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	2004.02.28  16.47 It's been a while.... Woah so a whole month of being grounded was definatly not something I was happy about. Vacation went bad because I was grounded, but I did get most of my shopping for Florida done. Infact I just went to get $800 worth of travelers checks today! So now all i have to do is pack! YaY!! This weekend has been awesome, yesterday i went to Amanda's house. Then I had to come home and Andy was saposed to come over...but he didn't *rolls eyes*. Today I went back to Amanda's and Ceci was there!! I was so happy to see her again, it feels so good to know what happiness feels like again! Dana and Justin are coming over tonite to watch mad tv and cops, and Dana is sleeping over. That should be fun, it's been a very long time since Dana has been here....too long. Her and I used to have so much fun when she would practilly live here. We had the most fun when I gave her, her birthday present we tried them out a little bit, then we tried to watch movies, but the holes weren't big enough, so we just took them off. But Dana has to come over today because us sluts do have to stick together you know. Heh. I don't know what is up for tommorow hopefully something fun, my mom wanted to go out somewhere but i highly doubt that will happen. My mom was saposed to get commited into the hospital becuase she is getting manic again, but they would not commit her, because she didn't try to commit suicide yet. That bugs me because they are basicly saying that you can not get the help you need before you harm yourself, you can only get it when you have hurt yourself badly or actually kill yourself (but then your dead). Oh well I have no sympathy for people who want to kill themselves. I felt like a hero today! On the way to the bank there was an elderly woman laying face first on the ground and she was shaking and 2 men had stopped to see if she was ok, my dad and i stopped too and I called the police, and she was taken away in an ambulance, I hope she is ok. She looked like she was on drugs or something though.... ~*nikki*~ Mood: thirsty Music: Incubus-warning

	2004.02.12  14.55 Sorry for the lack of updating Sorry I havn't updated I have had limited access to computer, but luckily I have today. I'm glad I got my other journal when I did because now i can faithfully write in it and not have to worry about the world reading it. The other day I sent out a Valentine's gift to Ceci, but I forgot to take the price tag off of the bear and the chocolates I feel bad. Oh well. I can't wait to see her. I miss her. By the time I am un grounded I will be going to Florida, and will be unable to see her for almost another 2 weeks. i have to go bye

	2004.01.28  20.59 Well I decided to get another journal, but you won't find it on line. I decided that the comments that were being left were extremly immature, so I came to the conclusion to not even have an online journal. If anything major happens then I might update in here. But other than that, I wouldn't expect any recent updates. Goode bye ~*nikki*~

	2004.01.26  20.28 Why bother try? Well i'm in restaurant this week, I only had one table today. But they were nice. Dining room was fun Anthony, Ryan, Daniella, Lori, and Rachel are in there this week. Along with the seniors Celeste and Jess. We were playing cards in the side station, I'm surprised we didnt' get repremanded for it. Well i've come to the conclusion that maybe I should kinda back away from Jill and Dana, their friendship seems to be blossoming. So why not let it continue? I mean every time we hang out, I feel like the "outcast" and they don't listen to me. It's frustrating. It's sad though because we are such good friends. Sometimes it seems they wouldnt even notice if I was gone. So i'll just let them hang out, and not interfear. :( Tommorow is the GSA meeting, and i'm glad that I Can go, I havnt been able to due to the robotics meetings. But I can tommorow. Oh well that's all i have to say bye.

