Long time, no update, huh? Well, yes, the one and only Lesley is back. I have alot to say since I haven't updated in so long, so I kinda have to shorten days up.
I have been to 3 shows since I last updated. Um, not much to say since I can't remember except the one that I went to yesterday. Actually, 2 days ago. It's 1:03 in the morning, lol. Well, Days Like These just keep getting better each time I see them. I don't know what I'm going to do when they make it big and tour all around, I'll miss them so much. But then again, they deserve it big time! So basically on Sunday I went to a show at the Semper Marine in Vineland. Dude, when we first got there, it looked like a fuckin' abandoned shack! (no lie) I was kinda freaked out. Well we started to walk up to the door and Second Place (this sucky band) was playing. The guitarist all of a sudden runs out to us and tells Kelsea's dad that it's okay and he'll take care of us! We were like, "what the hell!" I was.. embarrased. Anyway, the show went on with some awesome bands, even a ska band played and they were awesome! I just love ska. I was sad that Sam'Preston left early, they make it fun at shows. Oh, this band called Tomorrow's Regret, well, the guitarist called up his ex and dedicated this song to her on her cell. It was incredibly sweet I thought. They came all the way from Georgia. It's just a shame that the singer can't sing or else they would be really good. Hmm, Left Behind played and I couldn't really hear them quite well so I just stood in the back. While I was daydreamin, the singer pointed me out since I had a Level 27 shirt and said something about a Level 27 show. I was like, heh, cool. (lol) Kelsea, what was that dude's name that was my "stalker"? (lol) After the show, my dad picked us up and I was suprised to hear that he said Days Like These sounded good! Finally, we agree on something, how great!
Bruce and I broke up last Wed. *sigh* I hate even mentioning this, but at the same time, I want too. Okay, I can't hide it, I do miss him. I miss the times when we talked on the phone for hours at a time. I could be myself around him, for once. But I always fuck up, always. *shakes head* I guess the real reason why I broke up with him is that I'm scared of commitment. I hate to admit it, but that's the truth and dammit, I had it so good with him, he made me so happy. *looks down* I don't get how I can want love so bad, yet I run from it! Anyone have that problem?
So today we just basically studied for finals. I love this and next week, there so easy. I can just sit there and finally we can talk in Study Hall! (lol) Dude, you have no idea! We couldn't speak a word up until a few days ago! It was so boring. Also, we got our yearbooks and tomorrow I have to go and buy one. They look pretty neat. The main reason I am getting one is because of Julie'Jella'Kelsea'Bruce. Those are the people that matter the most to me.
So everyone knows it's getting close to summer, real close. I'm excited, yet scared. What if I really do move? I know I'd be fine somewhere else, but still. I can't leave my friends. I remember when Julie came to visit me in New York. My life was hell until she showed up and changed it all around. She basically lived with me for 3 weeks. Oh gosh, tears are falling. Back to the subject, I remember how we used to play cards alot and the 30 skaters that came to my door! I can't forget Josh Kimball and Stanley! Pizza hut.. (lol Julie) Josh (mexican one!) must have thought I was stupid. Ahh and Seth! Roll down that hill baby! (lol) And when I moved back here, Jella and I became good friends too. Even some things she does piss me off sometimes, I do love her. She's just hilarious. I just wish she would get over Kevin, she'd be off alot better. Gosh, all these memories are just flying through my head, I'm overwhelmed. I think the best time I ever had was in New York with Julie and Jella. The hotels were so much fun. Fuckin' poccantus (spelling!? lol) You know what? I never thought I could ever be close to girls, because of gossip and all, but these two girls are 2 of the most down to earth people you will ever meet. At times, I think of how I'm a bitch and take them for granted when really I should just be thanking them everyday just for being them, that's there greatest gift. It just sucks not knowing if I will move to New Hampshire or not. Sure I will have to go along with it, but my heart is right here in Millville, NJ. Between shows and friends, I couldn't be happier. Holy fuck, I just noticed that I didn't write about Kelsea! Ahh! Omg, I'm so sorry! Kelsea is my show buddy. It's hard because we're so much alike and it used to get to our heads, but luckily it doesn't now and we've learned to just deal with it. I have only known her for about 7 months, but she's so awesome and I love her to death! As you can see, my friends mean so much to me, I could write endless books on our friendship and still, there's so much more.
My father yelled at me today and it hit me, he was right for the yelling. I was acting like he was my servant, seriously. How rude was I! Especially after he said he'll take me shopping soon to any mall I want too! How nice.
Okay it's friggen 1:44 in the morning and no one is on! What is up with you people? I'm not even tired but I bet tomorrow I will be since I have to get up at 5. I better go, much love to everyone. Later.
( Friendship )