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    Wednesday, June 30th, 2004
    3:30 pm
    im bored
    i ussually dont write in this thing nemore i dont go on the comp that much...neways me n justin r doin ok sum things r just annoyin me like he tells me hell call me either he doesnt or calls liek hours later w/e im not goin crazy over it neway leah wants me to go to a club wit her n all my gurls so i mite do that need $$.....i mite b gettin this receptionist job in a dr's office in west islip not too shabby....so lets recap on things i havent talked about well skools over n shyt been drinkin beers n chillen smokin here n there hahah DxM sum crazy shyt i wont do it that often its not bad but its summin i dont want to do alot.....i hope this summer is chill maybe meet sum new people u neva know hit the beach up n party...heathers clam bake is this weekend n so is the 4th of july which is kailas b day fuckin ill shyt well heathers clam back mad people come n theres bout 2 keggs so well b occupied all nite then hit up the beach the next day for the 4th of july...this weekend is gunna b awesome...well my moms makin me call this job thing so peace
    3:23 pm
    im bored
    i ussually dont write in this thing nemore i dont go on the comp that much...neways me n justin r doin ok sum things r just annoyin me like he tells me hell call me either he doesnt or calls liek hours later w/e im not goin crazy over it neway leah wants me to go to a club wit her n all my gurls so i mite do that need $$.....i mite b gettin this receptionist job in a dr's office in west islip not too shabby....so lets recap on things i havent talked about well skools over n shyt been drinkin beers n chillen smokin here n there hahah DxM sum crazy shyt i wont do it that often its not bad but its summin i dont want to do alot.....i hope this summer is chill maybe meet sum new people u neva know hit the beach up n party...heathers clam bake is this weekend n so is the 4th of july which is kailas b day fuckin ill shyt well heathers clam back mad people come n theres bout 2 keggs so well b occupied all nite then hit up the beach the next day for the 4th of july...this weekend is gunna b awesome...well my moms makin me call this job thing so peace
    Monday, March 1st, 2004
    3:47 pm
    update bitch
    wow i havent updated in mad long hmm where to start. i went to florida for a week wit my cous veronica that shyt wus hott. we saw cindy laupher "girls just wanna have funn" and mardi gras got mad beads. i didnt drink much i had a drink here n there but i dont need to drink to have fun n plus they were mad expensive down there so i bought myself n justin sum things. me n justin r doin well he makes me so happy n hes allways wit me idk i never really get sick of him...i love him... well my mom is sick n shes a weirdo when she is shes annoyin too this whole weekend i worked for her n i ate chinese food 3 nites in a row from it so im a a fat chinked out cleanin bitch ....im so bored im eatin candy corn yumm ... lacrosse starts in a week n i have to start runnin cus i wanna do well last yr i couldnt play cus i broke my ankle in skool fuckin skool i hate itn even if i didnt break my ankle i got mono durin lax season which sucked ballz... i wanna get in shape for the summer so ill do summin i liek alot n still look pretty on the beach instead of stayin on here eatin candy corn liek a pig lol i havent been on here in liek forever im so busy with everything n justin is allways over his dads a fuckin dick b4 we left for florida like almost 3 weeks agoooo he came over the day b4 valentines day with bruises n cuts all over his body n shyt n he tolf me n my mom b4 that how his parnts r alcoholics n his dad use to beat him alot not as much when he got older but for no reason n after that i was liek wow yo ..he lived here for 5 days n on n off when i got back so the situation is more important n it seems im the one that cares nwants to help out of it cus his moms a retard n is brainwashed from that fuckin coward he has for a dad she just denies everything cus she walks out when it happens ...i would never let sum1 do that to my own children...especailly my only one cus it sux when u have to deal wit bullshyt liek that n no one else is their to take the beatin too...neways off that topic cus ill just bug i had detention today for mrs. hilbitch cus i went to the cafeteria 2 weeks ago to get a lolipop at the bakesale n i saw cheri so i talked for a min n sum bitch lunch teacher told cheri to go wit her n they ended up at eachohters throats cus she didnt do nething so i got introuble cus they didnt let me leave when it happened so i went to iss for the rest the pd when i had to go to alc for a makeup test!! which from when i had mono n i didnt get cus hilbitch didnt aware any of my teachers for all my work ...in end i failed 2 fuckin classes from all he missed work but gettin hooked up on my 3rd quarter grade cus my mom called my teachers n told them cus they werent aware which is hott....but im tired of typin so im out peace

