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| Um...yes how much is ur Whopper? |
[22 Nov 2003|10:32pm] |
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Went to the movies with Shelby,Hayley,Samarah,Michelle,Morgan,and Taylor!it was awesome!we had the freakin time!wooo!we pretty much spent the whole time avoiding Andrew and then we went and forced Samarah to talk to him! Cry cry boo hoo sad times and good times! Umm…is it me or is there an earthquake??No its just fat people!hahah!that was sooo funny!and then we saw the guy from Even Stevens and Michelle got his autograph…..wat a nerd!haha!I love her!and then we played football with everyones shoes!hahha!good times good times!Morgan is so funny!ah I love ya man!I felt bad for you too.split personalities!I hope your better now Morgan! And then Shelby ahahhhaah!look at me im a groupie!o ya I have that guy on my wall!hahah! me and Shelby are gunna die together!woooooo!and Morgans gunna push us in carts! Hahahha! Toys R Us! Damn howd we end up there???lol.well we had the best freakin time ever and it just kept getting better!o man and then we went to Mc.D's and Morgan goes uh yes...mam...how much is your Whopper?Mam!how much is your whopper?!ok now im agitated!hahah!Morgan ur so funny!I just had a honey stick so im really hyper! Woo! Ok well I g2g now!love you guys!
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[22 Nov 2003|10:32pm] |
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Went to the movies with Shelby,Hayley,Samarah,Michelle,Morgan,and Taylor!it was awesome!we had the freakin time!wooo!we pretty much spent the whole time avoiding Andrew and then we went and forced Samarah to talk to him! Cry cry boo hoo sad times and good times! Umm…is it me or is there an earthquake??No its just fat people!hahah!that was sooo funny!and then we saw the guy from Even Stevens and Michelle got his autograph…..wat a nerd!haha!I love her!and then we played football with everyones shoes!hahha!good times good times!Morgan is so funny!ah I love ya man!I felt bad for you too.split personalities!I hope your better now Morgan! And then Shelby ahahhhaah!look at me im a groupie!o ya I have that guy on my wall!hahah! me and Shelby are gunna die together!woooooo!and Morgans gunna push us in carts! Hahahha! Toys R Us! Damn howd we end up there???lol.well we had the best freakin time ever and it just kept getting better!o man and then we went to Mc.D's and Morgan goes uh yes...mam...how much is your Whopper?Mam!how much is your whopper?!ok now im agitated!hahah!Morgan ur so funny!I just had a honey stick so im really hyper! Woo! Ok well I g2g now!love you guys!
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ok nothing new...just some stuff im not allowed to say on here.if ya wanna know then IM me.well i might go to the movies again tonight but i dont know so ill get bak to you on that one.my friend Phillip wrote a poem! check it out:
I end my suffering and pain,
with this Knife to my vein.
Putting this world behind me,
and all the things that would always remind me,
of what i went through
when i was with you.
<3~Phillip
damn Phillip even rhymed!what a good poet..or at least i think he is.ok people gotta get the info on the movies so ill see ya later!
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ok well i went to the movies and saw these people there:
Zach
James
Alex
Robby
Collin
Edan
Noam
Adam
Nick
Jerritt
Max
Phillip
Jen
Sharon
Hailey
Amber
Homeroom Buddy!
