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Moving again!!! [07 Feb 2004|03:00am]
[ mood | tired ]

I'm sorry Blurty, but when Chris told me to have a look, I was swayed by the Tag board and the pretty colours, though there wont be any levitating hamsters there but I'm leaving! ...I know, I'm a bad website user! but you can blame C. - he found it! lol!

http://pradagold.bravejournal.com/ is the new blog for anyone interested, though I might actually come back to this one if I can keep two going!!!

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Late again! [04 Feb 2004|02:07am]
[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | John Lennon - Imagine ]

Im feeling very calm tonight, maybe too calm but whos complaining?! ...I've just been up to the field where Max is with some apples, his coat was shining in the moonlight and he looked lovely, he didnt seem to like the apples much though - i think he was only eating them to keep me happy! lol! ...yeah right!!
It's nice out tonight, not cold, no rain and it's quiet, well I guess thats to be expected at 1am in a village! but yeah...peaceful!

Dog Max is flat out on the bed again, complete with muddy paws!!! I'd told him to stay downstairs but when i came out of the bathroom there he was! You might wonder why I dont just go and get him off...it's not possible!! First you try pulling his collar but he just tenses his whole body and becomes unmovable, you can beg, bribe and plead - he wont budge. If you keep trying he'll start to growl, show the teeth and look adament that you aint getting him to go anywhere! He wont bite though - he's soft, well to say...he hasnt yet! *laughs* but he's cute and he's not doing any real harm, I just dont like being pushed out of MY bed then not being allowed back in!!



Actually, all of a sudden I'm really tired! so am going to go and persuade his lordship to mover over at least!
Till sometime soon.... take care xx

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Sick as a dog! lol! [03 Feb 2004|02:35am]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Robbie Williams - Feel ]

Have a bit of a cold, and feeling a little crap but it aint stoppin' me! lol Cant sleep though so thats why I'm here!
I did feel like writing a long email (which I have become quite proficient at!!) but I went to the inbox and there was nothing that warrented a long reply and I dont really have much to say to anyone at the moment so couldnt just write one!....well..I could but it would be a load of crap!!...thats why Blog's are good - you can rattle on and no-one has to read it!! *laughs*

Everyone seems to think there's something wrong with me because of a couple of things going on at the moment, but I'm actually great right now! Yeah, I'd rather not have some things happen, but the only thing really bothering me is a particular 'annoyance' which gets at me from time to time, but thats hardly a life changing thing!!

I was moving some of the stuff from the stables the other day, what didnt go with the horses and I'm not keeping will probably be sold because theres no-where to put it, and I dont forsee getting more ponies in the near future!...it was quite sad...no as in crying sad, more marking the end of an era sad - I first started with horses when I was 3, so it's been a while and something I wish I didnt have to give up. But then I do know it's the best thing, and one day when life is settled and I have the time, I can get some horses again, they wont be the same obviously, but it's natural progression.
Still have Max though - who typically has to look cute and appealing!!! (though I know the truth son! lmao!)

Recently downloaded AOL 8...you can either have the file or order a CD, the file took over 2 hours to get, but I think it was worth it, though the new version is TOO helpful! it has catagories and sub catagories and options that werent there before and sometimes you just want to get on with it instead of clicking everything! lol but to be fair, although it's been a bit dodgy from time to time, AOL's done us good since the begining, we've always used them, though the broadband version WOULD BE AWFULLY NICE!! lol :-p

Still cant access any of the sites to update them because Yahoo wont work properly, but it's not just me - other people I know are having problems too...and here was me considering four webhosting packages with them..you're not impressing me at the moment Yahoo! *laughs* I'm sure everything will be fine again soon, it's just that I NEED to be into one site in particular, it's a professional one and so cant play with that one!! It should be ok though.

Anyway, enough rattling! Time to sleep!!
Night! xx

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Still kickin'... [30 Jan 2004|05:13pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Music Of The Night - Sir Andrew Lloyd Webber ]

As dad went out of the door today, he farted rather loudly as he closed it behind him, I had to wonder if i had delayed him a little longer, or had answered 'yes' to whether or not I wasnted anything done while he was out, that he might not have announced his departure to the world, but then i thought on it a while and came up with the only conclusion...he's dad...of course he would!

