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Sunday, July 20th, 2008
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10:35 pm
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this is the nth time i have probably tried to update but thought twice and erased it.
there are a lot of things i would have already written about if things were still the same.
my life is on stand-by and i've been praying for a way out.
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| Saturday, May 10th, 2008
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2:14 pm - sometimes the pain that loss brings just gets so strong i choke on it.
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i miss my tita.
it's been a month and i still can't accept she's gone. someone who has been a part of my whole life is now gone.
tomorrow would have been her day. a mother to my cousins. and a mother to me. one of the persons who always believed in me even during those times when i dont believe in myself.
i will always remember your hands. how they cared for me since i was born, and how i held on to it one month ago as you said goodbye to all of us.
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| Saturday, March 15th, 2008
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11:06 pm - updates
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very eventful 2008. 3 months into the year and i've done so many things
went to india for the first time
changing jobs (again! only after 6 months)
visited a friend in jail
found out my tita had cancer.
emotional times. i've seriously been going to work with a headache for a week now.
i hope things get better.
i wish you can understand i need you now.
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| Sunday, February 10th, 2008
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12:17 am
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and with school and work taking up most of my time, i still feel i can do more.
not sure what i'll take up but it has to be something worthwhile. God knows i'm doing a lot of things that are not making me happy.
there are days i just feel like going outside of my body and telling myself "ang kapal mo!"
(self realization. awareness. time's up lynn.)
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| Tuesday, January 22nd, 2008
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1:50 am - Namaste!
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In India right now. Can't even begin to describe all the things I've been seeing since yesterday, hope to get some pictures of people and places and post them here.
that is if i get enough time off from work...
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| Friday, January 11th, 2008
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11:35 am - my shooting star
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| Sunday, January 6th, 2008
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1:38 am - in transit, a few notes
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for a couple of hours we were together
you said all the words that mattered most to me
i couldn't stop crying in the car after i dropped you off
last night you were only a few cities away from me,
and now you're back to being an ocean away from me.
a certain realization has given me a sense of calm
even though it has shown me that we can never be together.
i'll tell you all about it on monday.
but till then, know that you're also always in my thoughts
and that i love you so much too.
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| Monday, December 31st, 2007
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11:55 pm - Welcome 2008!
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Happy New Year everyone!
Hope this coming year will be better than last year. Hope we can stick to resolutions we'll be making soon, and find all the things/persons we've been looking for.
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yes! i am officially enrolled. been worried about not being able to register online for 3rd trim. yes you read that right, welcome to the information age UP! at last! hahahaha...
woke up with sore throat this morning. damn neighbor is at it again. burning leaves in the vacant lot in front of our house. bitch. probably haven't heard of global warming.
and now all these firecrackers... smoke galore! my throat hurts...
anyway, at least have been very very lucky to have finished with registration and gotten the subjects i want.
hmm... wonder if i can make it through the sem.
current music: fob (hah!)
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| Sunday, December 16th, 2007
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4:42 pm - change of heart.
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i sealed my fate with an email.
i told him i'm going to have to distance myself emotionally.
but
you never really forget a love like that. and though i said i'll try to move on. i realized that plans are going to have to change.
because you never really get to ever forget a love like that.
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
current music: wait for you - elliot yamin
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| Sunday, December 9th, 2007
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11:22 pm - 28 is a magic number
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so... yes. i am now officially and undeniably in my late 20's. dayum... i feel so old.
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2nd term is also officially finished. had my operations management finals last monday and my finance finals last night. just feel i could have studied harder. actually for finance, i wish i had studied. only preparation i did was to meet up with my P and C at starbucks in silver city (as usual) for a cramming session. then went to UP chapel to attend mass. unfortunately, next mass was at 6pm, which we couldn't attend because of the exam. stayed for a while to pray, reflect, and to watch a wedding.
hmm... weddings. watching weddings... *sigh*
so had the exam, which was a bit ok. rushed out of school with P to look for another church. the one at katipunan was already closed by the time we got there, so we decided to go back and take part in Sir A's japanese treat for everyone. it was actually a thank you for the pre-retirement party we gave him last thursday. had some sashimi and maki (yummy!!!) and went out to chat with friends.
W and R were among the last ones to finish. after some discussion, all 4 of us decide to go to gerry's for some drinkfest to celebrate last day of the term. it was actually funny seeing 4 cars leaving at the same time. sayang ang gas! =))
R was in a generous mood so he told us he was treating us for dinner. i guess as long as we all drink. a lot. being the only girl lady among the 4 of us, i didn't hesitate to tell him i can't drink as i was driving all the way back to antipolo. good conversation. i like hanging out with these people. gives a lot of insight not available with people my age. W is probably almost the same age as my dad, and i admire his dedication to his daughter. R is older as well and had a 5 year old kid. P is a year younger than I am though i must say i admire his really good boy, straight as an arrow character.
i don't know how it happened but we got stuck with telling ghostly encounters which really gave me (and P, takutin pala sya hahaha!) the creeps. there were a lot of tales from people who were driving alone. thanks a lot guys! made an effort to remember and stick to ortigas extension rather than sumulong highway on my way home.
also got some tips on where to take my male visitors. W told me about this nice place in cainta called genie magic ktv, where a lot of "magical" things happen daw. got really crazy when he described one incident.
i guess i've always been one of the boys. i have a better time when i go out with boys as friends, than with boys as dates. i guess it's because there's no pressure in trying to be likeable. you can just be who you are and not worry about whether this guy will like you or not. (although i've been toying with the idea of going out on friendly dates since my birthday).
and although i was "one of the boys" more often than not in school, it surprised me when they gave me roses just as i got into the car.
"so that sometimes you are reminded that you are a lovely girl."
yes. i miss roses.
yes. i miss being treated like a girl.
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christmas party is next week. and i'm still finding it hard to get an 80's costume. damn damn damn... why couldn't they have just stuck with the glam night theme. have been dying to get a reason to wear a really nice gown. now i have to wear leggings, leg warmers, jelly bracelets or whatever 80-ish stuff i've read up on the internet.
or i might just totally ignore the theme and come in this dress i've been thinking of for the past few days. hmm.
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meeting with the other managers went well. aside from the fact that i didn't manage to get any studying done for the whole week, it was actually nice to be able to have known my counterparts in india and china. big plus that i also got to know B and R who are the powers that be in cph.
was going to office early everyday, and going home at 12 since i had to take them out for dinner. we stuck to the ortigas area since (podium and edsa shang) since i didnt want to drive them all the way to intramuros or malate.
last night for teambuilding (day before finals exam), we went and watched the golden compass. didnt really like it that much. though i can see the symbolisms that people were saying were atheistic. and then went to the Spa for massage. this one was totally unexpected.
just one advice, never go to the spa and share the room with others without shaving. dyahe, dyahe, dyahe!!! next time i'll be more prepared. =)
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so yes. the guys are still persistent. one of them is already beginning to piss me off. so i'm not even replying to his messages anymore.
the other one i'm taking to dinner with friends. hopefully, he realizes i'm not this easily likeable girl. i'm so far from perfect, i might as well be at the other end of the perfect spectrum (if ever there is one).
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still same thoughts. want to leave D but love him too much. sometimes i have to remind myself, indirectly or directly, he has already made his choice. and the choice was not me.
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