	2004.01.25  20.30 "that's four times in two mintues" Well this weekend was pretty kew, I took the bus to Amanda's house on Friday, so we would have been able to go to the mall so we could see Ceci. After a while of sitting around, we ventured off to the mall. An hour or so passed, and we saw Ceci, she seemed to know just about everyone there. Then we went and playes Dance Dance Revolution, she seems to be a pro at that game. Then we decided to go to Spencer gifts, Amanda bought this Truth or Dare game. We met up with one of Ceci's friends, and went to the bathroom to play, as soon as we got in there, someone knocked on the door, so we thought it would be better if we went somewhere else to play. So we ventured off to Filenes and went to the elevator and played. It was fun. "What was his name again?" Heh. I went home around 2:30 on Saturday, and had to go grocery shopping with my dad. I was sapoed to go out with my mom to get my grandpa a present but she decided to go out with my brother instead...Oh well. Then I drew a couple pictures, and chatted on line after making dinner of course. Today I woke up, got ready and then Jill came over. I showed her my new room, and she likes it! Then shortly after, Dana came over, she seemed to be angry or sad even though she said that wasn't. Friends can usually pick up on those things... We went to go see the Butterfly Effect, that was a good movie. There was this man there that kept checking Jill out. Then we begged my mom to take up to Wendy's and she did after missing 4 exits to go home, we stopped and got lunch. When we got home, we went on line, watched tv, and played the game Mancala. Then Jill had to go home, and Dana was still here. Dana and I were thinking that Jill can get any guy she wants...but she doesn't want to for some reason, and maybe that reason is becuase the more she doesn't want a guy, the more they like her.... Good theory huh? heh. ;) . I don't understand why "good friends" don't share "Secrets" with their friends. All secrets do, is make people feel worthless. I do keep secrets, but I personally think they are stupid. Although that sort of contridicts my feelings about confidentuality. what ever. So i've been feeling the need to improve myself. I've been thinking about my future, and if I really want to get a good job, I shouldn't sit in front of the computer all the time, I should get up and read, or study. Even if it's just for a half an hour a night. So tonite I started reading a book. Although it was hard to concentrate with tv's blaring, and pool balls hitting against eachother on the other side of the wall. So before I go to bed, I decided to read again. This week i'm in Dining Room with Anthony. That should be fun. I wish my friends outside of school would come visit me when i'm in there. :) Oh well. Any way thats about all I have to say, maybe i'll update at another time, even though my feelings about this stupid journal is that it's just an annoyance. ~*nikki*~ Mood: aggravated Music: Marilyn Manson

	2004.01.22  20.04 Awesome!! So things could barely be better! Ceci called me, her Amanda and I are going to the mall tommorow. :) Today I had to stay after school to make up an english test. It was soOo easy. I can't wait for progress reports to be mailed, I hope my grades went up! Anyway...not that much else to talk about. So i'm going to go, tommrowo should be fun :) ~*nikki*~

	2004.01.19  19.24 " I am so glad i'm not having sex tonite" Things have been nothing but great! There was no school on Friday due to the cold weather. Friday I went to go see Cheaper by the Dozen, but other than that, nothing. Saturday Dana came over for a while and hung out, then I rented Freddy vs. Jason, that was a pretty good movie. Sunday I went to Amanda's house. We hung out, and then walked to Wal-Mart, but they were closed, so went to CVS instead. On our way back, we went to Friendly's, and got some icecream. There were these girls in there talking about how they were having a conversation with their boyfriend. And she said loudly " I'm so glad i'm not having sex tonite. Once a week is good enough for me!" Amanda and I left Laughing! When Amanda and I arrived back at her house, we dried up, and then her friend Ceci came over. Ceci is such a pretty girl, and I hope that I get the chance to know her better! Today Ceci and Amanda came over, and we watched a boring move, I really wanted to cuddle with Ceci, but I wasn't sure if she wanted to...so i didn't come to find out she did...oh well, hopefully there is a next time! When they left, I had about 10-15 mins to clean up, then Dana came over and we went to the Emerald Square Mall, that was fun, I got a t-shirt, bracelet, and a couple other things. It was good to see Dana, we didn't get to see eachother much over the weekend, which is rare, because she practically lives here on the weekends. If felt lonesome without having someone there to watch movies with or talk to, because it's been that way since summer! Oh well there's always next weekend! I'm going to head out. Good-bye ~*nikki*~ Mood: excited Music: Staind