I'm in a scarily bad mood at the moment, but still in fair spirits actually! I've just had enough - not of life, of people. But you've just got to get on with it havent you? I mean - it's not like you can avoid most people! lol!

'In reality you know little about me, is that enough for you to call me a friend?
One day you're going to wake up and realise I'm not the person you thought I was
And you'll wish that you didnt have so much faith.
Take off the rose glasses and let go of this foolish conception of 'us'
Because who i am is not why you're interested and even if it was
You'd do better to walk away than find out how I really feel.'

I dont actually have much to say at the moment, mainly because most of whats been going on lately I dont want to or cant write here, so for now I'm just going to post sone words/lyrics which I wrote on thursday, some of it's actually true though the cafe did make good hot chocolate! lmao! :-p

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One Step At A Time

Sitting alone in the corner
Of a broken down cafe
Watching the empty faces
Of the people that pass
When I was young I never dreamed
Life would be this way
And now I'm lost in my thoughts
Like a cloud of the past
Then the sound of glass breaking
Snaps back to reality
No wait, its just the sound
Of my ego crashing to the floor

Theres nothing left
Of what used to be my life
But I still have hope
Maybe just maybe, its enough to rebuild it
If I take things one step at a time
Maybe I'll get through
Yeah, Maybe I'll get through
But theres an old man he too is sitting alone
Resting his head in his hands
Wrapped up in clothes that
Well, dont fit him too good
Though I'm sure he was the man in his day.

His eyes tell the story
Of a soulless existance
Wandering through his solitary days
But maybe If I
Give him the words I was told
He'll live once again as he should
Old man it's true,
It will all work out fine
Just take it one step at a time
And then the waitress walks over and
Asks 'Would you like anything else?'
I say 'I want my life back' and leave

oh One step at a time
Yeah, one step at a time
Turn the world around
Get your feet back on the ground
One step at a time
Yeah
One step at a time.

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'One of those days....' [28 Jan 2004|01:09am]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | Meatloaf - Piece Of The Action ]

I got a phone call from someone I havent spoken to directly for a while, and after 'Hello' the first thing he asked was 'Are you ok?' sounding worried...the truth? no, but I will be!
It's just been a difficult day today and I've done things which no-one would ever understand how hard it was to do for me personally, but although Im emotionally exhausted I came out smiling, not because I'm happy with it but because I wasnt sure I could even though it might seem trivial, but - it had to be done and anyone who wanted confirmation or proof as to my standing on something which is going on at the moment, has it.

Actually you know, I had intentions of writing a bit here but I've lost the inspiration so I'll leave you with a song which I'm playing at the moment! lol
To all - a good night! xx

Meatloaf - Piece Of The Action
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Somewhere a red-eyed waitress glances at another movie magazine
Down on the corner there's a grocery boy stuffin' boxes fulla hungry dreams
Someone's cleanin' up the offices, one window burnin' in the dark
Somebody's cryin' is there any way in hell
To light a comet from a single spark

Workin' so hard I can't remember much about the freedom I been workin' for
Felt like a prisoner 'til I looked in your eyes
And saw a million wide open doors
You tell me put a little money away, well every dog will have his day in time
Well I been slavin' like a dog and I got nothin' to show ya
But a collar and a fist fulla nickels and dimes

I want a piece, a piece of the action,
give me a shot at the real thing
I want a piece of the action, a piece of the action
Gonna turn on the master, gonna cut these strings
Gonna turn on the master, gonnacut these strings

Been livin' just like my old man did and neither once of us could get it right
Punchin' in when the day begins and punchin' out the local boys at night
There's someone leanin' on a peelin' porch
And someone leavin' on a silver plane
And I finally know the man I'd rather be
Girl I won't be back to getcha 'til they know my name

They hand you a paycheck every week and steal a piece of your soul every day
An' I don't need no gold watch in fifty years, baby let's be golden today

Somewhere a red-eyed waitress glances at another movie magazine
Down on the corner there's a grocery boy stuffin' boxes fulla hungry dreams

