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Wednesday, January 7, 2004
2:26PM
So i am at school, and i was looking on the internet, bored, for facial expressions, just to find some funny ones. Well i open up this page that has naked people, and it kicked me off, and messed up my thingy and now there is a bunch of problems w/my computer,a nd its not cool, so blah.. but at least my teacher beleives me, i don't like naked people, they are kinda gross, so why would i look at them?
My purse makeup pocket is FULL of sparkes, because it spilled and so i am all sparkly and so is katie and curtis' hand because we got a little crazy.
Curtis went to look for lost and found collection of stuff on the floor and he found a pain releiver pill, a black jelly bean, a orange color pencil, a little rubber thingy, shana found a mint, and curtis found a rotting banana. It was fun, and a great collection, i was excited
Current mood: 
accomplished
2:26PM
So i am at school, and i was looking on the internet, bored, for facial expressions, just to find some funny ones. Well i open up this page that has naked people, and it kicked me off, and messed up my thingy and now there is a bunch of problems w/my computer,a nd its not cool, so blah.. but at least my teacher beleives me, i don't like naked people, they are kinda gross, so why would i look at them?
My purse makeup pocket is FULL of sparkes, because it spilled and so i am all sparkly and so is katie and curtis' hand because we got a little crazy.
Curtis went to look for lost and found collection of stuff on the floor and he found a pain releiver pill, a black jelly bean, a orange color pencil, a little rubber thingy, shana found a mint, and curtis found a rotting banana. It was fun, and a great collection, i was excited
Current mood: accomplished
9:49AM
I have been anticipating a snow day for this whole week! we should have had one yesturday, it was cold outside, and cold inside, i heard they blew a boiler, but let us go home and be warm? are you kidding, we don't mind....gggrrr.
I felt sick sunday, and monday, and a little on tuesday, but i think i'm just getting immune to it.
I don't like that i'm in the mood to wear a dress, but the weather isn't, i don't like snow, although it's pretty.
I had a visitor yesturday and my dad sent him away, it was not cool, i was really mad, my dad is stupid, but i did get to see my neice
Current mood: 
optimistic
Friday, January 2, 2004
12:24AM
I hardly ever write in this thing anymore. I don't know. Good times. I have been so busy lately, and i know it's only the beginning. When i think about everything i have to do, and prepare for and everything overall, i get tense, i need to try and focus on each individual thing, and it's not so bad. ah the things you learn
The just of what i got for christmas
a cd player that has... EVERYTHING.. on it
a fuzzy teddy bear
gift certificates
checks of money
a letter from my grandma telling me how i'm ruining my life, and assuming that because i'm going on this 'stupid missionary trip' i won't go to college and i'll be poor and on the streets yadda yadda. The thing she doesn't get is, for one, its not a stupid missionary trip, its a dicipleship training school. Second, its not stupid, its an extremely well know organization that has people go and like it so much, they stay as teachers. Third, just because i'm going doesn't mean i won't go to college and make something of myself. Finally I don't care what happens to me. I don't care if i do end up on the streets, i don't care if i die. If its what God wants, then i'll do it.
i have springhill this weekend. We are going to do a skit that i directed in front of everyone there. Also i'm making a devotion for our youth for saturday night. When i get home i have mountains of homework that i've been avoiding. Sometime next week i have to prepare a bible verse and bible study layout to teach my friend who I am starting a biblestudy with. Also sometime next week i have to write a major skit that will be the center point of an entire church service. The next couple weeks i have to prepare another bible verse and layout for a different biblestudy that i'm leading this month. this month I will have to choose people for each part, costumes, scene movements, practice days, lighting, props, and crew for that major skit.
I think i need to write all of that down so i can stay on track. I think i might need to lighten up on being so involved.
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
10:48PM
I hurt
I am so tired. I havent gotten sleep at all, i've been so busy, and i'm still so busy
the sad thing is, i look forward to christmas, because i will be able to sleep in
I'm having my MRI tomorrow morning
my grandma is sick, i hope she gets better, i love my grandma
christmas eve is tomorrow and it doesn't even feel like it, i think mostly because of the stupid RAIN, thats right RAIN not SNOW
Current mood: 
drained
Monday, December 22, 2003
11:40PM
so we had nativity tonight. It was fun. I messed up a couple times, but i'm sure nobody really noticed, except the people that knew what it was supposed to look like. Its kinda cool because i have a solo in it, and me and another girl have our own special angel costume. There are like 30 angels that all have the same, so i'm special.
its tomorrow, and christmas eve too, I'm the same thing as today tomorrow, then i am Eve on the eve, ha what a cawinkidink.
