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My favorite song, as of now. [14 Jun 2005|09:32am]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | ITS SO HOTT IN HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]

The symphony in your head
The kind of things I wish that were never said
Because I had no idea
Break my heart another day.
You lost what you wanted
Did you want it this way?
Because I had no idea

Come on, I thought we were just having fun
Come on, Its all in your mind she said
Dont be afraid of it, falling in love.

A broken heart, what's the matter?
You knew it was coming,
boy it didnt change a thing.
I had no idea.
Let it get to you on the way back.
Summertime love, was the only thing we
could have.
I had no idea.

Do what you want if it's on your way back down.
Do what you want if it's on your way back home.

Come on, isnt this fun?

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I so appoligize [05 Mar 2005|03:17pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | Anberlin "Dance Dance Christa Paffgen" ]

It's been such a long time. JUNIOR YEAR HAS BEEN AWESOME!!! Everything is totally falling into place in my life, 3 years ago I was at the lowest place in my life and nobody could save me, or so it seemed, God found me and let me have a life back....I'm so grateful.

I've been hanging out with K8TEE a lot and stuff....some stupid drama went down a while ago with a girl who I'm not friends with anymore, she basically wasn't a good friend...she's someone who backstabs you.... a lot and then tries to make you feel bad, yeah not cool.


Well....PROM is APRIL 8!!! SCHWEEET!!! and SKPADES is coming up, I can't wait. Things are going to be awesome this 6th semester at SKHS!!!!

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A while, a long while [12 Oct 2004|07:32pm]
[ mood | giddy ]
[ music | The Shins "Caring Is Creepy" ]

Yes, I know it's been a while. There's not too much to say.

Oh yeah,

everything in my life is almost completely "perfect", I'm serious. My band is doing well, my friends and I are fine, I am getting a long GREAT with Sylvia (I used to hate her, now we're cool), and my grades rock.

So I started and ended the summer pretty quickly. It's all chronicled in my GJ (i'm such a sellout) www.greatestjournal.com/!fallout_girl15

I think you all rock for still reading this.

JUNIOR YEAR, HELL YEAH!!!!!!!

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I love happy tree friends! [08 Jun 2004|06:38pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Dashboard Confessional "Vindicated" ]

Woah, there tiger!

You are Flippy! You could freak out at any given moment! Other than that you're actually quite a nice, cute and well-mannered war veteran bear. You should really do yourself and everyone else a favour though and get yourself out of furry animal society… maybe an asylum is the right place for you? Wait, don't look at me like that! AHHHHHH NOOO NOOOOOOOOO!!!

Which Happy Tree Friends Character Are You?


HHAHAHAHAHAH!! Flippy is da best!

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hey hey hey! [09 May 2004|09:21pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | SURVIVOR-TV ]

Well it's may. I saw Yellowcard AGAIN in April and I also got alot closer to someone unexpected.

I will continue using this journal but for now this is just a short little thing to let users know I am alive!!

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Why God Saved Me [19 Apr 2004|08:48pm]
I've been pondering this question a lot lately. Why did God save ME? there are a lot of people who are in dire need of him and his greatness and I was chosen. I knew my life was bad, a lot of stuff happened to me. I lost my mother, uncle, and grandfather all in the same year and I was struggling with depression and loneliness. I can remember specific times where I wanted to kill myself, living wasn't an option because I was without something that had provided me my strength and knowledge and courage: my mother. Jesus spoke to me through one of the best gifts I've ever been given, music. Switchfoot, Relient K, Sanctus Real, Watashi Wa, Dogwood, Lifehouse, etc... All these bands questioned everything I always did about Jesus and I didn't receive answers, I got more burning questions in my mind about everything. Through music I devoted myself to God and to trying to be a good Christian. I re-gained my strength and knowledge and courage through someone who wasn't my mother, Jesus. I was sick of fitting the sterotypical teen and the life I was living. The cussing, the drinking, the reckelessness...I somehow bounced out of that and became the opposite. I heard Jon Foreman (Switchfoot) speak live for the first time last May and was given a new desire to spread the word of God and let people know of his greatness.

