taylor

9:41pm: IM on my period, and im sick, this totally sucks, other then that things are good!

7:27am: HER
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9:09pm: sadness conquers all
i wish for the past so what better way to get back there then start living there, i dont know, whats wrong with me why am i so sad right now i feel like i could explode and all that would be left is tears, im so sad, like really sad, i just dont know why but i am

2:14pm: sadness conquers all that is good
last night i sat in the back of kyles car behind kaylee and john as they shoved each others vile tounges down each others throat, an unbareable pain it was indeed, i wanted to scream i wanted to cry i wanted to die i wanted to die, neither could i do for the facts face i must, watching them flirt constantly hurt more and more til finally i could not take it no longer, i got out of the car and went to sleep in patricias room, then they all came into my escape and surrounded me with the pain, i went to the beach to find some closure some healing but instead ran into a thick wall of tears streaming down my face with the short breaths of pain, after i was too cold i returned back to the place i had come to dred the most, while retiring there i felt so hurt that i just sat there in awe of what was going on around me, doing what i do best i tried to put on an act but i must say it was quite transparent, after everyone left patrica and i resigned to her room to fall asleep, well with those intentions none the less, i wallowed in self pitty of wishing i was kaylee ohh how i envy her, i confided in my tears to comfort me because that was all i had left, but even they let me down, i sat behind patricia reading how john had asked out kaylee how john liked kaylee and how john thought i was lame and anti social, if he only knew that no words could leave my lips because if they did they would be broken apart with the faint stutter of what my tears bring along to myself, hurtful night indeed, many more to come as i imbrace this journey of sadness by the horns at full speed, this i must do, though i wish not, childish it may be but i have alreadyremoved him from my b/l to not let further conversations come from this, for i know that i can not talk to someone who has let me down like this. goodbye to you john, for i will soon care no more

7:04pm: kaylee and sidney like him and he likes kaylee.. could i have any less of a chance.. why dont you just stop liking him i constantly ask.. becasu eyour stupid and you keep hoping that maybe just maybe you might have a chance....

12:58am: how come it hits you the hardest, when you cant be hit anymore?

5:45pm: its over

StArS4RaNsOm: dont worry, i wont "pretend" to care, since that is what i do, and i wont be here for you since i have "better friends" now, i love how becuase your not doing

Auto response from xStripped Heartx: i am watching the Eagles whoop Green Bay's ass!!!!

GO EAGLES!!!

StArS4RaNsOm: alright you take it out on me, just becuase i dont know how to deal with your problems doesnt mean i dont want to listen to them, you are a very selfish and demanding person, and im sorry i cant live up to what you want, so laugh marissa, laugh as much as you want, laugh while im not in your life anymore, i mean it must really suck having a friend trying to help you be happy (i.e go out with kyle) but you take it as me trying to run your life, oh wow marissa must be pretty depressing boo hoo you love pain, you say in your away message, well that must be the reason why you push away your best friend.. wait i mean.. "your best friend" cause you know i was never best friend with all you p.a friends waiting for you i was just rented, so the end is now, bye
xStripped Heartx: wtf
xStripped Heartx: you are taking this way wrong
xStripped Heartx: just like i knew you would...
xStripped Heartx: you are making it into a bigger deal than it really is
StArS4RaNsOm: well you know me to well, i think for the first time im taking this the right way
xStripped Heartx: no...
StArS4RaNsOm: no marissa you said it yourself, you dont need anyone becuase you have 'her' from pa who you want to move in with you
xStripped Heartx: i don't want to tell you about my problems...because i don't want you to have to deal with it...and pa...fuck pa..ok..because i don't have it anymore...you need to realize that...i have...
StArS4RaNsOm: you dont need me
xStripped Heartx: yes i do
xStripped Heartx: i never said i didn't need you
xStripped Heartx: NEVER
StArS4RaNsOm: well you didnt have to
xStripped Heartx: i know..cause it isn't true
StArS4RaNsOm: read over your journal entry sweetie read it from a different perspective, even though that is hard for you to do
xStripped Heartx: honestly this is exactly what i knew you would do
xStripped Heartx: ok i'll be honest...
xStripped Heartx: i am depressed again..
xStripped Heartx: i have been this way for a while
StArS4RaNsOm: well then you know exactly what i am going to say next
xStripped Heartx: but i didn;t tell you cause you are happy...and i don't want to bring you down...
StArS4RaNsOm: no dont be honest with me now, you wernt before dont change now what you said has been said, just go laugh at me
xStripped Heartx: and i figured it would be better that way
xStripped Heartx: for me and you
xStripped Heartx: i wasn't what before?
xStripped Heartx: depressed?
StArS4RaNsOm: no its for you, its always for you
xStripped Heartx: no...
StArS4RaNsOm: no you wernt honest before
xStripped Heartx: when?
xStripped Heartx: about what?
StArS4RaNsOm: we cant have a friendship on lies or saying stuff thats on our mind to others and not to each other first, we have always been able to tell each other when something was wrong, the minute that is gone, so is our friendship
xStripped Heartx: ok well i am depressed again
xStripped Heartx: there..i told yopu
xStripped Heartx: i din't want to tell you before
xStripped Heartx: and i didn't think it was necessary...
StArS4RaNsOm: oh yeah now you tell me
StArS4RaNsOm: after you talk so much shit about me
xStripped Heartx: cause it is my thing...my thing i have to deal with'
StArS4RaNsOm: about how i dont care
xStripped Heartx: i didn't talk shit
xStripped Heartx: i was just saying how it seems
StArS4RaNsOm: you fucking know damn right that i care but you just convince yourself that you are all alone and that i dont care because you like putting yourself down, i spent the entire winter break with you and then you get grounded all by yourself nothing to do wiht me, it was because of you and raymond and you couldnt do anything this weekend so i hang out with someone else and you automaticallly think that means im not here
xStripped Heartx: what was because of raymond?