There is this really hot guy who has gone to my church forever, but he isn't in the youth. I never talked to him till today. He is really hot, i hope i get a chance to get to know him more... ha, i sound shallow
I did errands by myself today, i felt like a big girl. I got my oil changed for like way more than i thought it would be, so i had like no money to buy my cousin a present, which i did next. i only spent like $10 on him, oh well.
Current mood: 
dirty
Current music: the stupid nativity songs
Friday, December 19, 2003
3:15PM
I got excepted!
Didn't work to well... I got excepted!!!!!!
I am officially going to YWAM las vegas September 26 ish with a group of under 20 people and i am going!!!!!!!
Current mood: 
ecstatic
3:13PM
I'm trying this
I got excepted!
Thursday, December 18, 2003
7:45AM
i just realized i might not be able to be in the nativity i said i would on christmas eve. We are having family thing that night instead of christmas day this year. I never put two and two together until recently. I hate when i do that.
I've noticed this year that i have a lot more money to spend on people than last year. I think it's because i spent like $80 just on scott, and bought everyone else and stuff. Now that i have him out of the way of my happiness, i have more money. I will admit, it was cheaper to go to the movies when i went out with him...
I don't even neccesarily have a job, but i work a lot. I do the fund raiser for younkers, and get lots of money to spend. I don't like working, but hey, beats unemployment, and being poor.
hehehe i almost wrote poop instead of poor.
poop, i can write that in like .5 seconds
I used to be able to type really fast, then i never got on, so i sucked again, then i got on the computer more, and now i type kinda fast again. I laugh at the fact that before i knew how to type right, i typed 2 fingered, and i thought i was fast. Its like when i thought i could teach myself cursive. They were normal letters, but i connected them, so i thought it was good...
Current mood: 
uncomfortable
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
8:15AM
i stayed home yesturday. I woke up and was like, man, i need to catch up on my z's and homework, and mind, so i decided to be sick. I didn't catch up on all the things i needed too, i did get 13 hours of sleep though, which was very nice, and surprising... i didn't think i was THAT tired.
I love being able to just stay in my pj's and do nothing all day long every once in awhile, but if its too much, i feel like i'm missing out on life.
Well it sucks because now i feel like crap in 1st hour and i want to go home. this is the last week of school before brake and i don't want to be here at all.
I'm kinda scared, like i figure its just cause i need a break, but what if i feel like this when we get back? i coulnd stand being here hating it this much for friggin months, i just couldn't do that. I hope it's just that i need a break
ugh
i realized why i think they let you not take exams if you have no absenses at school. Because when your a senior you have such a big taste of the world, that experiencing school as well seems childish and petty, you don't want to be there, and feel like there isn't a point to it. You want to experience the adulthood that your so close to getting. The school knows this, so they try to improvise. By making this deal they hope it'll keep the seniors here. man i cant wait till i graduate
Current mood: 
sick
Current music: Christmas shoes
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
1:17PM
poop
i got in trouble for saying i'm a virgin, it was funny
i'm in econ and i cant find a demand for foreign language in lansing area
poop
10:48AM
i am bored. Live journal sounds better than blurty, i want one. its all the rage. hhhmmmm well i was talking and now i cant update.
my eye itches
i work today
i cut my bangs today, they were long
teachers that are cheesey happy are funny and happy
Monday, December 8, 2003
Friday, December 5, 2003
2:49PM
I am bored, so bored, school is out, and i'm in the library waiting for my cousin to take a test so i can take her home and see my grandma. I love my grandma, i wish i could live with her, it would be better then being with my dad, he is a big jerky pie. He said that he thinks i have flued in my knee, and thats what the mri will show, then i'd get sugery to get it out, limp for a bit then be better, who gave him a phd? It will be like another month till i can have an mri,poop
ya know i think the people who made the keyboard liked the word poop because the letters are all next to each other. They could have been different, the p could have been on next level but no, right there, poop
do de do,
I love being random, its so much fun. Even if i'm like the only one there i will do somthing that i think is random and hilarious and i will crack up, then i'll crack up that i'm cracking up and nobody knows, and nobody will know why, ah...
I am like the lead in drama night, our skit, and i was so excited, but out of the 4 people, me and another girl are the only ones who take it seriously. Everyone else is pissed because they didn't get the parts they want... Why does my skits' characters have to suck?
Current mood: 
giddy
2:49PM
I am bored, so bored, school is out, and i'm in the library waiting for my cousin to take a test so i can take her home and see my grandma. I love my grandma, i wish i could live with her, it would be better then being with my dad, he is a big jerky pie. He said that he thinks i have flued in my knee, and thats what the mri will show, then i'd get sugery to get it out, limp for a bit then be better, who gave him a phd? It will be like another month till i can have an mri,poop
ya know i think the people who made the keyboard liked the word poop because the letters are all next to each other. They could have been different, the p could have been on next level but no, right there, poop
do de do,
I love being random, its so much fun. Even if i'm like the only one there i will do somthing that i think is random and hilarious and i will crack up, then i'll crack up that i'm cracking up and nobody knows, and nobody will know why, ah...