I am within days of making my confirmation and I still have no clue why God saved ME. I know that my mother is always with me, I know that no matter what happens in life Jesus will always be there to pick me up when I fall, I know that the love I have for Jesus cannot be broken because he loves me just as much as I love him. I am thankful I was lucky enough to even be seen by God after all the things I've done. I sin everyday and I am trying to be a better person and as each day goes by I change, I change a little bit and become wiser and different. If I never get the answer to the question Why God Saved Me then it's okay because I will always be thankful to breathe the air I am breathing now, to see the things I have seen...the good and the bad because the good I will carry and the bad have taught me a lesson in life. I am thankful to be surrounded by good people, people who love and care for me and people who will always help me. If I lose it all...everything I have, my money, my family, my house, all my belongings IT'S OKAY because I have something bigger than that, something that can't be broken and that is the Holy Spirit, the lord, the giver of LIFE.

I've been thinking deeply for days now and had to get all of it out, maybe it was an attempt to let people know how I feel but probably just to get what I'm saying organized.

~Rachel
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Long time... [09 Mar 2004|03:06pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | Dashboard Confessional (song title too big) #12 ]

Thursday~ Laura and Brendan invited their friends over and we played bball...boys vs girls. The boys kicked our butts but we had more fun because we like keeled over laughing after every play or something cause there was a lot of hillarious stuff going on that time. The cabinet connection man came and I was riding Tylers scooter and ran into his truck lol he didn't see it though but it was so funny.

Friday~ Chilled with Eddie and Brendan. Watched Bring It On with Laura that night...oh man that is a GROOD movie! We are clearing out the woods behind my house but I'll get to that later!

Saturday~ It rained = ( but it let up for a bit and I played bball with Eddie and Brendan and me and Eddie got into a fight and I thought he said "your mom" so I pushed him down and stuff...it wasn't cool. I talk a ton of trash when I play bball so lol don't play against me. I FINALLY saw The Passion...words can't even express how I felt after seeing it...I cried with Mary as Jesus was flogged and everytime he was hit I would wince because it was brutal. That movie makes you appreciate so much and I realized how much I take for grantid and all that so I am getting better at all that jazz. Oh yea, I went to church before the passion.

Sunday~ Cleared the woods...lit a HUGE fire and did crazy things, tee hee. I don't remember doing anything other than that. There was supossed to be a band practice but it fell through. If nobody comes to the next one, I'm quitting the band.

So we're clearing out the woods to make a place to hide in man hunt AND during the summer my dad is getting me a fire permit and we're building a huge fire pit and clearing EVERYTHING so Laura, Brendan, and I can invite friends over and have a HUGE camp out!!! It's gonna be so rad...hopefully K8TEE can come!

ahh I feel like such a young'n because I am playing in the woods lol but it's fun and I don't care...I'm happy.

RACHELS CONCERT CALENDAR

April 16- Switchfoot
April 29- Rooney and Michelle Branch
April 30- Yellowcard

and sometime after that...CANT FACE THE FALLING! my first CFTF show, finally. I love this band, they're from right down the street and they have such emotion and passion in their songs they rock.
www.cantfacethefalling.com

Okay so well the week is going good so far...straight away!

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survey [02 Mar 2004|07:38pm]
[ mood | fine ]
[ music | My Chemical Romance "Drowning Lessons" ]

10 bands you've seen live
-switchfoot
-relient k
-don't look down
-turning blue
-anberlin
-something for kate
-eve 6
-yellowcard
-brand new
-stage

9 things you're looking forward to
-graduation
-summer
-swimming
-taking a road trip
-heaven
-going to Florida
-getting my car
-getting my band going
-chillin with Eddie

8 things that you wear daily
- my wristband
- my sweatshirt
- my chucks
- chapstick
- perfume
- hat
- lotion
- socks

7 things that annoy you
- PMS
- pop punk stupid bands
- girls who act like their something or not
- people saying Switchfoot isn't christian anymore because they're becoming known
- writers block
- school "drama"
- freshmen (most)

6 things you touch every day
- My hair
- Tables
- My songbook
- my computer
- my guitar
- my CD's

5 things you do every morning
- trip over my guitar cord
- go back to sleep
- brush my teeth
- look for clothes
- go online

4 people you'd like to spend more time with
- my friends
- my family
- Eric
- People I meet at concerts

3 movies you could watch over and over
- Chasing Liberty
- 10 Things I Hate About You
- The Princess Diaries

2 of your favorite songs at the moment
-Yellowcard "Miles Apart"
-Pax217 "Engage"

