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tears_of_a_clown50187: hey matt raver142003: hey kelly tears_of_a_clown50187: whut did u do today? raver142003: drugs tears_of_a_clown50187: are you serious? raver142003: yeah raver142003: thats all i do these days tears_of_a_clown50187: I quit all of that raver142003: not me tears_of_a_clown50187: havent done any of that in a long time and the last time I drank was May 27th tears_of_a_clown50187: stopped drinking too raver142003: when was the last time u talked to amanda tears_of_a_clown50187: the day at the school tears_of_a_clown50187: when me and Danyelle were in freddy's truck raver142003: o tears_of_a_clown50187: how about you? raver142003: last day of school tears_of_a_clown50187: what all did she tell you? tears_of_a_clown50187: about her moving raver142003: nothin raver142003: i dint know she moved until u told me tears_of_a_clown50187: i want to get her address and write her but I might get in trouble again tears_of_a_clown50187: oh raver142003: she said something about her moving to her aunts and uncles tears_of_a_clown50187: yep tears_of_a_clown50187: she is in Calhoun raver142003: o tears_of_a_clown50187: what kind of stuff have u been doing? raver142003: did u hear about trey tears_of_a_clown50187: what now? raver142003: u name it i have been doin it raver142003: he was in the hospital for a week tears_of_a_clown50187: I told u yesterday to tell him I said hey and get out bish tears_of_a_clown50187: he still in there? raver142003: o raver142003: no he got out friday tears_of_a_clown50187: oo tears_of_a_clown50187: so name everything u have done today matt? tears_of_a_clown50187: u know u should quit right? raver142003: the only thin i did today was smoke tears_of_a_clown50187: ya killin yaself man tears_of_a_clown50187: have u seen randi lately? tears_of_a_clown50187: or brant? raver142003: no there parents wont let them leave home because josh the gay dude got busted tears_of_a_clown50187: josh did? are u joking, with what? raver142003: mary jane tears_of_a_clown50187: so josh in jail? tears_of_a_clown50187: hm i didnt know he done that kind of stuff raver142003: potter and robert smith and meridath got busted to cause they r the ones who sold it to him tears_of_a_clown50187: who is meridath? raver142003: james tears_of_a_clown50187: potter as in daniel? raver142003: yeah tears_of_a_clown50187: and lil robert? raver142003: yeah tears_of_a_clown50187: what happened to them? raver142003: i dont know tears_of_a_clown50187: man potter should be smarter than that tears_of_a_clown50187: james meridath hm he deserves tears_of_a_clown50187: whatever he gets raver142003: no he had some kill tears_of_a_clown50187: so kerry got into a wreck, trey got put in the hospital and 4 other of them get busted tears_of_a_clown50187: trey still bad on meth or what? raver142003: no tears_of_a_clown50187: so did him and b.j. join the national guard? and gina as well raver142003: no raver142003: trey and jc are goin to the national gaurd tears_of_a_clown50187: why isnt b.j.? raver142003: i dont know tears_of_a_clown50187: have u seen danielle lincecum lately? tears_of_a_clown50187: she is bad on crack now raver142003: o raver142003: i havnt seen her tears_of_a_clown50187: I saw her a few weeks ago her eyes were all sunken in tears_of_a_clown50187: she looked basicalle cracked out she tried getting two dollars from me raver142003: i saw daneil castles tears_of_a_clown50187: danyelle cassels tears_of_a_clown50187: when? raver142003: yeah raver142003: the other day we partied at her house tears_of_a_clown50187: yeah she told me about that tears_of_a_clown50187: she said she wished i was there but i was stuck in trout tears_of_a_clown50187: wouldnt have *partied* anyways raver142003: y tears_of_a_clown50187: told u already raver142003: so raver142003: one more time wont hurt tears_of_a_clown50187: told u i quit raver142003: ok tears_of_a_clown50187: just hanging out is enough like we used to at the rec hall tears_of_a_clown50187: i miss doing that raver142003: we still hang at the rec tears_of_a_clown50187: but i don't tears_of_a_clown50187: duh matt matt tears_of_a_clown50187: dont stay at my *house* raver142003: o tears_of_a_clown50187: gimp and sarah and dennis cody everybody like that? raver142003: what about them tears_of_a_clown50187: they still go to the rec hall? raver142003: yeah raver142003: cody is in texas right now tears_of_a_clown50187: did u go tonight? ooo raver142003: thats were he has been since school got out raver142003: yeah tears_of_a_clown50187: y is he there? raver142003: his dads tears_of_a_clown50187: ya miss me matt? raver142003: yeah tears_of_a_clown50187: y cause im crazy? raver142003: i miss gettin to pick on u tears_of_a_clown50187: hah whatever about what? tears_of_a_clown50187: wait n/m i think i know raver142003: know what tears_of_a_clown50187: y u pick on me ... raver142003: o tears_of_a_clown50187: hows big bailey doing? raver142003: aight tears_of_a_clown50187: he around? raver142003: yeah he is in the bed tears_of_a_clown50187: oo well tell him i say hey whenever he wakes up raver142003: ok tears_of_a_clown50187: why did laurin and b.j. break up? raver142003: cause he never went and