StArS4RaNsOm: i KNEW you would do something like this, just becuase i hang out with someone else you think i fucking forget about you EVEN THOUGH the past 2 weeks i was with you
StArS4RaNsOm: you got grounded becuase of raymond.. your own decisions
xStripped Heartx: no its not like that...
xStripped Heartx: i mean i just feel like we are drifting apart..
xStripped Heartx: nothing more..
xStripped Heartx: that is just how i feel
xStripped Heartx: sorry i feel that way
xStripped Heartx: fuck
StArS4RaNsOm: wtf
StArS4RaNsOm: we were together all of winter break
StArS4RaNsOm: how the fuck is that drifting apart
xStripped Heartx: i don't know...
xStripped Heartx: when you tried to kill youself...
xStripped Heartx: i felt like you didn't want me anymore
xStripped Heartx: just becuase we hang out does NOT mean we are not drifting apart...
StArS4RaNsOm: i hang out with patricia this weekend and then your like omg i need pa im all alone there is no one here and then i call you to see how your doing and you have convinced yourself that im gone so well that you jsut figure that eveything im saiying to you on the phone is not realy and all i care about is you and kyle.. i could careless if you go out with kyle.. he made you happy before i wanted you to have that again so fuck me for wanting you to be happy just way fuck me
xStripped Heartx: fuck you...i have wanted pa for a while...not just this weekend...
StArS4RaNsOm: no marissa fuck you
StArS4RaNsOm: bye
xStripped Heartx: no..its seems lie you want me to go out with kyle more for you..than me...you think that will make me happy...but only i know what will make me happy
xStripped Heartx: and i can tell you right now that will not make me happy
xStripped Heartx: fine then...end our friendship over than
xStripped Heartx: that*
xStripped Heartx: your decision
xStripped Heartx: not mine
StArS4RaNsOm: how the fuck would you getting kyle bennefit me
xStripped Heartx: john
xStripped Heartx: you said it yourself
StArS4RaNsOm: for your fucking information i like kyle and i wouldnt want you to get with him but if it makes you happy then i would shut the fuck up
xStripped Heartx: you say i am keeping secrets and lying..
xStripped Heartx: what the fuck do you call that
StArS4RaNsOm: i call that choosing your feelings before mine
xStripped Heartx: yeah..
xStripped Heartx: and that is what i did
xStripped Heartx: we think alike
xStripped Heartx: you use to tell me last year that me coming up to you depressed would make u upset...i ddnt want you to do that again...so i am keeping it to myself
xStripped Heartx: and i am fine wiht that
StArS4RaNsOm: you not telling me that ur depressed is not helping me thats making us 'drift apart' becuase you cant be honest with me, me telling you i dont like kyle so you can be happy is a decision that i choose to make for you and for me
xStripped Heartx: i want to keep it to myself
StArS4RaNsOm: no you didnt keep it to yourself, you post it in your journal
xStripped Heartx: yeah
StArS4RaNsOm: you talk to all you p.a friends about it
xStripped Heartx: that is who i talked to about it
StArS4RaNsOm: i kept it to myself
xStripped Heartx: no..steph
xStripped Heartx: not all my pa friends
StArS4RaNsOm: well you didnt keep it to yourself
StArS4RaNsOm: you kept it from me
xStripped Heartx: well i kept it from CA
xStripped Heartx: and everyone here
StArS4RaNsOm: whatever marissa, steph is that great of a friend who is worthy of knowing but im not beucase you dont want to bring me down, sorry not buying it
xStripped Heartx: i don't want to bring you down
xStripped Heartx: and steph is depressed too..she can relate...i am glad your not depressed...and i dont want to bring you down by talking about ut
xStripped Heartx: it*
xStripped Heartx: easy as that
StArS4RaNsOm: its not like you have a strong foundation here anyways, and me being here is obviously not strong enough
xStripped Heartx: and as for my journal..i say how i feel at the moment in there..that is what a journal is...
xStripped Heartx: so if your gonna have a comment about everything i say in there..
xStripped Heartx: dont fucking read it
StArS4RaNsOm: marissa i dont even know you
xStripped Heartx: it is not meant towards you or anyone...it is my thought...
StArS4RaNsOm: your thoughts prove that noone knows you here. why keep a friendship with someone who doesnt know you, i mean you claim to know me but i dont know you, that isant fair
xStripped Heartx: i can;t help that
xStripped Heartx: i can't
xStripped Heartx: i am two different people...and you do know me...jsut not the me i want you to know
xStripped Heartx: just like pennsylvania doesn't know my california me
StArS4RaNsOm: well that is your fault that you dont let me know the other person of you, and it is your fault that this friendship is over
StArS4RaNsOm: i have nothing else to say
StArS4RaNsOm: .
xStripped Heartx: no it isn't my fault
xStripped Heartx: .
xStripped Heartx: i want you to know the other person...i want to know the other person again...but she isnt here..
xStripped Heartx: if you are gonna read my journal..then read it..cause it says it in there
xStripped Heartx: and please don't read my journal anymore
StArS4RaNsOm: i have nothing to do with you
StArS4RaNsOm: why would i read about you
xStripped Heartx: i didn't know you would end our friendship over something like this...
xStripped Heartx: guess we werent as good of friends as i thought
StArS4RaNsOm: oh for once marissa doesnt know it all, but im sorry to say but i am the one here with the new realizations of the other person, i didnt know you could be so cold hearted and just write off what you think of me. but hey you learn s0omething new eveery