I am like the lead in drama night, our skit, and i was so excited, but out of the 4 people, me and another girl are the only ones who take it seriously. Everyone else is pissed because they didn't get the parts they want... Why does my skits' characters have to suck?
Current mood: giddy
Current music: library noise
Thursday, December 4, 2003
9:36PM - you are my sunshine....
The DTS people were supposed to email me back this week, well tomorrow is the end of the week and no hear, i wonder if thats a bad thing? This is something that i feel 100% as God calling, He calls it to me STRONG yet i'm scared about whether i'll be excepted, i'm nervous.
ok, top 2 things I dislike with a passion, that people do all the time
1. Judge me, and things i do, and others
2. Be a hypocrite about something
So I realized that by looking at my dad, and the way he is, it has had the purpose of one thing, to teach me how not to be when i have kids, and also what not to look for in a husband.
I want a husband, I say this now, but i know that when i get one and i'll be married for a good 10, 15 years i will look back now and think, 'i wish i could have enjoyed my single years', there is so much i can do now, that i cant when i'm married. Thats what makes me happy when i get sad, is because i need to enjoy them now
I am the lead in one of the 4 drama skits for drama's drama night, i'm supposed to fall in love with anthony boggus, he is a jerk though. He is really mean and rude to me, he thinks he is the best actor in the world, therefore he won't listen to others' opinions, he is just a really big jerk, and oh yea, i get to work with him on our biggest assignment in the class... can you see the smiles and joy? cause i sure dont
I don't really get how i can be so busy... I mean, i lost two people who took up a pretty significant amount of my time, and yet, i am just as busy as when i had them. I think i am happier though, i don't hafta be stressed out anymore, and be with them, and sink down to being two immature. I do that when i'm with 7thand 8th graders, i don't need to do it with FRIENDS... by not being with the people, i think it has really pushed me into maturity that i needed to have. I need to grow up, life starts soon
Current mood: 
content
Tuesday, December 2, 2003
3:30PM
any day now i will find out if i am in for the DTS in las vegas... any day... but any day isn't today, stupid day..
it was freezing today, i hate cold, its stupid, gggrrrr its so... so cold. i remember i was obsessed with polar bears until like freshman year, everything polar bear, i still have almost everything polar bear. anyway, i was determined to move to alaska and be a scientist for polar bears, and it was alaska... there were more guys there then girls too... then finally I realized the truth, it wasn't destined, its too freaking cold there, i would hate myself... if only polar bears liked heat, things could have been different-ha
me and a sophmore realized we had the same shirt so we planned to wear it today, so we were twins, we laughed about it for a minute, then went about the rest of our day... good times
went to mongolian barbaque it was good. I saw a guy that looked COMPLETELY like Roy!!! I am freaking serious, like a splittin immage, it was weird. Our waiter looked like a non buff vin deisel (spelled wrong-oops!) so i was bored so i decided to pretend he was the hottest thing in the world, i was girly staring at him, and gawking, it was fun, he like avoided looking at me, so i did it more. our friend faked a birthday so we got free icecream, and made waiter sing ah good times
So this was completely random and weird, but thats ok, i laugh on the inside about it, and i cant see your looks of wow she is stupid so i am set
Current mood: 
energetic
Sunday, November 30, 2003
9:29PM
what makes me different?
Thursday, November 27, 2003
7:24PM - a thanksgiving letter
my shout outs
GOD
I'd like to thank God. He is my life, and without him i wouldn't have one. He will be my significant other always, because he rocks, go God.
HELPERS
All the people who have helped me through my hard times. I know i have people there for me, thanks
FRIENDS
Even if it doesn't feel like it all the time, i know i have friends. Thank you for always being there for me, and spending time with me, and never making me feel alone, becky, tara, andi, nicole, courtney, nick, zach, matt, amanda, jen, rhandi, lindsey, and everyone else too.
FAMILY
thanks to ... some... of my family for being supporters of my life, my grandma, my grandpa, my sisters, some of my aunts and uncles, my cousins
ENEMIES
I'd even like to thank them, because w/out them, i might not know all the hard earned lessons i know now.
I'm thankful to have people there, i'm thankful to have money for stuff, a house thats warm, food to get stuffed with, life to experience, a computer to type on, time to smell roses, and music to sound pretty!!!!!!!!
Current mood: 
thankful
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