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Monday, December 1st, 2003
9:56 pm	ne one if ne one wants to read my journal all you gotta do is ask...umm...julie...... (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 23rd, 2003
3:31 pm	FRIENDS ONLY my blurty is officaly friends only sorry guys i wanna know whos readin it... so if u want me to add you just comment thanks love you <3<3<3<3 caitlin (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
10:46 pm	as i bet most of everyone knows my mom decieded to go on a power trip and made it so i cant get emails or ims on aol ne more bitch... ne ways my aim still works so u can im me @ summergirl2826 .... i dunno how long this is gonna last but w.e ... Current Mood: enraged Current Music: Every Nights another story--early November (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 16th, 2003
9:58 am	you always you alway say goooodnniiigghht you always say u always say goodnight i love juliana theory gosh i do randomness ok an update of my sat man it was busy busy busy i woke up early and got ready and all the good stuff and then i took my car and got my oil changed and tires rotated and alinment fixed!!!! aww yeah baby i was happy but this means no more off roading for me :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( thats really sad sadness nnoooo ok ne ways then i went to work lol and i worked w. pat lol hes really nice and helped me a lot cuz i sometimes didnt have a clue on what i was doin and then he left and carl came in and i worked w. him for a little bit lol we had some werid convos lol i dunno what i think about that boy lol then work was do able so that was good i had fun u could say lol wow ok i gotta go get in the shower for church more later (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 15th, 2003
8:05 am	say good bye say good bye to the tangerine sky lol fdjlkfaldfdfhfdsdjiufdigfvjifodgjrivnrtrfu its toooo early for me to b up but i woke up and i cant go back to sleep slfdfsldfsaldfsdlafdllsdflksfdlkjvfjklsdfoijawre well lets c friday i had a full day of school lol shut up lol it was fine it was the first day in 3 days that i went to 7 and 8 period lol long story so it was good to finanlyy get all caught up say good bye say good bye say good bye then i came home and then my family came over so i could go out but it was fun cuz i got to chill w. my cousin jeramey how ever u spell his name... but hes a cool kid... we talked alot and we never have really done that before so that was good i have a llot of respect for him hes been thought a lot but yea ok so then lauren called!! and she was at her coz wedding and i talked to her and then david and then this werid kid lol but yea i got to finallyy talk to lauren!!! that was good i miss her lol then she had to go party at the wedding so me and jeramey went for a drive and picked up the pizzas and stuff and then we came home and had dinner and just chilled somemore and then he left at like 11 and i was sleepy so i went to bed and then adam called!!!!!!!! i miss that boy to so i got to talk to him witch was good and yea then i slept lol and i just woke up i gotta work from 10 until 2 today lol im kinda scared i dont wanna mess ne thing up and its kinda compcated ahh lol but i dunno ill do my best and then i gotta babysitt from 3:30 to 7ish and then im goin out i think i dunno what tho i might go to wheaton w. mark or korte i dunno or i might go out w. jeramey i dunno what but yea thats whats goin on right now im out Current Mood: busy Current Music: Coming Clean-- The Getup Kids (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 13th, 2003
8:20 pm	work n stuff had my first day of work today its cool working w. julie but its sooo much to learn at once i couldnt take it all in it was crazy kinda scary i dunno tho lol its a lot man i didnt know it was that hard lol im hopin its gonna get better as i learn it more tho i went on a field trip @ school today and we all got to find out like what were good @ and what jobs we would b good @ and stuff and i got what i wanted to do!! i was sooooo happy!! im gonna b a social worker or something w. phyc or something liket hat i was soooooo happy! so yea i dunno i talked to korte last night and we talked about stuff that i wanted to say to him for a long time but it wastn untill church last night that i relised i had to tell him i need to talk to lauren to but lol its sooo hard to get a hold of that girl @ church @ the meetin it was just as bad as last time if it doesnt get better im gonna quit leadership team cuz i cant take this everyweek ahh oh well... i dunno what im gonna do but yea thats life right now just kinda taking it as it comes.... not much...... well oohhh i went to dr winnys and uped my drugs again but only my 5 mg so thats not bad at all i was happy but the fda said that the one drug im on is bad so i dunno whats gonna happen w. that that kinda sux majorly ahhhhhhh i hate stupid drs. im gonna b a good one man i still havent been able to sit down and do my hw and i dont know y but yea my sis has been really sick the last few days poor baby girl so yea thats it for now im out more later... Current Mood: rushed Current Music: One Day at a time -- tupac and eminem (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
