I miss so many people it's really not even funny. Since my wreck only a few people have even attempted to get in touch with me and out of those people about half still call to check on me (which I really appreciate) but everyone else is over the situation and that really sucks :( Makes you kind of realize who your real friends are and who just called to get the details so they could be the first to tell everyone else. I feel so distant from everyone who used to mean so much to me and there is nothing I can do about it until I get better. It would be nice if other people were making an effort though. This whole situation just made me realize that life is pretty fucking pointless.
I wish that I could explain exactly how I feel right now, but I just can't. I can't find the words......I can tell you this though, it's not a good feeling at all. So many negative things have been happening and it just makes me want to cry but I can't. I mean, I try to be a strong person but, Jesus. Everyone has their limits and I believe that I have reached mine.
so yeah, here's the story lol
[16 Oct 2005|02:21pm]
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So I'm sure that most of you have heard about this by now but just incase, lemme fill you in. NOTE: please excuse typing errors, my good arm's in a cast lol.
The other day (Oct. 4) I was on my way home from work. I was really tired and I think I kinda fell asleep while I was driving. I woke up and there was glass EVERYwhere in my car. There were these two women at my window telling me to "just stay calm, the ambulance will be here soon." So I put 2 and 2 together and figured I was in a wreck. My lip was all bloody and nasty and I had glass in my mouth *eww* Then 3 firemen showed up and had to use the jaws of life to cut me out of my car. THEN the paramedic pulled me out and put me in the ambulance. At first I was in a lot of pain because my ankle was broken in 2 places, my wrist was broken and I had some fractured ribs.BUT while in the ambulance I was introduced to a little thing called morphine :) :) :) What a lovely little drug that is. I was laughing the rest of the way to the hospital. I was like making the siren noise and just laughing my ass off at the situation. They took me to Hershey Med. First I went to trauma, then the ER then my room. I had SOOOOO many x-rays and blood tests done. They put a cast on my wrist b/c it was a clean break but my ankle was all fucked up and they had to operate and put pins and shit in there. I was in the hospital for four or five days all hopped up on morphine :) And now I'm home "recovering". The other person that I hit is fine and actually had less injuries than I did (which I was happy about, it was MY fault I should hurt more...) I'm still kinda in pain and I can't walk on my ankle for two months which blows b/c I had all these fucking plans for halloween :( I miss my car!!!! It's nice to be off work though :) I'm kinda stuck at home for the time being BUT if anyone wants to come by and see me, just call first and let me know. I need human contact other than my family!!! :) It's already been about 2 weeks though so hopefully my other 6 go by just as fast so I can get out of these casts. I have an appt. tomorrow down at Hershey to see how my leg is and I know they're going to take more blood. I look like a fucking heroin addict from all these blood tests. The lesson here kids, don't sleep and drive...but if you do, you'll get morphine :)
Love you guys!!! ~Angie~
BTW-the paramedics said that if I wouldn't have had an airbag, I would've been killed. How's that for a reality check?
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Not a whole hell of a lot has been up lately.....I got a new cell phone which obviously means, new cell phone number. SOOO if anyone wants it, leave a comment or e-mail me and I'll get it to you. I promise I'll answer this one more than I answered the other one lol :) Later!
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