    Current Mood: blah
    Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
    7:41 pm
    ho0ced oN f0nicZ
    Well since one of my dearest lovely friends have commented on my tremendous uncorected grammar and english skills. So today on my Blurty Journal im goin to try and type as perfectly as possible! How fun. I'm even capatilizing, punctuating, spelling correctly and ending my sentence with a period. So yea as I was about to say today was cool I went to the Boces feild trip in Oakdale where I took a Cosmetology class and Fashion Designing to see how it was. I know they sound girly and shit but I like fashion and clothes so thats what I'm going for next year. Justin was suppose to come over today but his mom was being a meany...I'm planing a big suprise for his birthday he's going to be 18 years old holy shit pretty cool there now hehe. Well this shit is gettin really anoying and its taking me forever lol fuck it I'm accually really good in English it's my best subject but fuck it online i can give a shyt fuck the bullshyt fuck it haha i went all out there so yea tj n heather lieke achother which is mad cute they wanna get together sunday with me n justin it b kool if they had a thing goin on too but well see wut happens i miss justin god well im gettin boring i dotn even see how u guys read my bulllshyt so ill leave



    peace

    Current Mood: geeky
    Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
    6:03 pm
    geezs
    i waited for this fuckin page to come up fot liek an hour so wutup wutup havent updated in long superbowl wus nuts i didnt even get that ddrunk i had liek 5 beers but i took my meds wich i havent in mad long n i got tired n shyt from them n really impatient well mad people showed up at my house idk shyt went down then drama ofcourse a sussual but it ended up fine i told every1 to get in my moms car to bounce out of my house but they all left with the beer me n tj bought wich wus fucked up but fuck it i prob would of got one out of the whoel thing ne way n i didnt really wanna drink that much more infront of my frends parents which were mad chill well wut happened wit me n justin is fine i shouldnt of bugged him after he got slapped by im not sayin lol cus he gets mad angry n i was bitchin but who cares afer that everything was mellow but i wich all of our frends could have just chilled n went to the parteyyy but we all went to my house where it was me justin nicole madison n tj n heather ahhh lol tj n heath heath wut was that all bout lol that was cute tyho neways im bout to b out have a stoge so every1 peace u ufckin foolz hopeuflly no one had any hard feelings from sunday wich wasent that bad i just feel liek eerything was my fault n so dus my mom since one of my frends sed sum fucked up shyt to her wich wus fucked up n i think u owe her an apology

    Current Mood: frustrated fuckin comp
    Friday, January 30th, 2004
    11:39 am
    update this bitch
    wow i havent updated in long ive been mad busy since i had mono i had alot of work n shyt to make up mid terms justin chillen alil too much wit him too today me n lee lee r prob goin to oakdale to chill wit justin n a few frends n idk wut else smoke maybe alil here n there ::pass the dutchie to the left hand side:: haa well i have to clean my ass off to make mone 20 buckaroos ill b a millionare wooohooo lol justin wants me to come out there at like 12 but as u can see its 12 now n i have mad shyt to do watch hes gunna get mad yea he gets so cute when hes mad NOT well i have responsibilities he has to get use to n im makin loot so there well im goin to lye down for a min cus i didnt get a fuckin min to myself n my mom isnt here every 5 min fuckin callin my name to ask me for summin so its peace n quiet