8:07 pm	need a break i didnt go to school yesterday cuz i was sick and i still dont feel good @ all bry was gonna come to school w. me today but i wasnt gonna go cuz i dont feel good but my mom make me go today but yesterday i told bry that we should just get another day.. i feel bad but i didnt know what else to do i hope hes not pissed.... so all i did yesterday was sleep and sleep today i went to school and had to get all my make-up work ahh i hate it and for some reason tonight i just cant sit down and get it done -- well the truth u could slit my thorth and w. my one last breath id say sorry for bleeding on ur shirt--something to thing bout thats a great song i love it and its true to! ok so yea school i cant belive i had to go 2 school today when the whole world is off... my grandma is back in the hospital ahhh i cant even think of something happening to her i dunno... i had to pick up my sis and her friend from my moms work and then we all went to wal-mart and i got farbic!!! omg its sooo cute i got care bears and this cool flame stuff and then penguins i think i gotta make something for lauren out of it 2 lol cuz lol u know lol so yea i guess i dunno im relizing a lot of things this week.... its hard for me to face the fact that i just left nv and no one relised it or cared at all or missed me or ne thing and its taken this long to sink in we were sittin in english 8th period today and my teacher said something that made a ton of sence to me and thats when everything clicked.... so yea now i know y i still go back to nv sometimes even tho its soo hard for me and i know y i still hurt and i yea i dunno... i dunno yet i know now... sometimes i wish i still didnt tho gosh im so werid so yea ne ways..... my grades r really good now so thats good.... lol @ walmart today the lady asked me if i was a school teacher lol hahahah i thought that was soo funny....there are 4 people that if they didnt go to WA i dont think i would have been able to make it and thos people are leigh gosh i love her allyson elizabeth and caleb(gosh hes sucha cuttie) so yea basiclly its only those 4 people that make WA worth it for me and they dont even know it... but they mean a ton to me.... its like for 6 hours a day 5 days a week there all i have except hope that ill make it home and someone will care there..... im starting to find out what really matters... julie called me for her work today yay!!!! i can start working and get $$$ cuz i need it soo bad... im scared i hope everything goes ok... i hope julie and i can i dunno i dunno what i want cuz i know we can never have back our great friendship we had for so long but im hopping for something@ least.... it will b good to talk to her..... im praying for something...... i gotta go to the dr tom ahhh but i get out of school!! so yea the highlight of my day was my walmart trip lol how sad is that lol oh well...i love tuckie i love my baby boy puppy so much hes such a cuttie ive really been bonding w. him the last few days cuz hes always there for me i love him so much i know what im gonna get him for christmas lol i know what im gonna get him and nessa well @ least part of both of them... i got my christmas cards i dunno who im gonna send them to OK I HAVE MY CHRISTMAS DANCE COMING UP @ SCHOOL CUZ WE DONT HAVE A HC SO ITS LIKE OUR HC SOOO NE SINGLE GUY THAT WANTS TO GO W. ME LET ME KNOW!! i dunno what im gonna do for that one... well c i dunno if i even wanna go its gonna we werid i dunno hananha said i could go in her group i dunno tho.. its a dinner and then a dance after it so yea... thats whats goin on in my life..lol can u understand y my head hurts lol not just cuz im sick..lol my english teacher told me that i was cynical in class lol it was kinda funny... could b better and yea now this is a really good song!!! SOMETHING CORPORATE "Konstantine" I can't imagine all the people that you know and the places that you go when the lights are turned down low and I don't understand all the things you've seen but i'm slipping inbetween you and your big dreams it's always you in my big dreams and you tell me that it's over wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover and your restless, and i'm naked you've gotta get out you can't stand to see me shaking no could you let me go? I didn't think so and you don't wanna be here in the future so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past and you don't wanna look much closer cuz your afraid to find out all this hope you had sent into the sky by now had crashed and it did because of me and then you bring me home afraid to find out that you're alone and i'm sleeping in your living room we don't have much room to live I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar maybe cross the country become a rock star and there was hope in me that i could take you there but dammit you're so young well i don't think i care and if i hurt you then i'm sorry please don't think that this was easy then you bring me home cuz we both know what it's like to be alone and i'm dreaming in your living room we don't have much room to live and konstantine is walking down the stairs doesn't she look good standing in her underwear and i was thinking what i was thinking we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere my Konstantine came walking down the stairs and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair and i've been thinking it hurts me thinking that these nights when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere no this is because i can spell konfusion with a k and i like it it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car but this time im alone and i dont see those stars I'm not your star isn't that what you said what you thought this song meant and if this is what it takes just to lie in my mistakes and live with what i did to you and all the hell I put you through I always catch the clock it's 11:11 and now you want to talk it's not hard to dream you'll always be my konstantine konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do no they'll never hurt you like i do