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with
- Eric

Last book you read: To Kill A Mockingbird
Last movie you saw: 10 things I hate about you
Last movie you saw on the big screen: Chsing Liberty (I don't go to the movies)
Last phone number you called: ????
Last show you watched on TV: Full House
Last song you heard: Joss Stone "Fell in love with a boy"
Last thing you had to drink: Diet Sprite
Last thing you ate: Pizza
Last time you showered: Last night
Last time you smiled: A few minutes ago
Last time you laughed: a little bit ago
Last person you hugged: EDDIE!
Last person you kissed: ...........
Last thing you said: NATE LIKES LAURA!!!
Last person you talked to online: Melissa
Last person you talked to on the phone: Amy
Last thing you smelled: Febreez
I’m listening to: My Chemical Romance
I feel like: going to bed
I lied to you: so many times before
I am too: cool to be your friend
I want: to rock out at a switchfoot concert
I need: a day of just chillin with friends
I wish: my mom was here
This time last week: I was taking medicine
I’m about to: fall asleep
Yesterday: I went to school
Today: i went to school then came home to work out
Tomorrow: doing it all over again
I miss: my mom
I want to be with: my mommy

now that that has made me miss my mom...i'm going

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Yay, I'm chocolate [29 Feb 2004|03:31pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | This Holiday Life "Colors Fade" ]

cho
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.


Which kind of candy are you?
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This may... [10 Feb 2004|07:28pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | Finger Eleven "One Thing" ]

This may become my primary journal again...not sure

Further Seems Forever:The Sound
Alkaline Trio:Crawl
Brand New:Mix Tape
Taking Back Sunday:I don't like them.
The Ataris:Suck.
Saves The Day:Shoulder To The Wheel
Finch:Letters To You
Bright Eyes:Don't like them
New Found Glory:Understatement
Good Charlotte:Screamer
Everclear:Father Of Mine
Marilyn Manson:NONE
Avril Lavigne:Complicated
Rancid:Indestructable
The Starting Line:Best Of Me
The Get Up Kids:Out Of Reach
The Used:SUCK
No Doubt:Trapped In A Box
Simple Plan:SUCK
Sublime:April 26, 1992
Blink182:I Miss You
Lit:My Own Worst Enemy
MXPX:Chik Magnet
Nirvana:SUCKS
Allister:SUCKS
Dashboard Confessional:Swiss Army Romance or For Justin
Riddlin' Kids:ALL THEIR SONGS ROCK!!
Something Corporate:SUCK
Sugarcult:Pretty Girl or We Come Crashing Down

Favorite song by: brought to you by BZOINK!

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Im a punk lol [03 Feb 2004|09:06pm]
old school punk
YOU ARE OLD SCHOOL PUNK!

You are so anti-social you've become the talk of
the town. You used to spend all day riding on
your skateboard and growing your mohawk, but
now you are on to bigger dreams. Your ambitions
to spend your life strung out on drugs and to
spend a whole year with out a shower is really
taking off. From the Ramones to Bad Brains you
are the true punk fan. Indeed, you are the envy
of nobody, but the attention you get all the
time is well worth it. Its a dirty job, but
someones gotta do it.


What is your anti-conformist personality?
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Survey [02 Feb 2004|05:43pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | The Jayhawks "I'm gonna make you love me" ]