	2004.01.19  19.07 " I am so glad i'm not having sex tonite" Things have been nothing but great! There was no school on Friday due to the cold weather. Friday I went to go see Cheaper by the Dozen, but other than that, nothing. Saturday Dana came over for a while and hung out, then I rented Freddy vs. Jason, that was a pretty good movie. Sunday I went to Amanda's house. We hung out, and then walked to Wal-Mart, but they were closed, so went to CVS instead. On our way back, we went to Friendly's, and got some icecream. There were these girls in there talking about how they were having a conversation with their boyfriend. And she said loudly " I'm so glad i'm not having sex tonite. Once a week is good enough for me!" Amanda and I left Laughing! When Amanda and I arrived back at her house, we dried up, and then her friend Ceci came over. Ceci is such a pretty girl, and I hope that I get the chance to know her better! Today Ceci and Amanda came over, and we watched a boring move, I really wanted to cuddle with Ceci, but I wasn't sure if she wanted to...so i didn't come to find out she did...oh well, hopefully there is a next time! When they left, I had about 10-15 mins to clean up, then Dana came over and we went to the Emerald Square Mall, that was fun, I got a t-shirt, bracelet, and a couple other things. It was good to see Dana, we didn't get to see eachother much over the weekend, which is rare, because she practically lives here on the weekends. If felt lonesome without having someone there to watch movies with or talk to, because it's been that way since summer! Oh well there's always next weekend! I'm going to head out. Good-bye ~*nikki*~ Mood: excited Music: Staind

	2004.01.13  20.40 How many times have I been told? So yesterday was interesting i waited up at the bus stop for about 45 mins and the bus didnt come so i called ashley and no one answered so again, i thought i had missed the bus. So I had my dad drive me to school. When we got there, there were a scarce amount of cars, so I went in the school, and Stephen was there, and he said " there was a 2 hour delay". So I ended up staying there, it was useless going home after I already made my dad late for work having to drive me to school. So Stephen and I cooked the lunch for the caf. It was interesting, and fun. *chicken stabber!* heh. Today was kew I'm in sanatation, so of course, I cleaned. I cleaned the mop room, and organized some of the store room, but I wasn't able to finish. That's ok, it will give me something to do tommorow. I'd rather have work, than sit around and do nothing. When shop was over, I had to stay after to finish my math test, i'm really hoping that I did good, cuzz I studied a lot for that, and it would really boost my self-esteem if I could actually get better than a 70 on a math test. But i've been trying to raise my grades :). Thursday I have to stay after to take either my history test, or science test. How many times have I been told that i'm going to get my "ass kicked", or that I am going to get killed? Why even bother say it? It's useles... ~*nikki*~ Mood: relaxed Music: The Simple Life

	2004.01.11  17.44 They signed my shirt but I dont know who they are Friday was kew I had a doctors apointment, that lasted until about 10:30, then I got to stay home and I did some cleaning, then Dana came over around 4:30 and we went to Motocross, that was AWESUM! But I was too messed up to realize what was going on until about 10ish but it was fun. Then last night I went to my moms and we got sushi and watched american wedding, dream catcher, and It. They were good movies. Then this morning my mom got her mail and she had this awesome magazine that has some cool bathing suits that I'm going to buy. I'll have them in time for Florida. So i'm even happier I can't wait to go. It would be better if Dana was going...but you can't always get what you want... But Jill is going, and I have some other friends that are going, so it will still be fun. I hope there are some clubs there. That would be awesome. I'm in such a great mood. It's a bummer that I have school tommorow, but it's not like I have to go to shop or anything, thanks to robotics!! YaY! I'm not really looking forward to shop though because I am in sanatation...I already told you my opinion about that section of shop. I would also like to thank Amanda for her positive comments :). It never really occured to me that if you really hated me, you would'nt bother reading this... It's true, and I would like to thank Amanda for letting me realize that. That is all that I have to say. Good day/night ~*nikki*~

	2004.01.08  22.01 Blue day Today was alright. I had to stay after so I could make up 2 of the tests that I would have had to take tommorow. Then i went to CVS to get some shampoo cuzz i used all the shampoo to clean the bathtub after i washed my hair. Today i was all blue, i couldnt get it off! It was pretty funny, well I thought so any way. I'm so happy tommorow is motocross :) YaY. Monday I don't have to go to shop cuzz I have a robotics meeting that's kew. I get to hang out with all my friends for a day...AWESUM!! Then I guess next monday there's no school so I get to miss a day of academics heh, truth is, i'd rather skip shop this week, i'm only in sanatation...a.k.a. we ran out of things for anything to do, so we'll make you scrub the floors. heh. oh well i'm gunna go `*nikki*' Mood: awake Music: Nirvava-smells like teen spirit