no, no, no no no no no no this is to a girl who got into my head with all the pretty things she did hey you know you keep me up in bed this is to a girl who got into my head with all the fucked up things i did hey maybe baby you could keep me up in bed my Konstantine spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen and i said did you know i missed you? [x7] oh god i miss you and then you bring me home and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no and you'll kiss me in your living room i know you'll miss me in your living room cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room we don't have much room i said does anybody need that room? because we all need a little more room to live my Konstantine Current Mood: cynical Current Music: Kind Of Perfect- Armor For Sleep (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 9th, 2003
6:44 am	last 3 days ahh lol crazy mass caous fun baby friday picked nessa up @ 7 lol on her day off poor baby gosh i love u she came to school w. me on her day off so then we drove all the way to my school stopping @ the scary house on the way--uknowy they put grave yards next to roads so if u get in a car crash u just get burried right there lol hahahahahahha--- gosh it was so early but it was fun we went thu school nessa got in trouble like 4 times dude u cant have gum get over it lol jp jp it had to have been one of the best days of school so far this year u have no idea lol it was great and then we drove home and went back to the house but lol didnt go in the basement lol hahaha mucho fun times! then we went back to her house and chilled for like an hour talked to collie and yea then we changed clothes i got to wear jimmys football uniform hahah korte had to give his back before i could wear it so i get jimmys lol i love jimmy he a sweetie then we went to ryans and talked to him for a little bit and then we tried to go to blockbuster to get movies but got lost and so then we went back to rys lol and then we found blockbuster and got 3 really good movies hahahah finding nemo ahahah aww yeaaaa baby and then we went to my dads house and chilled for a bit and then we went and picked up devan ahahah i love that boy hes such a cuttie! and we watched finding nemo lol oh yea devan im like the blue fish ahhahahahaha then korte and brett came lol lets play football lol hahhaha dude im not gonna flash korte get over it man someone needs to keep there hands 2 there self and not grap asses lol jpjpjpjp heeyy look on the pool table lol i told u hahahah dude it was fun then we had to take devan home and so lol we all got in my car me nessa devan korte and brett all in my car lol haha that we a sight then lol i was driving like a physco cuz i could lol and bretts like how did she get her linces lol devan-this is nothing comparted to the old lady lol hahaha-- good times lol the train thing is not working so if everyones a christian and goin to heavan than im gonna go thought it ne ways lol hahahaha we made it all ok so it was all good baby then we came back and i guess when we were gone chris stopped by noo i missed him that was sad but its all good ok then we just chilled somemore and then brett and korte went home and me and nessa tried to watch another movie lol it was movie night but yea that didnt work lol hahaha we finally got some sleep around 2 or 3 ish lol then we woke up at 10ish and went shopping lol we droped the movies off and went to the paint store and got pink and purple paint and circles gosh what a good idea and then we got breakfast ok so then we come back to my house and paint my bathroom and then my clostet omg it looks soo good u have no idea how good it looks and it was so much fun painting it lol i cant belive my dad let us do it and then we went for a drive and stopped @ kortes and then we went home and changed and went out to dinner and then nessa baby had to go home soooooooo sadddddd i missed her lol and then my dad had tics for a play but he was sick and wanted to stay home pj and care broke up and she called me really upset but my dad said i couldnt go get her poor baby girl it will be ok hun hes not worth it then i finally got some sleep i was sooo sleepy lol and then i work up really early this moring so im updating and then im gonna go make breakfast so yea this weekend was so much fun it was crazy who would have thought lol but yea so im out now more later.... Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Bowling for Soup- Emily-- lol dont ask lol (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 8th, 2003
1:48 pm	painting painting paiting here w. nessa and we got bord so we went to the paint store and just got done painting my bathroom lol hahahahah Current Mood: artistic (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 1st, 2003
10:41 pm	grab ur keys well go for a ride... one no one will ever forget... (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 26th, 2003