Alicia
Karin
Laurel
Sari
and some other people i cant remember!well we watched The Cat in the Hat!that was an inappropriete movie! wat kind of childs movie was that!well i sat next to Zach and this other guy named Alex(not No'Elani) and he was hott!Jen likes him and hes really funny so i dont blame her!ok well me and the other Alex had the best time talkin
about some stuff like.......funny stuff!ah fun times fun times!well we had fun and im all hyper right now so uh im gunna go do some stuff.~bye
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| "Your so Emo online"Alicia |
[17 Nov 2003|03:45pm] |
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well thats true....i am emo online....i just am wat i am.the reason im not like that at skool is cuz one time i was really bummed cuz something really bad happened and this one guy (who ld like to keep anonymous) was like god stop trying to be a Jen Curtain wanna be....ur such an emo wanna be......that hurts.......after that i tried to be more happy at skool,its just really hard....i mean i know jen has her probs and that they suk a whole buncha ass but shes not the only one with probs.shes just more open with them and shes the loved one and so if someones sad that automatically makes them a Jen/Emo wanna be.i mean that sux ass...i mean all probs suk and i know she has a lot but that doesnt make her the only one.if you think about it wen have i really ever seemed happy at skool??i mean ill laugh and make jokes but im never really happy.i mean i always have tried to hide it ever since that "insidence".i mean Jen is great and i never got the chance to know her but is Landen and Jesse and Janna and Alicia and Laurel are friends with her then of course shes koo.i always feel basd cuz i never got the chance to really know her after wat i did to Sharon and i regret ever doing that.i mean i was fukin high offa hot fudje.Sharon im really sorry and Jen that night the things i said...they werent true...its just i didnt know you and i was all drugged and.....you get it right??i can never really be me wen im at skool but no one gives right??whether im me or anyone else ill always be a no one.....dont really try to care ne more....sorry for bein a butt guys its just me and i cant really change that.....
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| "Your so Emo online"Alicia |
[17 Nov 2003|03:28pm] |
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well thats true....i am emo online....i just am wat i am.the reason im not like that at skool is cuz one time i was really bummed cuz something really bad happened and this one guy (who ld like to keep anonymous) was like god stop trying to be a Jen Curtain wanna be....ur such an emo wanna be......that hurts.......after that i tried to be more happy at skool,its just really hard....i mean i know jen has her probs and that they suk a whole buncha ass but shes not the only one with probs.shes just more open with them and shes the loved one and so if someones sad that automatically makes them a Jen/Emo wanna be.i mean that sux ass...i mean all probs suk and i know she has a lot but that doesnt make her the only one.if you think about it wen have i really ever seemed happy at skool??i mean ill laugh and make jokes but im never really happy.i mean i always have tried to hide it ever since that "insidence".i mean Jen is great and i never got the chance to know her but is Landen and Jesse and Janna and Alicia and Laurel are friends with her then of course shes koo.i always feel basd cuz i never got the chance to really know her after wat i did to Sharon and i regret ever doing that.i mean i was fukin high offa hot fudje.Sharon im really sorry and Jen that night the things i said...they werent true...its just i didnt know you and i was all drugged and.....you get it right??i can never really be me wen im at skool but no one gives right??whether im me or anyone else ill always be a no one.....dont really try to care ne more....sorry for bein a butt guys its just me and i cant really change that.....
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i watched a movie at my friend Julien's house.it was really scary!i was holding on to Phillip the whole time1it was so fun!well i dont know wat the movie was called......hmm...o and i love my new background!thanx Janna thanx Laurel!love you guys!ok well my sis is at homecomeing and i got to help her get ready!shes so pretty!its not fair! she gets the pretty geans and i get the smart geans!i mean how gay is that??lol.ya well shes really lucky cuz she has a great bf and a great lil sis ^_^.ok now im bored as hell and im scared as hell....i might have to sleep with my mother.lol.ok well im waiting for people to sign on cuz pretty much everyones gone.ok well im goin to Phillips bar mitzvah(im not a jew so i dont know how to spell it!)!yay!fun for me!hes soooooo cute!i love him!ok laters guys!and you know wat my broken heart wont show up wen i do it c look
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.....hes going out with another grl.....again.::tear:: wats the use right?theres no hope for people like me?omfg my friend Chris has cancer!hes in the hospital!his mom called me and she was crying and she told me!i started crying!poor Chris! ........life is so gay.even the nicest people get into shitting events and im not talkin bout me. ::sigh:: i feel so poopy.i wish tat could be a mood.god lifes gay.why is it that nothing ever goes good? he dumps her to go out with someone else.im just gunna stop cuz one day im gunna hurt myself......i mean i already have but that doesnt matter.ok well im gunna go now...laters
