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[06 Sep 2006|08:12pm]
blurty. yay.

okay so. in total honesty i dont really remember anything from this summer, cause i really didnt do anything. i sat on my computer and swam by myself pretty much the whole time. I hated it in the beginning but it just helped me realize that if people wont pick up a phone to call me.. why call them? Anyways..I really didnt spend this summer the way I wanted to.. but I became closer with Cassie and thats all I really care about. I swear.. if I could only pick 4 people to come live on an island with me I know exactly who those four would be and I wouldnt regret it.

Anyways..I think I spent less days with Dave then more this summer. If he wasnt working he was in Spotswood. I understand it was their last summer together cause college but.. I dont know. What evv.

MY 16TH BIRTHDAY!
august 8th. hung out with cassie richard david ron lauren and dana. went to perkins went minigolfing. then just chilled in my backyard. thheeennn on august 12th David threw me a surprise party. I thought Tom Swenson ruined it cause he called me and basically told me i was having a party but he said the wrong date. so i got all ready thinking i was going to a bbq with dave and his dad and it was actually a surprise party for me! soooo many people there. sooo wasted. the party ended at like 10 or so then EVERYONE went back to daves house. people were scattered all voer the place. still drinking. making out. sleeping.. basically everyone just chilled. at like 2am me mikey dennis sheil and collins smoked a blunt. oh. my. god. SO fucked up. i was rolling around and shit... talking about my pony Henry? and being in a forest? so people tell me. Dennis was a snake. what ev man. it was the best day of summer hands down.

Parentals and the Divorce.
its pretttty ugly. father took us camping with him, his thing, and his things kids. the daughters pretty chill but i wanted to beat the fucking piss out of her son. my father needs to understand this is the hardest fucking thing in my life and i cant just go camping and be alright with this woman.

justin came home from virginia. nothing much to say cause were fighting right now about something i found out but i love him reguardless and i hope he'll realize hes just gonna fuck up again and i cant go threw it again.

richard burton is in florida. college. i cried when i hugged him goodbye.
rene is up at rutgers. i didnt get to see him before he left cause people fucking suck but. what ever.
he's not that far away so HOPEFULLY dave will take me to go see him when ever he goes.
we are no longer friends with Tom Swenson cause what he did on my birthday.
but hes in school in jersey city.
Kinzel left tuesday for the Marines.. didnt get to say goodbye to him.
Mikey is going to the Navy soon. i really wish i could help that kid instead of him sleeping in the woods and shit but theres no where for him to sleep. i mean yeah we have a couch in the living room but idk. i wanna talk to my mom about it.


yes. I got a job. yay! Keansburg Runaway Rapids. yeah, keansburg is gross but seriously its probably the best place you can work. Next year me and cassie are going to become lifeguards. In the past 3 weeks i've had a job.. i hung out with more people then i did ALL summer. how SAD is that? but my anxiety sucks and im mad shy. Lauren and Cassie told me EVERYONE asked why I didnt talk. lol oohhh this kid tyler. he's your typical emo boy... and HE WRESTLES. haha its crazy. he told me that and I was like WHOA WHOA WHOA. YOU... of ALL PEOPLE... WRESTLE?


i say i dont care about people never calling me but honestly.. whats so bad about me? why is it EVERY group of friends i had.. everyone stopped calling me?


what ever. im just getting myself upset over nothing so im just going to end it.

summer '06 sucked
Like a bad habit

[15 May 2005|12:54pm]
I'm just testing this because I am coool like that =)
Like a bad habit

[08 Mar 2005|07:16am]
[ mood | awake ]

A-Atreyu
B-Brand New
C-Coheed & Cambria
D-Dashboard Confesstional
E-Eminem ( haha sorry I love him )
F-From First to Last
G-Glassjaw
H-Hellogoodbye
I-Incubus
J-Jake Epstein ( Craig Manning on DEGRASSI<33)
K-Killswitch Engage
L-Less Than Jake
M-Matchbook Romance
N-Northstar
O-One True Thing
P-Pepper
Q-Queen
R-Rufio
S-Senses Fail
T-The Blood Brothers
U-Used, The
V-Vertical Horizon
W-Wallflowers
X-X to tha Z Xzibit haha
Y-Youth Ahead, the (local band)
Z-Zwan

1 Need me - Like a bad habit

BORED [16 Jan 2005|09:13pm]
[ mood | sick ]

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Sam
2. Sammy
3. Haggerd

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. dog4783
2. dontxbexsad
3. th0sewordsatbest

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my style?
2. my hair sometimes
3. uhm. my hands?

