep a kind of calm mental state, then add rational function, will surely stabilize our mood under the safety line. But this kind of reason and mood are not totally opposite, but there is the connection. For example a reason that good mood can be given to us points out the direction, make reason prone to riper, more complete. Let thinking of us just smooth in this way, mood just happiness, whom fulfillment reflect strong, step that advance just relative to accelerate. In a word, one mood change rise and fall very heavy person or change frequency high people very, no matter how their ability of handling affairs is, some mistakes will always happen or do some things not understood by even oneself to them. Sometimes will lose one's own choice judgement. In this case, the people very unfavorable, so one want, want, in position of advantage always, have to control one's own mood. When controlling mood, mood that the greatest obstacle is is impetuous. It is a kind of common fault of the modern's to be impetuous, include envying, vanity, short-sighted, even has and impractical, a series of psychological conditions of aiming too high etc.. Some people only want to do the major issue, illusion becomes millionaires in one night, but there is not any action. Mood of them at all unable to calm down, flighty and impatient and angry and rash, watch everything want, go, reap profit, breaking off corncobs like the monkey, breaks one off with the fingers and thumb and loses one, but final result is gainless. The ones that if you want to control a person are impetuous, everybody has different methods, the efforts that everybody will pay are different. Some people are very apt to accomplish, becoming one and far away from the impetuous person quickly, some people are still that discredited temper all one's life, there are very great relations in this and a person's personalities after all, if is a person with gentle mood, then he can calm down soon, it has been left naturally that just very impetuous. One temper one lively person very actually, if he make a change to come over these kind of temper, it would be better to ask him to lift the earth with hands, so should think it is more difficult for this kind of people to control mood. Unless but no matter who he is, these points it so long as accomplish,just basically can with: 1.Hint oneself Remind more oneself every day and put gentle some of the mood, must not be irritable, try hard to make one's own mood quiet, keep calm. You are when being impetuous slightly, you and encourage controlling one's own mood oneself with this kind of hint, will become a kind of habit as time passes. 2.Form the law in life You had better let one's own life become methodically, let one's own life full of laws. After forming the law, you will find, life is not to make you bored. Because after living a regular life, every day you know what oneself want to do, know too what oneself should be done. In this way the mood will be much better naturally, and such good mood will facilitate your dealing with every day's life and working with the calm psychology finally. 3.Participate in sports more Practice has proved, a relaxed very good method that sports can let one's own mood keep happy. Because sports can make people release the surplus energy in the body out, and the mood that these surplus energy can often stop up people just like those residue is discharged, cause mood to be out of control finally. And sports can just give surplus mood a way to discharge, when flowing out the sweat liquid, your mood especially those bad mood just follow to flow out outside the human body. 4. Return to nature Common people have the feeling, as us in climb the mountain or go forest stroll, the ones that know and does not alienate oneself very much put one's own body and mind into nature the sound listening to the nature attentively, go to breathe the fresh air, we will find all troubles will die with wind at this moment. The originally gloomy mood will be immediately too the smoke scud breaks up. You will find actual oneself in the natural course of coming back at this moment. Note: Teach you how to learn " Plant " Happy: 1,Environment. If is happy like a flower beautiful, then the earth that the environment of a person's life survives like the flower, need people to often hit and pay attention to tidying up, often beautify one's own living environment, keep clean and fresh, it is requirements with kind feeling forever. 2,Soul. The feeling that please be kind, there must be a healthy soul, but not a soul of worrying about petty gain or loss, the soul with kindhearted health can let us experience and experience all sorts of external happiness. 3,Interest. One's interest is a person's happy source forever, especially when you feel blue, the interest can often play the function of a kind of good medicine, you will forget all of your troubles in your interest calmly. 4,Morality. "it walk one hundred it is in Germany first " ,If one have good morality, no matter how does it make heavy efforts or can't have happy, keep noble morals realm only, could body afraid shade to be aslant, could receive others' respect too, it is admirable to add, let oneself grow thickly happily at the same time. 5,Friend. Leather Handbag Pet Carrier Leather handbags Handmade Jewelry| If have no friend in your life, then this world must be the paradise for you, but the hell. Friend happy nourishment, have friend, trouble of you can leave half only, and your happiness will be doubled.