saw her tears_of_a_clown50187: danyelle told me laurin cheated on him alot tears_of_a_clown50187: did he even want to date her? raver142003: i dont know tears_of_a_clown50187: who u with now matt matt raver142003: nobody raver142003: i just play the feild tears_of_a_clown50187: why not try tamatha again? tears_of_a_clown50187: u too looked cute together raver142003: fuck u tears_of_a_clown50187: raver142003: that butch is stupid tears_of_a_clown50187: how so? tears_of_a_clown50187: she's muh friend grr don't talk about her like that tears_of_a_clown50187: u know she is bi right maybe u can get two of them raver142003: she is crazy tears_of_a_clown50187: i remember she chased brant alot raver142003: did u read the letter she wrote patrick tears_of_a_clown50187: nope what'd she say tears_of_a_clown50187: she likes black guys i know raver142003: o it was nasty she said she was goin to rape him tears_of_a_clown50187: tears_of_a_clown50187: thats prolly true that she wrote that but she wouldnt do it raver142003: thats not all she wrote tears_of_a_clown50187: what else? raver142003: i aight sayin cause it is nasty tears_of_a_clown50187: oh just spit it out raver142003: na raver142003: next time u see patrick ask him tears_of_a_clown50187: i won't see patrick again for a looooong time tears_of_a_clown50187: hows cory? raver142003: aight tears_of_a_clown50187: told u i havent seen much of anybody raver142003: i know tears_of_a_clown50187: hey matt im getting off of here now tears_of_a_clown50187: later |
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| 06:55pm 13/06/2004 | ||||
Kelly, 6-5-04 You asked me if I really wanted to be with you yes I really, really do. You mean the world to me.I want to grow old with you and do everything I possibly can for you.Your happiness means the world to me. Please tell me the truth. Do you really want to be with me and stick by my side through thick and thin, I will do that for you.I looked like a titty baby in here yesterday. Thoughts of you leaving me made me breakdown and cry. Kelly I don't know what I would do without you. To me you are a very great and excellend person. You wanted to know about Morgan City, as soon as I go to work and get this DWI dropped to a #2. Kelly I want you to be my wife someday. EVerything I tell you about how I feel about you comes from my heart and it is true. I love you very much. I want to be by your side every minute that I can. I have done alot of thinking since I have been in here. I know we can make it together if you want to, I know I do. My love for you is 110% on a scale of 0-100. Kelly I miss you so bad. It hurts me that I can't be with you right now, but soon I will so please wait on me. I'm sorry your catching it from everybody, please don't let them talk you into leaving me. Kelly I know we can make it together, I know it in my heart. Well please write me back soon. I guess I'm going to lay down it's 11:52 p.m. Good Night. I love you very much, and I miss you a whole lot. Love Freddy *note: he put a 4 leaf clover in the envelope* Hey Kelly, 6-8-04 What are you up to? Not much here. Just thinking of you. They told me to call you, but your phone would not take the call, Phillip said you wanted to talk to me, that's got me worried. Hopefully it's nothing bad. I'm sorry Jalyn called you and told you, you could come see me, she said mom and Phillip had left. If everything goes right I'll be getting out today, but I doubt it. Kelly I really miss you and love you very much. I sure wish I could see your beautiful face and hear your pretty voice, but I will soon. When I get out of here I will get Tyler and let you meet him. I sit in here and worry about you every and all day. I sent a letter to mom's house for you because I didn't know your address to where you would be at. Please believe me when I tell you I'm not going back to Jalyn, you are the one I want to be with. I want us to have a long and happy life together. You said you wanted to talk to me about all the letters, I hope it ain't bad. I really miss you. I can't wait to see you and hold you in my arms. I miss holding you. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know you are probably getting tired of hearing this, but Kelly please don't leave me, I know we can make it together, I know it in my heart. I sure wish you would come see me, they said anyone could come see me between 8-4, Mo.- Fri., you would have to o.k. it with the Sheriff "Carl Smith". How is things with your job, how is everybody? Fine I hope. Ihope you will still want to be with me while I'm still in here and when I get out. Kelly I'm telling you this from my heart when I tell you I love and really want to be with you, and I really miss you. Well I guess I'm going to go for now, please write me back. Love you. Love Freddy Kelly, What's going on out there? Not much in here. Just wondering when I'm getting out, and thinking of you. I wish you would write me a letter. I miss hearing from you. Mom said se was going to call you and tell you to come see me if you could. I talked to her yesterday. I sure miss holding you in my arms, I really wish I could see you. I miss you alot and love you alot. Kelly please don't let nothing come between us, I really love you and