	2004.01.07  21.33 Good day Today was kew school was good. I forgot to write that I got tickets for Dana and I to go to Motocross that should be wicked fun :) Today i felt kinda sick, well my stomach hurt but it's better now. Then i came home then fell asleep, did my homework and then went to student council, came home made dinner, put the new light in the cat house, and now i'm dying my hair :) heh. Well according to some one " my time is going to come" hah. I'd like to see that...oh well i'm over it :) i'm happy and they are probably miserable... Mood: weird Music: south park

	2004.01.06  22.11 Hmm... Well today was kew, I had to stay after for robotics, and we chose rooms... I wanted to room with Jill, but I guess she wanted to room with someone else...Oh well, it will still be fun. Other than that my day was pretty good :). After school my mom brought dana and I to Dunkin Donuts, and I got a bagel, and my mom was like "next time i'll have to ask for a knife they don't spread it very well" (she was talking about the cream cheeze) but Dana and I were making fun of her about it. Then my mom was talking about something and Dana was like "Geez Nikki, it sounds like your mom spreads easy!" it was soooo funny. Heh. So some people have been leaving negative remarks in my journal saying i "talk shit". I will admit i crack jokes about people. But who doesn't? "talking shit" about people is natural, everyone does it. If you would like to talk about be, go ahead, people are going to say things about people....Some people are just mature enough to over look that... Obviousilly your're not. Oh well i'm over it :) ~*nikki*~ Mood: crushed Music: None

	2004.01.04  19.18 Last day of freedom Sorry I havnt updated lately....I've been busy enjoying the last couple days of freedom. I'm not really too sure when the last time that I updated was, so i'll start off talking about my New years eve party. That was kew...Mainly watched movies, set off bottle rockets, played the traditional truth or dare jenga, then Amanda and Dana slept over, that was kew. Uh there's more...but it's not legal to say ;) Yesterday was Dana's birthday party, that was fun :). Stephen Dana and i were playing Dance Dance Revolution, while Justin was away in another store and Dana and this guy got in a fight, it was so funny, the people working there were watching in awe, not knowing what to do. It was a kodak moment. But needless to say, her new nickname is Butch. Last night Dana slept over again and we went and rented some movies, and watched those. Then when we were done, we put on what I got het for her Birthday, and has lesbian sex, because we're bi. HaH. We watched Cops, this man got arrested for indecent exposure, and the police officer was talking to the man, and the Officer said " so you think you can do what ever you want to in New Orleans?" and the man responded "no" and the officer screamed "WRONG". It was funny! Then we watched Nightmare on Elm Street, Misery, Stand by me, and Carrie. We rented the older Carrie, and there is a big difference between the old one and new one. About an hour ago, I had a dream that I was moving an old couch that we threw away years ago, and i got this staple stuck in the palm of my hand through the pad, and someone pulled it out, and you could see the bone, and it was purple. Then i woke up, I thought it was real...Hah. Oh well at least it wasn't. Oh well I have to go make dinner....So i'll update some time later ~*nikki*~ Mood: anxious Music: Offspring-Spare me the details

	2004.01.02  21.45 score! I went to the mall and Newbury Comics, and got Dana her presents. That was kew, she's gunna be shocked that I remembered the thing i got her. Well her and I were at Newbury Comics a long long time, and she saw something that she wanted and i told her that I would get it for her for Christmas, but that happened over the summer....Heh. When I went to the mall Justin was workin so i stopped to talk for a while, then got some stuff from Hot Topic. Oh well not too much to say. Bye ~*nikki*~ Mood: energetic Music: The real world

	2004.01.02  14.32 CHOT Heh. Well things have been good. New Year's Eve i had a party. That was kew, then Dana and Amanda slept over. Then Dana came with me to my Gramma's house for Chinese food. But before that, we went to the Piercing Emporium, and I got my ears stretched again heh :). Now they are a 0, and I'm going to put 8 guage hoops through the hole heh :). Well not i'm home alone heh. I just woke up not too long ago, Dana and i fell asleep around 5 am but we kept hearing police siruns (sp?). But it was fun, we watched the shining, (great movie), jeepers creapers 1 and 2, cujo, and then half baked. It was kew. Tommorow is Dana's party, and i know what i wanna get her, but I dunno if i can get it for her by tommorow. Oh well hopefully my dad will take me out later. Oh well i'm gunna go bye :) ~*nikki*~ Mood: indescribable Music: blink 182