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. having excema.
2. being online too much
3. I cry too much

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Irish
2. dont know the rest cause my
3. dads mom was adopted

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. the dark
2. people
3. the future

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. aim
2. friends
3. a shower

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. pj pants
2. chorus sweatshirt
3. slippers

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS (at the moment):
1. Away From It All
2. From First To Last
3. The Starting Line

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (at the moment):
1. Enny Brothers Vs Leatherface
2. failure by designer jeans
3. how we do

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. make more friends
2. be more interesting
3. be nicer

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. respect
2. spooning :-)
3. affection

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order)
1. I dont like a lot of people.
2. People confuse me
3. Sluts rule!

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. personallity
2. face
3. body

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. music
2. the computer
3. friends

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. I want to be able to breathe. Max got me sick.
2. See Scott
3. sleep

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. zoo keeper. wooy
2. working at best buy. id love to work there
3. no idea.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. hawaii
2. ireland
3. TEXAS

THREE KIDS NAMES:
1. BOY- I dont know
2. GIRL- I dont know
3. HERMAPHRODITE – Taylor

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married
2. have kids
3. visit texas

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I talk about me having a penis
2. I touch girls sometimes.
3. I watch porn sometimes. but only to laugh at it.

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK
1. I wear makeup
2. I obsess over my body, boys, everything.
3. I cry a lot

Like a bad habit

[12 Dec 2004|10:28pm]
[ mood | hateful ]
[ music | Away From It All- Enny Brothers VS Leatherface ]

STAR things that are true about you:

o1. I'm in a relationship
o2. I can't eat sugar
o3. I am in love
o4. I think Bush is an awesome president
o5. I think gay marriage should be approved*
o6. I enjoy playing my music loud*
o7. I like to decorate stuff*
o8. I love the color silver*
o9. I have too much free time*
1o. I love hugs!**
11. I like to take pictures*
12. I am a blonde
13. I love Vanilla Coke
14. My parents are divorced
15. I get amused easily sometimes*
16. I hate my siblings*
17. I love all my friends to death*
18. I have been to the Bahamas at least once
19. I love Aladdin*
2o. I'm afraid of losing loved ones*
21. When I get home the first thing I do is get on computer*
22. I need to apply myself more.*
23. I need more sleep*
24. I like to write poetry
25. Hypocrites piss me off*
26. I wish I could ride a motorcycle
27. I don't like chocolate much
28. I have weird dreams*
29. I don't have a shower
3o. I love to swim*
31. I'm scared of changes*
33. I don't do extracurricular activities
34. I'm too lazy*
35. I am an atheist
36. I tend to hate jerks*
37. I'd rather have a small group of close friends than a large group of friends that I didn't know all that well*
38. I'm easily hurt*
39. I'm an Internet nut*
40. AIM takes up 1/4 of my life*
41. I like giving gifts*
42. I enjoy recieving them as well*
43. I'm quiet in class and loud with my friends
44. I love watching films*
45. I am very crazy at times*
46. I want to learn how to play the flute
47. I love where I go to school
48. I hate my homelife*
49. I don't like eating
50. I leave school soon*
51. I am an impulse spender
52. I only ever seem to drink pepsi/coke
53. I have lots of nicknames*
54. I eat too much junk food*
55. I've had an Xanga for over a year
56. I'm tough on the outside, super sensitive on the inside*
57. I love video games
58. I am shy at first*
59. I'm scared that the entire world hates me and I just don't realize it*
60. I love sarcasm*
61. I'm a bit blonde at times
62. I think I scare people sometimes*
63. I think snobby people suck*
64. I hate it when people judge others
65. I prefer the internet to the TV*
66. I can cry and not be sad
67. I take a shower every day*
68. I interrupt people a lot*
69. I hate it when people ignore me or irritate me*
70. I'm quiet, then I come out with random outbursts*
71. I have a lot of pet peeves*
72. I hate scratched CD's and DVD's*
73. I love blue eyes*
74. I hate acting girlish*
75. I'm a very messy person*
76. I want more piercings!***
77. I hate my figure*
78. My friends are loud but awesome*
79. I sleep on my side*
80. I appreciate nice things that are done for me, even if it's just a compliment*
81. I'd love to have the money to buy things for people for no reason at all*
82. Iced coffee is the best*
83. I want to get my ear's pierced again*
84. I want my belly button peirced
85. I like sitting around doing nothing if it pleases me*
86. I don't like talking to new people
87. I love horse back riding
88. I'm a day dreamer*
89. I never want to get married
90. I like clean sheets*
91. I love to ramble about random things*
92. If I leave my hair to dry it goes curly
93. I don't sleep much*
94. I loathe sunbathing
95. I'm scared of the near future*
96. I hate it when parents take sides*
97. My starsign is virgo
98. I share my Birthday with an enemy.
99. I love recieving Xanga Comments
1o0. I've rode in a hot air balloon
1o1. I've bowled left handed
1o2. I love popcorn*
1o3. I've liked my best friend before*
1o4. I wake up to an alarm clock*
1o5. I hide things under my bed
1o6. I hate close-minded people*
1o7. I have gone sky diving
1o8. I've written a book
1o9. I love Def Lepard
11o. I make wishes at 11:11****
111. I play lacrosse
112. I have the same best friend since kindergarten* not really hardcore best friends like we used to be.....
113. I absolutely love cute/weird socks
114. I know what I want to be when I grow up
115. I write in cursive
116. I paint my nails*
117. My best friend lives in another state
118. I watch T.V. to fall asleep
119. I try to always do my hair in cute styles
12o. Whenever I'm bored, I usually resort to dumb quizes like this one*



