I am just chillin here listening yo music while my significant other is playing video games. Ain't that just the quiantest thing you ever heard ?
It seems to me like a lot of our time is spent on crazy ass shit that does not even matter. When was the last time, and answer honestly now, you really thought about someone other than yourself ? for reasons totally unrelated to you and your own gain ?
Right ? Okay, so you can count those times in one hand. Sure as my name is Maria.
My point is I don't think anyone ever thinks outside of their little box. this little tiny box that we create for ourselves that keeps us as prisoners in our minds. So thinking of someone elses needs only comes into play when it is helpful to our own desires and motivations.
We think if anything tries to crash or destroy this little box, this evil, wicked, illogical, box we have built , that we are over, we feel defeated and humilated.
So then if this is the case .... why will I say and do the same things over and over again that only perpetuate and help build this box i have built ? ...
Today I feel is going to be a good day. Gotta go learn to do my job ... training is so much fun but it is also intense. There is so much to learn I think thats what gets to me. Its all simple stuff, just so much of it ....
I have a huge head ache and I think its because of the cleaning of my ear. It hurts bad so I've spent the morning in bed. I have a new featherbed which makes me very very happy. ^_^
I just wish I did not have this headache. its totally runing my mood. So lets see I was supposed to go to phoenix with carla today but I ended up not going because she did not bother to call. which is good because I had no money. hehehe
I think thtas it foe now. tomorrow is 311. I was excited but not as much anymore, I really hope they play Amber. I am almost posative they will.