3:38 pm	umm well my life has been crazy the last few weeks and yea i dont wanna go in to it but it is starting to calm down so this is just gonna b a update of my weekend ok so friday went to school had a ok day school is good now but its just kinda hard for me i dunno its werid cuz yea im not gonna go in to it but its hard to explain the physconess that goes on in my head but yea w/e not like it matters so then i came home from school @ 4 and i talked 2 nessa until 5 when i had to go babysitt and that was good cuz boy did i need $$$$$$ u have no idea lol so i babysat TT and maetta lol and i didnt get off untill 1130ish so i just came home and went to bed lol i know kinda a boring fri but its ok i go $ then sat i picked nessa baby up at 10 and we chilled @ her house for a bit and then we went to panera for lunch!! lol it was sooo much fun and it was really good i parked in this spot and i did a good job and this lady comes and parks next to me and then when i was trying to back out shes like maybe next time u shouldnt park to close-- wow lol i was pissed dude it was that bitchs fault not mine but eh i got over it then we went to WALMART!!!!!!!!!! the greatest store in the world if ur with nessa lol we caused mass i mean mass causos in the walmart lol we bought all this random crap lol we bought a my little pony video lol and carebears and a cd thing and cotton candy and ok so nessas dream is 2 have underwear in my car lol so we bought lol 1.50 underwear so in the back of my car there is these skany ass ho cheap thongs lol a pink black striped one and a blue one lol its so random lol its great lol so walmart was great lol it all ways is its fun to act young again and not care at all then i went to the pet store and our puppy lukey is still there!!!! so we played w. it and 2 other ones and then reagon and payton came ohh there soo cute i love girls! and lol we were calling all these people and were like hey u wanna buy me a puppy lol cuz we wanted 2 take it home! then we left and went to kaites house and raided it and watched out new movie!! and i stole here hc pic!! she said she looks bad and wouldtn give it 2 ne one but can got me 1!! then we went back to nessas and chilled more but then i had to get home for dinner cuz i promised my dad id would eat w. him so i did and then bry calls me so i went and picked him up and we chilled @ his house for a bit and then we went driving and we went to normantown rd and maxed out my car!! lol that was sweet!! then brys like lets go 2 jewel and c whos workin so we go there and i get out of my car and then i c korte run 2 us im like wtf is goin on so hes there w. chris and christine and julie lol wow shocker there very awkward k so then we go 2 jewel and talk for a bit and then me and bry leave and go back 2 his house and then i had to get home so yea that was my sat ok now i can totally understand julie and christine dislikeing me alot but i dont understand y the hate is soo strong like it almost killed them to c me i mean gosh it wasnt my idea to 2 them all but we can all be civil cant we gosh w/e kyle had a huge party and asked me 2 come but i didnt wanna so after i came home from brys i was in for the night sun had to go to early church and a meeting during late church um yea dont wanna go into that eirther but w.e and then yea korte was there but he told me that he wastn gonna b there so it was good 2 c him lol then i had to take andrew home then i went to my sis soccer game w/ tuckie and they won so that was good and then i got food and i just got home and i have to go back to church 2night for a big dinner thing and im in the movie lol so that should b fun well thats it for now hopefullly ill start updateing more again well c how school goes and everything so im out Current Mood: cold Current Music: kels has the tv on really really loud (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 18th, 2003
8:57 am	once again a mass update monday didnt have school just chilled at home didnt feel that good didnt want to do ne thing then brybry and mike randomly show up at my house it was so good to chill with them have not done that in such a long time we went driving i got to drive mikes car and then mike droped his car off @ my house and we all got into my car and then my mom freaked so we had to go back and i got grounded for a week and then we went out again and mike and bry were in mikes car and i was in mine and then we pulled over and bry was driving my car and mike was in the back and i was in the front and then i see my mom going down the street and she ground me for another week for lettin bry drive fuck that blows oh well my fault nothin i can do about it im not as good as julie was w. it oh and i find out that julie is really pissed at me like beyond what i thought..... i dunno..... tuesday was a boring day went to my dads after school weds church!! ry really really hurt him self playing football and i feel so bad for him he has really bad whiplash on his neck and is on codein well i have to go ill finish my mass update when i get home im not even 1/2 done but this is all i have time for now... Current Mood: groggy Current Music: the ground folds- senses fail (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 13th, 2003
10:25 am	one mass i mean mass update--10 days long!! wow what a week im like still on this high i love it :) ok here we go! last time i updated was friday-- ok friday night i picked up nessa and we went to goodwill lol and got 2 ducks for kaite lol it was soo much fun lol and then we went to cub and got 2 pints of ben and jerrys and eat them lol hahaha nessa's dad just lost his job so she was in a depresion and theres only one way to fix that lol :)!! then we went to the pet store that we got tuckie at and played with puppys!! we were there for about an hour just sittin there w. a puppy just playing with it! then we went to walmart and cause mass caous lol good times!!!! then i had to take her home and then i went home and that was my friday night lol then sat WCA homecomming ahhh lol ok got ready and picked up elizabeth and then called missy and had to go pick her and her friend kaite up so were driving back to the soccer game lol we get there and stay for a bit we lost 4 to 0 man we sux and then we saw the floats lol sr won then soph and then jr oh yea we can never win and then the freshies lol then i had to go to the mall and pick up my homecoming dress (for nv hc) cuz it was