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Sunday, March 20th, 2005
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7:53p
1. Leave a comment saying you want to be interviewed.
and
2. I'll reply and give you five questions to answer.
3. You'll update your LJ with the five questions answered.
4. You'll include this explanation.
5. You ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.
Sophie ( interviewed me. )
current mood: content
current music: The Boy Who Sailed Around the World -- Go Sailor (12 comments |comment on this)
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10:10p
Feeling kind of sick. I stopped taking Lexapro a week ago. Now I'm getting dizzy spells. They're not as bad this time as last time. Tonight they're kind of rough, but I won't complain because...
I'm happy. Really, just happy.
I found out on Friday that I got into Indiana University! Being college-bound feels amazing. I was so afraid, although I know I had no reason to be, that no school would want me. But they do! I'm wanted! I really love the school, too. There were two other schools that I was looking at and wanted to attend - but they were much smaller schools. I think a larger school like IU will be better in case my anxiety continues acting up. I won't be as well-known and as widely recognized as I would be at a smaller school. The campus is huge, too, so I know I'll get plenty of exercise no matter HOW lazy I feel. And most importantly, there are SO MANY MAJORS to choose from! Do you know how often I change my mind? Me either, but - it's a lot.
And I'd be lying if I said it didn't feel great to know I'm going to be at school with Kristin. Near the end of When Harry Met Sally, Harry tells Sally, And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. It's like that with Kristin.
You know, I was thinking about the phrase "better half," as in, So-and-so is my better half. I don't think I've ever described someone that way and I'm not sure that I ever will - but I was thinking about the phrase and I realized that for me, an ideal relationship is one in which both partners are better, are improved from being together.
I totally have that. Kristin makes me more considerate. I worry more about how my actions will affect other people because she worries about that. And I pull her away from her comfort zone into some place more fulfilling.
I had dinner with my friends on Friday night and it was BRILLIANT. I told stories. I laughed. JoAnna and I shared our dinners. Leah and I talked a semi-lot. Sometimes I forget all the crazy things Leah and I have done together and all the fun we've had. Katherine, Amanda and Jackie came. I wish I'd gotten more of a chance to talk to Jackie. Amanda looked really happy. Katherine did too. She's gotten a haircut recently. It looked really cute on her. I hope Beth didn't feel too out of things, being older than the rest of us. I'm glad she came. I'm glad everyone came. I had a lot of fun and was really reminded of why I love being around people, why I need to be back at school.
Saturday was the best day of my life. I don't even know what to say about it. John and my mom went into Chicago. Kristin and I spent most of the day alone. Apparently my girlfriend is a total minx. Color me pleasantly surprised. Also, I apparently "drive her crazy."
Female ejaculation is not a myth. Although all of my previous orgasms just might be. I kind of think I had my first orgasm ever. I'm not sure, but whatever happened, I've never felt that before. I couldn't move afterward. My limbs were sweet and heavy. My eyes lidded themselves. She could feel my pulse from inside of me.
That aside, dear god we have fun together. I've never laughed so hard in my life. I started choking from all the laughter. Then I laughed harder. So I choked again. Actually, I choked like five times. I've never met anybody who entertains as many parts of my personality as she does or exercised the full range of my emotions as she does. It's exhilarating. I feel... alive. My food tastes better and my music sounds better. Everything looks brighter. The world has never been so brilliant. They say love rewrites you. It's true.
We went out to breakfast with my mom this morning. (My dad never called. I tried calling him twice and he didn't answer or call me back. I'm vaguely worried, but I don't want to freak out for no reason.) When my mom went to pay the bill, Kristin leaned slightly into my side. She said, I didn't just lean into you. I was adjusting myself into a more comfortable position. It just so happens that I feel most comfortable leaning into you.
My eyes fluttered shut.
current mood: perfect
current music: Open Window -- Sarah Harmer (comment on this)
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