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More mindless crap! lol! [24 Jan 2004|01:06pm]
[ mood | Surprisingly good! ]
[ music | Alanis Morisette - Right Through You ]

*stamps around the room kicking things* (didnt know i was violent did ya?! lol!) I'm in a good mood, but so annoyed at the same time and cant write why here so I'll just huff about it instead! lmao! :-p

Didnt go to bed till after 6am this morning, so I wasnt best pleased when Dad woke me up at 10! but then, have things to do so have to do them! lol I've got quite a bit to get through today actually and havent really made a start yet so should really get motivated, but I'm still feeling half asleep!! hmm..dads gone shopping so I wonder if he'll be bringing any red bull back! *laughs*

I've recently discovered that the digital camera is a webcam too, which I didnt know becasue I have a habit of not reading instructions for things and just winging it! lol!
The webcam was wierd at first, but Im ok with it now, though that could be bacause I've only spoken to one person using it really and she had one too so it was fair! ..but its fun! had a real laugh but I think it's addictive!
The freaky times will be when someone can see you but you cant see them! lol!

Just got a new email address, barely out of the wrapper and already I have a handful of psychos or perverts who keep trying to talk to me! lmao! ....I stupidly went into an AOL chatroom the other night, where it automatically shows your screenname (which for those of you who dont have AOL...you add @aol.com to it and its your addy! lol) ....so I was sitting there thinking 'ahh yes!..now I remember why i dont bother!' you know..if thats what you want fine, but it was late, I coudnt sleep and went looking for a decent conversation! *laughs*
chatrooms for me are not an attraction unless its in a room with a group of people I already know! ...having said that, while you aparrently get 'all of the wierdo's on AOL' *looks hurt! lol* there's got to be some ok people - they cant ALL be avoidables! *laughs*

Speaking of avoiding...im putting things off so had better go and get on, I was going to think of something intellectual to say because it's slipping, but I dont have time right now! lol *any excuse!!* but knowing me...I'll be back anyway!! ...when im finished though! :-p

Till then!...xx

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wow! updating AGAIN!!! [21 Jan 2004|01:45am]
[ mood | disappointed ]
[ music | Everything I Do I Do It For You - Bryan Adams ]

More of those test things first, but had enough of them now so these'll be the last!!

CWINDOWSDesktopPowerRangeres.jpg
Power Rangers Movie!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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DarkMagic
Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!


Please rate ^^


What kind of dark person are you?
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'The life that no-one else sees' *thinks on that*

You represent... hope.
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.


What feeling do you represent?
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Far fetched?!


nerdslut
Nerdslut


What's your sexual appeal?
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hmmm...

Taurus
You should be dating a Taurus.
20 April - 20 May
This gentle creature is dependable, artistic, and
very calm and patient. Though Taurus has the
tendency to be self-indulgent, stubborn or
materialistic, this bull naturally enjoys a
roll in the hay!


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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*laughs* never officially dated a taurean, but the ones i know are great people, but do starsigns really make people compatable?


Artistic
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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wooooo!! lol!


HASH(0x8379b94)
Protector


The ULTIMATE personality test
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You're mostly a good person. You're good
most of the time, but you know how to be bad.
;)



*How evil are you?*
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*laughs madly*

Anyways, enough of that for now!!

It's been an ok day alltogether, talked with a friend for longer than planned on the way to the horses but it's ok because I dont normally get the chance to!
Horse Max is going to look lovely in the summer time, he's a bit fluffy at the moment but will really look great when he's lost all the fur, shame I wont see this time... and I know he's gone to a good home but I want the big stallion Hugho back! Still, its best for them, I know it is.

I've decided I want to move, this place can be lovely, but the areas more suited to an older person, having said that, the distance it gives from the madness of busy life while still being near enough to civilization is good so I think I'd more like another houseas well as this, cause we'll never leave this one I dont think.
We had three places at one time, but only actually need one! This house's not a flashy place, just a normal family home, and it's comfortable. and while the village knows who lives here (a fact of village life - people know everything! lol!) its unknown in terms of the world and once you close the door - none of it matters anymore.