Auto response from xStripped Heartx: i am listening to music...talk to ya later!

StArS4RaNsOm: you learn something new every day*

5:29pm: not very nice
ok well i talked to him alot yesterday and he didnt tell me, i found out at school today that he got with another girl, were like supose to be friends, friends tell each other stuff, why wouldnt he tell me something like this, i dont want to like him anymore, i just want to take it off of me like a shirt or something, i wish it would go away, its like a bruise, whenever something happens its like someone poked my bruise, i need my burise to heal, but it wont, i need to try harder, nothing is ever good enough

2:38am: omg, im so embarressed right now, i guess i was flirting with him to much and he told marissa that he doesnt know what to do becasue im flirting way to much. i feel like a complete idiot, here i am thinking how much i like him and here he is thinking im a totaly idiot, which i am, i dont know im so embaressed that i can not even talk to him at this point. i dont know if i can talk to him anymore. im gonna go cry.

9:19pm: hey people, today i hung out with marissa and chad.. wow chad looks hot, and i got a black zip up jakcet with vans on it in pink and black and its sooo cute im so happy i got it!! and 5 thongs and those are always fun, right now im talking to josh the sweetest guy ever i sware i like love him becuase hes so sweet, and pretty soon im going to go hang out with kyle and all his friends.. i hoPE 'he' is there!!!