	2008.09.05  11.40 Have voice to knock door--one Have voice to knock door--one A piece like, Unique Handcrafted Jewelry|Heart Necklace| Handmade Earrings| bother he so always. He know A piece in fear him can die unconsciously. Pass for a long time noon, A piece begin heart again. If he has already died, that should be how to deserve the thanks. He draw up, let oneself sink, bury pillow to reach like those mire, sink a bit more deeply. He hopes he is a stupid and hard fossil, he has died! That is better! He determined to go, promise A one to knock the door. "Mr. Lu! Mr. Lu! " A piece ask two gently. He does not even bother to change while being angry, sinks and buries oneself so stubbornly. "Mr. Lu! Guests see you. " He " Huo " Raise,sit it if standing up, come,as if biting by one of him in the joints of inflammation in that, make him experience violent releasing for a moment pain. "Say I am sleeping! " He shouts and scolds loudly, " why do not you say I am sleeping? " He pair hold High pressure pumps| Mud pumps| Piston Pumps| Reciprocating Pumps| Metering Pumps| Water Injection Pumps|one's own head in hands, feeling and irritable mood of pain make all energies of him dash to brain. He feels dizzy for a moment, one slice is boundless and indistinct at dusk at the moment, the whole world is facing toward him with a scene of gloomy face. He closes eyes tightly, says mumbling: "No! I want nothing! " Gradually, those dizzy feeling for a moment goes from his brain regression, the hot energies are calm gradually to boil, he has shaken the head, is closing eyes, face upward the head is leant against the railing to the bedside, he is feeling elated and exultant slowly, world by boundless and indistinct to clarify gradually in rapid whirling dusk very, show some light gradually. He opens eyes, see the door already pushed open slowly, he looks at ?- fixedly that crack pushed open gradually, he plans to break out greatly, is not in charge of the leg again and ache even more, he wants to break out furiously. "Who lets you in? Someone lets, you " "It is me, Handmade Jewelry| Beaded Necklaces| Hair Brush followed in the land, is me. May I come in? " It is seized with terror to live in for land to follow. Eyes are watching that woman standing at the gate, a thin thin, pale, slim and fragile old woman attentively after magnifying. Her kind and gentle eyes were followed and gazed at to the land gently, her hair has combed a piece of chignon smoothly, hang down it on the back. A black wide and wide knitting wool scarf, wrap it on her gray cheongsam. A kind and gentle smile that her thin and unconvincing lip splits. "It is you! Rare Wei! Who let you come? Rare Wei! " Follow the clatter and relax oneself rightly, helplessly in the land, ask one to her weakly. "Let me see you. " The old woman says. Turning round and stretching out the hand has shut the door gently, " I think, I should come to see you. " "Yes, you should come to see me. " Follow and say painfully, " see I look like an injured lion in the land. " "Follow in the land! Don't say so. " Rare Wei is said slowly, comes over, in front of going to the land to follow the bed, even up the woollen blanket followed in land, stand up by pile pillow, look for two cushion again, behind whom land follow pile. "Sit like this, will be a bit more comfortable. " She says. Follow seatedly quietly in the land, put hands on the woollen blanket in the front. The pillow is behind him, there are soft and nice and cool feelings. His blood drops slowly from the bloated brain that asks. The one breath that he has appealed for, see rare Wei drawing a chair, puts by his bed, go two cup tea upside down again, put at he tea table by the bed together, a cup is taken among one's own hands, then sit down on the chair, she looks at the land to follow and smile again in this, say: "Do not tell me, you are really unbending enough while being ill. " She has a taste of tea, " accompany me to drink a cup of tea! " Land follow, Handbag Manufacturer Leather Handbag Leather Handbag Manufacturer stretch, take that cup tea, sob one, getting green tea bring one fragrant, pour into his body. He begins to think the blood prevails a little more flexibly. "You have not accompanied me to drink tea for a long time! " Rare Wei is said. "Yes. " Land follow voice bring the apology, " for many years! This flashes! " "These years, all of us have done many things. " Rare Wei is said calmly. "Yes. The book which you published, I have read. " Follow in the land and say. "Which do you like? 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I love you, follow in the land. " Follow and force a smile to shake the head in the land. He says: "But I know, you no longer love me. You come to see me now, not because you love me, I am old, also disease, also good-for-nothing of no use now, you come to see me being because you should punish me, I know. " "Follow in the land, does not need such nervousness. Your mood is abominable, I come to see you. But this is because I love you, I want to punish you. " "I do not like accepting and taking pity on. " "But follow in Fashion Handbag Manufacturer/Pet Carrier Leather handbags the land, as you know, in front of how many years, I hope you are old, also disease, also good-for-nothing of no use, if so, you are on then talent, not so sharp, do not move swiftly; I would not be so lonely too. "

