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Suffering
I feel pain in and out everyday.
I feel like I'm going insane!
Can't stop these tears rolling down my face;
I can't help, but to see all the ugly in me.
Feel the pain and suffering, please someone
tell me what to do because I'm a dumbass fool.
The pain is killing me more and more, but
tell me what can I do when everything is
going wrong and life for me is gone.
Affair
When I first saw you with that guy
I knew something wasn't right.
Tears came running down my face,
and my heart began to race.
Why did you have to ruin my life?
Now I can't even sleep calmly at night.
Knowing your with that man.
I just want to scream until I see daylight.
I'll never forgive you
because you weren't true.
My life is over now
and so are you!
Now I just pray until I see the sunrise
beacause I hope that someday
everything will be alright.
Apart
It always seemed that it was just you and me
in this world, and nothing could tear us apart.
I'd make you laugh, and you'd comfort me.
I guess that's the way it was meant to be.
Now as time passes by,the door still doesn't open wide.
The room is still empty and I cry you're name out loud.
At this point I've realized you won't be coming home.
I run to the kitchen and plunge the knife
sraight through my dying heart.
Now we will forever be apart.
Fortune Cookie
Dedicated to Stephanie Papesh
"Life is a fortune cookie"
Someone once told me.
Whatever happens is what you get, but I
stopped to think about my life, and how
many things are not right. I think how everything
has changed and how everyday the word
"stupid" is said to my face.
I'm just an idiot not knowing what road to
take, but some day I will see the sunrise,
and know that everything will be alright.
Ghost
Dedicated to those who don't care
I'm a stupid ghost that's what I'll always be
No one cares to listen to me.
You can't help and you can't chase away the pain,
I whisper something in your ear,
but your so busy looking at your dumb face
that you can't hear. I wish I could get the
knife and cut you up then throw you away,
maybe then would you stop and listen to what
I have to say, but you wouldn't know my pain
your so damn vain. The whole world has to revolve
around you, but all you are is a dumbass fool.
Help
Staring at the sharp knife I just want to scrape it against my skin.
I want to die in so much pain
because that's what life is all about.
If only there was a way out,
I would sell my soul to know the truth.
It's getting closer to my skin,
and I can feel the coldness in my heart.
I just wish no one will shed any tears
because after all soon I will lose all my stupid fears.
Death is near and soon I will go
were no one will judge me or make me mad.
It's so sad that it ended up like this,
but now I won't cry or lie to myself,
but before I go please someone help!
Imaginary Boy
to the boy who is lost
The lights above shine on a boy
who has no life and has no joy.
As days turn into months,
this boy of mine keeps on hurting.
These months pass on by and he is
still never learning.
All he sees is the sadness and sorrow,
but he doesn't want to imagine the happiness
and all that he can achieve if he really believed.
This lonely boy is keeping himself from the world,
and just keeps on living in a complete bore.
If only this boy would open he's eyes
and finally see what life is all about.
Nothing
You are nothing in this world
so stop complaining. Your crying is disgusting,
when your cold blooded tears run down your face.
Don't beg for forgiveness she won't give in.
You say love made you kill,you say jealousy
made you insane.That's bullcrap!You should
of kept your raging thoughts inside,but
instead you let them out.Now look at the trouble
you've started?All the blood on the ground,
the flesh is being torn apart by a pack of wild dogs.
And you dare say that it is merely nothing,
just a bit of anger being expressed.
Thou try to confess to thy sins with pitifil eyes?
You must pay for your unholy actions,
and you will never be able to sleep. The
body of the man will awaken you,but fear not
you miserable demon,for the blood is what you will taste
Rain
Sitting on the couch I take a peak at the window.
The clouds are getting darker and the sun has hid behind them.
Little droplets of rain are falling down
and it seems like forever since I've seen your face.
The angels must be crying for now the rain
is dropping from the sky faster and faster.
Puddle of mud on the lonely grass
The thunder is now what I hear. The angels
must be mad beacuse lightning has suddenly began to appear.
This rain is making me angry and anxious
to see your beautiful face touching mine.
Now the sun has began to shine and later
the clouds will leave for the moon will rise.
An extreme chill has just come about
and now it's time for me to go.
Sick of You
Dedicated to those who make me feel worthless
You love to scream at my stupid face,
You love the way I want to scrape
the razor against my skin. I want to cut
my damn veins off and not breathe. They say
Suicide is painless,after all I'm nothing
in this world.You hate the way I dress,
the way I talk,wear my make up,and even cry.
My tears are worthless in your mind,there's
no point on lying,I know the truth.It's time
for me to face the facts and now I'll stand
up on the chair,grasp the rope and let go.
I'll make sure to keep the horrible memories
within me.All those times I came home crying
and bleeding my aching heart are all over.I
don't have to pretend to be happy,now I can
rest and hope for the best.
The Desert
Life is a deserted desert
Where no one can hear you or see your pain.
I can imagine those tears running down my face
And the heat feels like an astonishing rage.
I want to find my way home
And be free like those birds high in the sky
Waiting for the moon to rise.
I wish for the day where I can see that road,
And finally head on home.
Time Will Pass
I look at her angel face,
and know that time will pass me by.
She'll ask for me,
but daddy won't be coming home tonight.
He left to fight this horrible war,
and only time will tell when he comes home.
Today the bombing and explosions
killed my dearly friends,
Tomorrow time will pass
and some of us will die.
I know it's just a complete lie
to tell you that things will be alright,
But daddy will be brave,
and daddy will be strong.
I want you to pray with all your might
that time will pass me by,
And I will still be alive.
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