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.....hes going out with another grl.....again.::tear:: wats the use right?theres no hope for people like me?omfg my friend Chris has cancer!hes in the hospital!his mom called me and she was crying and she told me!i started crying!poor Chris! ........life is so gay.even the nicest people get into shitting events and im not talkin bout me. ::sigh:: i feel so poopy.i wish tat could be a mood.god lifes gay.why is it that nothing ever goes good? he dumps her to go out with someone else.im just gunna stop cuz one day im gunna hurt myself......i mean i already have but that doesnt matter.ok well im gunna go now...laters
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Never say I love u
if it isnt really there
Never talk bout feelins
if you really don't care
Never hold my hand
if u'r gonna break my heart
Never say u are gonna
if u dont plan to start
Never look into my eyes
If all u do is lie
Never say hello
If u realy mean goodbye
If u really mean forever
Then please say ull try
Never say forever
Because forever makes me cry
~by Nick
hey Nick dont be sad ok?you know you guys were cute and you never know cuz wat if she takes ya bak?and its like ive bin saying forever.....if god wants you two together then you guys will be together..if not then theres someone else thats just waiting for someone like you.its better that u had someone unlike people like me who have no one and had no one well i did but....ok u dont need to know that.so anyways dont be sad buddy cuz believe me youll move on and it does hurt but after a while with the comfort and support of your friends you know youll be fine.your a nice guy and there is someone youll find out there.its better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all...or w/e.belive me bud it sux a lot of ass but youll get over it.i cant make ya just forget her but im here for support and that i know i can do.now buddy clear your mind and dont be sad.ok??if youre sad then im sad...then we're all sad and u start this whole chain of sadness. your too kool to be sad like some of us ::cough me cough:: and u know u dont wanna be like me right?? yup yup.ok c ya laters buddy! and remember dont be sad!TURN THAT FROWN UP SIDE DOWN!!!
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went to the movies and saw:
No'Elani
Alex
Zach
David
Amber
Jamie
William
Jennie
Nick
Landen
Aysha
Sarah
Beccy
Sarah (other)
and some other people
ok well we watched looney toons and that was gay and boring!dont watch it!well i mean it wasnt that bad but w/e.ok well there was this fight with all these black people and the police were all over the place!i didnt know wat was happening cuz we were outside and then someone said that one of them had a gun and i ran inside and screamed SHOOOOT MEEE!hahah!they should have!and this one grl threw her drink on them!hahah!fun fun!ok well and besides that i got so hyper off Landens Caffine Drink....he said the lady gave her extra caffine.he bit his straw and it cut my lip!ouchie!lol.ok well i was surprised cuz this time Zach didnt ask me to carry him!hahah!miracles do happen!lol.ok well im here ya nothin new and im talkin to people.yes yes.fun fun.i g2g and kill my bro now!laters!
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heeeeeeeeeeee dumped her!wooo!life just got so much better!woooohooo!come on lets throw a party!wooohooo!fun fun fun fun!::make believe fart noise goin in her face:: hahahahhah!punk!!!!hahahah! woooooo hooooooo! come on guys lets dance!wooooo!
much love
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im sad..just like the rest of this world....but u dont care....right?
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[12 Nov 2003|06:20pm] |
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I loved you so much, I cried for you.
I loved you so much, but you never knew.
I loved you so much, you were in my dreams
But you didn’t like me the slightest bit it seems.
You were the only reason I went to school.
I loved you so much, but I was just a fool.
I loved you so much; I carved your name in my skin.
I loved you so much, forever it was scarred in.
I loved you so much, but you never did see
I loved you so much, but you never loved me.
<3 by Ms.Janna Abad
wow thats some deep shit.....::sigh::not deep enough....so sad......"it doesnt mater cuz we're all gunna die anyways"haha.Janna i just love you!ok well i know something and im crying....someone that i like is gunna ask out one of my friends....wow he even told me too....of course we're just friends cuz no one gives bout me right? too sad to care....comment if u want.....or just kill me instead...
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I loved you so much, I cried for you.
I loved you so much, but you never knew.
I loved you so much, you were in my dreams
But you didn’t like me the slightest bit it seems.
You were the only reason I went to school.
I loved you so much, but I was just a fool.
I loved you so much; I carved your name in my skin.
I loved you so much, forever it was scarred in.
I loved you so much, but you never did see
I loved you so much, but you never loved me.
