i still like college. a lot. i'm having fun meeting people and such.
i'm anxiously waiting my crash though. i've been happy for 3 weeks straight *minus the time i was home*...i know i should just say fuck it and be happy but the old me is started to resurface.
ahhh. i want sex. or maybe someone to like me. just a little. i want to feel liked. i hate being ugly. lol. im not only ugly on the outside, im ugly on the inside. i really dont have a personality.
ahh. i cant rip on myself. im trying so hard to be happy here. so hard. but i duno. im scared that if i set myself up thinking i'm not going to crash that when i do, it'll be horrific. and bloody and gory and it will make little children cry. hah.
oh well. better go try and sleep.
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