	2008.06.19  14.28 Needn't meet each other for the first time in life Needn't meet each other for the first time in life (Beaded Bracelets) Can't help going downstairs, I worry that woman sitting by the park fence crying very much. Sob of her very depressing, undergo she side take a walk, a lot of people go back excessive strabismus she indifferent, she leaves alone, sobs with rapt attention, the indifference of a face. I want to go over to pass her a paper handkerchief very much, because I find she holds a thing in the hand tightly, wipe and wipe ceaselessly, already very dirty? But when I am close to her, she look up among being in a trance, one face of cold lights, and those empty expression in one's eyes of having nothing to compete for with others, hit me in the twinkling of an eye, made me hang back. Remembering such same sight, I still shake. Before that is the first time to go to CCTV large tower? A woman with very fashionable clothing cries by the tower. It is people strolling about too by her, nobody has and goes forward for inquiry her, she, has been carrying and facing toward crowds all the time, has not turned round. Then I went on, in an instant when I stretched out one's hand to draw her, jumped up for a while in her whiz, ask me in a stern voice: "What do you want to do? " I become speechless because of astonishment, tongue-tied for the moment, I, want to help you, is afraid what things you have. But that pallid light has been penetrated over through the sunshine, fix directly straight, cold as ice and frost, sight this, have a look nearly first minute such as I coldly, then, she turns one's head and walks, before leaving, throw down a word: "Neuropathy " I faint, I become neuropathy. The lessons drawn from others' mistakes, will meet this afterwards, will have a lingering fear, really can't help, just far stand in that, fear any accident. Perhaps, some people are sinking on the grief, that world is her close sky, belong to her territory, does not roughly hope that there is what strangers hit in. The law that so-called people and people repel each other is not unreasonable. But this time, I can't help going downstairs again. Because different this time. It is dark, and very cold today, she is a heavy woman of the stomach, why let me rest assured? Then anxious and fearful on the ground, I look like, explain like the a stuttering pupil, you mustn't have hostility, I am a resident in this district, so late, what may I help you? Penetrate pallid light of her again it come over,than first I through when the getting stronger. I step back one, want, leave, say, " really, it says to be coldest day such as Beijing in today then, do you go home early? " " family " ? Her pallid light has been returned, then wail, he does not need me, I have no family She rocks. I run two steps closely, go forward, support her. Elder sister, or else, we go to McDonald to sit, your whole body is ice-cold. ¡Â She is getting soft, the previous pallid light has disappeared, the ones that took the place of it are helpless. Wholesale Picture FramesI am true, do not really know what is to be done? This sample now of mine, what shall I do? Originally, it was a cohabitation story that had illicit intercourse at the beginning and deserted her at the end, she pieced together for many years together with him, from Guangzhou, to Shanghai, then accomplish the business in Beijing together, eight years, buy house, buy the car, settle at long last. However, the man will not want her, leave to her an empty house and a baby borned soon, nothing but empty room is left. I blind, follow the livestock, no matter how he engaged in woman outside, I bear, he want, let I what is to be done also on earth? He, say child of stomach wild kind also He still can be regarded as people? Let me grow the child and confront! I calm down, in fact the elder sister, he is a livestock, suspect your child is wild kind, already like this. You grow, come down child, these one I am unable to interfere, however, you have decided, in order to hate letting a life come in this world, do you think you deserve? In addition, between you, can retrieve? She shakes the head, certainly says, already impossible, he can not come back again, he has married that woman. Yes, flowing water go already no longer. Why a person scold him in the cold wind, blames him, then not hate him worth a pinly, what's the use of this? Human society men and women are so, while having love, you are the treasure of my palm, dig the heart and draw the lung and will not grudge; When the love is left, it is that spirits are too inhuman to vent one's harted to curse 18 generations of his forefather. The love hates it, is the love conversely; It is hated that coming