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So....... Today has been quite good, me and Hols went to Alton Towers and that was good fun! Sort of got a bit tiring from all the walking but the overall day was alot of fun! We explored this massive castle, it was huge! I really liked it 'cas ive always enjoyed exploring old things. One of my life ambitions was to open an old egyptian pyramid and be the first to explore it, but i'm guessin they're all already open.... or will be by the time i'm old enough!:o( Neways, i got a fone call when we were walking back to the coach. It was from a with-held number. I answered and the person just sed 'Aint got no mates!' The voice was so blatently Jennie's voice! So i txt her on the coach and sed 'Wot u sayin that for... thats just harsh!?' She said....... 'Yeh well rite now u ent got no mates cos no1 can stand ur fuckin mood swings!ent such a push over nemore huh Terri?' (the push over bit is cas i sed she was a softie cas she so lovely, hmmm.... yeh maybe not!!) Neways, i sed... 'If u dont like me again then y dont u just leave me alone?' She said ' I'll leave u alone the day u admit ur a lick ass! y say shit bout Kirsty then run 2 her wen it gets tuff!?' I just sed 'im not arguin with u, we'll tlk sum other time' Then two mintues later i gets a fone call from anutha with-held number... this time its Ashleigh sayin' do u like Jennie?' I sed 'yeah', she started chattin on but i just hung up cas i'd had a good day and no way am i lettin then ruin it! I just spoke 2 Adele..... ~ I'm a teen, I yet to mature ~ says: wots going on with u and jen? ~ As the sun sets..... I love you more! ~ says: ask her ~ I'm a teen, I yet to mature ~ says: well im askin you ~ As the sun sets..... I love you more! ~ says: well... i dont know wots goin on. u were with her ~ As the sun sets..... I love you more! ~ says: u still wiv her now? ~ I'm a teen, I yet to mature ~ says: nope im wiv ash ~ As the sun sets..... I love you more! ~ says: k ~ As the sun sets..... I love you more! ~ says: y did ash fone me?! ~ I'm a teen, I yet to mature ~ says: coz i did ~ As the sun sets..... I love you more! ~ says: mmmk ~ I'm a teen, I yet to mature ~ says: shewanted to no if u likefd jen ~ As the sun sets..... I love you more! ~ says: k ~ As the sun sets..... I love you more! ~ says: r u 2 in stresses at me aswel? ~ I'm a teen, I yet to mature ~ says: nope i aint involved mate, this is between u n jen ~ Goodbye to you..... Goodbye to everything that i knew!! ~ says: good I guess thats one good thing...... i dont wanna lose Adele, i luv her too much. i think she's cool! lol! Neways, i guess i'm feeling a bit down, seein as i thought me and Jen had just got back on track to gettin a freinshp re-built to how it used top be(or sumwere near there neway!) I guess it aint ever gonna be the same. Seems to me that since the nite Jen first stayed at Adele's house, our friendship rapidly went downhill. Before then i was always stayin round hers or her stayin round mine, she used 2 say Laurawas her best friend but i was her closest friend. :: ok, i'm cryin now!:: Then she stayed at Adele's and i started to worry that i might be replaced. She promised me over MSN that things would never changed between us. Since then, i havnt never been invited round hers, ive invitedher round mind numerous times but she never comes, we dont go to town nemore (we used to go every week together) now she goes wiv adele. She doesnt want to come to me nemore, she doesnt tell me nethin.... now try tellin me thats things havnt changed. She see's it as jealousy..... i guess in a way i am jealous, becos in a way adele has wot i used to have and now i want it back! It sounds like im sayin Jen cant have ne other friends but me wen that aint wot i mean at all. She can have as many friends as she likes, but i dont want her to completely forget me in the process. Sometimes i wonder if its just me..... maybe i drive people away from me! Thinking about that..... maybe its true, maybe i do drive people away from me? I dont know, i dont know if i want to know! Jennies just come online..... i'm waiting to she if she talks to me! ::picture me nervous waitin for the message box to pop up:: Ok.... its bin like 10mins and still no word from her! I'll post later if she says nethin. I'm to :o( to talk right now!
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