    closure has come to me...myself u will never belong to breathe



    peace crazy foolz

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Current Music: closure-chevelle
    Friday, January 16th, 2004
    9:28 am
    ughhhh
    well i didnt have to go to skool i did for one day n my mom came up 9th period me n tray were walkin round cus i had gym n she sed i have to go to the dr cus they sed i have mono AGAIN wtf lol well im mad tired n ithink i gave it to justin wow im dizzy so im gunen end this im goin over justins tonite he has a whoel thing planned wit candles n wine hehe sounds cute so im outtie goin to smoe my 39809275 stoge cus im mad boreddddddddddd



    peace

    Current Mood: tired as fuck
    Sunday, January 11th, 2004
    2:47 pm
    never had a drink that i didnt like
    hey wutup ....i slept over justins yesturday n hes so cute he sed he had a suprise for me so i walked in his room there was a white lil bear holdin a flower wit a nice silver clinique bag wit makeup n perfue in it hes liek im sorry n i knew wut he was talkin botu wut happend 2 weeks ago n im liek og n he just hed me n frokm there on im like omg 2 weeks later he does this he swept me off my feet n his mom camein n hes like he did good lmao i was liek yeah im still idk butterflies i guess i feel liek a fuckin kid hahah im retarded neways we watched pirates of the carribean it was an awesoem movie they say jonny dep is hot he is but in the movie ughhh eww wtf lol...this morn i woke up cus todayd my nonnis b day n justin wus invited....instead he couldnt come cus he got in mad trouble for stealin liqoir from his parents liek they werent gunna know i told him to stop drinkin it doesnt help me either im gunna help him while ill help myself ...well im at my aunts right now and i wish he was here ehh wut eva neways my coous steph ia pregnnt n im so happy cus she wants a baby n its hard to have one n next second she is thats awesome.......i need a stoge so bad hah my whole fam is talkin bout cigg companmies n how there bad ehhhh if only ALL of them knew liek its that bad i guess since i am the youngest not for long its a big deal my granpa would kill mee meanhwile my dad n me both grub after eachother hahhaha i dont wanna go to skool at all i fuckin hate it idk why i allways did but not this much for sum reason im just afraid wut am i so afraid of seriously cus im not doin that bad either i cut acouple times this week but i mean i neeeded it even tho i shouldnt of ive been depressed nshyt but i hope no one is watchin me write this shyt lol ohh im goin to florida in feb and my cous veronica is comin wit me i cant wait warm weather hard rock hotel hell yeah n city walk at nite plus universal but the city walk is the best clubs n bars everything lol last year she came wit us too n we had the best time wow im wirtin alot in this today i didnt take my "medication" fuckin stupid shyt liek its gunna make me happy i think im also goin nuts cus i havent been smokin or drinkin as much as i use too even at a time when i do im easy wit it i look like shyt today i had to get ready at justins i took a 5 min shower n got dressed put my makeup on liek shyt cus i didn care he pissed me off he shouldnt of done that i guess he had or kinda has the sae problem as me except worse i can except that e did that tho cus his parents are kool n all but he is an only child he gets depressed he had a bad childhood by wut he told me n my mom n is parents r both alcoholics hmmmm sounds alil familiar but i did the same shyt n i just know how nto to get caught n lus his parents dotn stock up on th eliqoir as much as mien do lol.....wellim outie gunna try n get outa here to smoke a stoge




    "never had a drink that i didnt like ...i tasted u threw up all nite...i got more sick"

    Current Mood: sleepy
    Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
    5:58 pm
    would u b depressed?
    well im sick a sinus infection so i stayed home not cus of that cus i wantef to.....i hate skoolwith a fuckin passsions ive been depressed this whole month n now im on wut ehhhh a new antipresant makes 2 ehhh n is it going to work prob not idk wuts worng wit me im sucha bitch now like idk lil things bother me n i do express my feelings more...i guess cus i was takin to much of every1 elses shyt n givin them all of me n i have to do more for me n alot for other as ussual im too nice....me n jusitn r cool for good now fuck everything i have sooo many feelings for him <3 n it seems liek he does ALOT by sayin i love you everyda n he allways says im his gf n were not goin out alil weird well were allways together now idk maybe hehe :) well lee lee n all them r back from the skii trip i herd they had an awesome time ...sigh... well i guess its skool i think i have anxiety i worry bout everything n stress over nothing i get overwelmed over the stupidest shyt i skip heart beats how many more problems am i gunna have? im gunna die young i know i am maybe not now but hwen im liek 40 50 maybe i hope not ....but i called lee lee n shes callin me back i want her to come over i missed her alot my best frend ...well im gunna smoke one of my dads nasty ciggs till i get a new pack



