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no cross outs this time... [14 Nov 2005|03:13pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | yeah...they died together and for the right cause.. ]

yeah...i know i'm gonna survive...i know i'll live through this one...cuz this so isn't one of those suicidal ones...it's just one of those hard times that makes your breathing get a little more intence...we don't need to stop and listen NE more...cuz the world is screaming us into a million different directions...all the voices have the same tones...but each tone says something different...we all get swept up pushed every which way...that's why we all end up getting seperated...cuz, you don't go down different paths...the world pushes you apart...(i'm craving a pepsi right now)...the world wants you to think that you make your own decisions and all that shit...but your life is already depicted for you...and it's when you try to stray from that path, that the world yanks on your chain, causing hurt and for you to get back on path and loose what ever you thought you were destine for...yeah...they're just words...but some day they'll make sence...if the screaming were to stop...and you would stop and listen...you'd hear these words...and they'd guide you home...

who are we now? and where to do go from here?

the answers there...just look...

If you decide to come back to me,
I'll be waiting so desperately,
Until then, I will find, someone to love me all of the time.

1 hardship| A funeral and break up afternoon

hahaha...i'm wearing my P. Miller Passion shirt! mmG [14 Nov 2005|06:35pm]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | I like to move it movie it... ]

"Wow...work was a killer..." Dian sits at the kitchen table sipping on some tea.
"Yeah, i know...my boss is incredable...he doesn't even know how to do a simple spread sheet! I totally deserve a raise!" Andrea cleans up her kitchen a bit.

*ring*ring*

Andrea answers the phone...
"Hello?" her face went from relaxed to tence as soon as she hears the voice on the other end..."yes, this is she...oh god...she" there's a pause "she spoke...What did she say?...Yes, yes, i'll be right there!" Andrea quickly hangs up the phone and grabs her coat.
"Andrea, who was that?"
"The hospital that sees my sister...she finally spoke...they say she may be ready to come home!"
"How long has she been there for?"
"About 3 years now...c'mon we have to go down there..." Both of the girls stand up to leave
"Why is she in there?" Dian's almost hesitent to ask...
"There was a really bad accident...it was a crazy mess...it was when she was living here, with my mom, before i moved back in...someone broke in...they killed my mom...and my sister was pregnant at the time...he raped her...and she ended up losing her baby...then after that...she just stopped talking...she stopped eating...she, in a way, stopped living...so, i had to put her into a hospital, to see if she would get better...eventually she started eating again...and she would even walk a little every so often...but she never spoke. So the police could never get a lead of who did it to her...and no one knows exactly what happen that night...only she knows...and she hasn't said a thing to anyone...she hasn't spoken a word in 3 years..."
"wow...so what made her finally talk today?"
"I'm not sure...but hopfully we can find out..."