want to be with you. (Remind me to go to Columbia and get Lewis for a lawyer when I get out of here.) Please don't get mad, but I feel like you forgot about me, I havent got a letter from you in awhile. Mom is supposed to come up today, but I haven't seen her yet. I really miss all of ya'll especially you. Well I'm going to go for now, hopefully I will talk or see you later. I love you. Love Freddy *note: I showed up right after he got finished writing this one he was so happy* Kelly, Friday 6-11-04 Sorry I didn't have any letters for you Friday night.How are things, fine I hope. I can't wait to get out so I can hold you in my arms. Sorry this is sloppy, my nopse is bleeding it has been bleeding for 4 hours now. I was hoping you would come see me today, but that's alright. I sure do miss you.You asked me in your last letter did I really want to be with you, yes I really do. And you asked me about Jalyn, I don't want anything to do with her, you are the only one I want. Please believe me. Kelly I really, really love you and want to be with you, if your giving up on me just be honest. I hope your not, because I really love you and care about you. I can't wait to see you. I miss seeing and hearing you. Well I'm going to go for now and try to get my nose to stop bleeding, but I will write tomorrow. I love you. Love Freddy Hey Kelly, Saturday 1:17 A.M. 6-12-04 What are you up to? You wanted to know what I wanted out of life. Well now to make my life better, and to keep you. Ever since I met you I have been alot happier and calmer, and when I get out of here, I'm going to calm down awhole lot more. About college, yes and I will help in any way I can. I would love to see you go to college. I thought they were going to have to take me to the hospital but my nose quit bleeding. It was bleeding for 5 1/2 hours, but it's all o.k. now. I don't want to be around Jalyn either and I really don't want to see her. There's only a couple of things I'm going to work on when I get out of here and that is us, a job, seeing my son and seeing that you go to college and we move. You will have to bare with me, because all of this doesn't happen over night. Even if I do sell my truck I will buy another one, even if I don't have a truck for a couple of months I will still get to see you, I will make sure of that.When I get out of here, I'm going to straighten up, I promise you that. I can't stand being in here and not out there with you. I miss you so bad, alot more than you know. I sure hope you feel the same way about me, as I do about you. Well I'm getting tired, but I will write again.I love you. Love Freddy Hey Kelly, What are you up to? I'm just sitting around and hoping to get out, so I can see you. Didn't you sad Sam was going to put $500 Friday, if no that's alright. I will get out sooner or later. I just hope and pray I still have you while I'm in here and when I get out. I really miss you. I know I told you a thousand times, but Kelly I promise you I'm straightening up and I love you and miss you a whole lot. Once I get out I won't be back in here, because I'm going to make my life better for me and you. Kelly I'm sorry all of this is going on right now, but it won't happen again. You asked me if I feel like it is your fault. No, it's all my fault. I think you asked me that. Kelly I love you more than words can say and feelings can ever show. I really miss you and love you, I 'm going to go for now, but I will write more I promise. I love you very much , don't ever think I don't. Love you. Love Freddy Yeah so he worries alot I mean what else can he do? |
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| 09:39pm 10/06/2004 | |||
| well I got 3 letters from Freddy Wednesday. I will type them all up a little later..I'm stressed right now , we have to sell his truck to get him out which sucks ass. I won't have a vehicle to drive to work. Lou will have to bring me or I'll use my moms car OR my mom and dad will get nice and buy me a vehicle like they are supposed to. More Later. All I have to say is I really really really miss Freddy. | |||
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Can anybody find me somebody to love? Each morning I get up I die a little Can barely stand on my feet (Take a look at yourself)Take a look in the mirror and cry Lord what you're doing to me I have to spend all my years in believing you But I just can't get no relief Lord Somebody (somebody) ooh somebody (somebody) Can anybody find me somebody to love? I work hard (he works hard) everyday of my life I work till I ache my bones At the end (at the end of the day) I take home my hard earned pay all on my own I get down (down) on my knees (knees) And I start to pray (praise the Lord) 'Til the tears run down from my eyes Lord somebody (somebody) ooh somebody (please) Can anybody find me somebody to love? (He wants help) Every day - I try and I try and I try - But everybody wants to put me down They say I'm goin' crazy They say I got a lot of water in my brain Got no common sense (He's)I got nobody left to believe Yeah - yeah yeah yeah Ooh Somebody (somebody) Can anybody find me somebody to love? (Anybody find me someone to love) Got no feel I got no rhythm I just keep losing my beat (you just keep losing and losing) I'm OK I'm alright (he's alright) I ain't gonna face no defeat I just gotta get out of this prison cell One day I'm gonna be free Lord Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love Somebody somebody somebody somebody somebody Find me somebody find me somebody to love Can anybody find me somebody to love Find me somebody to love Find me somebody to love Find me somebody to love Find me find me find me Find me somebody to love Somebody to love Find me somebody to love... |
