doughnut_girl
 
09:55am 08/03/2005
  Hey! just created a community! so come and join it. it's called eat4life haha i couldn't think of anything else anyway. come join  
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  doughnut_girl
 
09:49am 08/03/2005
  i see toe fungus growing on my social studies teachers toe. he is wearing sandals it is very gross. i guess he is giving the toe fungus oxygen so it dries up faster. anyway i have lunch next. ugg! when ever i look at him i see toe fungus staring at me like an alien! ahh!  
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  doughnut_girl
 
08:21am 08/03/2005
 
mood: cranky
Hey! my name is Lizzie. i am new to this community, i don't really know what to do because i am new. well i hope you guys can help me out!		  
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  prettyeyez
 
08:46am 10/03/2004
 
mood: depressed
music: Christina Aguilera - Beautiful
this is for my guy, T, not even this poem can justly express my emotions and feelings.... i miss you so much.

I count the days you are gone,
And I count the seconds my lips go on untouched
By the very lips I see on that heavenly smile.
For my heart gets crushed
With every minute my arms stay free
Of the warmth you dearly possess.
And with every week you aren’t here,
My heart beats weaker within my chest.
I look up at the stars hoping that your eyes
Shall gaze on the same night.
And as I seek through the shadows of my soul,
Only memories of you shine bright.
I miss you with every tear that my eyes shed,
And I miss you more with my every dream.
For you in essence are the one true wish
That exists beyond the realms of sleep.
A dream come true, my north star of the earth...
You are the one touch of eternity in life
And amidst the hate of this world
Upon the shadows of doubt
You are my love and my light
Bu with every hour that passes,
I loose grasp of sanity for I have no idea what there is left to do,
But wait for the next time my hand touches yours,
For my heart and soul miss you
Cause as the dryness of my lips depress me,
And the cold air between my arms reminds me of what was once warm.
With every breath I breathe,
With every tear I shed,
And with every day that passes-
I miss you more.
  
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  taylorpunk
 
03:58pm 25/10/2003
 
mood: depressed
music: mudvayne-not falling
Hey everybody im taylor 13 from jax fl i hope i can help u guys and u can help me im out-tay		  
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  dark_love
 
03:15pm 13/10/2003
  This is the finished essay that I posted two or something weeks ago. Some people were interested in it, other were not. But here it is in any case.

( Self-Mutilation and One Girl )		  
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  gas_o
 
09:01am 10/10/2003
 
mood: mischievous
music: waving not drowning- orbital
Hello, i am new to blurty. I pretty much just joined to start a journal, but i figured i would check out some communities. i was pleasantly surprised to find a number of them interested in murder.

um i don't have much else to say right now so here is a short poem of mine.

Broken mirror reflection
of my sour state of mind
between furious isolation
and a screaming violent end
i am torn.


if you feel like you can go read my journal. i think there are questions in there that need answers. there might even be a door prize or something. not really, but hey i had to try. I don't cut myself, but i have had friend punch a few holes in my face. i guess that's not really the same.		  
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  silentsecrets
 
10:47am 03/10/2003
 
mood: bored
music: Disturbed - The Sickness
Are you tired of all those sissy, mushy "friendship" poems that always sound good but never come close to reality? Well here is a series of promises that speaks of true friendship!

1. When you are sad.. I will get you drunk and will help you plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue.. I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile.. I'll know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared.. I will rag you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried.. I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused ..I will use little words to explain.

7. When you are sick.. stay away from me until you're well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall.. I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

This is my oath.. I pledge 'til the end. Why you may ask?
Because you're my friend!

Toodles		  
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  dark_love
 
03:48pm 30/09/2003
  30 September 2003

( Self-Mutilation, a Tale )

So far this is all that I have done on it. I need at least another page. But whatever. I couldn't stand writing anymore though it was driving me crazy. Anyway, let me know what you think if you read it?		  
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  silentsecrets
 
06:43am 26/09/2003
 
mood: bored
So you're bored. Welp.. so am I.. and since I also have a passionate hate for Wal-Mart.. here's fifteen things you can do to keep amused.

1. Get 24 boxes of condoms and randomly place them in peoples carts when they aren't looking.
2. Set all the alarm clocks in House Wares to go off at five minute intervals.
3. Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the rest rooms.
4. Walk up to an employee and tell him/her in an official tone, 'Code 3' in House Wares,... and see what happens.
5. Go to the service desk and put a bag of M&M's on lay away.
6. Move a 'CAUTION - WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area.
7. Set up a tent in the camping department and tell other shoppers they can come in too if they bring pillows from the bedding department.
8. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and ask 'Why can't you people just leave me alone?'
9. Look right into the security camera, use it as a mirror and pick your nose.
10. While handling guns in the hunting department, ask the clerk if he knows where the anti - depressants are.
11. Dart around the store suspiciously while loudly humming the theme from 'Mission Impossible'.
12. In the auto department, practice your 'Madonna look' using different sized funnels.
13. Hide in a clothing rack and when people browse through, say 'PICK ME! PICK ME!'
14. When an announcement comes over the loud speaker, assume the fetal position and moan 'NO! NO! It's those voices again!'
And finally..
15. Go into a fitting room, shut the door and wait a while and then yell loudly 'There's no toilet paper in here!'