    "would u be depressed......if iattend that wedding , but only as a guest, such an unfaithful bride draped in dres...spun w/theads of my regret.....so arch ur back n flip ur hair make eye contact....so you know i care"

    Current Mood: sick
    Current Music: no trivia -fAtA
    Monday, January 5th, 2004
    4:35 pm
    id break in 2 over you
    well sat i went to cheri n leahs wit heather joanna n madison n partied for the last full nite of vac.. i mite get homeskooled i want to ive been really depressed n mood swingy fo rlike 2 weeks n skool makes it 10 times worse wit all the poepl i cant stand neways me n justin chilled yesturday htings r a lot better its just i need to get his trust back u know i did do sum stuid shyt to by tellin him the way i did bout ogin out wit him but u know u have to take those steps n see wut happens but wut he did was fucked up but it happened n u knwo the gurl wus a slut n loared him into her car w/e she was the one bein used so0o0o yea i have alot of feelings for justin n he gave me this hwolel apology letter n how he feels bout me it was cute he talks to my mom all the time bout how he fucked up n i dont think he would do it again cus hew got a good relationship wit my parents but he stills ays i love you too much neways im chillen i got 2 hrs of sleep last nite n im mad fuckin tired leah n cheri want me to chill tonite too i prob will if i dont pss out so im goin to lye down...i wish i was on the fuckin skii trip mutha fucker lol

    id break in 2 over you i bread in 2 n each peice of me dies n only u can give a breathe of life if u dont see me u dont .......now u see me now u dont now u need me now u dont

    peace

    Current Mood: ehh better
    Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
    10:42 am
    i fuckin hate every1
    well im still jus alil fucked up from yesturday WOW kasey n phil r so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0 lol fucked up his away pisses me off n i know its bout her cus itslike ---What happenes when he gets back?.....are you willing to take what i have to offer?....are things gunna be the same as it always is?....many questions i think im my head.......im so confused rite now.......:-( sleepin i hope......
    .
    .
    ......i just hope that your some one who will change my world arround and most of all change me..
    yeah fuck u assshole im accually mad that this happened to him n i hate kasey fuck them neways last nite was kool russels b day party joanna is liek ur gunna get wit him tonite im liek no but i wish again n wut happens hes practically hookin up wit her infront of me wtf do i look liek a rikki lake spy camera do i allways catch people doin shyt n it hurtsme all the time why? cus i got hurt alot on NEW YEARS or cus every1 just doesnt give a flyin fuck bout me see ive been havin bad mood swings that i think i shouldnt give A FUCK bout ne1 nemore ive been toooooo nice to let shyt liek this happen im not mad at joanna im just upsetit went down liek that neway..and idont even want to go back to skool either i asked my mom bouy homeskoolin n shes gunna look it up n shyt witch is kool cus if i loook at another person especailly in my skool as justin says im gunna have a fuckin mood swing n its not gunna b pretty

    smoke a stoge peace

    no one knows wut its liek

    to be the bad man

    to be the sad man

    behind...........................................BLUE EYES

    Current Mood: fucked up
    Current Music: blue eyes
    Thursday, January 1st, 2004
    11:37 pm
    fuckkk
    i so pissed just of wut hapened idk wtf is wrong wit me wtf is wrong with him!! omg i cant beleive that happened i still buggin out liek a mother fucker im miserable cus it pissesme off how people can b so fucked up n think they can get away with shyt n so cruel to sum1s heart liek that on new years none less well ffuck it this is why i dont want a relationship u dont know who the fuk to trust especailly guys n it sux but why me why do i allways get these type of guys ? i should become a lesbian lol jk well im goin to lye down n just think of wuts gunna happen next hopeuflly things just go the fuck away :everything: god i wish i went on the fuckin skii trip after hell....peace goin to smoke a stoge


    dont speak i know just what ur sayin..so please stop explainin dont tell me cus it hurts no0o no0o0 0o0o dont speak i know wut ur thinkin n i dont need ur reasons DONT TELL ME CAUSE IT HURTS!