over, it is unreasonable. Several is good again several is bad again, it is the same as a person, she, he, perhaps when you are initial, help each other when both are in humble circumstances after all, so when the world collapse, is it unnecessary to be new lawsuit come out like the overturning rivers and seas hatred old account. After all, the person that that animal is not so good as, live with you, demote it too ruthlessly, hate too deeply, ravaging oneself, it can only be angry and difficult to hate to subdue. I know at this moment, anything that I have advised, she will not hear. Only listen to her crying overflowing sound, abuses, and curse. Perhaps, she is in dire need of an audience. Finally, I remind her, would you really like to leave this child? Do you confirm you have the ability to only like not hating for children? She lowers one's head and says no words, is the tears of the cloudburst in an instant. Yes, still in the love, no matter how scold, how hate, how to demote, that is not a man's man, still there is weight in her mind, what is to be done? Then, for the child seven months old, please go home. Friends to phone you, let them look after you, otherwise the child has produced everything, you regret having no enough time. She is looking at me suspecting, for a good while, nodded at last. Why the beginning meet each other in life? The love was hated, has hated liking, wrong loves, it is shut that feeling hatred is difficult, between the men and women that have in this world,Tin Box=>Imitation Jewelry=>Handmade Bracelets just such a thing. As the disaster came suddenly, there are several women anciently today, cut messily and roughly, no longer struggle from then on?

	2008.06.10  16.11 The setting out on a journey taking the human body of sensual pleasure to one's heart's content The setting out on a journey taking the human body of sensual pleasure to one's heart's content Whether remember you have taken the train and passed through plain and passed through the forest and passed through land that the large stretch of mere shadow interweaved for one year, outside the window midsummer impatient cicada chirp, have jade green branch train washing, breaking, shedding bare-knuckled once in a while. You are in weightless state all the time, soul breaks away from the human body rocked in the carriage, break away from sweat excessive excessive body send out steam, sweat angry, tinea pedis and interweave smell, the independences it break away from human world the fireworks on slices of dark green wind, from hair to toe pore breath freely in big mouthfuls per piece from on it is the cool, and the face that the wooden leaf shade outside the window skimmed over you in succession seemed they have been growing there all the time. The youth on the road of love is swayed on the cloud. The terminal point is the basement of dusk, the outmoded taste warm orange desk lamp light of a book. The human body which takes you looks for the spiritual habitat. Poet of the cultural center of cultural center of the poet's celestial lake poet and poet on celestial lake. This is a mirror with youthful one side, human body and soul are split in the two sides of the mirror. The human body is like the earth, the life is turbulent, all concealed desires are covered by the calm and deep and serious surface. Soul, it is in the terminal point of this train, in the library basement which is full of fragrance of books, under the warm and ambiguous yellow light, the pure white brilliant rays that the porcelain gave out. Poet Chen Qing is like the burning hot smelting pot of magnetic factory, the earth is entered, white magnetism comes out. It is Zhou Yu, how could you find sustenance on a poet, the eternal eternal dream of celestial lake, eternal poet and celestial lake coexisting, celestial lake, not in human world firework. RELATED LINKS: http://www.blogfixe.com/?w=enjouy http://terminals-blocks.blogspot.com http://www.teenblog.org/terminalblock http://www.blurty.com/users/terminalblock http://terminalblock.outblogger.com http://terminalblock.blogfreehere.com http://terminalsblocks.wordpress.com http://www.bloglines.com/blog/sanny http://www.getablog.net/terminalblock http://www.soulcast.com/terminalblock

	2008.05.29  10.46 12 constellation music (two) 12 constellation music (two) 12 constellation music ---Cancer --Cancer broadcasts (June 21- July 22) Implicit, wholesale mp4 players devote, illusion Divine by astrology and learn to say at home: (He sensitive to have sympathy, people often can reveal innermost thoughts and feelings give to him automatically; He keeps old friendship in mind, loves the family, it is one that gathers the wealth expert; He contain.) What kind of musical competence responds the gravitation of the moon generally like the tide, reflect various mood of Cancer is changed? The happy stereo arises, pat the sound of the coast accompanying by the tide wave, build out a soft and comfortable atmosphere. One layer of development gradually in the musical sound of the flute, clarinet, cello of melody, rhythm