11:35pm: josh is cool. i think i like him. yet i cant get over HIM sara told him to call her today.. what is up with that... i like him still i know i will not get over it anytime soon but to all of you i will fake it. she said he said that they should hang out sometime. i wish i could just have him to myself, homer has a girlfriend now, im surprised it isant sara. she lies to me now

9:56pm: I talk to him and its wierd. i like him. he doesnt like me.

5:18pm: I should of kept my mouth shut. why did i tell him. regret. think of him first. he wants a friend not someone who likes him. what were you thinkin. very sad. i dont even know what to say anymore.

5:16pm: "Another Lonely Day"

Yes indeed, I'm alone again.
And here comes emptiness crashing in.
It's either love or hate,
I can't find in between,
'cause I've been with witches and I've been with a queen.

It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.

Wish there was something now I could say or do.
I can resist anything but the temptation from you.
But I'd rather walk alone than chase you around.
I'd rather fall myself than let you drag me on down.

It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
And now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now, it's just another lonely day.

Yesterday seems like a life ago,
'cause the one I love today, I hardly know,
You I held so close in my heart, Oh dear,
Grow further from me with every fallen tear.

It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.

3:55pm: omg i hate her so much she ruins my life so much, im at marissas ahving a good time and then she calls and its like 3:30 and shes all bitching about how i didnt call her all day and all this stupid stuff therefore she is picking me up at 5 and now i dont get to hang out with the people i wanted to hang out with tonight... i was gonna see if i could go to the movies tonight with homer but does it look like thats gonna happen.. fuck no! why the hell does she even have to be in my life.. its so stupid im never not grounded ne more and its over stupid things.. i fucking hate her so much she brings me to tears more then anything else... this is not fare im trying to relax by listing to dont worry about a think by bab marley but not even bob can help me now... why cant she just fucking die!

8:57pm: dude
aww fuck sorry guys... i noticed all ive been doing is complaining latly... thanks for puttin up with it.. but ill try to say some positive shit... haha when it happens!

8:51pm: hey
gosh my mom is buggin me, it seems all she does latly is nag on me about everything and anything... tonight she has made me vacuum and mop the kitchen floor.. do the kitchen.. clean the bathroom and feed all the animals just so i can go to marissas tomorrow and like i brought my f in spanish up to a borderline d+ -c- and she doesnt even say good job or anything all she says is that i can do better... that makes me so mad.. its been a week and i already did that and shes like you can do better... how the hell does she know... im satisfied with my grades im ok with it all ... they are mine... i have no regrets.. but she acts as if im ruining her life or something.. dude the truth is.. your fucking ruining mine!

7:15pm: grr
my mom is freakin out on me and its pissing me off shes like been like this alot latly shes like gettin goff medication or seomthing and it made her cry all the time and be sad and when shes off it it makes her yell all the time and be hateful so either she hates herself or she hates everyone i wanna like slap her right now shes all yelling at my dad for the price of there wedding ring and he like whats ur problem and shes all your my money on accident and we were all alughing at her and she was laughing too.. wow for one second it was as if everyone was happy

8:07pm: not so good
my mom is being so ___ i have been working my ass off to please her but there is always something that needs improving! im not having a good day at all and i hope that someone comes online for me to talk to because if i dont get to talk to someone i dont know whats gonna happen... ihate being sad and i cant stop crying... i need help... help me!

8:41pm: hey guys
hey, i feel kida shitty right now because im getting sick again but i hope i can go to school tomorrow, it all depends on how i feel in the morning. im starting to feel alone, not in a depressed way, but in one of those ways where you jsut need some comfort... not the kind of comfort you can seak in a friend because in that area im over loaded in a good way but i mean in a boyfriend way, i want someone to confide in that is there for me in a boyfriend way you know. i miss havin to be alone.