TO PLAY " NEVER HAVE" PUT AN (X) IN FRONT OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE NEVER DONE BEFORE AND A (_) ON THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE DONE AT LEAST ONCE. ADD AN "I NEVER" OF YOUR OWN.


(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK
(_) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TO JAPAN
(_) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI
(X) I NEVER HAD ANAL SEX
(?) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
(X) I NEVER HAD SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
(_) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(X) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
(X) I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(_) I NEVER HAVE PISSED ON MYSELF
(X) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN ARRESTED
(_) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(X) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(X) I NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE
(X) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
(_) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(_) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(X) I NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TO EUROPE
(X) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(X) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FISTED AND/OR HAVE NEVER FISTED ANYONE
(X) I NEVER HAVE THROWN UP IN A BAR
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TO JAMAICA
(X) I NEVER PLAYED AN ORGANIZED SPORT
(X) I NEVER HAVE HAD ORAL SEX
(X) I NEVER CAUGHT MY PARENTS HAVING SEX
(X) I HAVE NEVER HAD PHONE SEX
(X) I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX MORE THAN 4 TIMES IN A WEEK
(X) I HAVE NEVER KILLED AN ANIMAL
(X) I HAVE NEVER LIKED MICHAEL BOLTON'S MUSIC
(X) I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYONE UP DEE BUTT
(X) I HAVE NEVER SNORTED ANYTHING

Like a bad habit

[12 Dec 2004|10:22pm]
I set myself up for the greatest fall all time.
Like a bad habit

[28 Nov 2004|06:49pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | Saves the Day- Hold ]

WOOO YEAH BLURTY!!!

Alright. So this 4 day week end was pretty sweet I guess...