	2003.12.29  23.47 Hats off to an AWESOME day Well last night i went to Amanda's house, that was kew. Today I hung out with Andy, then went to Rhode Island for, well really no reason. Then i painted the skin, and moon on the fairy on my wall. Hmm then what did i do? I know it doesn't sound like much, but I can hardly believe that its 10 mins to midnight. I am in such a good mood, and i have been all day, it's like i'm on a natural high, it's great. The only thing that upset my moment was when the stupid bitch who is saposed to be a "mother" called, and complained about how I have no reason to hate her blah blah blah, and I just said ok who do you wanna talk to, cuzz i don't wanna get in this convo w/ you. I was ready to burst. If she wasn't on all those damn drugs, or wasn't so phycotic, then maybe she would have realized 1/2 the shit she did to my brother and I when we were little. And that all she is, is a nasty whore, homewrecker. I could go on for years about how much i hate her! oh well anyway, other than that.... Hmm not much else to say...bye ~*nikki*~ Mood: horny Music: King of the Hill

	2003.12.26  13.01 Thank God it's over Christmas would have been great if my phycho mom wasn't there. I remembered how much i hate her. Christmas Eve she came into my room w/ my dad and yelled at me then my mom started yelling at my dad, and then i gave my mom a speach about, when we talk to her and tell her negative things, that she shouldn't take it offensively, but try to work to change for the better instead of flip out on everyone and then sleep for days. Then she yelled about how "she can't do anything right, and how she's a horrible mom" and i burst out laughing. I couldn't help it, becuase for some reason I was happy that she was finally crying. I don't know why i was happy about it, it sounds so devious, but in some way, it compensated for all the shit she put my brother and I through when we were little, and all the times that I cried when she physically or verbally hurt me. Other than that, for Christmas my dad got me a new camera which taked pictures, movies, voice recorder, and a web cam, its awesum, an mp3 player, the 2 cd's i wanted, a phone w/ caller id :), and the Nightmare Before Christmas blanket. I was happy about that. Then i fell asleep for about 2 hours or so, and then i cooked lunch for the family. Then we went to my aunt's house to open gifts, and for desert. I brought an apple pie, as well as a pecan pie. Everyone continusily told me how good the pies were, and it raised my self-esteem a bit :). Then when we opened gifts, i recieved The Nightmare before Christmas dvd from my gramma, as well as $40, My auntie Sue gave me Nightmare Before Cristmas candle holder that i really really wanted, as well as a collectors plate from the nightmare before christmas, and my Auntie Julie gave me a tackle box with cooking tools in it, that was kew :). Oh well i'm going to go, i'm home alone so i can relax. `nikki` Mood: irritated Music: Lacuna Coil-Heaven's a lie

	2003.12.24  12.50 Christmas Eve Already! Wow the day before Christmas already. I have to bake some pies for tommorow, that should be fun, but i have to go out and get my dad Christmas present that my mom was saposed to get for him but i know that she won't. Yesterday in shop was so stupid, there are a couple people that i just wanna sit in a line and smack them all, and tell them to grow up and stop being so dramatic. I tried having a serious conversation with someone, and he only acted like a dick, just goes to show you the maturity level of some people. I even told him to act mature for one minute to listen to me, it really amazes me how ignorent people can be. Maybe it's just me! Oh well, i try to think that i raised my self well. heh :) Oh well not too much to say....bye ~(nikki)~ Mood: mellow Music: Saturday Night Live

	2003.12.23  00.44 Great day Today was pretty good, we got new kids in shop. We kept busy there, just like a regular day, at least we didn't have to scrub any floors, but we might have to tommorow. Oh well, it's the last day before vacation starts. I had to go get the MRI, before they stuck the needle in my arm i was sleeping in the machine but then i woke up and they pulled me outta the machine stuch a needle in my arm to put dye in my brain to take pictures of it, and i couldn't go back to sleep because my body kept twitching. They made me take out all of my piercings. My belly button piercings closed and it hurt when i stuck the barbell through, it bled a bit, but it should be fine by tommorow *hopefully*. I felt so naked (and not in a good way) with out my piercings, they are like another part of me. oh well :) Ick i smell like smoke, thats why i hate cigirette smokers IT'S NASTY!!! oh well i'm gunna go to bed, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANA!!! ~(nikki)~