<3 by Ms.Janna Abad
wow thats some deep shit.....::sigh::not deep enough....so sad......"it doesnt mater cuz we're all gunna die anyways"haha.Janna i just love you!ok well i know something and im crying....someone that i like is gunna ask out one of my friends....wow he even told me too....of course we're just friends cuz no one gives bout me right? too sad to care....comment if u want.....or just kill me instead...
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ok i just went to the movies and this Oren guy is pissing me off!he fucking has the nerve to just blow off Alicia! first of all mister u dont know wat ur missing!we're talking about Alicia here!
~Shes nice
~Shes pretty
~Shes funny
~and shes Alicia wat more do i have to say?!?!?!
im gunna kick this guys butt!HARD!
ok well on the bright side...our movie was good well the beginning cuz thats all i saw and then we had fun walking around and umm we met up with Jen and Alicia and all of them and we hung out and thats where the Oren shit happened!ugh im mad again!SOMEONE GIVE ME HIS SN PLEASE!!I WANT TO HURT HIM REALLY BAD!! Alicia dont worry about it we all love you and hes the one getting the bad end out of this.this just means ur open to meat better guys out there that are just for you!dont be sad and dont let him get to you!your great so dont get all down cuz everyone loves you and hes just gay!!screw him!i love you Alicia!never be sad cuz hes just a slow learner!he doesnt know how great you really are!I LOVE YOU ALICIA!!
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today was a good day!
~1st period we had a sub and we just messed around the whole period.Alicia and Becca moved their seats next to me and then they got in trouble!hahha!funny funny!
~HR Mr Herrera was our sub and he just talked and talked and talked the whole period about getting good grades.and then he said "for those of you who pass this skool" and looked at Karin!hahha!
~2nd period i put stuff in Nick D.'s hood and he didnt notice until Nick told him!awwi put a popper in his hood and so before he took it out i socked his hood and it popped!haha!the teacher didnt even notice.and then Alicia was making fun of our teacher cuz i swear our teachers on happy pills!haha!then after class i was sipping my water and Nick just cam out of no where and pushed it so it went dowm my shirt!
~Nutrition i got Nick bak and i poured water on him and then i spent the rest of nutrition hiding from Nick and Nick.lol.
~3rd period we just hung out and Zach said he lost his pervertedness wich was a complete lie!
lol.and then we helped Linsey with her bf troubles.wen 3rd period was over i carried Zach!haha!
~4th period me and Laurel were non dresses!woooooohoooooo!then on the way to my role call Zach just jumps on me and he excpected me to catch him!lol.then we really ditched PE after that.we were supposed to play bbball but instead we all hung out with eachother at the waterfountain.
~Lunch me and Janna hung out with the "kool kids" and we saw people signing Camerons cast and he would rest his arm wen they signed it and then wen Zach signed it it really looked rong!lol!
~5th period James was soooo tired and he kept moaning!lol.he got in trouble!hahah!and then we had to rite this gay paper me and Jake didnt want to do so instead Jake wrote blah blah blah all over it and then wen the teacher turned around he would flash it in her face!hah!and then he got busted and she was like wat is that?!? he was like i messed up so i wrote blah blah blah all over it!haha!nice cover!
~6th period me and Becca just had the best time.Jake came up to me with his eyelids inside out...eww. i didnt notice at first and then i looked at him and i screamed!haha!oopsies ;p and then he was sitting with me at my desk and Karin was like show Casey ur 6 pak i was like ive seen it but i would like to see it again.lol! and then Jake said no so Karin lifted his shirt and i saw it....but so did the teacher!hahha!i bet thats the 1st time shes seen one of those!lol!hahha!
~and I think I might go to the movies with people too!
today was a really good day!
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today was a good day!
~1st period we had a sub and we just messed around the whole period.Alicia and Becca moved their seats next to me and then they got in trouble!hahha!funny funny!
~HR Mr Herrera was our sub and he just talked and talked and talked the whole period about getting good grades.and then he said "for those of you who pass this skool" and looked at Karin!hahha!