I'm not a showy person, but I do like nice things, and maybe 'MTV Cribs' is the wrong thing for me to watch - I've already designed plans for my 'dream house' and i see things on there which give me new ideas!! I like interior design and love creating nice spaces, and one day will put some of the plans into practice, but even allowing for a healthy bank balance, I think im overspending when I look at the things which are going into it!! *gets on the phone to Elton John* Reg...can you lend me a couple of million?! *laughs*

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The Man You Never Knew

When you say my name, you say his in the same breath,
How would it be if one day, you turned the tables on yourself?
Yes I know his name too, but that doesnt make me the same, as him.
Or you, who I gave some trust to and you abused it.
I would have given you it all but it just wasnt worth it.
I've tried to let you into my world, giving you little things
Which you go off and take to a place that I dont want go.
Though you try to pretend, I am only an end, to your means
Just another way for you to be seen, in a game that I wont play.
He's worth so much more than that and I wont see him hurt,
And im sorry if you cant take it, I guess im another one you just dont know.
I'm not the people who I may know, And I'm not part of the places that I go
I'm not that picture on your wall, you're not there for him at all,
And I care too much to let you tell the whole world through
A thousand lies and stories, about the man you never knew.

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ok, Im officially bored now! sleeps an option, but now 4am's become the regular time, I'm not tired yet!!
*wanders off to find amusement*

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Random test things... lol [20 Jan 2004|04:34pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Eye Of The Tiger - Survivor ]

Dunno how true! *laughs*

innocent kiss
innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it
that way


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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cute flirt
Cute Flirt


What Kind of FLIRT are you?
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You're Sensitive and you'd like to stay that way..
-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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quite result
Quiet Girl


What kind of little girl were YOU?
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vamp
You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."


Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Yay!! [20 Jan 2004|02:42pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | It's My Life - Bon Jovi ]

Chris got a blog! lmao! at least I think it's a 'yay'...might not be such a good idea from what I've read already! lol! *shakes head*

I'm in a surprisingly good mood, the weathers crap and it's a miserable day, but I'm good!
Meatloaf mania's over now...was starting to scare myself at how much i wanted to go ...so yeah!!
I didnt go to the concert obviously, though kept looking at the clock last night thinking 'he'll be on the stage now!' but it's ok, I would have probably scared myself more if I'd been there anyway! lol

Just been watching the news and they were on about Harold Shipman again, the thing I dont understand is how he managed to kill so many people - one was too many! He didnt show any signs of being 'Sorry' for what he'd done - no remorse at all. 'Justice' is a strange thing....and I cant help but wonder that, if by taking his own life, he had the 'easy way out' - but then, some people are beyond help.

Email account was hacked into again, this is becoming a habit! new addresses and changes, but I really wish people would just leave it alone!! At least the computer wasnt given a virus like last time!

I'm at home today, but have a few things to sort out and post some laminates to various people so will get them sent and if I can, I'll try and work on the Starlight site because it NEEDS doing, I still cant get into the account and Yahoo havent been in touch, customer service is important you know people! *laughs*
I might also give the dog a bath, though not sure how well he'll dry off today! It should be warmer really, but he's in the house and I can use the hairdryer... lol!
Nicki dropped some toast on him - would have been fine if it didnt have chocolate spread on it!! lmao! ....also, he just stinks!! *runs to buy some aftershave for Max*

On that thought...he's just come back upstairs so while he's here, I'm going to get him clean! I'll need a bath by the time he's done, but he needs one first!!

Ciao!

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Ever been annoyed at yourself? [20 Jan 2004|03:15am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

you know, it doesnt matter what the hell i do, i always manage to make a cock up somehow!...whys it bothering me so much? ...it just is!!

