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| 01:49pm 31/08/2003 |
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Emotion has left me, there's nothing to feel. My world has gone black, I've lost all known zeal. From late last night, and throughout all of today; I've tried to communicate with nothing to say. The day has been spent with explanations on the mind; but not one seemed to fit, I'm emotionally blind.
Trying to understand how I planted angers seed; A simple answer is all that I need. But the one who hates me, is the comfort I find; I loathe the misfortune of being emotionally blind.
Emotionally Blind- 10308.31 |
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| 04:10pm 28/07/2003 |
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 You are Agent Smith, from "The Matrix." No one would ever want to run into you in a dark alley. Cold as steel, tough as a rock, things are your way or the highway.
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| And So It Ends |
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| 02:58pm 28/07/2003 |
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My worst fear has today come true. My one true love has deserted me. Yes that is right, my relationship with Jessica has ended. She said that after one particular incident, everything has changed for her. She says her love and trust in me have long since diminished. And in her words, if we continued the relationship it would simply mean excessive pain and suffering for the both of us. Well if that is the way she feels then so be it. Ever since the beginning she has long since been able to avoid my persuasive powers. I suppose its for the better for both of us. We are both entering different schools single, which gives up both the oppurtunity to thoroughly explore the (for lack of a better word) "goods." Thus ends my longest relationship ever. My time with Jessica lasted a amazing 4 months and 22 days.
You may wonder how I took this. Well seeings how I already knew it was gonna happen, via a blurty journal entry, I was ready and according to her had absolutly no reaction at all. I kinda just sat there and took it. I suppose I will just sit in depressed mourning for a week or so then end the summer and see how things go starting in High School. There may still be hope for me yet. And also, in case you're wondering, our relationship ended in a mutual agreement.
Signin out here,
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| 09:30am 28/07/2003 |
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mood:  depressed music: Silence
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 You Have the Power to Turn Things to Stone!
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Haha...I will turn you all to stone! FEEL MY WRATH!!!!!!!! DIE WORLD DIE!!! |
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| 09:23am 28/07/2003 |
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mood:  blank music: Silence
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 You represent... anger. Mad at the world, eh? You have a tendency to... freak out easily. Overly emotional about everything, you're most prone to bouts of cruelty and moodiness. Other people may be afraid of the fact that you explode so easily, but at least you're honest... even if you're honest about not liking anything.
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Yes...I apparently represent anger. Rather correct I suppose as I do tend to become angered easily. |
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| A New Adventure |
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| 08:07pm 23/03/2003 |
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mood:  refreshed music: Ra- Do You Call My Name
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As some of you may or may not know, the crew of my ship, the USS Andromeda NCC-50007 embarked on a First Contact mission today. The Andromeda was sent to the Melodia Star System where her crew was to find out as much as they could about the system and its people. The Melodian people had just recently flown thier first warp flight. They did Warp 1 for approximately 4 seconds. After extensively researching the language in the Universal Translator abord the Andromeda, we found out that their language is made up of chirps, much like a bird. Our Flight Control Officer, got us a picture and it turns out, they are angelic looking, with wings. After more researcing, the Captain was contacted by one of the Melodian's telepathically. The Melodian gave the Andromneda permission to enter orbit of it's main planet and land there.
Well, this is where we stopped for today, and that is all I know. I love you Jessica.
-Scotty (TO_Laredo) |
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| Amusing Poem |
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| 06:03pm 22/03/2003 |
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This is a really amusing poem. Here it is:
Toxic Poo
The Toxic Poo inside of you could hurt me; The Toxic Poo inside of you could make me cry. The Toxic Poo inside of you could do many a thing to me; But I promise you it could not make me high.
-Anonymous
HAHAHAHAHA ROFL!! ::rolls on the floor in insane, hysterical laughter:: Sorry guys, this was just plain, fucking, funny. |
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| 04:10pm 22/03/2003 |
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What is it with parents and physical labor?? Yesterday, my step dad had me moving bricks to cover a fence so the dog won't get out. Now at my dad's house, I have been moving 5 pound pieces of sod and 20 pound rocks. I think the parents are trying to get me to realize something, what it is, I don't know. I'm really tired though and my hands hurt like shit. Help me, sympathize for me.