	2003.12.21  22.10 LAST PERSON WHO... :Slept in your bed: me :Saw you cry: my dad :Made you cry: my boss :You shared a drink with: anthony :You went to the movies with: my mom :You went to the mall with: anthony :Yelled at you: my mom :Sent you an email: hottopic HAVE YOU EVER... :Said "I love you" and meant it?: nope :Been to New York?: yup :Been to Florida?: not yet :California?: nope :Hawaii?: nope :Mexico?: nope :China?: nope :Canada?: nope :Danced naked?: uhh yea :Dreamed something really crazy and then it happens the next day?: actually yea :Stalked someone?: can’t say that I have :Apples or bananas?: bananas…cuzz they are long and yellow :Red or blue?: red :Walmart or Kmart?: walmart :Math or English?: math :radio or CD?: both :drawing or painting?: painting :High school or college?: college, better chances to party :What are you going to do after you finish this survey?: watching tv :What was the last food you ate?: ice cream :you bored?: why else would I be filling this out? :How many buddies are on?: eh doesn’t matter :Last movie you saw?: joe dirt ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS - WHO... :Laughs the weirdest?: your mom :Going to have the most kids?: ashley :Have you known the longest?: jill :Is the loudest?: dana :Is the quietest?: hmm stephen :Is the weirdest?: I dunno we’re all kinda wierd :Is the funniest?: jaimie :Is the moodiest?: me :Can you tell most of your secrets to?: andy :Do you usually go to about all of your problems?: my pillow THE LAST FEW QUESTIONS... :Last time you went out of the state: thanksgiving :Lucky number: 14 69 :Things you like in a guy: older than me, taller than me, has piercings, attractive, and comfort :Weirdest thing about you?: come on, look at me…then you can answer that… :Do you have a boyfriend?: nope :What do you think of quija boards?: they are fun :What book are you reading now?: JTHM :What's on your mouse pad?: I have a lazer mouse, I do not need one…. :Favorite board game?: truth or dare jenga :Favorite magazine?: metal egde :Favorite sound?: moaning, or the clicking of handcuffs closing over your wrists :Worst feeling in the world?: guilt, and knowing you did something wrong and you can’t do anything about it :What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: Where am I? :Do you like scary or exciting rollercoasters: both J :How many rings before you answer?: 2, so the caller ID can pick up the number :Future daughter's name?: not sure yet, but something unique :Future son's name?: something unique :Chocolate or vanilla?: chocolate :Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: sometimes when I’m sad :If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?: to be an entrepreneur of a night club

	2003.12.21  10.52 Boring Sunday Well yesterday i went into work, and they informed me that the restaurant will be closing, and as a result, i was laid off. Kinda sad, but it will only open opportunities for another job, and a chance to meet new people...nuttin wrong with that. Well today is kinda boring, just a stay at home to watch movies, i want to, but i have so much energy, and no where to go! ugh. My dad went to my aunt's house to drop off a present for my Gramma. Tommorow i have to go to school cuzz i guess my MRI is at night instead of the morning so that sucks, but at least i'll be able to see Dana on her sweet 16! I can't wait till my sweet 16, I dunno what i'm gunna do for a party though. Oh well that's all i have to say for now... ~Nikki~ Mood: creative Music: joe dirt