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FREAKY!!! [19 Jan 2004|03:15am]
[ mood | weird ]
[ music | Meatloaf - Piece Of The Action ]

I've just been talking to Andie on msn, and both of us started feeling rather strange, freaked out more like it! lol

Just looked at my stars for today and it says ' Someone is very exciting today and they'll help keep you on your toes. Luckily, this will be enjoyable and exciting so theres nothing to worry about. You might recieve a surprise invitation to visit someone who lives abroad, or they could announce that they're coming over to see you. You may also bump into someone you werent expecting to see.' ....well, if anyones gonna visit - please give me warning! lol! and on the bit where it talks about bumping into someone, please let it be Meatloaf, please please pleasseee!! *laughs* just for one song!!! He'll be at the arena tomorrow and while I now know I'm not going to see the concert I still would like to go! *yes...you've said that Tasha!!*
ooh!! ...just remembered I have to go to Newcastle tomorrow! *wahey!*... pity! :-p ...nah, we've got a couple of concerts coming up which we're going to use the opportunity to spoil ourselves a bit so I guess it's ok, and I'm actually looking forward to going to them this time! even though I'm not happy with where we're sitting - I prefer to be away from the stage, but then because I go for different reasons I have a limit as to whe're I'll sit!! *laughs* so when you're in that situation, what do you do?! lol! It'll be a laugh though, Nicki's looking forward to it too and we've got a few plans lined up so, yeah...it'll make up for not going to Meatloaf's show!..almost!!

'One day you wake up
And you see
That all the time you spent holding on
Doesnt matter anymore,
You've made it through.
The sun is shining, and the rain has gone
You've made it through'

Anyway, its getting late, so I'd better get some sleep, loads to do tomorrow!
Stay Safe.

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Randomness [18 Jan 2004|03:15am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Read 'em and weep - Meatloaf ]

I'm feeling really nervous tonight and have absolutley no idea why!! Caffine overdose most likely!!
Just been watching 'The Faculty' with Dad (Tony) and it was, well..crap! AND at the end they didnt even suggest that the aliens might be somehow still alive or come back - all GODD movies end with at least a hint! lol but it wouldnt have made it any better for me personally! :-p

Woke up this morning to horses running around in the field at the back of our house, dont know when they arrived there, but it was quite nice to watch them - I can see the field from the computer too, so if im doing something I can have a look out! lol
It's been a funny sort of day, didnt get much done but then didnt have that much to do after a change of plan! roll on monday! *laughs* ...actually no, wait a while!!

I REALLY would like to go to the Meatloaf concert! (yup, still on about that! lol!) but the friend i was going to go with thought we werent going so is going on holiday instead and no-one else will go! So...Nicki said she would but only if I go to the Pop Idol tour, and that's blackmail!! That also rests on being able to get tickets, typically when I had free time, the box office wasnt open for me to find out! I dont HAVE to go, just would like to....I dont fit in at concerts, but I'd still like to go!
hmmm... maybe Dad would come with me, but then I'd have to go to see Riverdance with him! which, while the show was interesting...seeing Dad entertain either Barrie's knee or the poor woman next to him...I dont find appealing! (just dont ask! lol!)

As im writing this I keep picking up a little compac morror which gives you three different views of your face and im looking at it thinking 'God I look bad!' but as im sitting in the bedroom with only the dog - I dont have to make the effort do I?! ..but you know when you see some people and you take an instant dislike to them purely because of the way they look? I'm one of those! lol! I look like a bitch!
...one of the first things i remember mum teaching me was never to judge, the first thing they taught in Psychology was never to judge and then went on to say we all do it, because we're human! but If I saw me walking down the street, I dont think I would like myself!
Just looked at the bed *a sign im getting tired!* and Max is looking quite comfortable (dog Max..not the pony one!!) so I hope he's ok with sharing!

I'm having a friendship crisis! I've recently decided thats what it is! people I know are running around throwing the 'friend' word around and while I would never see any of them in trouble and not help, or do anything to hurt them, but knowing someone or of them, doesnt make you their friend does it? By my definition friendship comes with time, mutual trust, respect and being there for the right reasons - I mean to have a real friend - not a mate.
I'm not special, but I value what I have.

ahh.. the other night I had to pick some things up in town and Annmarie came along with me, we went on the bus - neither of us drive yet and you're lucky to find parking in the town center so it works fine, I like buses now actually!! (sit at the back and write sometimes, but only when its quiet! lol!) ...when we got to the bus stop to go, there was a guy waiting too, never seen him before but aparrently he lives in the village - we took a guess that he was Itallian, he was lovely and was so polite!
When we got to Newcastle we were running around the city looking for an itallian man who may not have been Itallian, we had no idea where he went and for all we know was a psychopath - but hey, he was cute! lmao! ...we missed a shop i needed to go into and I've no Idea what we'd have said should he have realised we were effectively stalking him! (well..trying to! lol!!) but it was funny!! ..and he has to come home sometime..doesnt he?!! *laughs*

Madness!