HORROR MOVIES
What is your favorite horror movie?:Joyride
What is your least favorite horror movie?:The Ring
Who is your favorite horror movie killer?:The scream guy
Who is your least favorite horror movie killer?:Mike Myers
What was the very first horror movie you saw?:Scream 3
TV SHOWS
What is your favorite TV show?:Everwood
Who is your favorite character on that show?:umm Madison. She rocks.
What is your least favorite TV show?:Friends
Why don't you like it?:It's retarded!! it's like hey we're all friends here we are being friends for like 6 seasons, WHO CARES?
Do you like FRIENDS?:NO
MUSIC
What is your favorite band?:Switchfoot
Who is your favorite singer?:Jon Foreman
What's your favorite kind of music?:Rock. Alternative. Punk.
How many concerts have you been to?:umm alot I can't really count at the moment
How old were you when you went to your 1st concert?:I think I was like 12
FRIENDS
Who do you consider your best friend?:Melissa/Kate
Do you have more than 1 best friend?:yup
Who is the friend you've known the longest?:Eddie
Who's the friend that lives closest to you?:Eddie
Who's the friend that lives farthest from you?:Anthony
FAMILY
What are your parents' names?:Jeff and Sylvia
Are they married or divorced?:they are married, sylvia is my step mom
Do you have any brothers/sisters?:one brother, one sister
Do you have any pets?:yea unfortunately
Are your grandparent's still alive?:Yea
LIFE IN GENERAL
Overall,how has your life been so far?:Umm sketchy but I guess it's good. I don't like to complain because God has given me so much
Did you have a good childhood?:It was good, I had a pretty good one.
What year did you graduate from high school?:I will in 2006
If you could relive one moment from your childhood,what would it be?:Umm playing cards with my mom. I loved that/
Are you still close with your childhood best friend?:Not really.
WORLD ISSUES:oh boy.
What do you think of George Bush?:He sucks
Who,in your opinion,has been the best president?:Lets see, probably Abraham Lincoln
Were you affected in any way by the events of 9-11-01?:Not personally
Do you think Osama Bin Laden is still alive?:Yea
THIS OR THAT?:haha someone messed up this quiz!
Hot or cold weather?:hot
Cats or dogs?:cats
Mom or Dad?:mom
DVD or VHS?:DVD
Horror movies or comedy?:horror
FRIENDS or SEX & THE CITY?:*dies*
Baked Doritos or regular Doritos?:baked doritos
Pets or no pets?:no pets
Apartment or house?:House
Hardback books or paperback books?:Hardbacks
Laptop or desktop?:LAPTOP!!
Sleeping or awake?:sleeping
Writing in a journal or not writing in a journal?:writing
Jeans or sweatpants?:umm both
PLAYBOY or PLAYGIRL?:......
Nick Carter or Nick Lachey?:Nick Lachey
Aerosmith or 3 Doors Down?:3 doors down
Being online or talking on the phone?:online
Shower or bath?:shower
Black or blue?:black
Brad Pitt or Ashton Kutcher?:Brad Pitt
Lemonade or water?:Lemonade
Pool or no pool?:Pool
YOUR OPINION ON THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE
Michael Jackson:HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!
Jim Carrey:stupid
George Bush:idiot
Osama Bin Laden:phhsh. hiding in a cave
Saddam Hussein:CAPTURED!
Clay Aiken:invisible
Rueben Stoddard:get some vocal lessons
Kelly Clarkson:AWESOME!!!
Scooby Doo (LOL!):sucks
Freddy Krueger:idiot
Michael Myers:butthole
Jason Voorhees:that sounds like Jills last name
Martin Luther King JR:RIGHT ON
Bratt Pitt:Heyyyyyyyy
Jennifer Aniston:no
Larry Flynt:?
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF....
Your best friend came to you saying she was pregnant?:I'd hug her
You had a house fire and could save only 3 things,what would they be?:Guitar, Blanket, Mom's jewlery box
Your Mom or Dad died?:Well i've already gone through that so...
You were snowed-in for a week?:do as many people as possible (hahahahahaha) no umm chill out?
You were mugged on the street?:Kick them in the groin and get my stuff back
You found a wallet containing $10,000?:probably keep it
You won the lottery?:Get the hell outta here
You met your all-time favorite band/singer?:I already have and I talked to him and got a picture
You were accused of a crime you didn't do?:I'd freak out
Your best friend suddenly dumped you w/o explanation?:I'd freak out
Someone asked you to do something illegal?:I'd freak out
It was the last day of your life and you could only do 3 things?:See Switchfoot, Drive a car, see friends/family
GENERAL QUESTIONS
Your name:Rachel
Your age:15
Birthday:Nov 2
Hometown:SK
Hobbies:Music
Likes:Music
Dislikes:YOU
Pet peeves:Temper
Fave alcoholic drink:I don't drink
Fave beer brand:Corona cause its fun to say, I don't drink tho but its fun to say and stuff
Fave store to shop at:Umm Hot Topic or Layne Bryant
Last book you read:To Kill A Mockingbird
Your religion:Christianity
Your best friend's name:Melissa
Your enemy's name:I have alot
Last 4 digits of your phone #:nope
Your email address:nope
Your AOL SN:nope
Your AIM SN:nope
Your MSN SN:nope
Your YAHOO SN:nope
Fave TV Show:YOU ASKED THIS!!!! its Everwood
Fave animal:DONT HAVE ONE
Least fave animal:ALL OF THEM
Favorite movie:Chasing Liberty
Least fave movie:Elf
Are you glad this is almost over?:yea
Do you enjoy filling out surveys?:yea
Do you want to add me to your friend's list on this site?:NO

Just 4 fun---LONG survey brought to you by BZOINK!