is steady, orchestrate more and more abundant, surrounding in one safe comfortable mother people slowly **In. What kind of Cancer does the musician explain? Listen to carefully diligently, that is that Cancer is full of accepting gentle soul. 12 constellation music ---Leo --leo (July 23- August 22) Generous, warm, just Divine by astrology and learn to say at iPhone Accessory home: (He loves the life, warm and strong; He wishes eagerly to work, liking some easily and easiness; He like crowd, and generous present everything.) What kind of musical competence shines lions out purely as dazzling as pure gold soul? The music is grand, if the sunshine is dazzling; Smooth chord, plump orchestration, lively harmony. What kind of Leo does the musician write out? Unlock mind to listen attentively to, that is from the most warm sunshine of heart of lions. 12 constellation music ---Sagittarius --Sagittarius broadcasts (November 23- December 22) Free from philistinism, independence, sincere Divine by astrology and learn to say at home: (He yearns for the distant place, pursues the truth; He is sincere, responsible for, the ambition is spacious; Of the the journey, he lights and frees from philistinism but has spark of intention, has illuminated the dark place.) What kind of musical competence sprawls the journey that Sagittarius is advancing constantly out? It is happy to be full of iPod accessories keyboard and blow with dynamic rhythm, like advancing incessantly like the horse's hoof; The bagpipe plays out the yearning of the conditions and customs of a kind of foreign country, is leading the vagrant hoofbeat, do farther even more. What kind of shooter has the musician learnt? See! In the music, it is the shooters deepest yearning of heart. 12 constellation music ---Virgo --Virgo broadcasts (August 23- September 22) Bright, purity, reality Divine by astrology and learn to say at home: (He has strong intuition type understanding ability; He is good at analyzing, pursuing the perfection; No matter anything, so long as send to him on hand, can unquestionably succeed. )What kind of musical competence agree with perfections pursued in the abyss of the mind of the unmarried girls who pays attention to the order? Simple and beautiful melody, the rhythm of the rich rule, clean, uncomplicated orchestration, the permutation in good order of the music theme, what kind of unmarried girl do musicians write down? Listen to carefully with all worries set aside, in the music, it is the most pure life of unmarried girls that pursues. 12 constellation music ---Libra --Libra broadcasts (September 23- October 22) Perfect, harmonious, just Divine by astrology and learn to say Pullers at home: (He is graceful, is American, love, peace, bright incarnation; He has pleasant glamour innately, can do the best to prevent all dispute; His soul There are artistic senses.) What kind of musical competence applauses and draws Libra balanced and harmonious peaceful world? String music with slow urgent pace advance, leisurely, sedate; Harmonious and steady music, has formed soft and graceful, smooth lines, is full of poesy. What kind of day does the musician write down the balance? Listen with all worries set aside, in the music, the soul world of the beautiful equilibrium of balance of day. 12 constellation music ---Scorpio --Scorpio broadcasts (October 23- November 22) Change in quality, surmount, upgrade Divine by astrology and learn to say at home: (His expression in one's eyes strengthens sharply, stings into others' soul; He does not fear everything, it is sure to overcome all blows; Being dynamic, he make a thorough investigation, changes in quality and changes in quality and then.) What kind of musical competence deepens the deep soul that Scorpio is changing in quality constantly? Music is full of mysterious strength, the melody is developed thoroughly gradually, climb it to newer level, it is deeper and wider gradually and deeper and wider gradually. What kind of scorpio have the musicians written out? Listen with all worries set aside, that is hiding vitality of scorpio. 12 constellation music ---Evil Castrated Ram --Capricorn broadcasts (December 23- January 20) Make by oneself, serious, reason Divine by astrology and learn to say at home: (Being strict with oneself, he always gives out a kind of sorrow, serious breath; He swallows humiliation and bears a heavy load, adapts to the current situation, can obtain the last victory; People Potentiality can't be measured.) What kind of musical competence opens the sorrow that Evil Castrated Ram hides deeply, the soul in lonely? Steady effective low frequency drive concise melody, walk unhurriedly, advance forward, sink more and more while being dark more and more; Music with simple orchestration, gentle pace, slowly, slowly, come into the world belonged to and pondered of one. What kind of Evil Castrated Ram has the musician written out? Silent to sound, being climbed in the music forward constantly Apparel Accessories by Evil Castrated Ram, the self- degree of soul smelted.