I'm looking in that mirror again, pulling faces (as you do!) I look like a dog tonight!! lol! ....speaking of which, I think i'll go plead with Max to let me at least have a corner on my bed!

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It's gone 5am and I cant stop thinking... [15 Jan 2004|04:54am]
I read your words and started to cry
I understand more than you will ever know,
And if one day I see God
I'll ask him why this must be so,
One day I know that your sun will shine
But until then all i can give you is hope
And promise everythings going to be ok
And you'll find a way to cope
Dont be affraid to believe in yourself
Dont be affraid of your tears
The pain has to find a way out somehow
Let the rain wash away your fears.
Take my hand and take my faith
And I'll walk with you a while
And share the load you're carrying
No need to walk another lonely mile
I dont give my word for just anything
But when I do I make sure it's good
You dont have to fight alone
And no-one ever should.
If it's all too much to take,
Turn around and I'll be there
Like I've said a thousand times before
Not just the good bits were made to share.
The past's memories live though it's all long gone,
And in the end no-ones really to blame
We live and learn and make it right
And now I'll teach you to dance - in the rain.

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Go mbeannaĆ­ Dia duit
Le gra xx
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I am NOT impressed!! [14 Jan 2004|02:06pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | The Very Best Of Meatloaf ]

I love Metro Radio, some great people work for the station, it usually has decent music and is entertaining, but I DON'T love the idea of the Telewest Arena being known as the Metro Radio Arena!! The Telewest company don't own the arena - they sponsor it...well - did until now, Metro now do as TW's time ran out and I dont think they can afford to anymore. I'm sorry, but it will always be the Telewest - 'Metro Radio Arena' sounds wrong, and it's going to look odd with the Metro logo! *laughs*
Honestly, I'm going to buy it someday and change the name back! I'm serious.

Haven't been here for a few days, not that theres that much to tell here, but it's been fairly ok. It was Mum's birthday on the 12th she would have been 53 which I really can't imagine what she would have been like! lol! she was 49 and it's hard to imagine her any other way now! Dad always buys flowers so they're now in the dining room which was her favourite part of the house, and we went out for a meal to the indian restaurant near where our other house used to be and had a look around - it's really strange being back there after not being for a few years, and so wierd seeing someone else living in the house! *laughs* We didnt have Cosy Cottage for long, only about 6 months I think but there was some good times there!

I really really really really realllyyyy would like to go to the Meatloaf concert coming up and aparrently there's been some ticket returns after the show was re-scheduled *yipee! lmao!* but dont have time to go down to the arena to find out more! :-( I called the ticketline but they weren't helpful, and have always found it best to go to the Box office in person, I cant ask dad because he doesnt have a clue (no offence) and because I dont go 'to be in the same room as' or go mad, I do care about where the tickets are. It's being called 'the Last World Tour' so i'm hoping that the next one is an 'American tour including a special appearance at the Telewest Arena!' *laughs*

I decorated dad's bedroom over the past couple of days too, it doesnt look too bad, I wasnt sure about the colours he'd chosen at first, but now they're on the walls and have been left to dry - it looks ok, though I'm looking at a tub of gold paint and getting ideas..well, he wouldnt let me make a drape to go above the headboard because 'it wouldnt do much for his image' (what image dad?! lol) I an see why actually, but he might like another decorative effect, and if he doesnt, there's plenty paint left to cover it! *grins*

Well, loads to do, was just here while I grabbed some food!! ...but I'll be back! ...sometime!! lol! :-p

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Updating now I can type properly again! [08 Jan 2004|01:28am]
[ mood | productive ]
[ music | Little Miss Perfect - Summer Mathews ]