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ONE YEAR ON BLURTY!! [18 Jan 2004|05:21pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | Switchfoot "Innocence Again" ]

It's officially one year on blurty and you know what that means....

Yesterday was my mom's death anniversary. 2 years.

So last night after Church Sylvia decided to take us out to dinner. Kelly sat next to me in Church and then looked at me when she heard my mom's name said. Anyways, Sylvia took us to AppleBee's and we Quesadias and stuff and they were wicked good and I told her how frustrating it all is....not having a mom, feeling alone, dealing with people's crap on days I shouldn't have to and she completely understood and talked to me and gave me advice. She asked me and Laura what my mom was like and well I had a list.
She was funny, smart, careing, honest, genuine. Sylvia asked about some of the good times so I wouldn't be sad and I told her my mom sobered up to take care of me when I got the flu...I wish I had the flu forever. I told her how we used to drive in her car and talk and listen to music. I told her my mom loved music almost as much as I do. I didn't cry when I talked about the breaking down and the realization I had a few months after she died. Laura is right....it feels like it's been 29384384239 years since I've seen her but it's only been 2 and it sucks.

We left applebees and Sylvia had to go to the liqour store (DIE!) and Shaws and we BLASTED Jet "Are You Gonna Be My Girl" And I decided THATS the first song I am gonna blast in my car next May when I get my license. I made up dirty lyrics to the song including Matthew Goode and Tony Lavato (for Laura) lol it was so much fun in Shaw's cause we found green koolaid and then harassed Jeff and Aj and then talked about going over to the meat section, throwing the meat outof the package and on to the ground and yelling "BE FREE!!" lol it was wicked funny and it made my night alot happier.

Then I got home and it was dark and I became sad. I grabbed my red CD which had "I Saw You First" by John Mellencamp and played it cause that was my mom's and my's all time favorite driving song. It made me happy cause I thought of me and my mom singing it in her BMW...it made me happy.

"This loud good boy band is crucifying John Lennon"~ (Lyric from the song, wicked true.)

I only cried a little before I went to bed at like 3am. I got up today at 9:30 and hussled to get ready and picked up Amy at 11:30 and then we had band practice. We didn't play instruments till like I don't know but it was just me jessie and laura cause the other 3 left and we made this song called "Cookies" its wicked odd but it sounds good. Jessie sang and we did it without drums or bass which was odd.

Everyone left and I watched a few minutes of the game (die hard pats fan here) and I realized they were winning and I was like "Cool." Then I called Jill and we talked for a bit about random stuff and then she had to go so now I'm chillin on my computer talking to K8TEE.

oh yea, Marisa IM'ed me last night and we sorta started arguing but then she got sympathetic, apologized, and we let everything go. She knew she shouldnt be pulling crap on me and we talked for a while and that was cool.



I feel like worn out and stuff. I have no idea when my computer final is...haha im gonna fail! anyways im out...

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Quick update [01 Jan 2004|10:44pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Semisonic "Secret Smile" ]

So yea, it's true. I got a live journal.
livejournal.com/~graper_girl15sf

I update that more but I won't give up my blurty....hehe never. FOD isn't as good either so there lol.

I have been feeling really crappy because of certain events. I've had people I love and trust tell me how to feel....my dad, some friends, therapist. Yea I finally got around to seeing that therapist....brave of me.

January 17. That day will forever haunt me. Maybe i'm making a big deal about it all but I mean i replay that night all the time in my head when I'm alone....it hurts.

Theres full liqour in the cabinet downstairs. everykind a teen could ever dream of and here I am the straight edge girl CRAVING some tequila or wine or champagne. I will never touch vodka....Rita drinks vodka...I don't think it's good though. I read about kids cutting themselves and it sickens me but then again it is kinda what I used to do....i have psoriasis and when you cut it open it bleeds like never before and I used to cut it open for the heck of it...then it started feeling good so I did it more but I've stoped cause its easily noticable and I want it to go away so I need to stop it.

check out my live journal and I will update this as much as possible!