	2008.04.18  11.51 Memory card and storing the difference of the card and each characteristic (chapter 2) Memory Card and storing the difference of the card and each characteristic (chapter 2) Memory stick Memory Stick of Sony Memory Card It is Sony (Sony) The patented product of the company, Memory Card mainly apply to the digital apparatus of Sony. Memory Card Divide five kinds of specifications: 1: The rectangular shape of Memory Memory Card Stick ordinary memory stick, apply to apparatus such as early Sony digital camera 2: Memory Stick pro Memory Card Ordinary memory stick of the high speed edition 3: Memory Stick Duo Commonly called as Sony short and excellent, stature is some smaller than ordinary memory stick, used mainly in Sony famous PSP game machine and other Sony products. 4: Memory Stick Duo Pro Surge Arrester Sony's short and excellent high speed edition, it is common to be and ordinary and short and excellent. 5: Memory Stick Micro Surge Arrester Abbreviated as M2, it is the new members of the memory stick family that just appears on the market, the characteristic is that the smaller pace of Surge Arrester the volume is faster, mainly apply to asking for the advanced mobile phone of the love. Surge ArresterBesides Sony producer, Surge Arrester Sandisk,etc. store card manufacturers to make in the memory Surge Arrester tick of Sony at present, compared with original packaging Surge Arrester Sony memory stick product quality is not inferior 1 Now we come to know Leather Handbag the compatible relation between various storage card interface Compatible digital apparatus in MMC card interface of SD card Compatible apparatus in TF card interface of Micro SD card Sony is short and Leather Leather Handbag Handbag excellent and compatible in the memory stick of ordinary Sony, but need the adapter. M2 memory stick Leather Handbag because of new product, can't spend media reader, can Leather Handbag only join with his adapter attached. Leather Handbag And can't be common with the short excellent rod. Leather HandbagCompatible digital apparatus in RS-MMC interface of mini-SD card. Digital apparatus that Leather Handbag CF2 card can't be compatible on CF card interface. Leather Handbag But can be compatible with MICRO-drive.

	2007.12.20  11.36 The Chinese car terminal block trade strategy(chapter 2) The Chinese car Terminal Block trade strategy consulted the report in 2007-2011 (chapter 2) 1.SUV uses the space of related market of terminal block Form 2-15 2004-2006China SUV divide enterprise terminal block trade related space relevant data analysis into annual January - December 2.SUV uses the relevant analysis of the terminal block Sixth, MPV forms a complete set and explains relatedly with the terminal block 1.MPV uses the space of related market of terminal block Form 2-16 2004-2006China MPV divide enterprise terminal block trade related space relevant data analysis into annual January - December 2.MPV uses the relevant analysis of the terminal block Vol. three Relevant enterprises of terminal block state some cars of China First, Zhejiang brilliant car electric apparatus Co., Ltd. 1,Enterprise's basic information analysis 2,The quality protects relevant information analysis 3,Relevant information analysis of the products 4,Parameter analysis of the development strategy Form 3-1 2001-2006Brilliant car development strategy parameter analysis of electric apparatus Co., Ltd. in Zhejiang in annual January - December 5,Get in touch with relevant information analysis Second, Zhejiang ten thousand ultra electric apparatuses of Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) Third, Hangzhou everybody Corporation (Group) (the same to analyze content) Fourth, Tianjin ferry crossing river electrician Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) Fifth, Shanghai new mere car electric apparatus Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) Sixth, bore the Limited Company red in Baicheng of group of auto industry of Jilin (analyze the content is the same) Seventh, Hangzhou Guangan car electric apparatus Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) Eighth, Zhejiang Abel blue electric apparatus Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) Ninth, the Yellow River mechanical & electronic equipment corporation, Ltd. of Zhejiang (analyze the content is the same) Tenth, Laizhou gold sound car electric apparatus limited company (analyze the content is the same) 11, Zhejiang Europe auspicious Thai automobile fitting Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) 12, Rui'an brightness wave flower bud car fittings limited company (analyze the content is the same) 13, deer's fittings factory of east car of Wenzhou (analyze the content is the same) 14th, explain electric