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Grr, you know what would be cool? If, I could compleatly forget that I like boys - and I could be a lesbian. That's my thought for today. Boys stink. I dislike many of them. ::Curls in a ball.:: I go sleep. Night.
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[13 Jun 2003|10:57am] |
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Alright, well a lot of shit has been going on in the last few weeks - but I will get over most of it, and some of it, I'm not going to even bother getting into.
I know for a fact, that I passed my Math and American History Final. I'm pretty sure I passed the English final - I'm usually a really good guess-type person. x] School is over for the year - I have a week to fuck around, and do whatever the hell I want - then it's off to summerschool. Fun, fun. I take my driving test on Sunday, if I don't pass it, I'm compleatly fucked in the ass. [Which some of you know - that is not how I like to be fucked ;x ] Oh no! Dora the Explorer is over.. And so is Blues Clues, I don't jknow what this show is.. but it's like.. VH1 or something.
I have a thing for a guy - that probably doesn't like me back. I always get myself into stuff like this.. I'm so stupid, I don't know what I'm ever going to do with me. Ah well.. no use complaining to my journal, it's not like it talks back. Anyway... I need.. to.. RP. Now, right now. I remember, at this time last year - I had a friend name Kevin, and he'd call me - make me giggle like a rabbid monkey. That was nice. But, now he's a jerk - and I've finally made friends that loff me enough that when I start to giggle like that said: Rabbid Monkey - they give me things.. and make me better. ;x
School's over, everyone was so sad.. but not me. The only people that I'll actually miss over the summer - I'll be hanging out with - a lot. So it's nifty. I'm going to go watch tv or play on RO Goodnight.
<3
Suz
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[05 Jun 2003|05:24pm] |
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Hmm.. Well, at school today - we once again, spoke of my breasts. This one nice boy who has been sitting at our table, said that my breasts are Intimidating We all know they are.. I'm a 44DDD for god sakes. Yes, I know they're big.. I want to get a reduction. Now, since I've stated that - I guess I could wait for a bunch of comments "LIAR YOUR BOOBS AREN'T THAT BIG!!!!!!!!111!!!1111111!!11111!" But they are.. so maybe I won't wait. And if anybody does do that.. I'll squash you with my overly large breasts. I'm kinda sleepy. . I <3 Nate. I want to go to bed. My journal entries are very short. I love you all. Goodnight. Nappy Time. I <3 RO It's the best game ever invented. I <3 It. I leveld up today- I am so proud of myself. .. and then I made a bunch of money warping peopel. Yay. People who pay me 1k .. insted of 900z (what I ask) Rock. I <3 them. I also <3 Echo, and Tonya. And Dani of course - but I never see her.. And Kat. Ninininininininini ::Sleep::
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[28 May 2003|11:21am] |
Well, letsee.. Yesterday I got all spastic 'cause my darlin' Echo [Look, I got it right. ;x] hasn't seen Empire Records Well, I just got home from the Doctors Office - I have strep throat yet again.. But guess what's on VH1?!?!?!?!? I love this movie. I wanna lick Lucas. And Corey.. but I'm not going to get into that.
Ouu this is the part where Deb shaves her head. <333 Okay, I'm gonna stop now. ECHO! YOU MUST SEE THIS MOVIE!! I may be staying home agian tomorrow - but I don't know how many absences I've got.. and I don't want to lose any credit. . But I don't know.. I'm gonna go watch Empire Records, and maybe post for Des. Driew will be great.
Bye Friends. :DDD
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[27 May 2003|02:02pm] |
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I don't feel all too well, I'm sick again - and it's not fun. I found out today, that I have to go to my Sisters house this weekend - and babysit Evan... I normally wouldn't care - but she didn't ask me.. and Nate was suppose to come over on Saturday, I like spending my saturdays with Nate. Last night, I called Tonya - it was so good hearing her voice. I loved talking to her - and she's just so fun. The sunburn on my arms went away - now it's .. a tan. ::Shudders.:: Now I'm even more ugly.. I have actual color to my skin. ;-;
I re-read Blood and Chocolate and I am thinking of re-reading that speak book - so I can do my reort easily.. but I probably won't.. that book wasn't so grand. I wanted to re-read The vampire Lestat today - but my Cousin still has it..