Happy New Year everyone!

~Rach

SWITCHFOOT GOT #90 on the top 100 on 103.7 FNX and #72 on the top 95 of 2003 on WBRU!!!! ROCK ON

yea we were meant to live....to hear switchfoot on the radio and freak out lol jk



So, "This Is Your Life" by Switchfoot hits even harder this time of the year. Starting off a new one and trying to serve Christ has been a challenge to me for the past year and hopefull I can do better this year...

I stole this from Cass....too bad for her.

1) Using band/singer names, spell out your name.

Relient K

Alanis Morisette

Cool Hand Luke

Hole

Eve 6

Lifehouse



Everlast

Lisa Loeb

Incubus

Zwan

Anti-Flag

Bush (*sings* cause i dont wanna come back down from this cloud...)

Everclear

Tears for fears (paying homage to the 80's!!)

Hot Hot Heat



Collective Soul

Oasis

Oleander

Nofx

Sanctus Real (or Switchfoot hehe)

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? Yes....it's really great, Eddie wrote it for me lol it even ryhmes


3) What song makes you cry? everything. lol well theres a few. "Concrete Girl" by Switchfoot, "For The Moments I Feel Faint" by Relient K, and umm "Hey Wait" by Sanctus Real oh and "Acoustic #3" by Goo Goo Dolls and once "Will You" by P.O.D umm "This Is Your Life" by Switchfoot. "Everything" by Lifehouse


4) What song makes you happy? "More Than Fine" by Switchfoot. BEST SONG EVER

5) What do you like to listen to before bed? "Change" by Good Charlotte, "If" by Dragmatic or anything from Dawson's Creek.

6) Name a song by Coal Chamber~ DREAMTIME!!

7) Who was/were your idol/s when you were younger? Phhshhh I can't remember. My mom? probably and Lisa Loeb I've always loved her.


8) First album you ever bought? phhhsh. I was making my own mix tapes and stealing my parents tapes. then I started downloading so hahahahahah!! ok well it was a backstreet boys CD.


9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why? Lisa Loeb "Stay" reminds me of my ex- Eric just because of that one line "...And you say, "stay."" that is the best



im out!!

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Hey [12 Dec 2003|02:51pm]
[ music | ETC ]

Sneaking on just to say hey! Nothing too eventful. We're getting our christmas tree tomorrow and we're going to the comissary so it will be cool. Then church on Sunday and band practice. It's gonna be a good weekend. ONE WEEK THEN CHRISTMAS BREAK AND VT!!!!!!!!!!

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In School... [08 Dec 2003|09:56am]
[ mood | cranky ]
[ music | eva rubinoff shut the hell up!! ]

Hey I'm in computer class and last night was sooo boring. I was so close to taking out my jenga blocks and building a high tower and then kicking it down or going to the library and researching some random guy just for fun. I fuckin hate this!!! grrr

anyways, I'm alive.

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Gonna be gone... [07 Dec 2003|02:40pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | Dashboard Confessional "Bend And Not Break" ]

Sylvia called me ungrateful because I didn't wanna go somewhere with my aunt cause of the snow (it was a play and we were spossed to go the day before but cause of the snow storm she said she couldnt make it) well we got in a huge fight and I said "F you" to her when she called me ungrateful but I mean I think I had a right to because she dosn't know me and has no right to freakin say that crap so well my dad took my laptop away and I yelled at him and told him he was whipped and that Sylvia called me a bitch behind my back and that God knew and was going to condem them to hell someday and Sylvia heard this and then i shut my door and blasted Brand New songs and freaked out and flipped my tabble over and hit my micraphone stand down and threw my hairbrush and just cried because I was so pissed that Sylvia could say crap to me but if I defend myself I get punished and my dad dosn't even try to tell Sylvia to stop.....they are bastards like seriously.

I snuck on while they were out to type this and so ONE WEEK AGAIN with no computer access except when I am in school and if I can get on it will be to check my e-mail.....I'll try and put an update in.