    ...its all endin u gotta stop pretendin ....WHO WE R

    Current Mood: tired
    Current Music: dont speak-n0 d0ubt
    1:42 pm
    isnt it ironic ....dont u think
    hey happy new year it oculd of been better if justin wasent such a fuckin asshoel ...he was gunna ask me out but i told him i wadent ready just yet to give me alil time to myself n its not like for other guys cus i really liked him i mean wats not to really like he got mad n shyt but then he understood....well heather lee leee madison n him went to steves party wich was kkool when justin was disapeerin the whoel night and playin video games for me to find him after the ball drops on new years in sum1s car infornt of steves hookin up with sumgurl danielle i fuckin flipppped yo so muc he had his shirt off n shyt n the doors were locked i fuckin started punchin the shyt out of this car infront of lee lee heather madison steve jimmy n a couple more people n bugged out on him n the gurl was liek omg i had no clue yeah right w/e its not liek i didnt see them sittin together on the couch thats why i avoided him most the nite cus he was between 2 gurls fuck him n hmm isnt it weird how he asked me if i hooked up with more then 1 guys at a party cus sum1 told him that HEY JUSTIN IS THAT BECUS U DO? OR R WE NOT ON THE SAME LEVEL? ASSHOLE the kid tells me he LOVES ME n this is why i never beliebved him cus theres summin i didnt trust hha but he got caught heeee got caught big time n had to leave cus every1 was gunna beat the shyt out of him ...after that every1 was really comfortin n shyt n i just layed back n had a couple coronas n i jimmy gave me a hug n went to liek i think give me a kiss omg i KISSED KISSED him lol i needed it tho cus hes so sweet n plus hes hott --ahh fuck it who cares its not liek justin wasne tgettin it on in sum1s car with a slut that got with JEFF a coupel months ago at steves at a party ironic AGAIN lol but fuck him he left his stuff here hes bag n shyt haha if he comes here im gunna b liek u want ur shyt im gunna toss it in the lake haha n b like thats wut u get for bein a slob haha slob rob the slob ahah i member that shyt "his word".... well the party wus good tho i did have fun n got wasted i allways seem to pick the wrong guys cus there so good at lien that they even do it to ym parents which is fucked up!!! i saw right threw that mutha fucker im gettin better at it tho n ive been single for almost 4 motnhs which is kool ...but neways justin just called me 10 min late haha i bitched his ass out hes liek that wouldnt of happened if we were goin out i was liek wow really gee well it doesnt seem liek u care bout me or my feelings so i told him hes fucked up n all this shyt n bout how hes a dirtbag for doin that the first time hes at my frends house n that my moms liek i let this kid in my house i sed that didnt make my desiciopn better n he sounded liek he thought i would forgive him hes liek i was so wasted i sed no excuse u still would of wanted to do that f we were goin out and that he should stop dirnkin then cus i would never ever do that to ne1 especailly around them n i sed thats why i sed no cus iwanted to see how u acted around all my frends and right when i saw u between to gurls gettin wasted instead of me then i was liek fuck this n fuck him ... i told him i wasent stupid n that i can see right threw him it only takes 1 tiem to fuck up n thats it so


    im goin to smoek a stoge

    Current Mood: hungover
    Current Music: if i listen to music im gunna break shyt
    Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
    11:44 am
    partyyyy
    tonite is gunna b ill its new years eve n im goin to my frend steves house where his mom n all of us r makin mixed drinx n shyt tonite is the nite where i can get wasted its fuckin new years well me n justin got into aalil conflict shyt idk i was bein bitchy but hes all over me alil too much all the time idk im not ito the affectionate shyt that much neways im listenin to catch 22 havent in a long time haha i member the good okd times when me leah cheri ivy kaila n every1 fuckin stood out in the freezing cold for an hour without tickets n sumhow ended up at the end of the nite gettin tickets from people outside n seein the show which rocked so0o im bored me n lee lee r puttin together a crazy outift for tonite hahah i cant wait wow im really bored im gunna go tanning again n wait till lee gets off work so we can go to the mall n buy sum "soda and party favors" for tonite lol i need a stoge so peace HAPPY FUCKIN NEW YEAR TO EVERY1


