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Thursday, January 6th, 2005
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9:05p
Being home alone when you're sick is weird.
I feel like I'm going to throw up again, but I don't really want to because I'm alone. The house is really quiet. I've got K's Choice playing kind of softly. Not An Addict on repeat.
Every so often one of the cats appears and the dog takes off after them. Ginger, the dog, was laying across my chest a few minutes ago. I was on the couch with a blanket and she came up to me. She only put the front half of her body on me. There was a curl of her hair that looked matted. I lifted it with three fingers. She turned her head and took the piece of hair between her teeth. She was trying to comb the mat out. Her breathing got rougher.
Listening to music at this volume either makes me want to turn it off completely or turn it up louder. I can't turn it up any louder. This migraine makes me want to cry. I've been offline as much as possible while I've been sick.
I don't know why I'm thinking about this, but for some reason I was just remembering the night that Jasmin confessed to me all the times she had cheated. She told me right away she could never cheat on her new girlfriend. She'd tried. She just couldn't. She loved the girl too much.
I laughed. Too loud for the time of the night. A little bitterly. Jasmin thought that my laughter meant I didn't believe her when she said she loved Ashley too much to cheat. She got defensive and kept emphasizing her emotions.
I just took a quiz. It said about me, Avoids excessive effort and needs roots, security, and peaceful companionship. It should say that I need company. I'm hating being alone tonight. My mom won't be home for another two hours.
I don't know where I heard this song before. But it's so familiar. Maybe it was in a movie.
current music: When I Was Your Girl -- The Great Unknowns (2 comments |comment on this)
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