Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003
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12:47 pm - hahahaha
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OrAnGe Xx fLaMe: is anyone home
ShOrtShErbErt99: nope
ShOrtShErbErt99: just my dogs
OrAnGe Xx fLaMe: oh
OrAnGe Xx fLaMe: can they drive?
ShOrtShErbErt99: uhh
ShOrtShErbErt99: max drives coco into and orgasm
ShOrtShErbErt99: and his dick up her ass
WOW that was the funnest thing ever. Go Samantha! -dances-
current mood:  giggly
current music: nada
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(1 increased the pain | End My Suicidal Dreams)
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Tuesday, April 1st, 2003
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12:42 pm - joifejwfoiafjla!!
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I apologize for my previous post. I don't know why, but at night is always the time when I get upset. I guess it's because I've had the whole day to think, and thinking puts me through a lot of emotion distress. I wish I could explain it. During the day I'm always hyper and trying to have some fun (or most days at least). But at night I get really depressed and I feel worthless.
I should really be thinking about people other than myself. I hate how selfish I am. I don't really have anyone to care for though. I wish someone was there for me. Maybe my problem is that I'm always so lonely. If only I had someone to share my feelings with ... ;x
<33
Alyson
current mood:  depressed
current music: Silverchair<33
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(End My Suicidal Dreams)
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Monday, March 31st, 2003
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10:53 pm - :/
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I'm just wasting your air.
You don't care for me.
Although I wish there were someone who did.
This. All of this. Life. It's pointless.
I hate how much I pity myself. It's disgusting.
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(End My Suicidal Dreams)
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3:45 pm - ;]
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Sunday, March 30th, 2003
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8:50 pm - ...
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I wish I had someone to hold me. Someone who could make everything better than it is. Someone where just seeing them will make me feel special. I think I'm hoping for more than I deserve, really. It's pathetic seeing me pity myself. But that's what I am: pathetic.
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(1 increased the pain | End My Suicidal Dreams)
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5:46 pm - post to my lovers
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I would like to say hello to the only people who read my journal..
Hayden<3
Hong<3
Katie<3
Jaclyn<3
Kerry<3
Mike sometimes ;] <3
Holler.
This is a boredom post.
My whole family is at my house right now for my brother and grandma's birthdays. Make that bubby's birthday. I like to call her bubby because i'm a hardcore Jew. ;] Blah. I don't really want to be over there right now because my mom is being a bitch. La la la. And they're all watching basketball which is my least favorite sport. So I'm here talking to all of you. Love you guys
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(End My Suicidal Dreams)
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12:27 am
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Monday, March 24th, 2003
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6:05 pm - Woo
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Okay so I might get a new dog, and I need YOUR GUYSES HELPPP YOO!! I have included a POLL for you all to assist me in this. Yay poll time!
Poll #1276:
Open to: all, results viewable to: allIf I get a new dog, what should I name it?? View Answers
Guster
   1 (16.7%) Atticus
6 (100.0%)
Please answer, everyone! Thank you so much!
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(End My Suicidal Dreams)
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Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
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8:05 pm - Hi.
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So my brother's "girlfriend"'s birthday is tomorrow and he and his friends decided to bake her a cake. Well they're retarded... and found this weird frosting recipe in my mom's recipe book. Called penuche or something.. It's just a whole bunch of sugar like... brown sugar, confectioner's sugar, and regular sugar. With butter and milk too... and you cook it on the stove. It was the weirdest thing I've ever seen. It didn't spread on the cake because it hardened after about 10 seconds. And the Maryland NCAA game was on so they made me ice their damn cake. I had to microwave the frosting every time it got hard lol. When I finally finished it was seriously like a cake filled ROCK. Hahaha. I'm sure Julie will get a good laugh out of that...
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(End My Suicidal Dreams)
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Friday, March 21st, 2003
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4:12 pm - Bleh.
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I hate being lonely. I know no one reads this but I'll write anway.
So my best and practically ONLY friend was having our other friend Kim over. And they were going to make a cheesecake. And usually we all hang out together so I thought she was going to invite me too because she knows I have nothing to do today. So I was planning on going to her house after school. But these past few days she's been acting like a bitch and has hardly talked to me at all. So today I was like "Yeah thanks for inviting me over, I guess I'll just stay home and do nothing." (Being the bitch I am!!) And she's like.. "Well... I said yuo could come." ? and I was like "Okay, soo can I?" And I started walking with her to her bus. And she's all "Well we might go to John Holloway's house and I don't know if you can go there and I also don't know if my parents will allow you to come over." So I didn't say anything and just walked away and got on my bus. I hate it when she does shit like that. Now I'm just sitting here all alone wishing I had friends. Or something to do. I hate being lonely......
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(6 increased the pain | End My Suicidal Dreams)
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Wednesday, March 12th, 2003
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1:03 pm - Hmm
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I'm posting. It's a strange feeling. DOOD I LOVE MY ONLINE FRIENDS SO MUCH! I really wanna go to see NFG in concer but not sure if I can handle the sight of Good Charlotte. Hey it could be fun booing them offstage. I'll think about it. And my brother might take me to see TBS.<3 He's so tizzight. But it's only because he has to write a lame ass paper on it for one of his lame ass college classes. WORLD POPULAR MUSIC. Lame ass. Lol. Although most of you have seen them... I'm going to post my pictures from the TSL concert the other night. And no I'm not hot. NO. Don't even. There's a pep rally today at school. And I'm not going, why? Because they're LAME ASS. Off to the cafeteria I go to be bored. YAY.
Alyson
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(3 increased the pain | End My Suicidal Dreams)
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Thursday, March 6th, 2003
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4:39 pm - Hellooo.
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HI FRIENDS! Wait.. I don't have any! Oh well if you're reading this I guess you like me. Just a little bit? Ookay fine. Don't depend on me to write in this very often. I never ever write in my Live Journal bceause I'm a lazy shit! Woo. I love yooou.
Alyson
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(1 increased the pain | End My Suicidal Dreams)
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