I'm taking the new year as an opportinuty to get my life sorted out and properly organised, theres a few changes going on at the moment which I know is the right thing, it's just when you've been used to something for so long...it's sometimes difficult to move on I suppose.
Apart from life, I'm having a clean out where my stuff is concerned - I have too much! lol! I collect things from places I go and then things which people give me or I aquire, and theres only so much I can keep!! But at the moment, I'm not having a problem with thinning it out - usually everything has some kind of sentimental attachment for some reason, and though it still does, a lot of very old stuff is going, but I'm making sure it's to good homes!
I'm having a change around in my room too, which is so I can fit in the retro prints I found in the loft that I had from ages ago and didnt have space to display them!... gave my 'Hot Jazz' one to Nicki cause it fits with her room better, and it looks really good in there! The whole house is getting re-arranged actually, I guess it's an early spring clean really!...Moved the TV into dad's room also - it's a distraction in here! lol!

Max the dog's got a sore leg at the moment, I think he probably hurt it jumping the fence to get onto the bridleway which runs along the back of our garden, and the horse Max has a sore eye after he was let loose AGAIN and got himself stuck between a barbed wire fence and spikey bushes, I think he must have done it trying to turn around, either that or scrapping with the boss horse in the field he was next to!!
I wish people would leave the horses alone, but they seem to think it's funny. Still, wont be a problem soon.

The weathers wet and windy outside, but it's really warm and cosy in here at the moment, I've got the radio on and am just chillin' really - it's a calm night, dog's curled up next to me and it's nice. :-)
I've just realised that we're well over a week into the new year and I havent written anything yet! lol! not even a poem which I do every year, usually to send to friends, but I think everyone will be sick by now! *laughs* Will have to write something...or actually, I think I wrote down a few lines to a song the other day, so maybe finish that! ...need some inspiration! :-p

Well then, guess it's getting on a bit, for those of us who have to get up early enough at least! I shall be off!
Sweet Dreams ;-) xx

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Well....Happy New Year! [02 Jan 2004|12:05am]
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | Bryan Adams - Star ]

Right now, the dog is flat out asleep on the floor, the cats flat out on the bed, and I'm looking forward to doing the same! Couldnt not add a note on the first day of the new year though! It's been a funny sort of day and i can't really decide how I'm feeling!...other than tired!

Max got loose today (the little stallion, not the dog!) and was running alongside a field nearby with some mares in doing his best to impress! He's a lovely little thing usually, but trying to lead him back was a nightmare! He was all hyped up and wanted to go back! They were all big horses though, and any ideas he might have had would have been no hopers really! *laughs*
The little bugger bit me though!! he doesnt normally, he was just excited and annoyed i was taking him away!
Dad was trying to get me to go to the hospital for it, and I suppose looking at it now it might have been a good idea - I didnt realise how bad it was till I got back home and locked myself in the bathroom to have a look! lol! In 15 years I've been bitten by a few horses, but this is the worst, blood and everything and you can see inside my hand!! quite gross actually! It'll be fine though, used a few colourful words while cleaning it and spraying antiseptic, but yeah definatley NO NEED to go to the hospital!! *looks at Dad*
I told Max I was sending him to the meat man, but he knows I never would so doesnt care! (even if he did understand what I was saying!)

I'm not feeling depressed or particularly down, but i feel ..odd! lol ...a little insecure right now maybe.... I dunno, theres a bit going on to deal with, just like everyone does.....I guess I kinda feel lost in what sometimes feels like a very big world, and feel like I'm walking alone, even though I know I'm not - I have a close group of friends who keep me straight, but most of them dont live near me so I dont get to see them as often as I'd like. I have lots of 'mates' and people I know, but you cant beat a good, real friend, they're tops :-)

I didnt really make an new years resolutions, other than to get myself a bit more organised and try and live a more healthy lifestyle - sometimes I dont sleep properly, dont eat properly and dont switch off, which isnt a good way to do things effectively, so i'll make the effort there, other than that I'll just get on with it!
Got new auditions coming up in the summer, which I've got the hang of now so it's actually fun! (apart from talking to a room full of people...I can do it, i've just never liked that bit!) ..various offers and opportunities to be considered, a couple of concerts, a wedding, and whatever else comes along, so already it's not looking too bad I suppose!
Hopefully the weather will get better too! I know i hoped for snow for christmas, but we've had a little bit now and I'd quite like it to go away!