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| 08:50pm 08/06/2004 | |||
| Well well Freddy's ex wife just called me and said she saw him twice today and she wants the keys to the truck and the title so she can get the truck financed....hmm well I dunno what to feel about alla that...I don't like the idea of her going to see him but she also told me quite a few things about Freddy that I need to know about she said its either his way or no way...hm so far he has been really sweet to me but I guess in time we will find out for sure...Oh yeah he might get out tomorrow! thats why she wants the title and the keys...hopefully he will get out I miss him so much....I hope Freddy is the kind of person I think he is or want him to be.....my my I think I am in love I just hope this one actually lasts | |||
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| 10:27am 07/06/2004 | ||||
Yesterday was visitation so I went and saw my baby again only this time his ex-wife came up there. Man was he pissed! He hates her....Freddy pissed his mom off when she was leaving so he had me call her and apologize for him...then he pissed the ex off too so she would leave...after they left I enjoyed talking with him more-so than what I was before....I open up more without alot of people around. I think I mentioned this before but Freddy wants to move to Morgan City when he gets out. AH! I just remembered he might be getting out today! Hopefully he did....I should be getting calls if he did. I have to take the title to the truck to the DMV office soon to get it transered into Freddy's name then get the bitch changed into mine so that'll be a double transfer and gots a wee bit of money...I think I'm going to wait until Freddy gets out to mess with all of that....Anthony was in there as well talked to him for a little while Sheena went with me to go see them she said Freddy is really cute and sweet...I stayed with Danyelle last night we went riding around with Josh and this other guy then Trey D. came over then we road around with him and we saw Lil Boonie,Devon,Trey W. and alot more people at the store...I was standing by Devon talking to him and I looked down and saw this HUGE! fucking beetle I screamed and took off running Devon looked at Danyelle like what the hell? Then he looked down and saw that big ass fucker! and was like HOLY HELL! HafuckingHa Devon..oh yeah I also saw the other Danielle L. she is bad on crack now...she was begging me for two dollars nu uh don't think so....getting our cokes at Burger Barn Lou and Allen were behind us I got out and talked to them for a second Lou was like who you with ? I said Trey she was like Trey who? Trey Douglass.....cause if I was around the other Trey for too long it would cause some problems.....oh yeah I had Joey's big ass brown overalls on yesterday they were all oil stained n whatnot ...so I looked haha very farmerfied everybody picked on me lol oh well ...I had a pretty fucked up dream last night Freddy went to school with me and he wouldn't talk to me....in the auditorium he kept moving away from me or I kept moving one I can't really remember I think I was invisible to him or something...also I had another dream where I was pregnant and everybody kept touching my belly...it was huge! and I felt the baby moving...if that is how it really feels that is weird as hell!!....well I hope those dreams never come true!.... Just a little more to add to this from these last entries it looks as if I have forgotten about Sean but I haven't I miss him with all my heart but I can't dwell on it. I have to move on. I will get no where just whining and crying about something I fucked up for myself..although I wish he would call me or something I long to hear his voice once more I want to know how he is doing and I want to tell him how I've been doing....I miss that boy alot.... |
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| 08:03pm 05/06/2004 | ||||
I'm not a perfect person There's many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears That's why I need you to hear I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you And the reason is you And the reason is you I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you I had alot to do today I went to the courthouse and saw my baby locked up :-( if you guys only knew how hard that is he slipped me a letter and here is what he wrote in it..... Kelly, What have you been up to. Not much here, just thinking of you. I got your letter today, I know we can make it together, please don't give up on us Kelly I care the world about you and would do anything for you. When I get out, I'm getting a divorce and a job and get us a place of our own. Kelly I love you, please don't give up on