I go to see the phyciatrist tomorrow, maybe she can help and hear me out and stuff. I miss my mommy more than ever and I freakin hate christmas and winter.....I hate sylvia, I am full of hate.

sorry everyone, see ya in a week.

email: rayray203@hotmail.com

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SNOW! [06 Dec 2003|12:34pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | Get Up Kids "Forgive and Forget" ]

Oh man so Thursday I found out we were gonna get a noreaster and it started yesterday at around 3:30pm and OH MAN!! there's so much snow coming....like 4-8 inches for us on the coast but in NY and stuff they have like 8-12 inches!!! I like snow but I hate winter...you all know why.

I have been listening to Can't Face The Falling. They are a really cool girl band from Rhode Island ummm Richmond I think and wow the lead singer has the most unique voice ever and their sound is pretty awesome!! I wanna see them live!

Jack's band is playing tonight and I thin i'm suppossed to go hehe sorry Jack I am not sure...

Check out the Get Up Kids they are really awesome also, they are more emo if you have to label stuff but they are really good.


I am recording!! yea crappy mic + guitar + my crappy voice= something to do when I'm bored and 3 songs to upload for people who are willing to listen.

I've been writing songs like crazy cause when I write one down another one comes to mind so I write it down and it happens like 3 times in a row. It's crazy and they are all GOOD songs like probably the best I have written in a while and I like being satisfied with my work.

here's to Jill from MD.... (A Get Up Kids song...just for you)

"Forgive and Forget"

I think I've waited long enough.
Our world was once forget-me-nots
And now I wait another year.
Now I wait another year. I need you here.
I think I've heard this one before,
But it's not you walking through my door.
And now I wait another year.
Now I wait another year. I need you here.
I need you here. I need you here. I need you here.
Don't bother it now, Let sleepers lie.
Bygones have all gone by.
Forgot what we fought for, Hard as I might,
Don't have the will to fight.
Forgive & forget Whatever was said
Because we're growing up By the hour.
I never would let It go on like it did:
All good things Have endings.
Forgive & forget Whatever was said
All good things Have endings.
Don't bother it now, Let sleepers lie.
Bygones have all gone by.
Forgot what we fought for, Hard as I might,
Don't have the will to fight.
Don't bother it now, Let sleepers lie.
Bygones have all gone by.
Forgot what we fought for, Hard as I might,
Don't have the will to fight.



So two years ago if someone said I had like a month to spend with my mom cause she would die I would have laughed..........i'm not laughing.

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What happens at Lupo's, STAYS at Lupo's [03 Dec 2003|01:46pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Good Charlotte "Festival Song" ]

hahaha

So Amy called me Monday night and said she got tix to the b-day bash for WBRU so we went and it was awesome. Andrea came over to Amy's and then we went to burger king and ate and then we went to the concert and the line was so freakin long! it was like all the way around the end of the building and then around the corner and it was freezing but we got inside with in a matter of minutes.

Yellowcard~ Their set was awesome!! they kicked off with "Breathing" then did some song I didnt know then they did "23" then another song I didn't know then "Ocean Avenue" and "Way Away" good stuff! after their set we went to get merch and I got a t-shirt and so did Andrea and Amy's bro. We got to meet the violinist, he was AWESOME!! and very hott haha he signed my shoe, good times. There was mad moshing from when they started the intro to "Breathing" which was awesome! Oh man are those guys hella SEXY!!! Me and Amy yelled out for them to play "Miles Apart" but they didnt hehe we refer to them as "Sex On Legs" they are so freakin HOTT!!!!!!

Something Corprate~ Everybody agreed we didn't like their stuff so we went to the balcony and waited out their set....they sounded okay but the balcony was more fun lol

Brand New~ They started off with "The Quiet Things No On Ever Knows" and then played other songs, crazy moshing. I thought I wouldn't like them but they were alright and very good looking.

We had to leave so we missed Rancid's set but I'm sure it was off the hook...they always are.

We drove Andrea home and then I got dropped off and went to leave and that was my night.

I woke up today and gave my sis the stuff I got her cause she couldn't go and she liked it I think, it was fun!

Blah so my dad is out of town, me and Sylvia are getting along so its alright.


GOT OUT OF SCHOOL EARLY TODAY!!!!!! the boiler was down and the gas wasn't working or whatever so we got early dismisal!!! it kicked! sweeet no English or Math and I got out of Spanish hella early!


YAY!!! eww computer first tomorrow, that just made me feel like crap lol screw it.

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