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[11 May 2008|03:22pm] |
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darren and i had a conversation last night about sociability. we were sitting at some dive bar in eagan watching his friend kevin's bad play and i really didn't want to be there. i didn't feel like going out and sitting at some shitty bar listening to overly loud music and trying to get to know people.
the thing is, my social butterfly stage happened around my sophomore and junior years of college. darren's is right now. so while he wants to go out a lot of the time and be around a bunch of people, i'm quite content with the friends i already have and when i go out, i'd rather it be with them. i'm not opposed to getting to know people, but i'd rather let it happen naturally. the idea of it being an obligation annoys me. i was going to stay home last night and watch a 48 hours mystery, but i went to the bar instead because i felt obligated to do so. "oh, well, i guess i should get to know these people because they're darren's friends..."
as it happened, it didn't quite go that way. we got there and everyone was just sitting around staring at the band, which was so loud my ears hurt unbelievably after only one song. over the course of the night i pretty much just got more and more annoyed that i didn't just stay home and not spend money.
it was the same way my senior year of college. while i enjoyed spending time with the new freshmen when we would work or do shows together, i never went out. kate was always going out to do whatever with whoever and i never felt the need.
so while darren is pretty much completely willing to go out with me and meet friends of mine he doesn't know yet, i'm hesitant to do the same for him. not because i don't want to know his friends, but because i don't want to go out of my way to do it.
i'm sure i'll get to know them all eventually, because they are really nice and whatnot. and i'm not always antisocial. but from now on, when my inner hermit speaks, i'll probably just go ahead and listen.
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