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Friday, October 8th, 2004
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11:30a - Thank god for Aunt Veronica.
So no soup last night.
But I get soup today and it's perfect. My great-aunt made it. Big pieces of soft celery, wide round carrots, ribboned egg noodles, large sections of chicken I have to piece apart with my spoon. And plenty of pepper.
This is happiness. Even if my mom's controlling the music.
current mood: content
current music: I'm With You -- Avril Lavigne (a.k.a. the evil radio) (comment on this)
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1:24p - Haha.
Jasmin: You're a fucking cat.
Me: I like cats...
Jasmin: You have a need to Always Be Touched.
Later.
Me: What are you doing?
Jasmin: Watching Buffy...
Me: So your arms are free?
Jasmin: Right.
Me: Put them around me.
Jasmin: You're a cat.
Me: I'm like a cat.
Jasmin: You're a fucking cat.
Me: Right. Now, hold me.
current mood: amused
current music: If It Isn't Her -- Ani Difranco (comment on this)
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3:16p - A little better.
They're so cute.
Jordan stopped by when she got out of school today. She brought me those socks, one of her senior pictures, a toy hampster and a book of hers that I'm borrowing. She stayed for like an hour. My cold voice came and went and came back. Jordan was far too amused.
The visit cheered me up though. She and David are the only ones from school who seem to notice that I'm gone. Even Ms. Blom hasn't called. I bet she'll yell at me for not calling her to tell her why I've been gone this week. Well she has my number, I don't have hers. She's still going to bitch me out though. Ugh.
Instead of going to sleep last night, I decided to watch romantic movies. Why yes, I do like to make myself feel lonely. I had weird dreams again. I remembered them this morning but I've forgotten now. Who was in my dreams last night? Oh god I can't even remember. Not that I want to. My subconscious unnerves me.
I'm debating trying to call Kristy to see if she wants to watch a movie this weekend. I'm still sick, but I'm not supposed to be contagious anymore.
Mel's been online a lot lately. It makes me happy. I love talking to her. She talked about trying to come see me this weekend, but it didn't work out. I know it's going to work one of these days. In the meantime, I love getting to know all about her.
So Hannah accused me of being turned on by everything.
Me: Want a bite of eggroll?
Hannah: mmm yeah sure
Me: *shares with Hannah* I love Chinese...
Hannah: *takes a bite* OHH so I wanted to go down on that asian girl so I could say "I ate Chinese" *sigh* it was such a good plan
Me: I think my great-great-grandparents were Chinese...
Hannah: okay, I confess, that's not the only reason I wanted to go down on her
Hannah: "I ate 3 generation old chinese!"
Me: Well, okay, they weren't really. But no one else has to know that.
Hannah: I'm polish and russian
Me: I'm polish!
Hannah: I know
Me: And German and Irish. You told me about the Russian yesterday, when I was spazzing about your name. That's kind of hot.
Hannah: what's hot?
Me: That's you're Russian and Polish. And that your initials are HAM.
Hannah: polish ham?
Me: Mmm. Polish Hannah.
Hannah: ... you think everything is hot
Me: I do not.
Hannah: you even think guys are hot
Me: They are.
Me: I'm not turned on by Ethiopians.
Hannah: HAHAHA that's so racist
Me: And STDs aren't a turn-on. And most animals don't do anythign for me.
Hannah: lol most? which ones do?
Me: I can't think of any that do- but I'm pretty sure I've called some sort of animal hot before, so I don't want to make myself a hypocrite
Hannah: lol
Me: Cats are pretty sensual. And the way water looks on dolphin skin. Anyway. Not everything turns me on.
Me: European turns me on.
Hannah: oh yeah!
Hannah: your European waitresses
Me: Yeah! See.
Me: I'm especially partial to Romanians and Poles.
Hannah: Romanians = score
Me: Intriguing turns me on.
Me: Girls with acoustic guitars who write their own music... I'm a sucker for.
Me: I love people who are more attractive the more you look at them.
Me: Like, they might not catch your eye right away.
Me: And I love people that are complicated, that others have started to get to know and changed their minds about.
Hannah: people who are complicated?
Me: *blushes* And I get turned on when people can correct my grammar.
Hannah: *sigh*
A few minutes later.
Me: Hannah... this transsexual is really hot.
Hannah: she's a guy?
Me: Yeah.
Hannah: whoa
Me: Is it just me or is she hot?
Hannah: she's pretty hot
Me: That's what I was thinking... you know, I think I kind of have a kink for transsexuals. (Even though I thought she was hot anyway.)
Another few minutes later. I was taking a quiz.
Me: Okay, I'm pretty sure I know the answer to this. But am I dominating or submissive?
Hannah: dom
Me: Or does "whatever you want me to be *growls*" fit?
Hannah: hahaha
Hannah: possibly 3
Me: It's between dom and 3...
Me: I know I'm not a bottom. O:-)
Hannah: hehehe
Hannah: everyone knows you're not a bottom
Me: *blushes*
current mood: jumbled
current music: Icarus -- Ani Difranco (13 comments |comment on this)
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5:34p - Browser.
Hey! Anyone.
Get Firefox. It rocks.
current mood: bored
current music: In The Way -- Ani Difranco (5 comments |comment on this)
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9:24p - Guzzle till the buzzing stops.
How is it possible to be lonely now?
[ETA: I have an addition. I hate you for not wanting all of me.]
current mood: down
current music: Icarus -- Ani Difranco (5 comments |comment on this)
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