Thursday- Got up early. Went on the computer.. then I started crying ?...dad made me breakfast..ate.. got into the shower..got ready and came back on the computer.. then around 11ish we left...uhm. I LOVE SENSES FAIL.
yeah.. got to Donna's house. hung out with my Grandma.. she's the pimpest grandma EVA. she's so awesome.
then TANYA got there! woo.. she's awesome.. we talked about shit. uhm. yesssss. yeah so thursday was cool..
friday I just sat in the house untill 4.. took a shower.. then went out and hung with Rich and Nick T till 530ish.. came inside.. fell asleep at 730 then woke up at 1115.. came on the computer... PULLED AN ALL NIGHTER!! woot.
saturday morning I went outside to watch the sun rise. <3 Called Kate cause she wanted me to..Talked until my phone died.. then I took a shower at 130ish and my dad dropped me off at kates..we hung out for a little.. kate took a shower.. then Chris and Jenna came and picked us up and we went to Red Bank. Went to the Broadway Diner. Played Salt Roulette.. ohh yeah. Jenna got the salt :-( Yeah we had a good time. Then we just walked around and stuff..then Chris drove me and Kate to Bug's house. JENNAS DAD IS AN ASSSSSS! Joe S was there.. yeah so Me and Kate went and watched Dawn of the Dead. awesome yet VERY confusing movie.. hung out for a bit.. then walked to the plazas so Bug could fight Darren.. went into the bowling alley with Sarah and I saw ADAM BOYLE. Oh mann I hugged that kid for ever! I got his new sn.. oh yeah. Then we went to the back of the bowling alley so they could fight.. IT WAS THE GAYEST THING EVER.. the only good thing..- both of darrens eyes were swollen.. Darren only got 1 hit on Bug with caused his tooth to go through his cheek.. and since BUG WASNT PAYING ATTENTION WHEN DARREN HIT HIM. he tripped over his foot and fucking fell. Darren said he knocked him out which was bull shit cause Bug was there smiling at us on the ground. I dont know.. gay shit gay shit gay shit. walked back to Bugs.. sat there until 1130ish.. got a ride from Bug's brother back to Kate's.. changed.. ate.. and I passed the fuck out... woke up at like.. 830 but laid there until 10ish. watched t.v.. got up and made breakfast..cleaned Kate's room..went on the computer and then got ready to go out with Kate's friend Tara.. Jenna showed up right when Tara did so then we all went to Old Navy, Modells and Best Buy. Picked Jaymee up from Modells.. Talked to people from Best Buy.. Alex Pepper came..Then I went in Jaymee's car.. Kate went in Tara's car and Jenna went in Alex's car and we all drove to Bug's.. he wound up going to the gym so Jaymee drove me home.. uhm.. then I just went on the computer.. and now I'm here..... yeah. So I love Blurty.. but myspace has taken over my life. it's GAY.
Like a bad habit

[25 Nov 2004|08:07am]
[ mood | jealous ]

Bored? ((Over 100 questions))

Created by xSwtLilAngel666x and taken 49855 times on bzoink!

[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::Sammy
Birthplace ::Red Bank
Age ::14
Age you act ::people say I'm mature for my age.
Current location ::West Keansburg
Eye color ::brownish greenish
Hair color ::uhm. Red?
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::right
Zodiac sign? ::leo
Height? ::idk. 5'1?
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::Irish
Your hair ::red..medium size
Your fears ::death.. being alone.
Your perfect room ::uhm. a bed. a dresser and a computer
What you practically do in a day ::NOTHING!
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::dude, fuck, shit, uhm.
Phrases you overuse ::anthing with the word fuck
Your first thought when you wake up ::uhm.. fuck
Your greatest accomplishment ::staying alive?
Something you want to do ::go to Ireland and Texas.
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::Coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::BJK
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::neither
Chocolate or vanilla ::Chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::neither
Black or white ::black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::bills
Burgers or hot dogs ::hot dogs
Egypt or France ::uhm. Ireland.
Rock or rap ::rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::uhm.
Cuss ::yes
Sing well ::no
Sing in the shower ::yes
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::haha yeah. im serious though..
Believe in yourself ::no
Like taking these longass surveys? ::yeah
Play an instrument ::in a way..
Want to go to college? ::I do.. but the problem is if we can afford it.
Want to get married? ::eventually..
Want to have children? ::yeah
Think you're a health freak? ::no
Get along with your parents ::no
Get along with your siblings? ::no
Think you're popular ::no
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::no
Drank alchohal ::yes
Smoke ::no
Get high ::no
Done any drugs ::no
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::no
Been on stage ::no
Gone skinny dipping ::no
Been dumped ::no
Dyed your hair ::yes
Stolen anything ::no
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::Max.
Loudest ::The D?
Most shy ::idk
Blondest ::Meagan. lol
Smartest ::they're all smart.
Kindest ::they're all kind.
Best personality ::all of them.
Most talented ::all of them.
Best singer ::never really heard them sing...
Most ghetto ::I dont know many ghetto people.
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::every ones a drama queen/king
Pain in the ass ::Max sometimes..
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::Max sometimes..
Funniest ::all funny
Best person for advice ::i dont know..
Dependable ::i dont know..
Trustworthy ::all of them.
Druggie ::Roxana.
Most likely to end up in jail ::The D.
Person you've known the longest ::Meagan.
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::uhm. no comment.
Last nightmare ::same as above..it was the same one.
Car ride ::bus ride- school. car ride- home from Mikes.
Last time you cried ::im crying right now.
Last movie seen ::Scary Movie 3
Last movie rented ::Scary Movie 3.
Last book read ::I don't remeber.
Last word said ::fuck.
Last curse word said ::fuck.
Last time you laugh ::uhm. i dont know.
Last phone call ::Max on monday night. i think..
Last CD played ::Senses Fail-Let it Enfold you.
Last song you listened to ::Cute when you scream
Last annoyance ::guys.
Last IM ::Joey.
Last weird encounter ::idk
Last person you hugged ::Kevin P cause I punched him in the face.
Last person you yelled at ::Kevin Conti for being a dick.
Last time you wore a skirt ::uhm...Laurens sweet 16
Last time you've been evil ::meaning??????
Sarcastic? ::yesterday
Last time you fought with your parents ::everyday..
Last time you wished upon a star ::fuck wishing. it gets us no where.
Played Truth or Dare ::looong time ago..
Spent quality time alone ::Im always alone.
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::no I have my away messages up.
Do you feel lonely ::yeahh.
Ever TP'd someone's house ::yeah.
How about egging someone's house ::yeah.
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::uhm.
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::no.
Yo Momma ::is a whore.
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::yeah.
What do you think of George Bush? ::FUCKING DAMNASS REPUBLICAN.
Any secret fetishes? ::I dont know.
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::no...
How many languages do you speak? ::1
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::no
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::no

