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i feel like such shit right now. stuff happened with matt and he asked me, "why are you all nice to me in letters and online, but right now you're doing the opposite of what you say." cuz i was saying stuff how i don't wanna lose him and a bunch of other shit. jesus, i didn't even know what to say and all he can do is act like everything is fucking great like it was before. i don't wanna lose him, but right now i'm really upset about that. i don't want my opinion of him to change and right now it really is. jesus christ. why did he have to say that. it fucked up everything, it really did. i don't even wanna talk to him and i don't think that'll change by tomorrow..i don't know what to do. i hadn't ever seen a bad side of matt before and i saw it tonight. and he has the fucking nerve to IM me and be like, "hi." and i'm like, "hi." he's like, "i love you." jesus, he thinks he can fucking say that and it will get him out of everything and i'll just be so happy he feels like that and forget about the whole thing. when he said that i just felt like screaming at the top of my lungs..
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