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|Thursday, March 20th, 2003|
I cannot stand the chica I work with!!!
I cannot stand the chick that I work with, and I don't think she can stand me either. When she first started working here, I think she liked me. I thinks she kinda wanted me because she was always commenting about my tits and how big they are. She even tried to hook me up with Brad. I think she really wants Brad, though. She's always in his office talking to him.
I think she's kinda jealous because I'm signifigantly thinner than she is. I find her loud, obnoioux, and really don't enjoy working with her. She's one of those people I don't think anyone can really stand, but everyone pretends to like. She's a good sales person, but a pretty raunchy person. Everyone is always saying how great she is, but secretly, I think everyone gets very annoyed with her. I can see it in people's eyes and their expressions as they look at her. I just had to let off some steam about her.
Current Mood: irritated
Current Music: Some Crappy 80's Song
Yesterday was a snow day. It was pretty nice. I had really been needing a day off. I just hung out with my little guy. He was so much fun. He was showing off a lot. He is just getting the concept of crawling. And he's teething. My Mom was also sick, so I had to take care of her. All and all, it was just a restful day.
Guy was bugging me the other day, saying that I have all these feelings for him. I could really care less if he ever came in again, even though it is kinda fun having verbal battles with him. I am going to ask my counselor what she thinks of me telling him to quit projecting on me. I don't know if it would be opening a can of worms or not. I also have to talk to her about Brent and what to do about him. I know she will tell me he's not good for me. We've had that conversation before, but I don't know what to do about him. So, I'll talk to her about it. Who knows exactly what she'll say. I guess I'll have to wait and see.
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: Nino Ferrer
|Tuesday, March 18th, 2003|
My Dreams Are Way Too Vivid
My dreams are way to vivid. They get more interesting and sexy all the time. I had this dream last night that I was stuck in this hotel as a maid. The owner was this horrible Italian guy who forbid me to be in the rooms when the guests were there. The hotel catered to movie stars. I broke something in the hotel and the owner was furious and said I had to work off my debt.
I was cleaning the most expensive room, which was the room of this famous movie star. Suddenly he was coming back, and the rest of the cleaning crew disappeared. I was left in the room alone. The movie star came in. He looked a lot like this guy who I work with, who wants me, Brent. We talked for awhile, and realized we knew each other from somewhere. I was incredibly attracted to him. He offered to pay what I owned the hotel for me, and gave a whole bunch of money. We talked for a bit longer, got high, and then we started making out. Next thing I knew, we were going at it like a couple of porn stars. It was incredible and everything was just perfect in the dream. I woke up completely turned on this morning.
I think I had this dream because Brent asked me out on Friday. There is this part of me that really wants to get with him. He is like an old bad habit personified. He is so comfortable and has this soft sensitive side to him. But, I know that old bad habit will get me in a lot of trouble. I know I'll end up doing something I don't want to do. I'll end up getting high or drunk or both. Once I start that, I know it doesn't stop until I hit bottom. Besides, I want a good role model for my son. I made the promise to myself as well and to my son that I would wait until I found the right guy. I know Brent isn't it. So, I'll keep waiting, no matter how lonely and turned on I get!!!
Sweet Blue Girl