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[26 Sep 2004|05:32pm]
( ummmmmm... )
1 Need me - Like a bad habit

[25 Sep 2004|08:01am]
[ mood | i feel drunk but im not at all ]
[ music | Senses Fail- Cute when you scream ]

SERiES 0NE - Y0U
Birth time: 3:43 am? idk
Last place you traveled: back to Joe's house from the football game? or home? idk
Eye Color: brown
Nail Color: clear
Height: 5'1?
Zodiac Sign: leo

SERiES tWo - DESCRiBE
Your heritage: Irish
The shoes you wore today: none yet..
Your hair: idk... is some shade of red now though.... dyeing it this weekend! woot woot
Your weakness: boys, boys with long hair, skaters, and.......sunflower seeds?
Your fears: the dark, being alone, and airplanes
One thing you'd like to achieve: make it through highschool with out kill someone/myself

SERiES ThreE - WHAT IS..
Your most overused phrase on aol: lol
Your thoughts first waking up: ffuuucckkkk.......... then........ "i love howard stern"
Your current worry: I dont think I have any
Plans for tomorrow: who knows... probably go to Joe's or something.
Your best physical feature: well Jimmy said I had a "cute as hell nose" so? idk
Your greatest accomplishment: getting through the Gully with Meag and Dan.....IN THE DARK! :-D.....jk.. idk

SERiES F0UR - Y0U PREFER
Sunrise or sunset: sunset
Gore or horror: horror
Eastsiiiide or wessssside: WESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Stripes or polka dots : polkadots
Money or fame: hm..... money
Planes or trains: trains. deathly afraid of planes
Metal or hardcore: uh.. hardcore?
Boxers or briefs: boxers
Your life is: confusing...
Pools or hot tubs: hot tubssss

SERiES FiVE - D0 Y0U
Cuss: are you fucking kidding me?!?! ;-)
Do you think you've been in love: I know I have
Want to get married: yes
Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: sometimes.. like right now.. im not. i dont think. idk im not looking.
Like to take baths: I LOVE TO. But I haven't in a while.
Get motion sickness: eh.. nah.
Like talking on the phone: depends on who it is...
Like thunderstorms: LOVE THEM. but only during the day.. not at like 2am cause I hate them then and I have to put my head under my pillow and cry.
Workout: I work out 3 times a week in the highschools weight room! woot woot1!
Like reading: depends on what it is