1:32pm: hey long time huh
hey guys i feel really good today ive been sick as most of you know and today im actually feeling better.... well that is health wise. i miss all my friends i cant wait to go back to school. i totally love brian, he calls me like everyday to how i am feeling and he told me he doesnt want to go to school because its not te same with out me.. how sweet is that.. gosh having guys as ur best friends are real pluses when they are so freaking sweet like that... and like he called me and when i answered he was like hey beautiful... and after a day of feeling like shit and being all sick to hear that is real tiz! no i dont like him, i just love him as my friend. but i do want a boyfriend and just to let you guys know... im planning on getting one.. i dont know who becuase i dont like anyone and i dont know when becuase well im not mrs. cleo but i do know im getting one and thats a start! ill try not to make it like a whole month before i update you again... love you

7:14am: hey long time huh
hey i want all my friends to call me stacy now. dont ask why just do it!!! ok!

5:12pm: mondays are always fun
hey guys... i didnt talk to brian today until 6th period wehn he cept flashing me his great smile!! hes such a babe. well i think so i know u guys as my friends dont htink so but i do. and then after class he actually wanted to walk with me well i mean i was walking with sarah and then he pushed me form behind and i was like hey and he was like whats up an then we were kinda walking and talking and then i stopped walking with him and he was like fine then dont walk with me and he was pretending to run away and i was like omg ur lame and then he came back and we walked and talked about american pie... dont ask why i dont know... and then yea i went to my locker and he went home... i doubt he will call me he will be to busy calling sara and making sure shes ok.. WHATEVER!!

4:28pm: today..
ok well i kept seein g brina all day today but i didnt want to make eye contact with him cuz i mean he does like sara and if i like him that just makes things worse for me and then while i was walking to 5th period with sara he came over and started walking by sara and they were tlaking and he wa slike talking to me and stuff but he only came over for sara which sucks. and then i walked into 6th period and my seat faces him like it makes me look at him and so i looked at him and he smiled and then later i looked at him and he was like whats up and then i looked at him and he made this funny face and then we both started laughing and then after class we walked together to go home and we were talking about how hes a loner with no firends.. it was funny... i dont think i will ever get to talk to him on the phone again cuz he has saras number so he doesnt need to talk to me and if he does its gonna be about sara... gosh im crushin bad.... hes just so attractive!!!

6:57am: crap
ok well after my last blurty i went up the street and was hanging out with her and she broght up the subject about brian and then it kinda went off to other things and i was crying because it brogt up some bad memorys but i asked ehr the question ' if i didnt like brian would you go out with him?' she said yea.... so i went home and signed off and then i got this im from some guy and i it was brian and wewere tlaking and then he was like o yea i like sara and i was like o ok and then he wanted to call me but when he told me that i kinda started crying cuz i felt like it was the marissa raymond hting starting all over again so i signed off tired my best to sound like i was fine and then he called and i was supose to 3 way sara but he didnt want to cuz he was nervous so me and him were tlaking for like awhile and he was saying how he kept looking at sara and stuff and its wierd that he likes her cuz he doesnt know her but he does like her and he like didint think i got it but omg i so get what he means cuz thats how i feel about him and the sad thign is is that he knows that i like him or liked him or whatever cuz yea stupid brandon and cuz he was like yea if me and sara go out me and you can hang out and i was like i dont think that would be a good idea cuz then i would start likin gu and that would turn out bad and then he was like o i know you like me brandon told me and i was like figures and then he was like yea but i dont care and i was like whatever... but yea i dont know him and i tlaked for like 2 hours i think and then we finally called sarah cuz he was like can u call her and i was like o yea omg sorry i forgot and he was like no its ok i enjoyed our conversation and i was like o... and then we were tlaking about poetry and biology and all this stuff and it was great and then i called sara .... which sucked and at first it was just like not that much talking only brian would say something to me like about our class and then we would laugh and then i had to go and i was hoping we would all hang up but sara was like brian call me.... so yea who knows how long they talked for last ngiht but i can totally come out and say that i am soooo jealous!!! i just hope that things work out with sean for sara cuz then i can become friends with brian and maybe pursue him to go out with me... jk jk but yea i dont know it was nice to talk to him we laughed alot and then he was telling me how he doesnt really talk that much exspecially when he just meets a girl cuz hes shy an di was like ok but u wont stop talking with me and he was like yea well i can see me and you like talking for hours and i was like YAY!!!