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Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
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1:40p - tryin to change....
ok....so i'm gonna see if i can try to change around the times that i take some exams....hopefully i can get it to where i can go home on wednesday.....that would rock my sox....hehehe....the sooner i get home and away from here and this room....the better.....!!!!
and phillip's got crap from his new doctor today...i feel bad for them...but he got good news....my baby's lost weight....GO PHILLIP GO PHILLIP....i've got me a skinny lil baby....lol...i love them "love handles"....don't lose them...!!!
well....that's about all that's happened so far.....maybe something interesting will happen later...and then i'll share it!!!!
current mood:  hot
current music: Story of the Year "And the Hero Will Drown" (comment on this)
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2:18p - Thank you!
Phillip,
Thank you for everything that you do! I means the world to me. I'm so thankful that you put up with me the way you do, and that you stick by me and show me support. This year has been hard on me, and I (in return) have been hard on you, yet you still support me in everthing that I do.
I will be by your side, for the rest of your life, supporting you the way you support me. When all else fails, and it seems like you have no one, I'll be there...with arms wide open to comfort you, support you, and love you. You know you can always turn to me and that I will be more than willing to do whatever it is that you need me to do. And when it comes to you hanging out with your friends, I will never ask you to choose between me or them; and I will never ask you to give up anything to be with me.
I accept you for who you are...that's why I love you. I love everything that you are and everything that you want to be. I am here for you, through thick and thin, always and forever! I'll always be your baby, and your best friend! We will always have our love, and don't ever let anyone tell you any different.
For the first time in my life, I know what it is to be in love. I never want to lose that feeling, or you! You make me feels things that I never thought I was capable of feeling. The first time we kissed sent charges through me like I've never experienced when I've kissed a person before. When I kiss you now, I still have those sparks flying through my body, telling me that you are the one for me.
In life, you only have one soul mate, and I will do whatever I have to do to keep mine. If it means following you arould the world, you know I would. I can't lose you. Yeah, I can take care of myself and do the things that I need to, but there will never be another person that can fill my heart, body, and soul the way you do. It's not just a physical connection with us...it's spiritual, emotional, and mental as well. That is a rare thing, and we have. We need to run with it and make sure that we will always have it. I will wait forever, just to be with you! You are my other half!
I used to always think that I'd never find the right person for me because my ex-boyfriend's were not the type of person I'd want to be with. And yet, who knew, that I'd meet the most amazing person in the world, just when I needed him. It bewilders me at how much we have in common, and even the things we don't aren't drastic.
I used to be jealous that of my friends because they always had someone, granted it was always someone different, but that's besides the point. Now, they're on boyfriend number 500 and I'm still with boyfriend number 1. You're not my first boyfriend, but you rank as number 1...you're the best boyfriend ever...and the best friend I could ever have. Thank you...it means the world to me to have you stand by me in my time of need...and every other time...and I do the same for you!
Love always and forever,
Stacey
current mood:  thankful
current music: Hoobastank "The Reason" (comment on this)
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4:41p - exhausted....
ok...so i worked out for a half hour...not long....but all i really had time for....all this homework and papers......and just everything is enuff to drive a person insane.....
i'm so excited that i got my dentist appointment changed...that made me happy......and i just remembered that i go to the doctors in a month....i need to remember that.....
i have to figure out what days i need off when i go back home.....for summer....and skewl....and stuff like that....cuz i need to work...but i wanna have a kick butt summer too....
current mood:  thirsty
current music: Sheryl Crow "The First Cut Is The Deepest" (comment on this)
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8:48p - stay out....
UGH....some people need to mind their own business....i mean...i don't want u all up in mine....live ur own life....stay outta mine....i need to get away from here....skewl sux....i hate santoro (but i love em).....i just don't want people tellin me how i should live my life...it's not urs to live.....it's mine.....i can make my own decisions......just leave me alone!!!!
current mood:  pissed off
current music: Staind "For You" (comment on this)
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11:11p - did i make the right choice????
the more and more i pack up things from my room to move back home....the more i wonder if i made the right choice about where to live next year....i mean....i won't mind the drive....but i know i'll miss staying up and doing what i want....the freedom i have here....and being able to see phillip for as long as i can without sending him home at a certain time.....
i guess i'll just have to see how things go at home....my mom told me that i had to "shape up" before i came home and that i need to "fix" the problem i have with my sister....i didn't even think we had a problem....she says i don't care about jess's life.....if i didn't....why would i ask her what's goin on...take her places.....and do stuff with her....i do care...jess is the one that doesn't ask about me...and then she calls me and tells my mom i got an "attitude" with her....whatever.....i didn't.....i tried to talk to her...and she didn't wanna talk to me.....that's her choice....
i know when i go home my mom's gonna be on me about only hangin out with phillip....but once i'm home....i can do things with wendy...(if she's ever off when i am).....and hit up peabody's......plus i can chill at abbey road and see trufusion (may 8 & 22)......and see some "friends"....not really....there....they're just aquaintances now.....so much for high skewl friends.....
then i have to worry about gettin my room hooked up for skewl stuff....i gotta get my own phone line so i don't have to worry about making sure that me and jess each get our times online....and then i've gotta get the phone for my room....and hook up my computer.......and get my furniture and stuff painted.....and hung....and organized the way i want......and do all this while trying to have fun this summer.....
i wanna go to the beach...outer banx....2 concerts (at least)....clubs....ocean breeze....movies....and just the normal summer stuff...and while working and doing stuff at home.....UGH...i hope it's possible.......then i've gotta come out here to get my books...whenever i can......
well...that's all for now....i think i need to hit the sack....or at least wait for phillip to get home and call me...in another hour.....
current mood:  worried
current music: The Neptunes "Light Your A$$ On Fire" (comment on this)
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