quiEtLy lOsing cOntrOL's Blurty

Subject:	lOng time nO talk
Time:	1:20 pm.

hi again. my computer is fixed. except not really. oh well.

let's see. a lot of shit has been happening lately. mostly shitty shit. nothing too great. but what do you expect?

i duno if i wrote about the whole new years issue that led to hutch not talking to us for a week. eh. i went to dc with my family + brought jimmy. we had fun. we celebrated alyss's big 18. weee.

emotionally, i'm still the same loser i was in 2003. big surprise.

cait is mad at me and she won't just fucking come out and say it. tovish+1 is so fucked up. i feel bad, but i'm not sure if i even care anymore. being with your friends shouldn't be a chore. that's why i only now feel comfortable (and *gasps* somewhat happy) when i hang out with the select few. a few more less than usual. and i actually got to hang out with katie. i miss her. she was over for 5 hours the other day, and all we did was laugh. i needed that. i need that. that is what you do with your friends. not make awkward conversation and fake being happy.

it's come down to where i feel like i've broken up two friendships. cait + jim, and alyssa + hutch. go me. the one with no friends pulls 5 people together and breaks up 2 long term friendships. hi i suck.

blaaaaaaaah. fuck everything though. i'm done.

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