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| Thursday, April 10th, 2008 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 12:35 am | Good to be back It’s been more than a month now since a life changing decision was faced my way. Soon after that, many events, revelations, heartaches and lies unveiled. A long and dragging relationship was finally put to an end. I wish I can say really nice things but after the betrayal of a partner falling in love with someone else while you are still together really leaves a sour taste. I can just go on and on talking how much hurt I felt. I was miserable and inconsolable for weeks. But that’s over now. Life goes on. I realized that I’ve forgotten about myself thru those years. It’s time I finally give my attention and love to someone all worth it… ME! The moment I decided to move on, I made an effort to give myself a little more edge. A little powder, a nice dress and an honest smile goes a long way. And you know what, it feels really good. After being miserable, years of being taken for granted and carrying tons of baggage that ain’t mine… Man, it feels good to be back to me! As much as I’d like to give myself all the credit for getting over this dark phase of my life (that I wish never existed in the first place!), I owe a lot to my family, old friends and new friends who made me shine thru it all. I must admit that after everything that happened to me, it is hard to love again. It is hard because you know that you’ll open yourself to be susceptible to that much pain again. Honestly, thoughts of playing around and other immature tricks played in my head. But seriously, I’m too old for that. I know that deep inside of me, I want something for keeps… something I can call my own. I was bothered when people tell me not to jump on the first person who comes along my way. I’m a hazard to people around me as I spell REBOUND from my What I’ve been thru. In a short span of time, I’ve done a lot. I met new people, rekindled communication from people in my past, made my bed and choose who to be with. No, I did not jump on the first person who came along. I did let him walk past me. A few others slipped my way, and then it came to a point that I have to clear the way. Someone good came my way. But I had to ask her to stay away to give space for someone better. Yes, I did find someone who made my heart beat a happy tune. I guess it’s true when they say that things happen for a reason. Now, I can be myself, love someone truly and be loved by someone who knows the real me but loves me for it. | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Tuesday, July 12th, 2005 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 4:29 pm | B.P.B. (Bbq, Poker and my Baby) Last night Che and I went to the Camp Hold’em home base for an impromptu game. Well that was after pigging out at Brazilian Churasco in Wilson. We’d hate to leave the resto but we should be on our way to Camp. Besides I feel like I’m filled with bbq up to my eye already. NO. It’s not gluttony. We paid for buffet. Therefore, we must consume every cent its worth. So keep those grilled food comin’! Oooppsss, time to play poker! It just so happens that a number of people are itching to play poker after a manic Monday of work (or school for those Campers). So there it is, the gang of Mike and Mark with some new faces including Wesley, the “all-in-monster” of the night. Yes, I can clearly remember this guy 'coz he was the one who took me out. My fault. As Miguel would say, "Good game, pare! Watch your back." HAHAHA! Nah, no hard feelings! I just have to say that. =D Anyway, Miguel and Rob were also there. Miguel took the all-in-monster away and became big chip-lead. It was then that everyone noticed Rob game last night, from short-stack to heads-up with Miguel and winning the game. Nice game guys! But I am truly proud of how my baby played the game. Although she's never a chip-lead last night, but her game was so good. So good, I don't think I'd have the discipline to play like that ever. She actually felt bad coz she hardly played a hand. But as I've said, it's all part of the game-- knowing when and how to play. Kisses to my Baby Boy! Now I wonder when I'd be playing again... Current Mood: good Current Music: phones ringing in symphony | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Thursday, June 30th, 2005 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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| 11:34 am | Yes I do love a Cosmo...