Whew, well, I don't have much else to say. If my Internet we're working, I'd put some song lyrics. Well, how about some poetry. This is one I wrote. However, I no longer use it because it is no longer needed.
Wanting You
My heart aches, I want to scream. Wanting you was all a dream.
My mind is always drifting to you; Now if ever, I wish it were true.
I put my head to the pillow each night; And think to myself, "I guess she was right."
The phone in my hand, up to my ear. Holding her close, having her near.
Friends we will be, friends we still are; Whether we're near, or whether we're far.
Scott Boggs 12/12/01 |
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| Depression Sets In |
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| 12:13am 22/03/2003 |
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mood:  depressed music: Red Hot Chili Peppers- Can't Stop
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::sighs deeply:: I seem to have upset Jessica in someway. I only wish I knew what I did. She signed off depressed and crying. Life Sucks. My Life is so fucked up. The only reason I withstand the shit in it, is to be with Jessica. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. PLEASE TELL ME WHAT I DID.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. SINCE YOU'VE COME INTO MY LIFE, I FEEL AS IF I HAVE A MISSION. MY MISSION IS TO PROTECT YOU, CARE FOR YOU, CARE ABOUT YOU, AND UTMOST MY MISSION IS TO LOVE YOU. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I DID, BUT I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO KNOW SO I CAN APPOLOGIZE AND NEVER DO IT AGAIN. PLEASE ACCEPT THIS APPOLOGY AND I WILL TALK TO YOU TOMORROW.
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| Too Pissed to Express It |
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| 09:15pm 21/03/2003 |
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mood:  pissed off music: Disturbed- Down with the Sickness
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I am extremely pissed right now. Earlier this afternoon, my step-dad, forced physical labor upon me. He said that they were taking down the wire fence behind my house, so we were laying bricks. Each brick weighed literally 5 lbs. Then when i get to my dad's house, I read this gurls profile...well, ill let you read it. I'll make it bold. you make me sick. Scott this, Scott that! one of these days he is going to break your heart, nd all i will say is I told you so. and give you my support and friendship
the only thing anyone other than you or scott get out of your relationship is seeing you alway happy and chipper. This really pisses me off!! When she comes back from away, im gonna fucking cuss her out. Ok, I'm gonna go kill something/someone. I'll leave you with some good lyrics. Hmmm.....lets see here, I'll do.......Aenima by Tool
Aenima
Fuck L Ron Hubbard and Fuck all his clones. Fuck all those gun-toting Hip gangster wannabes.
Learn to swim.
Fuck retro anything. Fuck your tattoos. Fuck all you junkies and Fuck your short memory.
Learn to swim.
Fuck smiley glad-hands With hidden agendas. Fuck these dysfunctional, Insecure actresses. |
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| I LOVE YOU JESSICA |
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| 02:26pm 21/03/2003 |
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JUST WANTED TO SAY I LOVE YOU!! |
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| FROM GOOD TO BAD |
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| 09:20am 21/03/2003 |
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mood:  calm music: MUDVAYNE- NOT FALLING
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MANY PEOPLE WOULD BECOME CONFUSED BY THIS SUBJECT. WELL, ALLOW ME TO EXPLAIN.