I think it's strange - every time I'm home from school, sick or whatever - Jason is home too. He's always got a lot of weird excuses too... I dont' know.
I guess Brian is going to get back together with Britt. Yay for them. :D I think it's for the best. Well, I guess I'm going to go now - I'll be talking to some people later. I'm very excited because something happened last night - and I didn't get to go to school today - to tell Candice - So I must tell people, once they come on. :DDDD bye
<3
Suz
Oh yeah, I'm going to Try and join Driew - but I've got to make an opening post.. I tried all morning to think of something to write - it was very difficult.. and I'll be trying again later. I havn't seriously RPed in so long, it's stupid.
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dead girls dance they burn and twirl
witch hunt
witch cunt burn this girl
dead girls dance they burn and twirl
witch hunt
witch cunt burn this girl
dead girls dance they burn and twirl
witch hunt
witch cunt burn this girl
dead girls dance they burn and twirl
Ugh, my insides are on rollar coasters.. my head is spinning and I just feel like I am going to die. And ya' know what.. I think everyone I know would be so much better off. I'm stupid - loud- annoying- I try too hard to help - go out of my way to please - too damn nice - niave' as a mother fucker. People bitch about other people in their journals.. well I bitch about me. I am imperfection at it's finest. I hate me. Why did my parent's have to go and have sex - they were like.. fourty.. I shouldn't have been born. People would be so much happier. I'm so expensive too. Seinor pictures are in July.. I have to get my cap and gown - and possibly a ring - bvut probably not. I need to take my driving test [ Probably twice.] And I have summer school.. all which equal money. I hate myself. I wish I wasn't so... the way I am. I want to curl up in a ball and die.. but I know that won't happen.
I feel like shit today.. my heart has been shattered into a few thousand peices.. and they're not being put back together.. I'm just goign to leave it like that - suffer through the day tomorrow.. come home - probably take a nap.. suffer through school friday - then go to Andy's for the weekend. He said he'd make me happy.. I beleive him. I'm going to go now - goodbye.
PS. Thank you Katrina for hte beautiful Layout. I love you soo much. <333 ;x
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I feel horrible.. I have all week. My mommie told me I've got SARS - that's not nice. Anyway, yeah.. if I wasn't a virgin - I'd think I was pregnant.. I swear it's so shitty. I burnt my tongue today. It still hurts. ::Sticks out her tongue.:: Somebody fix!
Played cards with my mom, my grandma and my sister. My grandma kept acusing me of cheating - which of course pissed me the fuck off. I play fair.. I'm a pretty good card player - and I don't cheat.. Although I could. ::Was taught how to stack a deck - at a very early age.:: But I won't use my skills. Don't need 'em. I could use em'.. But it really pissed me off that she kept calling me a cheater - and kept trying to embarass me around other people. Now we all know - well, thoes of you who know me anyway. Know, that I do not embarass easily, and yeah.. Shit.. I'm gooing to puke.
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[08 May 2003|10:56pm] |
Talked to a whore. She got on Jeff's screen name and try fuckin' around. That's why the screen name is censored. It was fun. XDDDDD
Morgan is Scary: back
Morgan is Scary: How was this history test?
: it was stellar, i knew nothing about the indians.
Morgan is Scary: Oh yeah. The indians won the war, didn't they? I got so confused on the part about sitting bull.
: im a faggot and i have a small dick.
Morgan is Scary: Mmhm I know. And you're a whore that lives in a hotel.
: ok bitch, you know what im going to do to you?
Morgan is Scary: What?
Morgan is Scary: I'd like to see you do something.
: ill have my boyfriend, who actually has a dick unlike you, come over your little piece of shit house and kill you.
Morgan is Scary: I know I don't have a dick. Seeing as I am female..
Morgan is Scary: And you don't know where I live sweetheart.
: your jeff and i know it.
: and you have a small dick.
Morgan is Scary: No I'm not.
Morgan is Scary: You're not jeff - and you're even on his screen name
Morgan is Scary: So you need to just grow up and get a fucking life.
: i couldnt even feel it thats how small you are.
Morgan is Scary: I'm a girl. I don't have a dick
: you get a sex change?
