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    Monday, March 1st, 2004
    8:56 pm
    Death Greetz Me Warm, Now I Will Just Say Goodbye.
    ? Starving searching this barren wasteland. Trying to grasp being this alone . Pleading for a breath of fresh air, Someone's standing on my chest. Dying, I'm asphyxiating myself.
    I kill myself.
    Break myself slave to my weakness choke on my words. Oh I'm drowning and I feel so alone. Break myself slave to my weakness choke on my words. The lights are on and I wish I was home. Break myself slave to my weakness choke on my words. Oh I'm drowning and I feel so alone. Break myself slave to my weakness choke on my words. The lights are on and I wish I was home. My lips are screaming pretty nothings. My ears are bleeding for want of words, Fuck words I need actions. Hope as left me fucking shattered. Someone's standing on my chest. Alone would be a pleasant change from here. How do you gauge loneliness? How do you gauge loneliness? How do you guage loneliness? Have you ever felt so alone? It feels like the light will never reach me here, I am choking back my longing for shed tears. So strangulated by my lonesome fears.
    Please don't worry too much, It only hurts when I breathe. ?

    So Fucking Tired Of Being Here...
    So Tired Of Being Alone...
    So Tired Crying...
    So Tired Missing...
    So Tired Forgetting...
    So Fucking Tired Leaving...
    So...
    So Fucking Myself...

    Just Leave Me Or Kill Me...

    Goodbye.
    Only 2 Options I Guess.

    Current Mood: pessimistic
    Current Music: Metallica - Fade To Black
    Friday, February 27th, 2004
    7:19 pm
    To the one I love , I'll always be here waiting until the gates close behind me. Look into my eyes for the untold story . The truth is seen, but it's so hollow. Bury me beneath the shooting star and wish for my hesitance to end. Wish for it all to kill the burning lies . Behind me is the sun, and I gaze until the smoke clears. Wake me so I can die inside of your arms, or find a way to dream with me It's all over today, so dress me in the starlight and light a candle, so if I wake I'll see your shadow fading into the other side of nothing. I hope that tonight I'll forget about you so things will seem okay tomorrow. I had a dream, but I can't remember it. I woke up looking into your eyes and the softest touch came. When your tears fall onto my shoulder. I tried to speak, but the words cradled my breath and fell back into my soul. Take me into your arms and look behind my smile. Tell me what you find. Tell me you see my scars. Tell me I am loved.


    Just want to die right now...

    Just being the same old me

    Let me die here

    Goodbye

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: Nine Inch Nails - Dead Souls
    Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
    6:08 pm
    + I awonder
    and answers are frail.
    I awonder
    wich hands think they deflower my soul
    and which souls reach for my hands.
    I awonder,
    Astonished...

    That what is unknown
    Arouses
    the Hate +

    - For as long as the sun bleeds
    And the earth lies herself to rest
    I shall return
    And nothing
    will be the same -


    I hope you all die soon....

    Just feeling the same... again

    Meet me at my place of anger.

    Current Mood: pissed off
    Current Music: Metallica - Creeping Death
    3:58 pm
    +Songs of innocence play a sour tune.
    You tune the dial, but the static still remains.
    We fear the silence, so let's listen to the faceless name.
    Don't swing on my emotions and play off my actions.
    This isn't going to be another shot in the dark.
    But only another step closer to seperation.
    I'm not going to run this race forever.
    And this has everything to do with what you said last night.
    Ride the railroad that drives the nails and write it down in your diary.
    Because this is better than a photograph.
    This isn't going to be another shot in the dark.
    But only another step closer to seperation.
    Remember not remembering?
    It all ends here sometimes.
    Do you remember when we couldn't remember?
    It all ends here sometimes.
    Let's sit back, tip the glass, and say those were the days.
    Because this is where the sidewalk ends.
    Waving your hands goodbye.
    Please don't make me say the bitter words.
    This tears me apart...
    Goodbye.+

    I'm just being me, I guess
    Cutting Agian... Sleeping For Pain
    Waiting The Answer... Bleeding Again

    Current Mood: sad
    Current Music: Brand New - Guernica
    3:52 pm
    +Songs of innocence play a sour tune.
    You tune the dial, but the static still remains.
    We fear the silence, so let's listen to the faceless name.
    Don't swing on my emotions and play off my actions.
    This isn't going to be another shot in the dark.
    But only another step closer to seperation.
    I'm not going to run this race forever.
    And this has everything to do with what you said last night.
    Ride the railroad that drives the nails and write it down in your diary.
    Because this is better than a photograph.
    This isn't going to be another shot in the dark.
    But only another step closer to seperation.
    Remember not remembering?
    It all ends here sometimes.
    Do you remember when we couldn't remember?
    It all ends here sometimes.
    Let's sit back, tip the glass, and say those were the days.
    Because this is where the sidewalk ends.
    Waving your hands goodbye.
    Please don't make me say the bitter words.
    This tears me apart...
    Goodbye.+

    I'm just being my, i guess...
    Cutting again... Sleeping for pain
    Waiting the answer... Now I'll regain...

    Current Mood: sad
    Current Music: Brand New - Guernica
    3:52 pm
    +Songs of innocence play a sour tune.
    You tune the dial, but the static still remains.
    We fear the silence, so let's listen to the faceless name.
    Don't swing on my emotions and play off my actions.
    This isn't going to be another shot in the dark.
    But only another step closer to seperation.
    I'm not going to run this race forever.
    And this has everything to do with what you said last night.
    Ride the railroad that drives the nails and write it down in your diary.
    Because this is better than a photograph.
    This isn't going to be another shot in the dark.
    But only another step closer to seperation.
    Remember not remembering?
    It all ends here sometimes.
    Do you remember when we couldn't remember?
    It all ends here sometimes.
    Let's sit back, tip the glass, and say those were the days.
    Because this is where the sidewalk ends.
    Waving your hands goodbye.
    Please don't make me say the bitter words.
    This tears me apart...
    Goodbye.+

    I'm just being my, i guess...
    Cutting again... Sleeping for pain
    Waiting the answer... Now I'll regain...

    Current Mood: sad
    Current Music: Brand New - Guernica
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