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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
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1:54a
I accomplished so many things today.
I made a ton of progress on decluttering my room today. I read more than half of my assignments for World Literature. I was out of bed hours before noon. I ate healthily. I spent hours at school. Mrs. Letzter came up and talked to be and I didn't completely bawl in front of everyone. I joked around with Cindy and Anna Ma. After the induction ceremony, I went to Colonial with Michelle, Courtney, Dingo, Jeff and Leah. Leah and I sat in her driveway for almost three hours talking.
But. I'm home and this mood has settled over me. I want it to go away. I want to not be thinking about the way my mom walked into my room, throwing her hands up and saying, You won't get anything done today. To not be thinking about the way no one in my family cares that I got into college, that I was terrified I wouldn't, that this is probably the greatest accomplishment of my life so far.
To not be thinking, What is the point?
current mood: depressed
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5:09p
Ugh. I woke up bitchy this morning. But not only that, the depression from last night hasn't managed to go away. I curled up with my favorite episodes from BtVS S6, some ibuprofen and a heating pad - but I'm still feeling bitchy and still unhappy.
Ugh ugh ugh.
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