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| 11:30 am | Vroooommmm.... vroooooommmmm  Green is your Lightsaber's color. Green is the color of nature. It symbolizes growth, harmony, and freshness. Green has strong emotional correspondence with safety. Green is also commonly associated with wealth and happiness, so someone with a green lightsaber like yourself is a fortunate soul. What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have? brought to you by Quizilla | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Monday, May 23rd, 2005 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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| Saturday, April 16th, 2005 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 12:32 am | omigosh, it's been months! Anyway, just wanna tell you guys that I am ok. We are doing just fine and we are actually celebrating our 1st anniv. on Sunday. We don't even know how to celebrate it. We've been so busy with work and family. Maybe we will do some post-event celebration via out-of-town escape, just the two of us. Aww... can't wait. _____________________________ Anyway, I miss you guys. | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Tuesday, January 11th, 2005 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 8:42 pm | THANK YOU!!! I would like to extend my sincerest gratitude to all the people who made my birthday and its celebration truly a blast. Ofcourse my parents who are great enough to produce an offspring such as moi and my equally beautiful siblings. And my friends who spiced up the fun and everything! I would like to put a special mention to my mom, who's yummy food was wiped out. And my dad's participation despite the present situation we are facing. I can not elaborate for now. But im sure some people here knows what im talking about. All the helpers in my house who made the party possible despite my unhelping hand. (Alright, tamad nga ako!) My brother who called from Taiwan early morning of my birthday and his wife whose great help in the party was truly a big relief. My friends who greeted me through text messages and phone calls. And here are some of the really special people in my life who graced my birthday celebration and made it a really memorable one: Lara and Barbie, thank you for freaking out some of my guest. Hehehe! Let's do that again sometime ah? Enchie and Babykins, sweetie im really touched that you ditched out your dentist for my celeb. and babykins would always be the silent killah that i want near. Barokster, still the unacanny bangka in pusoy. You rock dude! LIBRE!!! CP, our S.D. whom everyone would gladly beat in karaoke. Rej, sa beauty even when she sings in her sleep. (Rej, you didn't know? you were singing while you're asleep in our sofa?! hehehehe!) Oneal, who drove everyone to my house and back to everybody's house safely. Paul, whose redition of Besame Mucho swayed me. But I was quite upset he did not finish his entire set. Dante, who revealed his vocal prowess in ... my dreams... hehehe! And to the many many people who were there... thank you! thank you! thank you! And ofcourse how can I forget to thank my baby boy who's been always there, giving me all that she can just to see me smile. I love you baby! I don't want to sound like I just won a grammy or something... But heck ya! This is better than the Grammys! Thanks again you guys... next year ulet ah! Hopefully more people can make it. Thanx again! :D Current Mood: happy | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Tuesday, January 4th, 2005 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 4:32 pm | Happy Birthday to me... Happy Birthday to me.... Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday... Happy Birthday to me... :D Now if you guys wanna greet me, better yet, celebrate with us! Come to my house on FRIDAY, 7pm for directions, call/text me 0917-8462310 *Dante and Rej should go, they know our house. You can ask them too. SEE YAH! :D | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 4:30 pm | Happy Birthday to me... Happy Birthday to me.... Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday... Happy Birthday to me... :D Now if you guys wanna greet me, better yet, celebrate with us! Come to my house on FRIDAY, 7pm for directions, call/text me 0917-8462310 *Dante and Rej should go, they know our house. You can ask them too. SEE YAH! :D | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Friday, December 17th, 2004 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 9:44 am | Really now...
I beg to disagree. Can I? | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Tuesday, December 14th, 2004 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 1:29 pm | It's been flashing in my TV set for some weeks now. Every time I'm watching amazing race, fear factor and other shows of the like, its sound invades our room. It makes one soul in the room happy to be seeing her idol. But the other soul is left upset; grieved by the fact that one can not afford to pay tickets for that damn concert and what more for the plane tickets and accommodation. And I don't even have credits yet!! But I don't care if I'd be able to afford those tickets. I am talking about the Sting Sacred Love Tour in Asia. I am not exactly a Sting-fanatic. But my better half adores and worships Sting. I'm sure most of you already know that as it appears on her every entry. You see, despite her passion for Sting's music and almost everything that involves Sting? She was not able to watch both of his concerts here in Manila. The first time he had a concert here, Che was in the US (Nice timing, huh?!). I forgot the reason for the other one. But most probably it's because her family experienced some rough road over the past few years. And we don't even know each other at that time. But fortunately for me, I was able to catch one of those concerts. And now, Sting is having this Sacred Love Asian Tour that doesn't include Philippines in his itinerary. These are the nearest he'd get: Jan. 10, 2005 / Singapore / Singapore Indoor Stadium Jan. 12, 2005 / Bangkok / Impact Arena Jan. 26, 2005 / Hong Kong / Convention Center Feb. 01, 2005 / KL, Malaysia / Putra Indoor Stadium Now that leaves me so frustrated that I can't put that smile on her face and be the only one (or first ever) in her life who was able to make her see Sting perform live. I'm sure it's going to be one of the major highs of her life. ~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~o~ Only until this entry, it was my own little secret. But I can no longer take this. I am getting more and more frustrated every time the commercial flashes or every time I am reminded of Sting. I am trying so hard not give her a clue. But I just need to get this off my chest now. Whew?.. Nah! I didn't feel any better. I am still freaking frustrated!!! :( Current Mood: frustrated | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 5:22 pm | thanx Rej now i wonder who would believe this my results...
