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[17 Aug 2003|11:30am] |
To put life simply it composes of three things i believe: 1.)fear 2.)conciousness 3.)whats reality and whats a mere figment.
I dont fear much but i do fear not knowing. Its not possible to know everything or better yet understand everything but I live constantly thinking of what my conciousness brings to reality and what it brings to make my life simplistic.
Ok so that was a bunch of weird shit that I feel i should post could be just another weird trip on the rollercoaster of life and love.
tillsky latersky!
sazz
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[17 Aug 2003|11:58am] |
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I sit here constantly contemplating some of the decisions i have made in life. Wondering exactly why I chose the path I chose. Why did I not listen to my inner thoughts and warnings?
I have been married for over 3 years now and I love my husband with all my heart but i wonder exactly how long it will take before this void of HOMESICKNESS will last and if it will ever fade for that matter.
I was told that it passes well its be almost 5 years now and its still holds on some days harder than the rest. I decided to make this direction in life so how come I still question why?
A person can only cry for so long before they cant cry anymore and instead feel that void with anger and resentment and jealousy.
Life is to short for this yet I wake up each day and live with it!
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