Morgan is Scary: If jeff is so small, why don't you stop worrying about him - and go to your boyfriend who is going to kill me.
Morgan is Scary: How old are you anyway? 18.. you need to get a fucking life - seriously.
: because its funny how small he is.
: im 22, dont you remember anything?
Morgan is Scary: I don't even fucking know you.
Morgan is Scary: I just know you're a skanky whore who lives in a hotel.
Morgan is Scary: And for being twenty two - you fucked a fifteen year old.
Morgan is Scary: That's very sad, my dear.. very sad.
: for your information you raped me.
Morgan is Scary: Oh yeah. I raped you.
: you said you would leave me in the water if i didnt fuck you.
Morgan is Scary: I don't even know who you were.
Morgan is Scary: *are
Morgan is Scary: What is wrong with you anyway - you're twenty two .. and you're harassing a sixteen year old boy.
Morgan is Scary: You know that's against the law right?
Morgan is Scary: if we get into some legal shit - you could be severarly fucked.
: you raped me, thats against the law dumbass little boy.
Morgan is Scary: I'm not jeff - for the last fucking time.
: ok whatever
Morgan is Scary: And even if he did rape you - you've got absolutely no proof. You didn't go to the police in the alloted amount of time - now did you?
: thats because he said he would kill me if i did.
Morgan is Scary: And you beleived him.
: he had a gun.
Morgan is Scary: Yeah, he did.
: he did. it was loaded
Morgan is Scary: Oh yeah. He had a loaded gun - on a lake. Where there were people around. And was going to shoot some whore -so that once he raped her - she wouln't tell anyone. Makes perfect sence.
Morgan is Scary: But you can't rape a whore - now can you?
: then he sat outside my hotel for like weeks on end wathcing to see if i went to the police
Morgan is Scary: Um yeah. You know - how'd he get there? Have his dad drive him - and sit in the car with him?
Morgan is Scary: What kind of moron are you, love?
: he stole my friend courtneys car.
: im going to put him in jail.
Morgan is Scary: Yeah, he did. Although he didn't have a lisence.. and he could easily get to courtneys house.
: there is a warrant out for his arrest
: its been out for 3 weeks now
Morgan is Scary: Oh yeah. And they havn't gone to his house.
: so if he gets pulled over or anything they will arrest him
Morgan is Scary: But you go on his screen name and tell his girl that you're his new girlfriend.
Morgan is Scary: Oh really. You know he got pulled over on tuesday - right?
Morgan is Scary: He's not in jail, hun.
: your just a lying whore
: and his girl is man
: and he has a small dick.
Morgan is Scary: Hmm.. Who's the lying whore in this situation. It's certianly not me. BEcuase he got pulled over. You're a dirty whore. You cannot be raped - because you are a whore. And his girl is not a man, and learn to type.
Morgan is Scary: MMhm. Kay. Thanks.
: your a flat bitch
: board
: no boobs
Morgan is Scary: Oh wow. I'm a 44 DDD thanks. I'm fat.
Morgan is Scary: But I've got more boobs than you do.
Morgan is Scary: So don't even try.
Morgan is Scary: I wish I was flat. Life would be so much easier.
: ddd what a liar
Morgan is Scary: Not lying.
Morgan is Scary: I went to the store today - and I couldn't find a bra to fit me.
: you have been lying all night
Morgan is Scary: it was hrorble.
Morgan is Scary: Nope. I havn't lied once tonight
: whatever whore
Morgan is Scary: Yay. I'm a virgin whore. ::dances.:;
: i fucked your boyfriend
Morgan is Scary: Well, goodnight Princess. I'm through with you.
Morgan is Scary: You did.. Wow. I wish I had a boyfriend. ;x
: he doesnt want you anymore
Morgan is Scary: Oh really. Doesn't he? or is he just in your imagination
Morgan is Scary: ?
: he said he was going out with a flat piece of shit liar.
: you must be it
Morgan is Scary: Who did?
Morgan is Scary: Are you talking about Jeff? His girl isn't flat - nor is she a peice of shit. But I'm not his girlfriend. I'm his best friend. Big difference.
: your boyfriend, well hes not your boyfriend anymore, i have him
Morgan is Scary: Who is he, love? I'd like to know what boyfriend I've got.