us, don't listen to Bubba. There is so much I want to do for and give you.You said in one letter,you wanted to build me up not tear me down. If you don't want me just tell me I will understand. Yes I will quit smoking and dipping and drinking. I'm glad you came to see me today,I love seeing your beautiful face, Kelly I really love and care alot about you. I don't want to lose you. I believe in my heart we can make it. When I get out I'm straightening up, I promise. Well I don't know what else to say, but please keep writing me and keep in touch. I love you, please don't give up on us. You, Freddy means it all he makes me feel good and I love that...I think I'll put faith in this one......I have done a shitload more today but I feel sick so I'm stopping this after I tell you I got a new pupper dog his name is Jason Melinko :-Þ oh yeah I got a job and Freddy's lowrider is getting put in my name so thats going to be my truck since he won't be able to drive and he asked me to move to Morgan City with him.....Today he turned 26!!!! 06-05-04  |
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I haven't unpdated in quite some time I just wanted you all to know exactly what was going on with me...I graduated May 13th it was hella fun Freddy Randall Billy and Danyelle all rode up there with me...Freddy told me I looked beautiful that night and he stopped by Josh's and told Josh just how beautiful I looked...after graduation Freddy, Danyelle, Randall and Me all went to Savana's Party...Freddy and I didn't really want to go but Danyelle did so we stayed there for a lil while and I got Brett to walk with me down the road to find Freddy and everybody the lil fucker grabbed my boobs grr bad Brett then we got ready to go Savana's momma freaked out on Freddy because he was turning around in her yard...anyways we dropped Danyelle off and Randall then Freddy and I went to my aunt's house to go to sleep...the other day my family went swimming and Lou and I were searching for Freddy and found him at the store I got in his truck and then we went to my house (I drove) and his truck started smoking we continued down the road to Josh's were it died...stayed there for a lil bit whilst it cooled down *Freddy drives a black Sonoma lowrider* we went back to my aunts house nobody was there so we went on to the lake where we were going swimming stayed there for a lil while and ate....Freddy and I decided to go swimming somewhere else on the way we told Allen to come swimming with us...Freddy stopped and got me some Triple Black on the way there.....I went swimming for a lil while Freddy only jumped in once it was too cold for him...when we were leaving that place he got his truck stuck because he was driving too fast ( I told him to slow down grrr)...we started walking down the dirt road and somebody passed us....continued walking and by luck Lou and Allen showed up..Freddy and I got in the back and we went to a store I used the bathroom there because I was drunk...went to my aunts house to get a chain...went back out to where Freddy's truck was and on the way out there I sat on Freddy's lap and started kissing him all over....he told me I better not start something I can't finish right now...haha well when they got the truck out we went back to my aunts and played around for awhile in his truck ....today is Tuesday and I was supposed to go see my lawyer today but it got cancelled thats the only reason why I am home at the moment....I miss Freddy...I love cuddling with him...  |
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| 10:21am 09/05/2004 | |||
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Away From The Sun It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense Can anyone tell what I've done I miss the life I miss the colors of the world Can anyone tell where I am 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun again Away from the sun again I'm over this I'm tired of living in the dark Can anyone see me down here The feeling's gone There's nothing left to lift me up Back into the world I know 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me To find my way back into the arms That care about the ones like me I'm so far down, away from the sun again It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense And now I can't tell what I've done And now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun That shines to light the way for me To find my way back into the arms That care about the ones like me I'm so far down, away from the sun again |
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| 06:07am 03/05/2004 | |||
| ...I'm sorry there is still so much I haven't said but I won't be able to now...I still love you it hurts so bad I'm sorry I'm just like everybody else but it would be soo much easier for me if you were with me...I never loved anyone like I do you but it doesn't matter...I fucked my life up...no excuses anymore there were never any in the first place and I was ALWAYS honest with you I fucking promise you that...everything happens for a reason tho right? let me do right again I'm so fucking scared...you are my best friend! don't bail on me now! fucking a help me clown boy don't do this fuck fuck fuck fuck | |||