apparatus Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) in Rui'an 15, Liaoning money open electric apparatus Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) 16th, guide high electric apparatus Co., Ltd. (analyze the content is the same) outstandingly in Dalian 17th, dart in electric apparatus Co., Ltd. of the car in Harbin (analyze the content is the same) 18, Henan day sea electric apparatus ( Group) Company (analyze the content is the same) 19, central development strategy parameter analysis of manufacturing enterprise of terminal block of other cars 1,Zhejiang exactly safe car spare part Co., Ltd. Form 3-18 2001-2006Exactly safe car development strategy parameter analysis of spare part Co., Ltd. in Zhejiang in annual January - December 2,Wenzhou good special car electric apparatus Co., Ltd. Form 3-19 2004-2006Good special car development strategy parameter analysis of electric apparatus Co., Ltd. in Wenzhou in annual January - December 3,Walk in electric apparatus Co., Ltd. of the car safely in Wenzhou Form 3-20 2005-2006Wenzhou safe competent car electric apparatus Co., Ltd. development strategy parameter analyze annual January - December 4,Two factories of car electric apparatus of Yuyao Form 3-21 2001-2006Car electric apparatus development strategy parameter analysis of two factories in Yuyao in annual January - December 5,Happy flat auspicious Electronics Co., Ltd. of fine jade of Chongqing Form 3-22 2005Happy flat auspicious development strategy parameter analysis of Electronics Co., Ltd. of fine jade of Chongqing in annual January - December Vol. four The market after sale of terminal block trade of the Chinese car sketches First, the market after sale of completed car enumerates with the related datum of the terminal block 1.The whole data of recoverable amount of the civil car are enumerated China's civil car recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis wholly in form 4-1 2.The whole data of recoverable amount of private car are enumerated China's private car recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis wholly in form 4-2 3.The whole data of civil car registration amount are enumerated Form 4-3 registering amount of the China civil car in recent years counts the data analysis wholly 4.The whole data of the scrapping amount of the regional car are enumerated Scrapping amount of the civil car of China in recent years counts the data analysis wholly in form 4-4 Second, the market after sale of car enumerates with the related data of terminal block, Cable Assembly 1.The relevant data of recoverable amount of civil car are enumerated China's civil small-scale passenger vehicle recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-5 China's civil miniature passenger vehicle recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-6 2.The relevant data of recoverable amount of private car are enumerated China's private small-scale passenger vehicle recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-7 China's private miniature passenger vehicle recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-8 3.The relevant data of civil car registration amount are enumerated Registration amount of Chinese civil small-scale passenger vehicle in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-9 Registration amount of Chinese civil miniature passenger vehicle in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-10 Third, the market after sale of passenger train enumerates with the related data of terminal block 1.The relevant data of recoverable amount of civil large-and-middle-scale passenger train are enumerated China's civil large-scale passenger train recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-11 China's civil medium-sized passenger train recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-12 2.The relevant data of recoverable amount of private large-and-middle-scale passenger train are enumerated China's private large-scale passenger train recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-13 China's private medium-sized passenger train recoverable amount in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-14 3.The relevant data of the registration amount of civil large-and-middle-scale passenger train are enumerated Registration amount of Chinese civil large-scale passenger train in recent years counts the data analysis in form 4-15 Form 4-16 statistics of registering amount of China civil medium-sized passenger train in recent years collect 4.The relevant data of the scrapping amount of all kinds of civil passenger train are enumerated Scrapping amount of Chinese civil passenger vehicle in recent years counts the data analysis wholly in form 4-17 Fourth, the market after sale of truck enumerates with the related data of Terminals block