Morgan is Scary: My last boyfriend and I broke up - sometime last june.
Morgan is Scary: I havn't seen him since.
: jeff
Morgan is Scary: Next time you do - tell him I said 'yo.
Morgan is Scary: Jeff isn't my boyfriend.
Morgan is Scary: Jeff wouldnt' want you anyway.
: oh well i guess he told you the news that he wants me
Morgan is Scary: HE's got a beautiful girlfriend that everyone wants.
: but im putting him in jail.
Morgan is Scary: Oh yes, go ahead. the cops will beleive your bullshit.
: they already do
Morgan is Scary: But what about that whole warrent thing? He got pulled over tuesday.
Morgan is Scary: That wasn't three weeks ago.
Morgan is Scary: it was tuesday.
Morgan is Scary: if anything you said was true - he'd be in jail right now
: whatever bitch whore
: jeff wants to fuck me, so bye
Morgan is Scary: Bye..
: he just pulled out his small dick
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Well today, was the beginning of our Meap tests - it was shitty.. I couldn't remember anything. I sadly resorted to eenie meenie miney mo.. And my mother said...ect. And for the writing part of the science I wrote "Umm.. I really couldn't tell ya." Yeah, well that means that if I fail Math - which I will. And social studies - which I will. And English - which I will. I get no scholarship. Which I won't. That's fine I guess - I'm not planning on going to college.
I think Nate is mad at me - which sucks. Then this whole thing with Brian is getting a little.. nevermind.
Today, When Mike was pulling out of the parking spot - he hit this girls car.. It sucked.. he feels horrible, but we didn't wait for her.. We would've just left - but everyone and their fucking brother was there - they were all like "Terri is gonna be pissed." Yeah, so we had to leave a note at least. I felt so bad for him.. I hope she doesn't claime in on her insurance - or file for a police report - that'll mean he'll get his licence suspended.. because he only got it like - a week ago.
I miss scott - I wanted to see him today. Dani's been scaring me.. I don't like it. He's such a jerk. He's been staring at me and shit. I don't like it. okay, Well I'm going now. Goodbye.
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So, I was sitting on the couch - eating Doritoes [No, I know that's not how you spell it.. but does it look like I care?] Well yeah, I was sitting there eating and drinking water. I was watching 10,000 pyrimid - on the game show network.. And then I took a sip of water - and choked on it. I got yucky stuff everywhere. It's yuck. If anybody comes over - and there is this grose stuck stuff on the couch.. it's not - cum. :D Okay. Bye.
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Hmm.. Well happy easter to everyone I guess.
Lets see... On Saturday- Erin and I went to the mall. I got my book: Blood and Chocolate I do beleive I have a new obsession. Woo. That book was great. I started reading it about 7 - I think.. and I finished it about 2:30. It was so sad though.. but it made me squeak. Yay.
I went to my cousins and babysat. Fun. Ate so much burgerking - wow. yummie. Anyway. I'm home now, but I feel really - odd. I don't like it, so I guess i'm going to go play some sega. I really miss Nate. My computer is somewhat broken, so I can't do what I promised for Paul. Maybe I'll call him tonight to let him know.
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First off, I write in my journal .. for myself, if I need to get anything off my chest. I do not write for pity.
I'm actually feeling kind of -- different, today. I'm really unhappy - but I'm not horribly depressed. I guess that's good in a way, I making progress... See, I really really like Nate - and doing stuff with him is - amazing. Hanging out iwth him is awsome, and talking to him is the best. I am just kind of sad - that he isn't looking for a relationship. I mean, I think he likes me... but I'm not sure. And if he doesn't like me, I really don't understand what we're doing - when we do stuff. It's kinda making me nervous.
I don't really know how I'm going to deal with being alone over easter break. . I mean - I figured that hangin' out with Andy'd make me forget about Nate and other things in my life right now... but then I find out that Andy's going upnorth with Bauer.. which sucks - because I will be alone for the whole break.
I hate being by myself... Erin asked me today - she said 'Susan, what is your greatest fear?' .. and I said 'Being alone'.. I didn't hesitate.. We spoke of many things today - I love Erin. She's my best friend. I figure that all of spring break - I'll either hang out with my sister or my cousin.. what fun.