gettin hemmed so we go to the mall and eat lunch and then get my dress and then go driving lol we go 4 wheeling in some new house place and got my car soooooooo dirty so we had to go get it washed lol so we drive around for a long time looking for a car wash lol i mean we r by my school out in the middle of no where lol so we r driving and talking about how much we love the song u know i wanna lick lick lick lick u from ur head to ur toes and i wanna move move from the bed down down down to the floor lol and then i turn b96 on the omg the song is on lol so im not really paying atttion to my driving and im speeding and then theres a cop and he pulls me over ahhhhhhh i start crying and he gives me a ticket and so now i have a 75$ ticket and so i drive back to school drop off all 3 girls and call my mom crying and tell her i got a tick and she said that i had to come home so i left hc and didnt really get to go so i went home and my mom said i gotta handle it like a adult and pay for everything so i did i payed my ticket and now im just waiting to get my liences back so that was my wca hc but my car was still really dirty from off roading and so i woke up early and before church on sunday i got it washed!! so that was good sunday nothin excing happend korte didnt go 2 church lol collie called him and he said that he was up till 4 last night so he wasnt gonna come lol so then i went to core and that was my sunday monday i had school and then dr. deb we just talked bout life nothin new really and that was that tuesday was a 1/2 day and i had feild day!!! football!!!!!!!!!!! yayya!!! so much fun!! i played really goood and got a ton of playing time i was so happy but in the end we lost by one touchdown not cool at all so my football is over with im sad about that i had a lot of fun!! then we went to the mall (me elizabeth and missy) and then we went back to school and then i went home and that was tues fun stuff lol weds nothin exciting school and then chuch! andrew gave me the pic form for the dance i was happy!! he got the tics!!!!!!! thurs i was gonna babysit but then they called and told me that they were in FL so that was good cuz i needed time to get things reaady for this weekend but i kinda was counting on the $$ but oh well ok then i got to go get my toes and nails done!! i got the color of my dress like its scary how close it is on my toes and i got tips on my hands!! so i have really long claws lol hahah then i went to my dads lauren called it was good to talk to her and then lol thurday is my tv night i watched my shows and went home friday was nvs homecoming game but it was lisas 16 bday party so i picked up nessa and we went out to find lisa a bday gift nothin like last min shopping lol so we got her some cooll stuff and then we drove to lisas lol she lives in lile so that was a drive and then we had a great time her friends r sooo cooooll lol i called julie and adam like 1000000 times to find out if nv was winning lol in the end we won!!!!! 42 to 0!!! oh yea baby!!!! good times!! lisa's party was great!!! she got a red car nice baby ur takin me driving lol!!!! then i had to b home by 12 so i left @ 11 cuz its about 45 minsaway and thats all i needed is to b late so i got home and the cubs won so thats good for all u cubs fans! then saturday!!!!!!!!! HOMECOMMING!!!!!!!!!! ivee been waiting for this for soooooo long i woke up took a shower got dressed and then got my car washed they did a really good job it looked great! then i went and got my hair done at first i didnt like it but then it grew on me lol i liked it in the end then i got gas for my car and then i had to go pick up the flower i got it and it looked really nice and then i went home and droped it off and picked up my other pair of shoes that nessa was gonna wear so i went to her house and droped them off and i found out that one of collies really good friends got hit by a car she was soo sad and cryin i felt so bad for her poor baby i love u collie then i had to get home cuz i was meetin my mom at home to do my makeup i was kinda scared cuz this was the first time i didnt go and get it done but we did it and i thought it looked really good then i got in my dress and then my dad came and we got pics and then i went and picked up andrew and then we went to katies and took more and more and more pix then we all went to dinner lol i parked my car lol nessa and ryry and then we had a great dinner it was a ton of fun!! everything went to great i was sooo happy!! then we paid it was 240 something total and about 38 per couple so it all worked out then nessa and ry left :(:(:(:( cry and andrew and i went to the dance and we got our pixs and then kaite and the rest of the group came and we got a big group pix!! that was fun i never had one of thoses bfore and it was cool i wish we would have done that before! cuz it was soo cute then the dance started and it was soo much fun all my friends were there it was great we danced and danced and yea i danced w. bry alot and i guess julie wasnt happy about that i feel bad about that one i didnt mean to make her mad or ne thing i dunno me and bry and dances it was a turnabout fashback im sorry julie if ur reading this for dancin w. bry -- i had to teach andrew how to dance lol that was fun i dunno he did good lol and rara was there!!! i got to dance w. her and care and all of them it was great!!! i have not seen some of them in sooo long then the dance was over and we said our good byes that was sad and yea it was rainny lol hahah it was a goooooddd homecoming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then sunday i got my pics back cuz i did one hour right after church they look soooo cute i was happy!! then i went out to breackfast w. my rents and guess who was there korte w. his dad and grandma lol so i got to talk 2 him lol how random is that it was fun tho!! and then core and yea thats it this is my mass update thats all for now im out... Current Mood: surprised Current Music: all my bestfriends are metalheads- less than jake (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 5th, 2003