Have fun
=)

Toodles		  
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  silentsecrets
 
05:12am 12/08/2003
 
mood: bored
How's it going? I'm Nathaniel and I'm new to Blurty. I was bored and doing some community searches when I came across yours. I dig the aspect of it and had to join up.
You can view my thoughts here: silentsecrets And if you like, add me to your friends list. (Please comment to let me know so I can add you in return.)
I look forward to reading and posting here in the very near future.
Thanks		  
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  xshyxevilxgirlx
 
11:50pm 16/07/2003
 
mood: depressed
u know i just realized after i did all this unthoughtful cutting that i have to go home in the end and all the cuts... well most are very visible and my mom is gonna see them the only way im not gonna get caught... again is if i wear long pants cut *weeps* most my cuts are on my legs and then the word "PAIN" right beneath where i had done it before back in March i... i thought that i would be able to stop but its almost like an addiction! i felt so released when i did it and when i stopped everything seemed to start to fall apart again it was almost like a supconcious feeling when i do it like it hurts but the pain is better then anything else! *weeps* i dont know what to do a lot of my friends are worrying and im sure they should be im trying to stop and i did for awhile but its a temptation that i couldnt do by myself... back in March when i got caught i was beginning to give all my razor blades and broken shaver blades i was using to a friend so he would dispose of them and that worked but i knew when the temptation came back i would easily be able to get a razor or two and i did and now im not evening thinkin about it when i do it its kinda like... people wit stress get those stress balls well my release is the pain and fullness i get when i cut my skin watching my blood escape! *weeps* HELP ME! please!		  
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  xshyxevilxgirlx
 
10:40pm 14/07/2003
 
mood: depressed
IF U REALLY READ MY JOURNAL LEAVE ME A REPLY I JUST WAS WONDERING IF ANYONE REALLY DOES READ MY SHIT OR IF I SHOULD STOP WASTING EVERYONE'S TIME!!!!!!		  
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  xshyxevilxgirlx
 
07:45pm 13/07/2003
 
mood: awake
i havents wrote in here in a while!!!
i dont know why i dont like telling people this but i guess once my mom found out i cut myself it was all over and i didnt want to do it anymore...but i have temptations and the yearning for the release was there and i had to so yea a few days before i left for my grandparents, i sat in my bed and found a razor a few days earlier and i cut my wrist a few times and i cut the word pain like it had been before on my arm right into my thigh and i hate to say this but i felt so released and when i did this it was right after a friend of mine and i had gotten into a fight my parents were bitching about everything and I had just broke-up wit Ryan for more then one reason ok well im gonna go *weeps*

Forever & Always		  
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  kittysdeath
 
12:31pm 06/07/2003
 
mood: weird
music: painting by blindside
bleeding on the inside
but cut off from the pain
lifeless till your death
those cold distant eyes
show your still alive
living a lie
that seems beautiful to the world
lying to yourself
with no regret
and slowly
killing yourself
with every breathe
just breath a little less
lets see if you can make it		  
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  dark_love
 
07:16pm 02/07/2003
  No, I didn't do this


A familiar scream enters my mind. The scream of a tear falling from the eye. It hits the ground as another follows. Soon, two and three are falling at a time. The sound hurts and sight is nreayl too much to bear. So I do the one thing that I know I can do to make it all stop...

I go to my bed and get my compact. I take out my favorite and oldest razor blade. I sit on my bed and slowly slice my vein open. My sweet release has amde the tears slow. As I watch the crimson river flow from my wrist, I smile, because at last I know that the deafening sound of my fragile tears...


07-02-03		  
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  kittysdeath
 
03:50am 26/06/2003
 
mood: numb
music: Confusion by Crüxshadows
feeling so empty...
so alone.
numb.
everything so still.
and quiet...
darkness follows...
a heart of ice.
seeing threw u...
while looking in ur eyes...
listening to the lifeless words.
while i sit here and die...		  
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  no_1_u_know
 
05:43pm 25/06/2003
 
mood: depressed
-Die for love-
I sit in the park where I dwell
For this boy I love so well
He took my heart away from me
Now he wants to set me free
I see a girl on his lap
He says things to her he never said to me
I ran home to cry on my bed
Not a word to mother was said
Father came home late that night
He looked at me from left to right
He saw me hanging from a rope
He took his knife to cut me down
And on my dress a note was found:
Dig my grave Dig it deep
Dig my grave From head to feet
And on the top place a dove
And remember this, I died for love…		  
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  no_1_u_know
 
05:41pm 25/06/2003
 
mood: sick
ABORTION
6 weeks old today mummy
A birthday gift for me
A pair of big blue eyes
thru one day I will see.
Where are we going mummy
with the rain splashing down
when it hits the sidewalk
it makes a funny sound.
Bang thru the big white doors
people dressed in green
if they hurt u mummy
just run away and scream.
Help me mummy their tearing me apart
there goes my big blue eyes
there goes my little heart.
I love u mummy believe me i do
but the worst thing is I thought u loved me to.		  
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  no_1_u_know
 
05:12pm 25/06/2003
 
mood: dorky
music: F.U.N. song remix
Last night I looked deep into your eyes,
The only thing I saw was sadness,
You seemed lost in this sad reality with only grey skies,
All I wanted to do was take and lead you away from all this madness,
But you put our defenses up against me,
I tried to get to you,
But sadness would not let you come to me,
So I will try again.
Please let me take you away and do all that I can do.
I will take you to places you have never been before,
I will take you to a complete bliss,
No one will hurt you where we are going to,
It will only be me and you,
So please let down your defenses and let me take you away,
And do all that I can do.		  
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sweet_or_evil
 
 
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