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sun. 7/6 1.37 am [its my mood]  exhaustedokay, working on making everything friends only (: that will take ages... i got back to september of 2004 but 2003-04 were when i went craaaazy posting constantly here... oh yeah, remember when i used to be the 5th most active blurty-er? xDD of course though, now i'm like 1300 posts behind that title, but that's understandable since i havent updated in years practically... meh... anyway. i'll continue working on this later. (: |
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sat. 7/5 11.35 pm [its my mood]  crushedthis thing would be fun to write in sometimes just because nobody else knows about it anymore ;-; |
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fri. 5/30 1.14 am [its my mood] gloomyi have not updated this thing in 2 years-ish. i forgot i had it. switched to livejournal. abandoned that recently too. i wish i could make all my old entries on here friends only but considering i have 1800+ entries... that would take awhile :| |
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mon. 6/12 11.31 am [its my mood]  boredand suddenly i become a part of your past i'm becoming the part that don't last i'm losing you and its effortless without a sound, we lose sight of the ground in the throw around never thought that you wanted to bring it down i won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves everyone knows i'm in over my head, over my head... |
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sun. 6/4 1.34 am .jpg) Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net |
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sun. 6/4 1.30 am  Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net |
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sun. 6/4 1.28 am  Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net |
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sun. 6/4 1.24 am  Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net |
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sun. 6/4 1.21 am [its my mood]  amused Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net |
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thu. 9/2 4.37 pm You don't know it, but Sometimes, I go to a hill that overlooks the landscape's mask of city lights For a sip of momentary grace. On this brink of everything I know, I can gain An eyeful of the lost Atlantis in the human soul, And a breath that fills my lungs with the air between two stars. If right now, you Were to capture this elation In the framework of your mind, Or find transcendance through these words, Then at most you would know nothing Of the beauty your existence throws to me. For mine is a love no experience, No thought, no measure, no words Could ever degrade into reality by virtue of degree. -rider strong :] |
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thu. 9/2 12.05 am We all lead such elaborate lives Wild ambitions in our sights How an affair of the heart survives Days apart and hurried nights Seems quite unbelievable to me I don't want to live like that Seems quite unbelievable to me I don't want to love like that I just want our time to be Slower and gentler, wiser,free We all live in extravagant times Playing games we can't all win Unintened emotional crimes Take some out, take others in I'm so tired of all were going through I don't want to live like that I'm so tired of all were going through I don't want to love like that I just want to be with you Now and forever, peaceful, true This may not be the moment To tell you face to face But I could wait forever For the perfect time and place We all lead such elaborate lives We don't know whose words are true Strangers, lovers, husbands, wives Hard to know who's loving who Too many choices tear us apart I don't want to live like that Too many choices tear us apart I don't want to love like that I just want to touch your heart May this confession Be the start |
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wed. 9/1 12.12 pm right now i'm kinda not speaking to one of my closer friends... and the funny thing is, it doesn't bother me at all. usually it makes me miserable when i'm fighting with someone, and i hate it. this time its like..... you know what? she said its not her problem, its mine, and she doesn't think i should be mad. but guess what? i KNOW its my problem, and that's fine with me, because i still think its childish and stupid and its not that i'm mad... its that i simply don't care. that's probably bad, isn't it? oh well. the way i see it, she can do whatever she wants, because right now it means absolutely nothing to me. |
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tue. 8/31 9.45 pm things of little interest or importance for me to share with you since i have nothing better to do. -the j key on my keyboard keeps sticking and its making me mad -i love ashlee simpson -people piss me the fuck off -i think its really lame and childish to quit a school club just because a sibling joins -i'm gonna have fun smacking certain people if they whine :D -i get fed up very quickly with people who can't control their own relationships without saying that they don't care, and letting other people decide for them -i'm afraid of college but i want out of high school -i haven't started a single assignment for my english summer homework yet -i think sean connery is cool -i like crayons -i need a life -school sucks but i can't wait to get out of my house -i love online journaling! -i'm a pig and i'm glad that once school starts i can get away without eating as much -i'm going to miss certain people in school alot this year... namely jake and bryan :'( -i wish a certain someone would stop calling my house so much |
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sun. 8/29 2.44 pm i hate people and they suck. the end. |
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sun. 8/29 12.23 am i want raaaaaain. and a thunderstorm. fwoosh. |
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sat. 8/28 9.59 am Daily Teen Horoscope: It's hard to focus on what's real and keep it separate from what's been going on in your dreams, which have been unusually active and vivid lately. Be sure you're acting on solid information and not wild guesses. shut up.... stupid dreams! hahahahaha |
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sun. 8/22 10.30 pm one of my daily horoscopes: Business matters are making you nervous; get some advice from your sweetie before proceeding with details. A hug might come in handy, too. was that perfect or what? crazy sadd carwash!! :P |
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wed. 8/4 12.58 pm sooooo shit yeah. i keep saying i'll try to update this thing more often..... but then i never do..... haha well, get a GJ or something. i heart my friends only journal. don't care about anyone else anyway so yeah.. haha. anyway........... the blood test was pointless and dull. i read one of my entire english books while i was there. the results came back a couple days later...... NEGATIVE..... obviously..... actually it turned out i didn't have high blood sugar & diabetes, it actually came out saying my blood sugar was LOW. which explained a lot. the weakness and dizzyness and need to be constantly eating. i read that if you have low blood sugar and you pig out on sugary foods like i was..... then your body starts releasing insulin which actually lowers your blood sugar even more which meant that the more i was cramming down for awhile there, the worse i was actually making it for myself. rock on. so i tried to start just eating more normally and drinking alot of water, and i feel loads better now... my dad's in california on some business trip, he's been there for about a week and a half now... he comes back this saturday..... i guess it doesn't bother me much either way. here, not here, i don't seem to notice much of a difference so why do i care? today was starting my tech week for hello dolly, the summer musical i'm doing with kenmore west. its amazing, I LOVE PIT ORCHESTRA, its like spring musical season but over the summer and NOT with depew, which makes it pleasantly different enough for me to appreciate trying something new. its a pretty funny musical, everyone should go see it, comment or email me or something for details. heather gave me PSP8 for my computer, hehe she is amaaaazing, now i can make icons and things.... i also experimented and learned how to make some pretty sweet layouts, then i made a SG one and gave it to both heather and missa so they could use the codes and just change things and now they have nifty layouts too. we're so awesome. i think i have more updates but since i can't remember them now, i'll just have an excuse to post again later eventually i guess. |
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sat. 7/24 9.28 am i scheduled my blood test. wednesday at 8:50am. yes i will be stuck there for 3 fricking hours. how gay is that? yeah..... dad left for california at 5am this morning, for another week (minimum)...... heh. whatever. i feel funny lately. not sick. just funny. blehhhhhhhhh. |
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thu. 7/22 12.27 pm i got my physical done today.. you know how they have to take urine samples? apparently they found glucose in mine. probably just a false alarm.. could be from eating sugary foods beforehand. all i had was cereal (cocoa krispies!) which could be the problem.... but she said that it shouldn't have been enough to make the glucose show up.... so guess what? i get to go do some 3 hour blood test to get tested for diabetes. which its highly unlikely that i actually have.. but i have no choice, i have to go anyway just to be sure. this blows. i'm really really really pissed off right now. if anyone was wondering. *(&@%*&!^@%. |
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