The leave and pull up infront of a house.
"This is where your sister is?"
"Yeah."
"What kind of hospital is this?"
"It's not really a hospital. She lives with a nurse. She did worse in the hospital setting and she wouldn't come inside our house again, so they brought her here and she's been doing a lot better." Andrea knocks on the door. An elderly woman answers and brings them in to wait in the living room while she goes and gets Andrea's sister. Finally a few minuts later the lady comes out again.
"She won't come out. She doesn't want to come out for some reason." The nurse says.
"Then i'll go in there."
"I'll wait out here." Dian stays put. Andrea walks down the hall into her sister's room.
"Hey there Monica." She sits next to her on her bed. "Monica, how are you feeling today?" Monica says nothing. "C'mon Mon, they said you spoke today. So please talk to me now. They say you can come home if you want. Don't you want to come home with me Mon?" There's still no responce, Monica seems dazed. "Monica! C'mon! I know you can talk! You spoke to Bertha earlier, now why won't you talk to me?" Andrea begins to get frustrated. "Why didn't i expect this? You've always been a brat! You're whole life! You've never cared about anyone but yourself! Monica! I know you can get better if you just tried! Now speak to me! Monica! Tell me if you want to come home with me!" Monica still sits there dazed. "Fine then! I guess we'll just have to put you back in that hospital! So they can do tests on you like a monkey!" Andrea stands up and begins walking towards the door. She stops and takes you look back at Monica then leaves. "She wouldn't say a word to me." she tells Bertha.
"But she spoke this morning." Bertha looks discouraged.
"What did she say this morning?" Dian askes from the couch.
"I came in as usual with her vitamins and said good morning and she said good morning back. I was so stunned i asked her what she said and she said it again 'good morning'. I asked her if she wanted breakfast and she said 'no'."
"Oh, Bertha, i just don't know what to do. Why won't she talk to me?" Andrea sits next to Dian on the couch.
"It's okay Andrea, i'm sure she'll talk eventually." Dian tried to comfort her.
"Let me go try one more time." Andrea gets up again and walks into Monica's room. "Monica talk to me, please." Monica just looks at her. Andrea sits down again next to her sister and looks back at Monica. "Monica, why?" Andrea covers her face with her hands on the verge of tears.
"Because you think I'm crazy." Monica whispers. Andrea looks up
"What did you just say?" Andrea looks at her.
"You think i'm crazy" Monica whispers again. Andrea jumps up.
"You spoke! You did is Mon! Oh my god!" Monica just looks down from her sister's excitement. "Monica, no, i don't think your crazy. Why would i think your crazy?" Monica just looks at her sister.
"I just want to go home."
"Okay! Okay! We'll take you home! I'll go tell Nurse Bertha! And we'll go home!" Andrea runs out of the room to tell Bertha and Dian the good news. "She spoke to me! She wants to go home! So i'm taking her home!"
"I'll go get her dressed and packed." Bertha walks down the hall way.
"She talked to me! I haven't heard my sisters voice in 3 years! And she spoke!" Andrea is estatic.
"That's great! I'm so happy for you."

Once Andrea get Monica back home she shows her to her room. As they go to the door Andrea explains a few things to her.
"I sorta rearanged your room. Just a little redecorating. I hope you like it." Then she opens the door and Monica walks into her room again for the first time in 3 years. She stars at everything, she just looks around the room. "Well, do you like it?"
"What room do you stay in?" Monica asks.
"Well, I...I took...uh...Mom's room." Andrea looks down as Monica looks around the room.
"I like it. It's beautiful."
"I thought you would. I knew how much you like purple and stars. So, I just...yeah."
"It's very nice." As Monica looks around her room more Andrea slips back into the kitchen to Dian.
"She loves it! Thaks a lot for helping me decorate it."
"Oh, no problem, what are friends for? Well, i better get going. You guys need bonding time, and i really gotta get home. I'll see you later. Oh, are you coming into work tomorrow?"
"Probably not. I need to get her all situated."
"Okay, well i'll call you tomorrow to see if you need anything and to check how things are going." They hug and Andrea walks Dian to the door. Then Andrea walks back to Monica.
"So, are you hungry?" Andrea stands in the door way.
"Not really. Oh god Andrea, what have i missed out on? 3 years, they seemed to go by so quick jumping from hospitals and houses. What was mom's funeral like?"
"It was just like mom, beautiful. She would've loved it. There were Lily's and yellow roses every where. People thought i was nuts having yellow roses at a funeral, but mom just loved them so much. I tried keeping up her garden, but you guys always had the green thumb, not me."
"What happen to all my baby stuff?"
"C'mon, you don't want to think about all that now...why don't i get you something to eat? We can catch up on better things."
"Listen Andrea, I've had 3 years to think about all these things, I want to know them now, where is all my baby stuff?"
"I took out a storage unit for you. I put all your old stuff in there, i didn't know what you wanted to do with it, so i just put it aside for you." Monica stood up and looked in the mirror side ways, touching her stomach.
"My little Nicholas." Suddenly Monica's composure is not so strong. She breaks down in tears and sits on the bed, Andrea sits next to her and hugs her.
"It's okay Mon, I told you, don't think about all that now. It all takes time, i mean, you just barley started talking today."

okie...i think i'll write up my real script now...

2 hardships| A funeral and break up afternoon

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