THIS ENTRY IS ALL ABOUT YESTERDAY. THE GOOD........A THREE AND A HALF HOUR MOVIE WITH MY BABY. LET ME TELL YOU, IF YOU DONT LIKE LONG MOVIES, DONT GO SEE GODS AND GENERALS, UNLESS YOU ARE LIKE SOME CIVIL WAR FREAK. IT WASNT REALLY WORTH THE THREE AND A HALF HOURS AND 7.50 THAT I PAYED. THE REASON I WENT, I WANTED TO SPEND A LOT OF TIME WITH MY GURLFRIEND. HOWEVER, GOOD LEADS TO BAD. AFTER THE MOVIE, I WAS FORCED TO SPEND THE NIGHT AT ME CHURCH WITH THE IHN GROUP. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DONT KNOW WHAT IHN IS, ITS STANDS FOR INTERFAITH HOSPITALITY NETWORK WHERE HOMELESS FAMILIES CAN SPEND THE NIGHT AND GET A GOOD MEAL. IT WAS WELL............BORING AND IRRELEVENT.
DEAR MUM, FUCK YOU!! ---EDDIE THOMAS(AMERICA'S SWEETHEARTS)
P.S. DONT DO DRUGS, AND DONT LISTEN TO RAP MUSIC, IT POLLUTES THE BRAIN!! |
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| Home Sweet Home |
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| 08:51pm 19/03/2003 |
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mood:  giddy music: Background noise from America's SweetHeart's
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WOW!! It feels wonderful to be home!! I missed my baby soo much.
Scotty: They sound stoned. : No Scotty, they're just southerners.
We visited a K-Mart that was closing and to our luck, we came across two extremely flirtacious gurls. They asked my name, I told them i did not have one. I told them I was nameless. They thought Paul was insane. He told them he went to Broughton High School. As it turns out, Broughton is also a mental institute some where western NC. WHAT A COINCEDENCE!! We rode around the srote on bicycles and shopping carts. It was a very interesting experience. But then, our fun was ruined when we had to go. However, I did not leave until after seeing that the blonde was wearing a turquoise thong and low-rise jeans.
From what I'm hearing, Julie is coming down on.......Friday. Fortunately, I will not be here!! I will be at me father's house!! THANK GOD!! No shopping at the mall with her and PJ and Brittany and Jordan. HOORAH! It was a terrible experience last time........with a few exceptions, like the thong shopping and the short short shopping at A&F. Other than that, it sucked. I missed the Gator Bowl to go with them.
Oh, and the reminds me, on our trip to the Mountains, paul bought a whip. He kept whipping me all weekend trying to wrap it around my legs. And then, on the drive home, David was feeling Pukey for oh the.............12th time during thr trip, so we stopped at some random side street place called like Mike's Bait & Tackle or some shit like that. So, paul and i got the whip out the play.....and suddenly HONK HONK. A goose!! Thus, we went and stalked, and paul brought the whip with him. The guy in the store yelled at us to leave the geese alone. he was like "Hey!! Leave that Damn goose alone!!" When David was done puking and we were back in the car, Mum told us that it turned out that some teenagers that killed a goat or a goose or some other random animal, and had gotten arrested.
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| In The Beginning...... |
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| 07:31am 17/03/2003 |
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mood:  giggly music: Fraggle Rawk
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Dance your cares away ::Clap Clap:: Worries for another day, down in Fraggle Rock.
Umm.....Wow this is not going very well.
I'm at a loss for words. I cannot think of anything to write.
In the beginning......there was this empty journal. And I needed something to write.
Paul said I should write about life, there's a problem with that-I haven't got one.
Isn't that the truth. I mean no real life to speak of. I have my Debs-She's beautiful and I love her-but she's far from being my actual entire life. Scratch that, she probably could consume my entire existence as I have nothing else to do. Not saying that I'm going to do her......yet. Wow aren't I cocky??
I do believe I will go insane if I am not already. For Example, At Breakfast on Saturday, I sat down to have a plate of pancakes, and low and behold I called them Eggs. Eggs of all things. Also, while doing breakfast, I called the soccer ball a baseball, and I heard voices that weren't really there. So, all I have to say is GET OUT OF MY FUCKIN' HEAD!!
We are leaving today to go on a car trip to my sister, Jennifer's house in the Mtns. ::Sarcastically:: Wont that be fun, the car trip I mean.
Well, As I cannot think of anything to write right now, thus concludes my first journal entry. I find this thing very interesting. |
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