    "im leavin here today im gunna go real far away from here im gunna find the gurl liek te one i met in hiskool but shes not gunna get away this time im gunna keep her by my side"


    and when i try to make things right ...
    i allways seem to loose a fight ...
    cant seem to hold on to my life ...

    Current Mood: fuckin happy
    Current Music: catch 22
    Tuesday, December 30th, 2003
    2:19 pm
    if u dont see me u dont
    im feeling so weird this mornin i feel liek shyt but i feel better .....tomorros new years eve were gunna party till the fuckin mornin light i cant wait i havent been drinkin liek at all compared to wut i use to n i feel good bout myself ...im all mixed in the head ive been mooody lately im goin on the skii trip in 2 days cant wait i need a vacation sum of my frend that arent goin dont want me to go cus idk their weird bt fuck that all my other frends r goin n itlll b fun me nlee lee r gunna go snow tubing n shyt n party the whoel time im missin 2 days of skool wich is awesome ....i kinda feel liek summins not right tho n idk wut it is im just bored of doin the same shyt everyday gotta do summin new its vacation x mas i got so drunk i shouldt of drank that much cus i blaked out liek half the nite n i bugged out on a couple people n lee told me i wanted to beat the shyt out of this gurl i prob would of killed her iwas so drunk ahhhh murder lol jk but yea bad drinkin experience im lightweight now but who cares ....soem of my frends have been talkin shyt bout me for no reason n i seriously never talk shyt about ne1 thats wut makes me proud is that i dont talk shyt but its fucked up on how they dont want u there sumties n all they do is bitch bout nothing about u wich is ridiculous especailly after i would take a bullet for them...i care bout others more then myself mayeb thats why im fuced up in the head too much givin advice n just not gettin enuff for myself but blahhhhhh well ajs goin on the skii trip ehhh fun great right this will b intresting if i knew he was goin i prob think twice but im not gunna make things complictaed cus i dont give a shyt nemore cus i dun liek the kid as i use to its just when i get wasted i flip out cus hes such an asshoel sometiems and doesnt even know it he just doesnt knwo wuts for him another person that doesnt listen to any1 advice .......well i want to go tanning with porb lee lee or heather today so i get more color i get so white in the winter i never go tannin untill this winter....justin is over he slept here again i dont like when we all smoke together cus im in liek happy land cheer mode not all kissy n mooshy like he gets all the time i get alil sick of it but ehhh idk im ll mixed up right now n hes callin me a bith all day i get moody now especailly when im sick peopel have to understand when to stop the first time a lil break will b ok i guess well im gunan go smoke a stoge so byes



    " id break in 2 over you id break in 2 and each peice of me dies and only u can give a brreathe of life...if u dont see me...u do0ont.."fAtA

    Current Mood: mixed
    Current Music: autumns monologue- fata
    Thursday, December 25th, 2003
    1:22 pm
    merry mutha fuckin x mas
    its x mas today n i got sum ill shyt clothes n alot of money hmmm whos goin shoppin i got almost everything i asked for this year which is crazy..... n now ihave enuff moeny to buy the other people x mas presents that i didnt get yet yeay....well my moms side is comin over today interesting the party animals this x mas is gunna b fun lee lee is ocmin over n maybe justin n lee lee told me bvout a party i think at ajs but idk ill stop by but idk bout kasey since im the ex gf whop cant stand eachother fuck it ill show up not given a what lol i hope every1 had a good x mas n hopefully we'll all have an awesome new year then im goin on theskii trip wit all my frends icant wait i dont skii but snowboardin sounds good n snow tubing haha my frend tom got "BOD" spray i want ur bo0o0od well i tho9ught it was mad funni .. the holidays make me so happy its like a permanent antidepresant haha i cant wait till fam gets here im accually lookin fowrd to it n im gettin more presents wich is nuts big family much with not alot of cousins thats why hehe but igot them all gifts too every penny out of the pocket.....well im goin to have breakfast n take a long shower with all my new beauty crap haha so peace MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERY1!!


