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thu. 7/22 12.27 pm i got my physical done today.. you know how they have to take urine samples? apparently they found glucose in mine. probably just a false alarm.. could be from eating sugary foods beforehand. all i had was cereal (cocoa krispies!) which could be the problem.... but she said that it shouldn't have been enough to make the glucose show up.... so guess what? i get to go do some 3 hour blood test to get tested for diabetes. which its highly unlikely that i actually have.. but i have no choice, i have to go anyway just to be sure. this blows. i'm really really really pissed off right now. if anyone was wondering. *(&@%*&!^@%. |
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thu. 7/22 12.05 pm i got my physical done today.. you know how they have to take urine samples? apparently they found glucose in mine. probably just a false alarm.. could be from eating sugary foods beforehand. all i had was cereal (cocoa krispies!) which could be the problem.... but she said that it shouldn't have been enough to make the glucose show up.... so guess what? i get to go do some 3 hour blood test to get tested for diabetes. which its highly unlikely that i actually have.. but i have no choice, i have to go anyway just to be sure. this blows. i'm really really really pissed off right now. if anyone was wondering. *(&@%*&!^@%. |
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thu. 7/22 12.04 pm i got my physical done today.. you know how they have to take urine samples? apparently they found glucose in mine. probably just a false alarm.. could be from eating sugary foods beforehand. all i had was cereal (cocoa krispies!) which could be the problem.... but she said that it shouldn't have been enough to make the glucose show up.... so guess what? i get to go do some 3 hour blood test to get tested for diabetes. which its highly unlikely that i actually have.. but i have no choice, i have to go anyway just to be sure. this blows. i'm really really really pissed off right now. if anyone was wondering. *(&@%*&!^@%. |
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tue. 7/20 4.10 pm my mom is reaching that really annoying stage again lately...... i'm being pestered on a regular basis (its like meals, 3 times a day) about what i want to do with my future and whether i know what i want to do for college yet...... either that or "your hair looks bad today", "don't wear that shirt anymore", "learn how to walk", "why is everyone ELSE thinking about schools but not you?", aaaaaargh makes me want to shoot myself. go. away! me and amy are taking this 5 hour driving course tonight........ ugh. i'm not looking forward to it at all :\ |
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mon. 7/19 11.29 pm happy birthday to christian t. subjeck....... heh and my kitty jaspurr is one year old today!! :D :D me and jake went to go see I, Robot today. he brought me a dozen roses. isn't that just about the sweetest thing ever? i tried to not take them, i don't deserve those things like that.. but he made me.. :P 2 months 2 months 2 months YAY.... god i love him. the movie was good. he paid for my ticket so i bought drinks lol cuz i hate feeling like a silly useless little girl. thats twice today he won! then we went and got caffeine at starbucks afterwards so now i'm all awake lol. sometimes i worry so much... i'm real good at screwing things up for myself just when i start being happy... i can't do that though, i won't, ever, not to him, i love my jake. *mwah* go 19s! |
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mon. 7/19 2.41 pm today = 19th me and the jacob have been together for 2 months... seems like it should be longer than that :P i feel happy again...... |
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wed. 7/14 9.21 pm went to rob's house today to observe band practice, thinking i'd need to fill in for kassie. then learned kassie could come back. i was off the hook, WOOHOO. derek got sick and couldn't come so we watched joey & his amazing drumming (ROCK ON!) and then they messed around while i refused to play :D they were probably annoyed. i didn't care much. i actually felt surprisingly comfortable over there. i had been afraid to go. but other than being stubborn & afraid to play, i enjoyed it :D i wanted to download some of the songs i remembered them mentioning but my dad deleted kazaa off my computer the other day because it was putting all kinds of spyware and shit on it. so i was trying to figure out a new solution. at the recommendation of molly, i downloaded some program called ares. i already like it alot better than kazaa. and plus, no ads. WAHOO. |