9:14 pm	weekend update gosh i think im gettin sick ahh no i cant get sick i was thinking and a year ago at this time i had mono lol and it was homecoming and i went to stag w. julie and sam lol good times!!! lauren and korte just started dating and chris was dating stef and allen and morgan lol and brett and this chick and then we all went to bretts house after homecoming lol kinda sad thinkin bout it.... ne wayz this weekend was crazy.... god i dont even wanna talk about it im done (Comment on this)
Friday, October 3rd, 2003
5:25 pm	week update really fast b4 i go 2 nessa's so last time i updated i think was monday and i cant go out until i get 2 loads of wash in and then im off to nessas so i decieded to update as i wait for the first load to b done.. tuesday.... i had a drs apt-- and so i got to leave school and drive on 88 all by my self so i went to the drs and then i had places to go i had to pick up my new bible i had to get a phone changer for my car i had to drop the new meds the dr gave me off at the jewel and then i had to go back and pick them up and yea so just a hole bunch of running around and then i did my hw @ my dads and when to bed i was sleepy lol ok then weds-------- could a day get ne crazier lol i dont think so... went to school and yea nothin exciting there and then i had to go 2 float buliding @ elise's after school so i drove there and yea no prob w. that and then i got there and painted a little bit but i didnt like the work @ all so they asked if ne one w. a car would go pick up and jr class shirts @ the t-shirt place --i was like yea i got my car and i dont like this @ all so ill goo so mrs main said that i needed someone to go with me and jerame said he would go ahhh i dont really like him and hes always hittin on me but i didnt have a choose so then we got lost going there and i had to call the # and ask them how to get there and they told me so i made it and my car was filled w. boxes lol then on the way home somehow i got lost and ended up in oak brooke and i was sooo lost i didnt know what to do i called everyone and noone was home or they didnt know where my school was so then i called bry i know but i was lost and i didnt know what to do so he helped me thank goodness and he was reallly really nice about it thank you so much brian i dont know what i would have done with out you so i talked to him on the phone the whole car ride back it was nice and then i got there and went to church and after church nessa and i went and got ice cream and then i took her home and then i went home.... thursday i got my tic for WCA homecomming and yea school and then i went to babysitt fun stuff i got $$ then i went to get my car washed cuz it was so dirty and then i picked up korte and we went back to my dads house and chilled for a little bit and then i took him home and then i picked up adam and we got coffee and then i went back to my moms and watched er lol then today so far.. woke up and went to school only a 1/2 day and i was gonna have 2 football games but it rained so they moved them to tues so i left and was on my way home and my mom made me go out to lunch w. her and my grandparents not fun and then i went to nvhs and saw some peeps always good times there and then i had to go 2 the jewel and get stuff for my english project this weekend and as i was turing out i fish tailed and almost got in a really really bad crash thank goodness i didnt i dont know what i would have done if i did but its ok all is good oh and some thing really werid happened in math class today vals like do u know who likes u and im like no(im thinkin wtf is this r we back in middle school) and shes like oh then i shouldnt tell u and then luc' is like i thought u were dateing kevin and im like what no were just friends he lived by me and is good friends w. one of my good friends and i might drive him to school but thats it were not dating ... so yea that was werid but im gonna go 2 nessa's now so more later... Current Mood: calm Current Music: Say it aint so---weezer hahaha (Comment on this)
Monday, September 29th, 2003
7:53 pm	same old thing sunday woke up and went to church all my kids were there its so much fun i love it korte was there too it was really really good to b w. nessa and care and collie and rara u know that crew that i love to much then korte drove me to my dads house and i asked him if i could go downtown naperville & see cjs band play and he said yes so we drove down there and there was this gocart racing thing so there was a lot of people there and there was this car show thing so that was kinda cool in a way lol haha so yea then we saw cjs band and then korte droped me back off @ home i fiished my homework and then picked up nessa baby lol we went to cub and got mashmellows and chotolate!! lol it was so omuch fun and then we went to church and it was really good as always me and jess r really getting close i know what shes goin thu and can totlaly relate and she knows how i feel and can relate to me shes soo cool shes a sr and is just a cool chick lol so yea then i went home and went to sleep i think im gettin sick so ive been sleeping a lot alot lol then today i woke up and went to school and school was ok.... i dunno its just long and im not in the mood for school and then from