Grr fuck, I need more friends. I'm gonna go read some more online Comics. I love Mall Monkeys, Ctrl+Alt+Del, Elf Only Inn, and Movie Comics. They're great. Pennys Arcade is pretty good too - but I havn't read all of them.
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Well, lets see.. What happened today..
I woke up after 2 today, oh my god I couldn't beleive it.
Made soup, chicken and potatoes. Yum.
Got Duckie Underwear. [They are so cute]
Got a new shirt for easter. [Going very goth for easter I guess. XD Black shirt, Black Skirt, Fishnets, Black shoes, heavy eyeliner.]
Going to get some new jeans later. Sales Rock.
Attempted to clean. [Didn't work.]
Worked on a new storyline with a friend.
Voted on a screen name for nicky.
Tried to remember a password to a screen name. [Didn't work.]
Tried to talk somebody into making me an Icon. [Didn't work.]
Okay, leaving now. Gonna buy some clothing. Yay.
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Well, this morning - I woke up bright and earlie.. showered so that I smelled nice. Then Nate came over - we had fun.. We watched spiderman, but nate didn't know what happened in the movie.. and I only did becuase I've seen it only about twelve times or so. Well I explained to him what was going on in the end.. He laughed.. I'm not a very good explainer. Nate is such an... amazing person. He's such a good kisser - although a lady never kisses and tells. ::Not a lady, I guess.::
He's good at other things as well - but I duno how far I'm willing to go yet - you know. I mean before I thought I was ready for anything.. but then I realized how many consiquences[sp?] there were if anything went wrong. I mean I'm fine with like.. a lot of stuff.. but I don't want to really rush it. Things with us have been moving really fast and it's starting to make me a bit nervous.
Well, Erin and I went to dinner. She said next saturday after her and Alison take their ACTs that we can go to dinner and I get to sleep over. That's fine.. I'm not sure if I'm gonna hang out with them.. until later in the eveinging.. I duno. Well that's fine I guess.
Monday, is my last day of segment two drivers training - whch rocks.. but I still need to learn to paralell park. Then I can take my test and have my lisence. Hmm.. Well I'm RPing with Brian right now, he's a lot of fun to RP but my character is all sad because her best friend left. I'm going to run to the store to get a pack of gum.
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[03 Apr 2003|09:30pm] |
I think it's starting up again - my whole life revolves around talking to people over the computer. Some people I hardly know - some people who I'm never going to remain friends with. New friends who want to hang out - some who have. I'm feeling all depressed inside again - made a new screen name: Angei of ashes I like it, don't think anybody else will.. but you know - that's fine with me. I miss everyone - I don't think I even have Tonya's screen name. I don't have Cetta's.. although we never really talk. I'd like to talk to Jellow again - but I don't know if she's still alive. I think Maria and sarah could possibly be dead. I know Dani is -- there-- somewhere. I don't talk to Matt anymore, or Matty for that matter. I talk to Markie sometimes - I <3 him. I never talk to Pat anymore - and I talk to Jason sometimes.
I figured that when my attention was drawn somewhere else - away from the computer.. maybe my insecurities were finally starting to go away. I don't think they have - but I think they're not as bad as they used to be. I have no more feelings for a certian person that I've liked for ohh -- six months? I really don't enjoy hanging out with the Mott kids anymore. It was fun for a while - but some of them just are so.. dull. I still love my friends from Cuisno. I think I spelt that wrong.. but it's okay. Jeff and I rarely hang out anymore.. we used to do this thin on fridays with Candice.. but since her and billy got back together -- Friday and sundays are Billy's day.. so me and jeff dont' really bother. He usualy goes to visit danielle... that's fine, I <3 her.. she's a great gal.
I just feel like total shit right now, I've been so bad at times lately - that I've actually stopped eating I know what you're all thinkg. "Yeah right, that bitch could never stop eating." but I have.. It's sucked because I havn't even lost any weight.. come to the brink of passing out a few times though. No, I'm not aneroxic.. I know I'm fat - but I really am not all that worried.. I just don't feel like eating. Oaky somebodys kicking me off. I gotta go. bye.