~2nd period i put stuff in Nick D.'s hood and he didnt notice until Nick told him!awwi put a popper in his hood and so before he took it out i socked his hood and it popped!haha!the teacher didnt even notice.and then Alicia was making fun of our teacher cuz i swear our teachers on happy pills!haha!then after class i was sipping my water and Nick just cam out of no where and pushed it so it went dowm my shirt!
~Nutrition i got Nick bak and i poured water on him and then i spent the rest of nutrition hiding from Nick and Nick.lol.
~3rd period we just hung out and Zach said he lost his pervertedness wich was a complete lie!
lol.and then we helped Linsey with her bf troubles.wen 3rd period was over i carried Zach!haha!
~4th period me and Laurel were non dresses!woooooohoooooo!then on the way to my role call Zach just jumps on me and he excpected me to catch him!lol.then we really ditched PE after that.we were supposed to play bbball but instead we all hung out with eachother at the waterfountain.
~Lunch me and Janna hung out with the "kool kids" and we saw people signing Camerons cast and he would rest his arm wen they signed it and then wen Zach signed it it really looked rong!lol!
~5th period James was soooo tired and he kept moaning!lol.he got in trouble!hahah!and then we had to rite this gay paper me and Jake didnt want to do so instead Jake wrote blah blah blah all over it and then wen the teacher turned around he would flash it in her face!hah!and then he got busted and she was like wat is that?!? he was like i messed up so i wrote blah blah blah all over it!haha!nice cover!
~6th period me and Becca just had the best time.Jake came up to me with his eyelids inside out...eww. i didnt notice at first and then i looked at him and i screamed!haha!oopsies ;p and then he was sitting with me at my desk and Karin was like show Casey ur 6 pak i was like ive seen it but i would like to see it again.lol! and then Jake said no so Karin lifted his shirt and i saw it....but so did the teacher!hahha!i bet thats the 1st time shes seen one of those!lol!hahha!
today was a really good day!
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today was a good day!
~1st period we had a sub and we just messed around the whole period.Alicia and Becca moved their seats next to me and then they got in trouble!hahha!funny funny!
~HR Mr Herrera was our sub and he just talked and talked and talked the whole period about getting good grades.and then he said "for those of you who pass this skool" and looked at Karin!hahha!
~2nd period i put stuff in Nick D.'s hood and he didnt notice until Nick told him!awwi put a popper in his hood and so before he took it out i socked his hood and it popped!haha!the teacher didnt even notice.and then Alicia was making fun of our teacher cuz i swear our teachers on happy pills!haha!then after class i was sipping my water and Nick just cam out of no where and pushed it so it went dowm my shirt!
~Nutrition i got Nick bak and i poured water on him and then i spent the rest of nutrition hiding from Nick and Nick.lol.
~3rd period we just hung out and Zach said he lost his pervertedness wich was a complete lie!
lol.and then we helped Linsey with her bf troubles.wen 3rd period was over i carried Zach!haha!
~4th period me and Laurel were non dresses!woooooohoooooo!then on the way to my role call Zach just jumps on me and he excpected me to catch him!lol.then we really ditched PE after that.we were supposed to play bbball but instead we all hung out with eachother at the waterfountain.
~Lunch me and Janna hung out with the "kool kids" and we saw people signing Camerons cast and he would rest his arm wen they signed it and then wen Zach signed it it really looked rong!lol!
~5th period James was soooo tired and he kept moaning!lol.he got in trouble!hahah!and then we had to rite this gay paper me and Jake didnt want to do so instead Jake wrote blah blah blah all over it and then wen the teacher turned around he would flash it in her face!hah!and then he got busted and she was like wat is that?!? he was like i messed up so i wrote blah blah blah all over it!haha!nice cover!
~6th period me and Becca just had the best time.Jake came up to me with his eyelids inside out...eww. i didnt notice at first and then i looked at him and i screamed!haha!oopsies ;p and then he was sitting with me at my desk and Karin was like show Casey ur 6 pak i was like ive seen it but i would like to see it again.lol! and then Jake said no so Karin lifted his shirt and i saw it....but so did the teacher!hahha!i bet thats the 1st time shes seen one of those!lol!hahha!
today was a really good day!
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