SERiES SiX - FAV0RiTES
Kind of fruit: strawberries
Music to fall asleep to: something corporate <3
Time of the day: depending where I am and who I'm with.. I get CRAZY at night.. so yeah.. night
Feature in the opposite sex: personality, hair, and eyes
Car: I'm starting to like explorers.. but I LOVE Corollas!!
Number: 4
Thing to do right before bed: listen to the radio or read a little bit
Thing to say when you're mad: I hate my life........ I suck at life......... Fuck this shit..... Fuck off...etc, etc, etc.
Era: eh. idk 80s? 90s?
Horror movie: uh....Barney.
Color: black

SERiES SEvEN - FUTURE
Age you hope to be married: 23-24 ish?
Numbers & Names of Children: 2...if i have a boy and a girl.. for the boy I either want him to have his fathers name or name him after a guy who's changed my life..or a guy whos passed on in my life.. and for the girl i think im going to do the same thing (name after someone whos changed my life or passed)
Describe your Dream Purposal: idk
How do you want to die: not alone.
Where you want to go to college: noo clue
What do you want to be when you grow up: noo clue
What country would you most like to visit: um..is Ireland a country? I don't remember.

Like a bad habit

[20 Sep 2004|07:46pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | Poison The Well- Nerdy ]

Well.... it's a year already... It's crazy... I still remember it like it was yesterday.... I was getting ready to hang out with Kate Joanna and all them... I was brushing my hair. and my mom came in
"Donna just called"
"Yeah"
"Grumpy died"

And I remember just breaking down while hanging out with them.. Then Rich DeCola hugged me while I cried. That was cute..... but yeah.. I don't know....

Like a bad habit

[11 Sep 2004|11:13pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | The Spill Canvas- The Tide ]

In 9 days it will be a year since Grumpy died... I've been so sad all day..
and as the week go on.. I'll just get sadder and sadder... grr.. death sucks.





Marc is my best friend :-)

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[02 Sep 2004|02:50am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

well yesterday.. I woke up.. went on the computer.. then at 11 i started clening my room... I didn't stop cleaning 'till like....5? I had to clean under my bed. That was hardcore nasty. Yeah.. So then my god-fathers wife came!! I haven't seen her in a loonngg time. and she brought Katie! She changed sooooo much. I love them! she gave me money. so now i have $50.. but I have to spend it all on my pair of shoes.. 'cause I want ADIO reeeal bad. but yeah.. So I took a shower cau'se i felt really nasty. then at like.. 8 Meagan called me1!! I did my hair, make up and got dressed and went to go hang out with her! I hasn't been only me and her in a LONG time..We caught up on a lot. we walked in like.. 2 complete circles.. from 8th street.. down central..down first street..down laurel.. theeeen.. we went and got Shannon! and maaaaan did she have stories.. lol so yeah.. We went to the park and Steve, Ryan, Brian, Bobby and Dave were there.. They were like killing each other. It was cool? So yeah we swung on the swings and didn't stop talking. Then me Meagan and Shannon walked to the end of 2nd street and talked to Kristy and Jim Sheilds.. eww.. they're was like.. a dieing possum.. it was like dragging itself across the road.. ugggh.. we wanted my mom to hit it so bad. but she wouldn't, lol so then yeah.. my mom dropped shannon home.. i got home went into my room, changed and tried to win Taking Back Sunday tickets again. Mother Fuckers. I ain't stoppin till I get them!!!!
I have orientation in 6 hours but i gotta be up in 4. gay huh? yeah.. I dont know what I'm doing after orientation.. so if anyone wants to chill tell me!
Friday.. I'm going to Mikes. He will be there!!! hehehhehe

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[31 Aug 2004|05:08pm]
[ mood | lost ]
[ music | Box Car Racer- There Is ]

Lately I've been feeling like everywhere I go.. I don't feel wanted..It's like im there.. but i'm not. And this isnt a sympathy entry.. This isn't an entry to make people pay more attention to me. but when you're talking.. can't I be in the conversation also? can't I play the game too? Can't I be invited here and there? Im starting to feel like I've lost everyone 'cause I was in Brick.. yeah I was gone all summer. And I'm sorry for it, really I am, but can't you just fill me in on what i've missed? who you've met? what you've done?
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.

FORGIVE ME?

