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I dont care, if you dont care
See the thing with "i dont care" is that quite often it doesnt mean just that. It means " I care, but it hurts too much to care, so I say I dont to avoid getting hurt" in hopes that by saying the words you can convince yourself of this. Maybe you can?
Sometimes "I dont care" means one person admits defeat. Is defeated, I am defeated therefore I no longer care.
So to avoid this "caring" bullshit, I am taking up many new hobbies. Model trains perhaps?, knitting?, pottery?, target practise? whatever avoids the feeling of feeling too much, and thus making me feel bad for feeling, and then feeling like I should remove said feelings.
My question to you is, are you happy now? did you get what you wanted?
Is it a good thing that I dont care?
Only you can answer that.
But to go back to my opening line: "See the thing with "i dont care" is that quite often it doesnt mean just that." In this case, its true. I got ahead of myself, my silly, silly little self again, polished that bandaged heart and put it back on my sleeve, only to have you sneeze on it. A friendly reminder..of why I should stop caring so much. |