school me and mel went to the mall and i found a hc dress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was soo happy and i got a ton of new stuff too so that was good then i got home and korte called cuz he wanted to tell me he asked lauren to homecoming again and she said yes this time now im happy for both of them but sometimes its just like come on i mean we all knew they were gonna end up going together so why do they play all the games i mean it just makes it harder on everyone sometimes i just dont understand at all so yea and the bears r playing and they better win and i have no idea if im gonna do my homework or not i dont feel like it at all well c yea just not in the greatest mood right now but w.e more later........... Current Mood: moody Current Music: I will remember you- Sarah Mclachlan (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 27th, 2003
10:20 pm	wow i was just reading the lyrics to there is by boxcar racer omg so many memories come back to me i dont know i was thinking about the NV vs WV and fresh year it was the same week as Sept 11 and julie and i got money to help everyone it new york for interact and then last year it was at WV and it was the night lauren got with korte and julie and i got in a fight wow i know random memories and then last night it was just a all out good time and we all got along and just chilled and watched a great game its just werid for me u dont understand how i feel i dont even understand everything i had powder puff today we r really really good! i was happy but i got hit pretty hard and im really sore it was so much fun tho and then i got gas in my car for the first time lol i member the first time i went with julie to get gas and we had no idea how to do it so we had to call korte and ask him how to get gas lol hahaha good times man really good times lol after powder puff i was soo sleepy so i took a nap lol i know im pathic but then i woke up and just chilled i dont feel that good at all adam asked me to go c a movie with him but i didnt cuz i dunno i just needed to stay home and sleep and do nothing for a night so yea thats what i did today i have a headache and im really sleepy so i think thats it for now oh and tuckie doesnt have to sleep in his cage ne more lol hes soo happy about that one :) Current Mood: sore Current Music: i have there is in my head (Comment on this)
Friday, September 26th, 2003
10:59 pm	a long long day!!! NVHS!! BABY!!! hmmm where to begain.. lets start at the start lol well last night i didnt go 2 bed until like 1ish witch is late for a girl like me that goes to bed at 10ish everynight-- i need my sleep lol-- so i woke up at 5:30 i was scared cuz i we runnin late i wake up at 5 every other moring but i slept in nooo so then i got ready and left and went to school got my good parking spot!! and walked into school talked w. elizabeth and mel and liz and elise and alex eh i dunno my wca crew so i went to first period and we were talking bout med. for mental illness and christians most of all of u know that i do take meds for depression and that i see nothing wrong with it and i am very open about it i feel that i can help other people that have the same thing goin on in there life cuz yea i dunno i i could not have made it with out people who had it come and talk to me a about so i try to do the same for others ok ne ways so a few kids r all like chirstians dont need meds they only make it worse and they take god out of life and crap liek this so me being the person that i am raise my hand and im all like im a christian and im on meds for depression and there r tons more like me everywhere and then i found out what a mistake that was for the rest of the period i got told what a sinner i was and how i was living in sin... i dont regreat telling them because i c it as if they cant accpent me for who i am depression and all then thats there prob not mine so w.e the rest of the day went by fast cuz we had half a day thank goodness so then at 12 i drove back home and stopped at micky ds for lunch and then got into naperville and whent back to neuqua i really dont know y i did but for some reason i did it was 8 period there and it was julies opt so i talked to her and walked around and just chilled for a bit it was great it was soo werid i almost cryed lol ask julie i was all out of breath at stuff it was like i didnt knwo waht to do it was really werid so then that period was over and i saw alot of people that i have not seen in such a long time it was werid i talked w. some of evans friends some kids that i hung out w. this summer and they told me that the kid has a new girlfriend..not sure how i feel about that but its not liek i have a choose so w.e then i found korte and then lauren and i walked korte to class and then went to laurens class and i talked to brian omg can u belive that one it was good to talk to him i really did miss him i know its sad but true then i got kicked out by some lady and she made me leave so then i just went driving for a long time iwas cryin i dunno just to much at once with everything at school and then coming back to neuqua it was alot for me i was gonna pick up lauren and korte but didnt get back in time and they were pissed so then i picked up korte and then lauren and we just drove for a little bit and then elizabeth called and said that she was coming so i took lauren and korte home and then i had to get home so i would b there when elizabeth got there so then she came and we had to go get my dad so he could pick up his car so we did and then we called up bry and julie and found out where they were and they were in the parking gartage tail gateing so we went there it was soooooo