    S0 MERRY CHRISTMAS N A HAPPY NEW YEAR LETS HOPE ITS A GOOD ONE WITH OUT ANY FEAR ....WAR IS OVER IF U WANT IT ...WAR IS OVER IF U WANT IT

    Current Mood: happy as hell
    Current Music: HOLIDAY MUSICA
    Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
    7:05 pm
    i feel so happy
    me n justin chilled this weekend n he slept here till monday which is awesome .....he bought me my x mas present he let me pick it out a black hat wit an l on it for my name and 5 pairs on undies whic were cute betty boop i luv sounds slutty but i dun cre i like them..........he told me i love you n it felt weird i just laughed but he explained that he loves chillen wit me that im beautiful n that he feels comfortable n hes happy wit me n that hes never really happy which he should cus i feel the same way with him but damn hes sexy lmao neways tomroos x mas eve i cant wait im goin to my aunts which will b kool gettin presents hope i get sum useful shyt lol neways im goin to watcha movie donnie darko oo0o0o scary jk

    peace merry x mas to every1 i luv

    Current Mood: happy
    Sunday, December 21st, 2003
    10:06 am
    poeple are liars
    wel last nite i went to my frend heathers hour. me n justin were suppose to chill but he sed he had to chill wit his fam so i called him round like 6ish n his mom sed he was at his frends n wont b home till late ...wut kind of shyt is that n the kid says he misses me nshyt wtf w/e i can give a shyt.. neways im bored just woke up my throat hurts liek a muthafucker hope im not sick gotta cut down on smeemmmin. people r such liars especailly my frends wit grimy ass gf's <~they say they love them then diss them out on their journals then talkin bout runnin away wit there best frend to florida that they like .....n then actin liek they got their heart played wit just so they can fuck them over n break it off after givin it ANOTHER try ......ok so to all of u who like to do that or hoe around u have no clue wut love is at all n i feel bad cus its fucked up n i have to deal with every1s bs in the end...every1 is too damn gulable! n i dont care if i get invloved cus it is my business i have problems wit the gurl still cus i tried bein nice to her with the fact on every bullshyt thing that happened to me and just fuckin my relationship up tooo but liek i sed ...clue-lessss! CAnT TURN A HOE INTO A HOUSEWIFE LMAO...neways justin is comin over today so im gunna b liek oh so wut did u do last nite wit the fam then im gunna let him try to bullshyt me then piss him off ...seee i dont let ne1 bullshyt me nemore....FUCK THE BULLSHYT truuu to all my gurls.....im sayin just b the beautiful you the one we all love inside just stay true to the fullest! ahh moms vacuuming she doesnt stop fuckin cleanaholic...wtf am i doin up so early mite as well plan my day out cus whenever we do plan summin we dont end up doin it till like 9 or 10 .... im so excited im goin on the skii trip wit mad of my frends from the 1st to the 6th im savin my drinkin habits for then right lee lee lol. well neways imbored soi m gunna try goin backto sleep


    "well i ask my self how much doo you o0o0o i...convince myself ~its My life....dont u forget ...caught in te crowd...it NEVER ends ..never ends!"