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sun. 7/11 4.02 pm "these books can't possibly compete with centuries of established history, especially when that history is endorsed by the ultimate bestseller of all time." "don't tell me harry potter is about the holy grail?" "i was referring to the Bible." ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ hahaha i just finished reading the da vinci code this morning. definately a thought provoking book if i ever read one. though that could just be because of the whole religion thing. like my "deep theological conversations" with bryan & his aunt and uncle. i did more listening than talking because if i told his aunt that not only did i not believe in organized religion, or in hell and satan and things, and i never went to a real church in my life (with the exception of weddings and funerals) and i am very very very iffy as to whether or not i believe in a god and heaven, and i am doubtful about much of the bible (the few parts i know about at least)...... yeah well she woulda LOVED me after that. but yeah seeing as how i'm so not big on religion, i'm surprised that i enjoyed reading the da vinci code as it was based entirely on religion, basically. but of course a lot of it was mocking the christian church and things so yeah. but either way it was definately interesting. good book. go read it. now. |
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sat. 7/10 1.23 pm so delivering the metro today, when i got to jeff's house, he was outside washing the van. i couldn't get through to hang up the metro where i usually do because of the damn hose lol.. didn't wanna get wet. so he points it away for a sec and takes the metro for me. then as soon as i walked away i realized i should have asked him when their next show was or something. i heart someday never comes. rock on. but i was stupid and didn't think of that. its really warm. i hate doing the metro in warm weather. it makes me dizzy and dehydrated. bah. i want a popsicle or something. *wanders away* |
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fri. 7/9 10.44 pm wow. do i note some major slacking off on the part of stina? as in, no real updates in weeks? ouch. ah well, see, love the GJ.. love it. there's about 10 of us in our nice little GJ-converted group now. its fantastic. but right now i'm not in a GJ mood. so i'm gonna blurty it up, yo. heh. anyways.. XD things right now is kinda.. hectic? screwy? not sure. my weird depression is close to settling back in. i despise people at the moment. or something. i don't mean to, but lately i've been starting arguments with everyone, all my friends - purposely - just because. i told them.. its like my drug. i need the rush that i get from that pain and anger and hurt.. how sick. but yeah. seems like i'm always pissed at someone or another lately. many of my closest friends. melissa. heather. donovan. i started freaking out and panicking at night because of jake's broken computer and i needed to talk to him because i needed reassurance, that i wasn't completely losing it. because i knew i could never make myself pissed at him. but right now everything is wearing thin, and i even found myself trying to piss HIM off today, just so i'd have something to argue about. ouch. lately i've been clinging to sammy in an odd kind of way. i love my sammy to bits but i've always been aware of the fact that she generally prefers people OUTSIDE depew. so we've never been *as* close. don't talk on the phone or anything cuz i have that aversion to calling anyone. but i don't think she realizes that she's one of the only people i've been able to talk to lately without losing my temper. not sure why that is, but i'm just desperate for normal conversation in which i don't go off yelling at someone, so i've been clinging to these conversations as one of my last sources of sanity. apparently i'm also becoming a hermit. i have been becoming very antisocial since i returned from the foothills. i didn't wish to talk to many people at bryan's grad party. melissa's house yesterday i wentin to her bedroom, crawled into the corner on her bed, and just curled myself up in the dark and tried to wish everyone else away (it didn't work). i generally tried keeping to myself when i could. and other than that i AVOID social situations as much as possible. jake's grad party was today, and it sounds mean but i'm relieved i didn't have to go. so then missa, heather, renee, and shannon invited me to go to taste of country with them when nikolina backed out, but i used my non-country-music-fan-ness as an excuse not to go. i just didn't wish to be out anywhere. with people. you know. ergh. i'm turning into such a recluse. thats about it for recent updates.. heh. awesome. |
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sat. 6/26 9.21 am well they're officially gone. graduated. i'm technically a senior now. scary. i looked for jake afterwards for quite awhile, by the time my mom came to get me the throng of people had cleared up considerably.... still no jake. i wanted a picture of him in his cap & gown hehe. i was sad. but i got to talk to him last night before i left so i'm happy. and now i go. |