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[02 Apr 2003|08:48pm] |
Okay, okay.. So jeff asked me to make him a Gerbil Rap Here it is.:
Yo' Yo' Check it.. My name is duct tape richard - and I'm here to say
I'm a gerbil, you can't give me away.
I'm tiny and black,
Ain't dat' phat'
Yo' Check it.
Isn't it great? Lmao.. I'm fucked up.
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It makes me sad - that I don't talk to the people that used to be my very best friends. I mean the people who I've spoken with online for -- years. I don't talk to anybody anymore.. I still kept in touch with Tonya - and since the whole NBU experience is comming to and end - for her... We don't talk much. I still love her. She's one of my best friends.
I went to the bookstore today, and took two books on hold. One I don't remember what it was called - and the other one, was Blood and Chocolate Yes, I did that for Tonya. I should be getting that book in one to two weeks. I'll read it and then we can possibly RP. I've been feeling really -- shitty lately, and I don't know what's wrong. I guess maybe it's because I've got so much shit to do in terms of saving money - that I don't have. I want my lisence so I can get insurance on the broken car in the driveway. Then fix the broken car - and drive my friends everywhere. My friends mean a lot to me.. All of them. The new ones - the old ones. . Espically Erin. I love her. Next saturday, I will be sleeping over her house because she's lonely and so her mother is actually letting me sleep over. Hooray! lol.
My back is really starting to hurt - and I think I pulled a muscle in my upper arm. It hurts.. Oh well that's okay.. I'm a chick.. I can handle a little pain, right? I wrote a whole paper on why gay/lesbians should have rights. It's a shitty paper.. I wish it was better - but I am not going to revise the whole thing. I dont' care if I get a bad grade. I will pass my midterm - somehow. and I have like.. a B in this semester english.. so if I fail this comming up cardmarking I really don't care. I will not be attending college. I will not be doing much with my life. Next year, will be a lot of blowing off. I'm taking creative writing, Literature to film, Shakespeare, foods, drama and the second part of my programming class [the only thing that probabyl won't be blow off].
I told Erin today - that I knew she just didn't want to come to my birthday party. I told her that I knew she wasn't sick, and that if she doesn't want to come next year -she doesn't have too... but I really don't want her to lie to me. She said she thought I was pissed that she didn't come.. I told ther that I didn't care, I know she's uncomfortable around people she doesn't know.. and I invited her because she's my best friend. If she doesn't come next year - I won't be upset, I just really don't want her to lie to me. I knew she wasn't sick.. so she promised she'd tell the truth. I was thinking of having seperate birthday partys for next year. One for Erin and Alison, and the other for -- everyone else. I think Alison may come to both - and that's fine.. I just want Erin to be able to have a little fun.
For some reason, every time I write I start depressing myself, so I guess I'll stop for now.. I'll wait for Brian to come back..
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[28 Mar 2003|09:44pm] |
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::sticks her tongue out of the side of her mouth.:: Yes, I'm playing dead. Hee. Okay, so anyway... Nate's comming over. I'm so excited it's redicules. I hope I don't embarass myself. Well yeah, I have to get up really early - and take a really long shower to make sure that i'm awake. And then I have to clean the basement.. maybe I should clean first.. Well whatever - it'll still be fine.
I hate school. I mean some of my teachers are okay.. At school - I act nothing like myself really. I act hard - because I don't like to be messed with. I mean, around my friends .. or people I've grown to like - I act like me.. But around thoes fucking smell ass camels, I tend to - be more.. cold. I honestly don't care what they've go to say.. so I use my wit and everything else to make them feel stupid - when they act really smart - and it's not working. Oh yes, about the teachers. Most of my teachers [okay, like one] thinks that I'm quiet. The other ones, the younger ones are pretty cool. They're fun to talk to .. but then once class starts it's just like 'I can't be social with you - you're just a child.' I wanna be like FUCK YOU! I don't get why they can't be normal. If I wanted to be treated like a little girl - I'd go have a chat with my parents. Grr. I'm so pissed and I don't even know why. Too much stress I guess. Maybe I'll go listen to music - on my broken headphones. DAMNIT!
Beep.
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Oh come on, I know somebody wants to make me a layout. I'll pay you in sex Cookies. :D
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