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[13 Jan 2004|11:11am] |
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The Beautiful Mistake - Stabbing Backwards |
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if ever i thought i was far from being remotely happy, ive eclipsed that, and become farther away from it. i have no clue what to do anymore to have 5 minutes of good thoughts, maybe some type of sedative but that probably will just make me more f'in pissed off. when every joke you make is some crack about suicide or just some quip on hurting yourself, people should start taking you more seriously. i mean i dont really know what to do lately. the highlight of my weekend, besides seeing touchdown freddie complete a 28 yard pass from donovan, was a phone call telling me a lawsuit against me was being dropped. that was cool, but other than that, nothing. i dont know if i bring people down, and that is not my intention, but i know im not as fun to hang out with anymore. like 2 or 3 years ago when i was wild as hell and what actually got me my friends (my nuttiness), i wish somehow i could go back to that. i dunno, one of these days i just hope to be caught in an alley at the wrong time. i can smell the end of my time.
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[13 Jan 2004|11:49pm] |
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Matt Skiba - Good Fucking Bye |
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hello there catastrophe.
ok quickly, im gonna stop downloading albums and make my own, sweet mixtapes. all with a theme. right now im working on all the Blink182 BSides and Unreleased Tracks. Im thinking its going to be 21 tracks or so, being that i have to make sure its all quality, recorded songs and cant be found on CDs theyve put out. Then Im making a sweet acoustic cd with some of the freshest names.hahaha. these cds can be bought from me for 3 bucks. more later on when i figure out whos gonna be on the cd, but i can tell you matt skiba will surely make an appearance.
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