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[07 Aug 2004|12:22pm]
Hey. If anyone that's reading this is going to Warped Tour..be cool and get me free stuff for my birthday since i obviously can't go.. but really if anyone gets me like even one pin or sticker that would make my day!!!<3



haha im just playing.. you don't have to if you dont wwant to but that would be super if you did!!!!!



See ya'll in a week or two
Like a bad habit

[06 Aug 2004|12:04pm]
oh yeah that thing was about the Perfect Guy or something..
Like a bad habit

[06 Aug 2004|08:38am]
[ mood | giddy ]
[ music | The Used- Box of Sharp Objects ]

[1] hair color- any color as long at it's not bright red, green or blonde blonde.
[2] eye color- doesn't matter.. but i llooovveee pretty eyes<3
[3] height- taller then me
[4]six pack- doesn't matter
[5] long or short hair- i like long hair but it doesn't really matter
[6] glasses- doesn't matter
[7] piercings- i want a boy with his lip or tounge pierced! that'd be so awesome. but it doesnt matter.
[8] bug eyes- nahh
[9] eyebrows- as long as he doesnt have a uni i dont care
[10] big butt or little-aww a cute little one like Ryan Conways!! <3
[11] chest hair- nah
[12] buff or skinny- doesn't matter
[13] straight teeth, gap, or braces- doesn't matter
[14] funny or serious- both
[15] party or stay at home- both.. but more partying
[16] should he cook or bake- boys can't cook for their lives!
[17] should he have a lot of friends that are girls- not a lot like.. more girls then boys.. but i couple would be fine.. although im very jealous.. oh well
[18] should he have a best friend- yeah
[19] outgoing or shy- i like both
[20] sarcastic or sincere- sincere
[21] should he love his mother- aww yeah!
[22] should he watch chick flicks- that'd be cool.. but as long as he doesnt know like EVERYTHING In it..
[23] would he be a smoker- doesnt matter
[24] would he drink- eh. not a lot
[25] would he have a nick name - idk.. maybe.
[26] would he play with your hair- I don't really like when people play with my hair... idk. but i LOOVEEE when guys kiss my neck.. *melts*
[27] one or more girls at a time- one!
[28] would he pay for dates- sure why not
[29] does he kiss on the first date- sure
[30] where would you go to dinner- anywhere
[31] would he bring you flowers- eh.
[32] would he lay under the stars with you- yeeah
[33] would he write poetry about you - that'd be sweet<3
[34] would he call you hunny, sweetie or baby- yes =) <3
[35] would he hang out with you and your friends- if he wanted to..
[36] would you hang out with him and HIS friends- if he invites me
[37] will he walk you to the door at the end- sure
[38] holding hands- yesssss<3<3<3
[39] soccer- eh
[40] baseball-sure
[41] basketball- nah
[42] football- nah
[43] Ice Hockey-
[44] skateboard- YESsS1!
[45] surf- that'd be hott<3
[46] snowboard- sure
[47] sing- as long as it really isnt off key. i wouldnt mind 'cause im always singing
[48] play guitar- YEEAH
[49] play piano- no
[50] play drums- surre
[51] clean his room- doesnt matter..
[52] paint, draw, sculpt- eh.. doesnt matter
[53] write his own music- that'd be cool.
[54] use the word "dude"- i always do so why the hell not..
[55] use the word "tight”- uh. no thanks
[56] would he watch the sunrise with you- aww yeah.. that'd be super<3
[57] what kind of car does he drive- doesnt matter. as long as it works and has a cd player.lol
[58] how old is he- 14-16
[59] what would his name be - starts with a J..ends with a ARED.. lol...<3 :-/