much fun omg i miss things like that so much u have no idea how much chris and tony and adam and omg just everyone it was so great i got big hugs from everyone it was just what i needed and elizabeth loved them and then the po po came and said that we couldnt have a grill to cook the food on and said that we all had to get out of there in five mins or else they were gonna take us to jail so me and elizabeth just left and went driving we went all over and i showed her my school and she could not belive how big it was and then we just chilled and talked gosh she is so cool i love that girl and then we came to my dads house and ate pizza and had pie but then she had to go home cuz she has to run early in the morn tom so then i went to the game and i saw everyone again it was so great i had so much fun and care was there and nessa and ry and andrew and katie to! and everyone it was so great we had to much fun we won 28-7!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEUQUA!!!!!!!! wv sux soo bad....sorry nessa baby lol so yea it was tons oh fun!!! korte got to play!!!!!!!!!! he did so good i was soo proud of him!!!!!! and then i went home and now i think im gonna go 2 bed cuz im sooo sleepy but yea so i had a lot that happend today it was crazy but so much fun thats all for now more later.... Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: none right now everyone else is sleeping (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 25th, 2003
8:58 pm	2 weeks its been about 2 weeks since the last time u updated i dont even want to go into all that has happened wow well the big football game is tom night nv vs wv go nv elizabeth is gonna come w. me i have a 1/2 day tom and i think i want to go to nv when i get out im going to hc andrew asked yea i know but hey i wanna go and i know ill have fun no matter who i go w. cuz i just love dances so much im drivin to school now i love it im so pissed at my parents but what else is new this school really makes me see how bad of rents i really do have cuz everyone @ wca has the perfect family liz has never had store boughten bread her mom makes homemade bread for her every morn wtf i did meet mark hes cool hes an emo kid and he has depression and shit like that i like him i can relate to him sometimes i just dont know ne more the last few weeks i feel have been really hard on a lot of people including me i have so much homework to do tonight but ive only started on a little i think im gonna pull an all nighter tonight and i dont feel good so i dunno how im gonna do it ill try well c what happens but overall school has gotten better i babysatt today and yea i love it i dont need a job when i can babysitt and i love to b w. little kids nick and luke call me "KK" cuz they cant say my name i love it its the cuteist thing in the world lol nick said im part of his family hahaha there so cute i love little kids so much i love the uncondishional love they give to ne one i know im pathic but w.e my puppys good to i love him to hes so cute what else oh well i still got a lot of stuff i have to work on but things overall r gettin better witch is good my schools homecoming is next week its 15 a tic so ne one that wants to go w. me can guys and chicks lol its gonna b tons of fun its like a big canavil its not a dance so yea all come just let me know i need to get a hc dress ahhh i dunno what im gonna do about that one oh and my back still hurts and my mom said that i shouldnt go to the other dr cuz she said she is gonna b to scared to hear what he has to say cuz she donstn want to think ne thing is wrong cuz shes werid like that i dunno and then kels is ok but shes in 7th grade and everyone knows how hard that is so shes annoying oh i got to help megans little bro ask this freshie to homecoming today that was kinda cool lol so yea what else um... i really do love all my friends so much they r the most amazing people i know wow its crazy how cool they r lol i know i know im physco but w.e dont care im so sick of gettin fat so u think that i would start to do something about it oh no not me i just sit on my lazy ass more and eat more bad food oh well i dunno i really should start to try... its just that they uped the drugs again and ne one that knows me good know how hard that is for me so in a few weeks things will go back to norm. thank goodness and yea other wise life is boring rufio fall out boy laurenlaurenandme oct 16 cant wait its gonna kick major ass and lets c umm yea thats whats goin on @ this point if im leavin ne thing out or u have ne more ??s just let me know and sorry 4 not updatein lol who ever asked me to this is 4 u lol Current Mood: working Current Music: none right now but i think i hear my hw callin me lol (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 13th, 2003
9:07 am	dunno i really dunno what 2 do i just want to sleep not cuz im sleepy cuz im not just cuz i want everything to stop and i just want to get away from it all lauren said thats not good she said thats depresstion w/e i know im depressed and i hate my school they ok i dont understand my school said that depresstion is a sin--how can something u cant help be a sin--depression is past down my dad has is his mom has it her mom has it her brother has it i mean like everyone in our famly so w.e fuck them well i guess that i just dont know about anything anymore my back hurts really bad i have to babysitt and i have powderpuff today i dont really want to go but i gotta go get ready oh and my car is in the shop so i have to drive my dads car all weekend and adams gone so i dotn know how im going to talk to and i dont know im just so sick oh is im out for now (1 Comment |Comment on this)