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    Current Music: no doubt its my life
    9:52 am
    poeple are liars
    wel last nite i went to my frend heathers hour. me n justin were suppose to chill but he sed he had to chill wit his fam so i called him round like 6ish n his mom sed he was at his frends n wont b home till late ...wut kind of shyt is that n the kid says he misses me nshyt wtf w/e i can give a shyt.. neways im bored just woke up my throat hurts liek a muthafucker hope im not sick gotta cut down on smeemmmin. people r such liars especailly my frends wit grimy ass gf's <~they say they love them then diss them out on their journals then talkin bout runnin away wit there best frend to florida that they like .....n then actin liek they got their heart played wit just so they can fuck them over n break it off after givin it ANOTHER try ......ok so to all of u who like to do that or hoe around u have no clue wut love is at all n i feel bad cus its fucked up n i have to deal with every1s bs in the end...every1 is too damn gulable! n i dont care if i get invloved cus it is my business i have problems wit the gurl still cus i tried bein nice to her with the fact on every bullshyt thing that happened to me and just fuckin my relationship up tooo but liek i sed ...clue-lessss! CAnT TURN A HOE INTO A HOUSEWIFE LMAO...neways justin is comin over today so im gunna b liek oh so wut did u do last nite wit the fam then im gunna let him try to bullshyt me then piss him off ...seee i dont let ne1 bullshyt me nemore....FUCK THE BULLSHYT truuu to all my gurls.....im sayin just b the beautiful you the one we all love inside just stay true to the fullest! ahh moms vacuuming she doesnt stop fuckin cleanaholic...wtf am i doin up so early mite as well plan my day out cus whenever we do plan summin we dont end up doin it till like 9 or 10 .... im so excited im goin on the skii trip wit mad of my frends from the 1st to the 6th im savin my drinkin habits for then right lee lee lol. well neways imbored soi m gunna try goin backto sleep


    "well i ask my self how much doo you o0o0o i...convince myself ~its My life....dont u forget ...caught in te crowd...it NEVER ends ..never ends!"



    byes

    Current Mood: moody
    Current Music: no doubt its my life
    Thursday, December 18th, 2003
    7:59 pm
    ahhh cafeine freak
    well i got home from work then went to the dr i had 2 cups of coffee and a fuckin hott choc n i felt like i was on speed or sum shyt n my mom asks me do u need sum soda lol wut a tard shes funny ...well the dr sed i just need more intake onn nutriens n shyt liek that n that i dotn have enuf enzymes sum shyt in my liver n kidney uhh weird lol well i hope leahs ok shes getti surgery done today shes a strong woman hehe ..i miss justin more nwo that we didnt talk today he called n i missed it then i caled him n he wasent home ehhh too bad im so bored n fuckin hyped up im ready to liek jump in a mosh pit n kik sum ass fuk shyt up break shyt...i know i curse alot comes from my dad lmao n my liver problems come form my mom lmao jk jk ....well.... tomorro is the last day of skool n i know i will have sum ill plans for this vacation 15 days off alot of partyin beers bud n babes ha thats how it allways is n allways will b!!!! true to the fullest. sum people piss me off tho i cant help it guess they cant either since there so use to themselves CRY ME A FUCKIN RIVER hAhA im hungry i mite as well eat summin good n healthy get summm nutrients in me hah my dr asked if i party n to lay off the drinkin n druggs god all i do is smoke sum herb it mite as well b the best thing for me theres my thinkin n munchin stage my "nutrients" right there n my drinkin got sum calories hehe nah im not drinkin till new years n thats not alot i wanna b healthy n go to thegym right lee lee he thats our lil plan that remidns me im goin to work my ass off at the gym tomorro wit her yeay how fun on a fri nite yea since i cant DRINK drink drinkety drink i accually seem alil happier wit out it peopel r tellin me but im goin alil crazed much but hey atleast its not crack lol damn im writin alot got alot on my mind for allllllll u people to b bored about omg im so retrded i race down the stairs for the phone n i fuckin drop it liek a psycho god i feel liek im on druggs hah n it as my mom too the 2 fuckin psychos hha i luv her shes bringin me hoem some soup ohh frends is on i m gunan go watch it n smoke my occasional stoge soooo peace


    "go get ur knife go get ur knife ...n come in....go get ur knife go get ur knife ....n lay down.... go get ur knife go get ur knife...n....KISS ME"~dEftOnEs good shyt

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