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| Monday, November 22nd, 2004 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 8:12 pm | It's my first day in my new job. I hate that I still don't have a computer. I really can't wait. I'm happy 'coz Y!M is legal there. But I still have to feel my way in that new company. I hope I'd stay a little longer here. Same with hoping that the company and the people are ok to me. Not perfect, but at least tolerable. Oh well... | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Thursday, November 18th, 2004 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 11:10 pm | Im Back! I know I have not been updating my journal for quite a long time now. I may have been too dazed with the turn of events. Decisions and responsibilities everywhere had to be made. Before the end of October, I was contemplating of resigning from Edsamail. And I did. But even at the last minute, I was having second thoughts. I’m thinking if I would still be able to get a job after this. I’ve only been here for 3 months. I’m worried that people, especially my Dad will think badly of me. I really tried to stay and be satisfied with my job here. But I think trying to force myself to stay made things worse. My health is failing and I am not happy with my work outputs. I still work but I am not happy. I am not proud of the things I submit. They do not pass my own standards. There’s too much politics and I’m running out of patience. So towards the end of the day, I tendered my resignation without knowing what was happening with the rest of the office. At that very day around 15 other employees were retrenched or resigned, too. I gulped down my fear and talked to my father about what’s happening and my plans. And I’m glad I did. He agreed with me. My resignation really gave me such a relief. But that very weekend, something bad happened to Che’s mom. I know most of you are now aware of what happened. I’m so glad that she’s safe and home now. We were really rattled with that incident. At least the only serious damage it caused is on the right hand. Still a lot of hassle, but it can be worse. Now, going back to my home sweet home... Ate Joan, my only sibling left living with us in my parent’s house, until recently. She moved to another house 5 minutes away from us. She moved next door to our other sister. But since she’s not working, she was the one looking after our house and taking care of our Dad. Now that she transferred to another house, it’s all my responsibility. Che and I can not go out that much anymore at night since there’s no stopping my mom from her nightly activities. We just don’t feel safe that my dad is practically alone at night especially with his diabetes and heart condition. But come to think of it, it’s the perfect time to rekindle our closeness…Now he’s left with no other choice. ;) And friends don’t worry… this only means that you guys are now even more welcome to our humble abode. In another light… After almost trembling in fear and paranoia in going back to job hunting, I survived and conquered! I will officially start on Monday. It’s oh so great! I will do the marketing of some computer hardware. And the office is so near my house. I’m happy. I just hope I’d be able to balance things just fine. Now Che would be teeming in F.I.C ice cream and cha lum pao (I’m sure my spelling is incorrect. But Baby, you know what I’m talking about…) So it’s true that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. :D Current Mood: okay Current Music: It's My Life by No Doubt | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Wednesday, October 13th, 2004 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 7:04 pm | I'm a Femme Lesbian!  | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Monday, October 4th, 2004 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 6:44 pm | Now, I am a victim. Lured by the promise of forever... Seduced from a sensual embrace... Now, I'm one of them. Come closer... and let me... Come here and be one of us | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 5:53 pm | Maybe this have something to do for my flair in dancing...  Your medieval name is: Lisolette. Quiet and artsy, you're different from the crowd. You have a taste in music or art and are sometimes depressed and private. You're naturally lovely. What is your Medieval name? brought to you by Quizilla | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Monday, September 27th, 2004 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| 5:49 pm | Doggy Nightmare I woke up at 3 am gasping and almost crying. It was this horrifying dream that made me drink two glasses of room-temp water. I don't want to go back to sleep if that will just continue like a paused home video. I remember seeing our pets leashed in a wall along with some other dogs, as if they were in a line. As I walk past them, they were barking, but not towards me, as if it was a cry for help. At the end of the hallway was a small room wherein they take the dogs one by one. And there, I saw them killing the dogs!!! I saw them killing our dog, Martini! ;( And that's it, I have to wake up from this nightmare! I know I haven't been spending time with my dog lately. I no longer bring home food or toys for him like when I was still in College. Martini is old and stinky now. We think he is ill because there are times that he does not recognize us. He is kinda vicious to other people, but not to my dad or me. I fear him sometimes because I saw him bite two people. And he is so big that I wouldn't know what to do if he attacks. Martini is a brindled Old English Mastiff. Che told me "He's an ugly dog!" I wouldn't agree. I just feel so bad from that nightmare. | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