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fri. 6/25 3.38 pm well folks, tomorrow morning i leave for the catskill mountains with the family. i shan't be returning till the evening of july 3rd. i may very well go insane by then. at least people here have each other then. i'm stuck in a cabin, with nobody but my family, cut off from all things and people connected to depew. i shall have my quillow, my picture of jake, my pink fuzzy bunny friend, and a certain person's red bracelet that helps make me feel not so alone sometimes. other than that, i'm on my own. i'm going to miss my friends and people and talking and GRRRR. and i think i may die without my computer. 8 days without internet access. OUCH. and jake... i'm going to miss my jacob. a lot. he came visiting the past couple days. i don't feel comfortable around the family people or just in my house in general for some reason. yet he was going to come back last night when he wanted to get out of the house, except that i had to tell him he couldn't. so he must not be TOO fed up with me yet. right? sigh. i think i worry too much. but either way. what am i going to do, i won't be able to see or talk to him for 8 entire days. oh my god. *bangs head against wall* great. graduation is tonight. I WANT TO BE THERE. really really bad. but we're not allowed in. its not fair. i need to be there. i have to. please let me in. even though i know that whether i watch it from the auditorium or on the crappy tv that you can't hear anything from, either way i'm gonna wind up crying or just plain miserable. damn you people for graduating and leaving us! leaving me. come back..... i'll try to remember to update more once i return. really, i will. promise. but for now......... i'm out for a week. hurrah hurrah. |
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tue. 6/22 3.24 pm i know, i know.. i'm still not updating this thing like i should. random quizzes don't count. the GJ gets all the updates now, pretty much. my list of GJ buddies is expanding. now its me, heather, melissa, jake, sam, donovan, cassy, shannon, and bob. oh and thomas! :) greatestjournal is amazing... anyway random updates. huge fight last night at my house and i missed it. i think nick is now grounded from everything. loser. against i still want my ice cream, damn it! |
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mon. 6/21 9.07 pm damn right  be sorted @ nimbo.net |
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mon. 6/21 12.31 am oh yeah.. their description for pisces? (which is my real sign) "Unselfish and sensitive. Full of creativity and spirituality. Often indecisive. Sometimes lost in self-pity." okay, parts of that sound a lot like me too. |
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mon. 6/21 12.20 am *giggles* is this not completely and thoroughly ME?  Discover your Zodiac Personality @ Quiz Me |
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wed. 6/16 11.25 pm today was my one and only exam.. american history.. it wasn't too bad.. the interesting part came afterwards, going to jake's with sam & melissa.. yeah well. i agree with sam's advice. i just suck at things. sigh. i fell asleep with the headphones last night, now i think i bruised my ear or something cuz it really hurts when i try putting in the headphones NOW. ouchies. grrrr. tomorrow = 24 hours @ melissa's. i know that me, her, heather, shannon, sam, donovan, jake, cassy, and renee will be there. renee's not coming till friday though, sam's leaving for awhile in the afternoon to work, absolutely NO idea when cassy's coming or for how long. and no idea what frank's doing or if he's coming at all. sticking the whole group of us together for a full 24 hours could be interesting. i'd bring a camera except that i'd be afraid i'd take some picture that would get me caught.. *guilty look* well its not MY fault if everyone is invited to spend the night, is it? i still feel weirdful :\ and LOOK AT THAT! i am someone! *claps* |
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tue. 6/15 8.05 pm thursday 6/17 - friday 6/18 = going to be one interesting night?? i don't know what to get missa for her birthday i miss seeing my jake the picture man tried to scare me by saying my senior pics were tomorrow.... umm NO i'm still not un-sick yet and i STILL DON'T KNOW WHERE THE DAMN AUDITORIUM PLACE IS!! lol shannon has just joined the greatness that is GJ. boo-yah. that place rocks so hard. |
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tue. 6/15 1.50 am late night/early morning conversations are not always necessarily a good thing |
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