Stephanie's Blurty

Okay. . . it's been a long time. I just need to write this all down before I LOSE MY MIND!! Okay, I love Zach. Zach is awesome. He makes me laugh and he's goofy and just wonderful. But, he's 17 years old. I'm going to be 20. It's not fair. He's just fun to be with. He can be serious at times too. that's always a plus. I wish I could find a good guy. Then there's Jeremy that's wonderful, but he insists that we be friends, which is cool and stuff. . . but I really would like to know him better. He has so many problems and I wish he'd open up to me. I want to help. But, I can't help unless he wants me to. Maybe I'll just be a nun. Maybe I should just relax. Maybe I should just let it all go. I don't know. I give up. I'm going to bed.

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