WELL HELLO MY DEARS!
What i have been up to..:
hanging out with peoples.. such as
Justin, Alex, Marc, Dave, Tanya, Jared, Kali, Brianna, BRIANNA WILKENS <3<3<3(after 2 years!), and just chillin around Brick.. I found a new love at the plazas and her name is Erin! She's so awesome and we tell each other everything. She's my plaza pal. (Plazas= Movies and other stores).. I also made a new friend Steve. He's awesome as hell. He pierces himself a lot.. and the plazas he pierced his right elbow just for me.. I'm planning on asking him to pierce my lip. that's be sweet. I haven't really been baby sitting that much..My aunt's been home pretty much.. Today is my cousins birthday..Tomorrow we're going to LBI.. and SUNDAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!<3<3.. It sucks I can't go to warped tour but I don't know.. maybe I'll be happy I didn't go. Cause that happens a lot..but yeah.. the AIM here hasnt been working and i've only been online 3 times the past like... 3-4 weeks.. 2 times at Marc's and once at Daves.. I did my famous.. Kick-Dave-In-The-Balls..poor Dave..Me and Marc went out for.. a wwek and 6 days but I broke up with him last thursday 'cause we never hung out or talked and I was inforned he was kissing and all over another girl.. but i dont care 'causse I like Jared.. and supposedly helikes me.. but i dont know. I hope he does 'cause that'd be super.. and yeah.. just thought I'd update before i went away 'cause since my family isn't going im staying for the whole week and a half..
if anyone needs me you can call 732-279-0799 and leave a message
or call 732-279-0977 and your name will be on my cousins caller ID..
well leave comments for me... some along the lines of *cough* HAPPY BIRTHDAY!?! *cough*
j/k.. you dont have to.

<3 Sammy

oh yeah.. I might move..

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[01 Aug 2004|06:25pm]
MY CUZIN JUSTIN IS SILL AWASOME
Like a bad habit

[01 Aug 2004|05:56pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

Instructions:
Write 10 statements
intended to different people
Never tell which one is who

1. I've loved you since I was little. and I always will.. but you've hurt me so much and i've cried over you much more then i should have. When im with you i feel amazing.. but i know when you're with other girls and im not around you're saying/doing the same exact things that you say to/do with me. i just cant take it any more.. i told you i always have and always will love you...

2. We've become so close it's crazy. We used to hate each other with an undieing passion. But then we hung out and we became so close. You're like my little sister. We tell each other anything and everything. it crazy. I love you so much and we must stay close

3. I like you a lot.. I met you last year and I was kinda scared of you cause you were like..hardcore and i was a little poseur. But you still liked me.. I don't know why.. and I've grown to like you over the past month a lot. You're funny, caring, yet very sexual and touchey feely. You're awesome in everyway and I hope one day soon we can be together<3

4. You used to be soo nice and caring. You never acted better then everyone else. And now you do. You bring people down just for your own enjoyment. but you dont care. you just keep going. and when you want people to get better or change you just criticize them and make them feel worse. you're become so rediculous.

5. I dont really know what to say for you.. We've grown apart. i never thought it would happen but it did..We had soo many plan for when we were older..Anything from our houses to who we were going to marry. it was crazy..I dont know. I still love you no matter what but..idk

6. We HATED each other soooooooo much. I made fun of you like no ones buisness.. but i had a very good reason to be mad at you. It was silly I know.. and it was a good payback.. lol..but I dont know..We were like bro and sis.. and We even said we were bro and sis. And i miss you a lot and the times we used to share.. Walking around..talking..hanging out.. last summer was amazing with you. I never want to loose you as a friend. I love you.

7. We met in the beginning of the year and you were soo awesome.. I know i've done things that you dont approve of. Im sorry i hurt you. It's just.. You only have one life ya know? and you gotta make the best of it..I dont know. I wont end up how you think i might. Im just a kid.

8. You're the most amazingest person in my family. We've became so close it's like.. i dont know.. there's not a word to describe our realtionship. You know everything about me and i know pretty much everything about you. We tell each other everthing..and i mean EVERYTHING! you know soo much stuff that no one else knows.. lol..we've had an amazing summer so far and it's only going to get better. yeah we piss each other off sometimes but thats what families do! I love you sooooo much and we're never going to loose touch!

9. You're soo stupid. and you hit me a lot. but i hit you back and you get pissed off. Im sorry when people hit me i cant NOT hit back. I hope we can become good friends.

10. We've been friends since 7th grade. Your parties are always so awesome in everyway. You have a loving family that cares about everyone and they're just so awesome! I know i've done things in the past that you dont approve of, but there's going to be a lot of people like that. And I know the more I grow up and the more i know. You're just going to get more dissapointed with me. I dont want to hurt you, or anyone else. I dont know.. I love you. and everyone else. But people change.. for the better and for the worse.. but I think i've changed for the worse... Im sorrry

Like a bad habit

[31 Jul 2004|12:10pm]
ohhh yeah. One week 'till my birthday bitches!!
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