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| 11:35pm 02/05/2004 | |||
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There has been so much going on I want to write it all in my journal but I can't. I can't fucking do it. I'm so fucking scared it's not even funny. It's been a long fucking weekend. Went camping. Got harrassed all weekend. Talked to two people about some very important shit...well take that back I talked to 4... I'll come back with the details later.... *15 minutes from this second I'll be crawling on my knees.* |
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| 06:55pm 28/04/2004 | ||||
5th of Crown to wash it down, I'm downtown snapping rolls Ain't no shame up in my game - in fact I'm mentally deranged Oxycontin in my system - man I'm feeling kinda strange Watch me choke about this dope - Blueberry from Texas She wanna git up in rotation that's too bad cause I'm stressing 'Bout now its 1:30 am - 11 Percocets just entered me 15 minutes from this second - I'll be crawling on my knees Laughing at the crowd of all the clowns that be surrounding me Take another Lortab to calm me down and let me see Body be relaxed - muscles be loose, and you have stopped the pain No more bitching 'bout your day and work and driving in the rain Put up wit' the fussing and discussion - I plant in your brain Hypnotize ya minds, like all the rest but I come through the veins Take a chill pill to slow me down and git back in this game Gatta be up on ya P's and Q's to even feel it mane Oxycontin - Xanax Bars - Percocet and Lortab Valiums - Morphine - patches - Exctacy - and it's all up for grab What'cha want - what'cha need - hit me up I got you mane What'cha want - what'cha need - hit me up I got you mane Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that you popping? A powerful pill they call Oxycottin But it'so tiny, that it catch you dragging Haven't you heard big things come in small packages I prefer the orange's with the black O-C Take two where you can not move up out yo seat Some people melt em' down in a needle and shoot 'em up But I pop 'em with Seroquel like glue, I am stuck See I'ma pill popper - so I'ma keep poppin' em Gimme 20 Xanax and I'ma start droppin' em They ain't no stoppin' em - when they in my system Mane I really miss 'em - can you help me get 'em I heard you have Clidina, on that fucking pill shed Gimme some fuckn Ec' - gimme some Percocets I need me some four bar, so I can break down Cause a nigga like me 'finna take it to funky town Oxycontin - Xanax Bars - Percocet and Lortab Valiums - Morphine - patches - Ecstacy - and it's all up for grab What'cha want - what'cha need - hit me up I got you mane What'cha want - what'cha need - hit me up I got you mane |
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| 05:22pm 21/04/2004 | |||
| I fucked up I'm so lost that's all I want to get out right now | |||
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| Hoppy Easter hehe | |||
| 02:11pm 11/04/2004 | |||
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*picks up plastic easter egg* Where my money? *opens plastic easter egg* *finds candy* UGH! Where my money!? *picks up another easter egg and opens it* *finds money* THERES MY MONEY!!! my neice did that! |
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| Kelly, your a total stranger! | |||
| 03:42pm 09/04/2004 | |||
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About Me... Your Existing Situation Readily participates in things affording excitement or stimulation. Wants to feel exhilarated. Your Stress Sources Seeks independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoids obligations or anything which might prove hampering. She is being subjected to considerable pressure and wants to escape from it so that she can obtain what she needs, but tends to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Your Restrained Characteristics Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner and seeking a rather unrealistic perfection in her sex life.
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| Not Dead just A Clown... | ||||
| 05:46pm 05/04/2004 | ||||
Where do I take this pain of mine I run, but it stays right by my side So tear me open, pour me out There's things inside that scream and shout And the pain still hates me So hold me, until it sleeps Just like the curse, just like the stray You feed it once, and now it stays So tear me open, but beware There's things inside without a care And the dirt still stains me So wash me, until I'm clean *It grips you, so hold me It stains you, so hold me It hates you, so hold me It holds you, so hold me Until it sleeps** So tell me why you've choosen me Don't want your grip, don't want your greed I'll tear me open, make you gone No more can you hurt anyone And the fear still shakes me So hold me, until it sleeps I don't want it So tear me open, but beware The things inside without a care And the dirt still stains me So wash me, 'till I'm clean... I'll tear me open, make you gone No longer will you hurt anyone And the fear still shapes me So hold me, until it sleeps... Until it sleeps... I have alot more going on than what I can type on this damn thing.... |
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