Well then...as it's getting on and I'm feeling sleepy, I'll go for now, mainly because my hand hurts too much to type and it's too frustraring doing it with one! *laughs*

Happy New Year!

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The last day... [31 Dec 2003|02:28am]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Evanessence - Everyones Fool ]

A couple of hours into the last day of 2003 and I'm just thinking about some of the things which have happened this year, and how much everythings changed, how much I'VE changed and as always, wondering about the coming year. I know it wont start the best way it can as I've something to do which I'm not looking forward to.... but have already started so cant go back on it now, and it's the right time to do it. I just DONT WANT TO! anyway... lol

It's been a good day really, if slightly stressful when Nicki and I went shopping, we were supposed to get the laminates but ended up...not! ...came home with a new hat though! :-p but did pick up a few other things needed at least! everything was madness as per usual for this time, but t least people are a little bit more cheerful now they've got the christmas stress out of their system!!...have to go out again tomorrow so i hope they still feel the same! *laughs*

Also, have you ever enjoyed doing something but start to resent it because of the way a few people behave? I could rant, but wont - im actually in a goooood mood! lol!!

ahh, I feel a poem coming on! *laughs*...no, I'd better go, it's almost 3am and It's another early morning!
I'll be back next year!!!
Night xx

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I'm back!! [29 Dec 2003|06:26pm]
[ mood | good ]

Ok well, the 'Snow Queen' wasnt that entertaining, but then we watched 'Babe - Pig In The City' which was cute, though I've had enough TV for a month! I dont watch it that much, and it feels like an overdose!
Just been painting for a little bit too, been a while since i've had time, so while it was quiet I pulled that art box out!
Still not sure whats happening for new year, and it's getting close! I hope it gets decided soon, especially if we're doing something here - I want to be prepared for guests! lol! (and you just know it would be ME doing everything!!)

*laughs* I've just been talking on msn and it reminded me of a time I was with some friends and we were maybe a little bit drunk, without too much info and it's REALLY not as bad as it might sound, but there was a guy who we stole his shirt, well actually.. it was ME who stole it, but not my idea!! *looks innocent* lol it's ok though, he'd been wanting to take it off anyway earlier!! .....We even poured tequila down his trousers! I dont really remember what that was about, other than something to do with the worm!! (honestly theres logic in everything when you've had a few! :-p

*wanders off to find food* ....just realised - I havent eaten yet! lol!

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Feelin' ill but still in a good mood! [29 Dec 2003|02:57pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]
[ music | The song 'Whole of the moon' is in my head. ]

Both Nicki and I are ill now - figures! Shes downstairs at the moment with a blanket and teddybear, and I've just come up to get a pillow!! We're watching the 'Snow Queen' at the moment, before that was 'Chicago' which was a rather dazzling show really! Brilliant production and some great costumes, and I want to know who got Richard Gere to learn to tap dance! lol! Good film, slightly true.

Was supposed to go shopping this morning, and also pick up some laminates for a show coming up, but when the time to get up came around - I couldnt!! Hopefully tomorrow though, at least it can be put off for a couple of days - have free time till the new year, which isnt very long I know, but it'll do!

Well I'd better go, dont want to miss the entertainment do I?! *coughs*

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Morning! [27 Dec 2003|11:37am]
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | The Darkness - Christmas Time, it's in me head!! ]

The party ended arounf 4.30am, so what I want to know, is how on earth did everyone have enough energy (never mind being sober enough!) to get up and occupy the garden at 9.30?! ...at least the sun's shining today!!
Not sure whats happening yet, personally I dont feel like doing much, but anythings better than sleeping and having wierd dreams about toy stores! lol!
I think I've just heard Nicki getting up *lazy bugger! :-p lol* so I'd better go for now, I'm feeling a bit hungry, and if I can cook for the both of us at the same time, that'll be grand!

Later! xx

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