	2003.12.19  22.28 Fun friday Today was pretty good, i got some gifts, i got zero lights from Amanda as well as a rainbow necklace and bracelet, and from Dana i got the faery calendar from Hot Topic that i really wanted. I went to the Emeral Square mall with Anthony tonite, it was fun. I bought ANOTHER rated R movie with out being asked for an id heh. I got Cruel Intentions, good movie heh. Then at hot topic i got a t-shirt that says "2qt2bstr8" heh its cute, then they had underwear w/ zero on them so i got them too :). Then i got a Simpsons calendar for my brother. Anthony and i went for sticky chicky and i was done eating the chicken and i went to eat the lo mein and i found a hair in it, so i went back to the lady, and none of the people that worked there spoke english, but i tried telling them that there was hair in my food, but they didn't understand. Then she was like "i give you more" and i was like uhh no there was hair in my food, what makes you think that there isnt any in the meal you are about to give me? The man and woman waiting in line to get the food just walked away it was funny. heh. Today we got the pics back from the ring dance :) that was kew, I guess that we are getting the group pics on Monday, but i'm not gunna be there so I have to get them on Tuesday. Oh well that's all that I have to say have a good night ~*nikki*~ Mood: horny Music: Missing someone special

	2003.12.18  22.23 It's been a while Well hello there, I bet you didn't think you were gunna hear from me i bet. heh. Well things have been going well. I havn't spent any time w/ the person i really would like to spend time w/, kinda sad, but hopefully we will be able to see eachother soon. I moved into my new room. I have been in here for a couple days well 3. I got a new computer desk as well. I gave away the Christmas presents that i bought, well some of them anyway. I had to go to the sleep deprevation center yesterday, and i was diagnosed with parasomnia, but i have to go back on Monday to get tested for narcolepsy. They don't think that i will have it though, because although i have the symptoms for parasomnia, i don't have them for narcolepsy. Hopefully i don't. When the doctor told me that the only thing i could think of is the woman that's in the movie Duece Bilago Male Jiggalo, and the woman was afriad to drown in soup. Heh. Anthony and i were making jokes about that all day it was funny. I guess my dad went to Circuit City, and saw the mistake i made last year. He works with Andy, I feel so bad for Andy. I wanted to talk to him to see what he thought of him. I have no idea why he would work in Millbury when he lives in Millford. Wow... that's all i have to say about that. heh. I just hope he doesn't make up any lies and tells them to Andy, becuase i know that he is a compulsive liar. I'm soOoOo glad that i don't have anything to do with him, all he did was cause drama when we went out. But hey, some people thrive for drama. I'm glad that i'm over all that bull though. My life is so much better with out it. Only about a week left until Christmas. YaY! I wonder what i got, i wasn't expecting anything other than my camera, mp3 player, and a compact flash card. But I know i got more, because my dad keeps asking what else i want. I didn't think i would get anything else after the expenses of my room, as well as my trip to Florida. Oh well what ever works. My boss owed me over $600, and he paid me $200. But i worked the other day, i have to figure out how much he owes me. He can't afford to pay people, so he has been firing people, and I think i'm next. Usually i work Wednesdays, so I went in, and Betty, (my manager) asked me if Mike (one of the owners, also my boss) asked me to go in that day, and i said no, but usually I am scheduled to work on Wednesday nights. And she replied " I need to talk to you later". Then she never did, so before i go in on Saturday, i'm going to call, but i'm really curious of what she had to tell me :/ Oh well even if i do get fired, i still have money saved for everything, so it's not like i'm broke. It would be nice to keep my job so that i can buy a car though. Oh well i'm going to start my homework...Have a good night or what ever time it is when you are reading this heh. ~*nikki*~ Mood: sick Music: Nickelback

	2003.12.09  19.14 "Don't step in the raisons" Well 2 days ago at work i burnt my fingers, it hurt but it doesnt hurt now. :) Yesterday in shop was wicked funny some one called into the dining room, when no one calls in there so i thought it was a prank call, so i answered it pretending to me an answering machine, and the woman on the phone was like "very funny nicole, now let me speak to ms. leblanc" i was like oh shit and went to get her. She ended up coming in and yelling at everyone, and i confessed, but Ms.Leblanc took family meal away from every one and i feel bad cuzz i dont think that everyone should be punished for something that i did wrong. Oh well. Today was funny, Ms. H left a bucket of raisons on the floor, and i was bringing a sheet tray of rolls to the proof box, and my foot got stuck in the bucket, when i got my food out, i slid and fell dropping all the rolls, it was hillarious, you had to be there though. Heh. Other than that i've just been working i passed my hours in yesterday, because my boss told me to so he could pay me, but he decided to stay on vacation another day. oh well i'm working tommorow, so maybe i'll get paid then. Mood: determined Music: nickelback