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[09 Nov 2005|08:49pm] |
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i'm so glad i put all that in my blurty...cuz i had forgotten how great things were when we first started talking again...when i got excited over beef jerky...remembering how innocent our first "date" thing was...mini golf..."glow in the dark style"...and my innocent ass sweat shirt...lol...all pink...i'll never forget how i was dazed when i first say you...cuz i was hella surprised...and how you kept staring at me...i loved every second of it...i might of said i didn't want you to look at me...but in reality i didn't want you to take your eyes off me...and i just wanted to stare back at you...not even so much as a hug that first night...i don't know if it makes me cry right now, cuz how cute it is, or how much i miss you, or what...but i can't keep the tears away when i think how great things were...how i could just fucking listen to you for hours...haha!...or how you told me "yeah, i don't really like talking on the phone." and our first phone conversation was like 5 hours...literally...and i think the only reason we hung up was cuz the sun was like coming up and i was afraid to get caugh on the phone...things were so fucking cute that first time...those first times for everything...or...oh god...when we were walking out of the movies...of....uhh...what was it?...either Mr. and Mrs. Smith, or War of the worlds...and as we were walking out you took me into your arms...lifted me off the ground and kissed me...i'll never be able to forget that...
Like I don't know about you but I don't look as you as someone I just want to date for a month. I don't want to think about marriage or anything that serious but I want it to last as long as it can. And rushing would be bad in this case imo
what happend to that? we did rush into marriage and kids and all that shit...but that's just cuz i was so sure...i wanna say "we" were sure...but i guess i can't really talk for the both of us...but i don't get it...you still tell me you love me...you still say it...as if that part of it hasn't changed...yet you now talk about how you're too young...and you don't want to be with anyone...i'm too young too...shit even younger than you...and i know why i want to be with for the rest of my life...and right now...i couldn't care less about a thing...fuck the air force...fuck my future...it doesn't mean shit to me if your not in it...and i know you use to think the same way about me...i just wish i could tell you these things...all my feelings...just have the right words flow out of my mouth...but, no, i barely got over feeling sick when i talk to you cuz i get so nervouse...part of me is still sure it will work out...and for not that's gonna have to be good enough for me...
i just love the way you talk
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Will you miss me
in the night
Will your arms reach out to hold me tight
Will your keep me in your dreams?
in your heart?
in your life?
Sometimes I wanna run to you
Like lovers do
When love is new
just for a moment be close to you
pretending I'm still holding you.
And even when I'm far away
in dreams we'll stay
and someday
after we've all chased our fantasies
love will bring you back to me
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| you know that wet stuff...that comes out of your eyes? |
[09 Nov 2005|09:18pm] |
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I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
'Cause I didn't know you
'Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby
[Chorus:]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody there
We belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby
[Chorus]
[Repeat chorus]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody else
We belong together
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